"You cannot forgive my rudeness?"
"The act of incivility was very slight; but, my young friend, the unaccountable perversity of your character certainly fills my mind with serious apprehension concerning your future. Of course, I can very readily forgive the occasion that displayed it, but I cannot entirely forget the spirit that distresses me when I least expect it."
"If you will dismiss this afternoon from your mind, I will never--"
"Stop! Make me no more promises till you are strong enough to keep them inviolate. Promise less and pray more; I am not angry, but I am disappointed."
She drooped her head to avoid his grave, sad gaze, and for a moment there was silence.
"Dr. Grey, will you shake hands with me, in token of pardon?"
"Certainly, if you wish it."
He took her hand in both of his, pressed it kindly, and said, in a low, solemn tone,--
"Good-night, Salome. May G.o.d guide, and strengthen, and help you to be the n.o.ble woman, the consistent Christian, which only His grace and blessing can ever enable you to become. Remember the cheering words of Jean Paul Richter, "Evil is like the nightmare, the instant you bestir yourself it has already ended.""
CHAPTER XIII.
"Ulpian, have you had any conversation with Salome?"
"Upon what subject?"
"Have you talked with her concerning her studies?"
"Not recently. Soon after Muriel and Miss Dexter came, I mentioned to her the fact that I should be glad to see her enter a cla.s.s with Muriel and pursue the same studies, and that such an arrangement would be entirely agreeable to Miss Dexter; but she declined the proposition, saying she would only trouble the latter to teach her Italian. Do you know why she is so anxious to acquire that language?"
"No; to tell you the truth, I know less and less every day about her actions, for the child has suddenly grown very reserved. This morning she was walking up and down the library with her hands behind her and her eyes looking as if they were travelling to Jericho or Jeddo, and when I asked her why she was so unusually silent, she snapped like a toy-torpedo, "I am silent because this is one of my wicked days, and I am fighting the devil; and if I open my lips I shall say something that will give him the victory." I held out my hand to her and begged her to come and sit by me and tell me what troubled or tempted her,--and what do you suppose she said?"
"Something, I am afraid, that I shall be sorry to hear you repeat."
"She laid her hand on her heart and answered, "You are very good, Miss Jane, but you can no more help me than the disciples could relieve that wretch whom only Christ healed." "_This kind goeth not out but by prayer and fasting._" Whereupon, she s.n.a.t.c.hed a book from the table and left the room. I did not see her for several hours, and when I met her in the hall, a few moments since, I said, "Well, dear, which won the victory, sin or my little girl?" She put her hands on my shoulders, laughed bitterly, and answered, "It was a drawn battle.
Neither has much to boast of, and we lie on our arms watching--nay, glaring at each other. Let me be quiet a little while, and don"t ask me about it.""
"Can you conjecture the cause of the present trouble?"
"I have a suspicion."
Miss Jane paused, sighed, and frowned.
"I should think you might persuade her to confide in you."
"Pooh! Persuade her? I would quite as soon undertake to persuade the Andes to dance a jig as attempt to discover what she has determined not to divulge. If you knew her as well as I do, you would appreciate the uselessness of trying to persuade her to do anything. But you men never see what lies right under your noses, and I believe if you lived in the same house with that child for five years longer you would understand her as little as you do to-day. Ulpian, shut the door, and sit down here close to me."
Dr. Grey complied; and, laying her shrunken hand on her brother"s knee, Miss Jane said, hesitatingly,--
"My dear boy, I don"t know whether I ought to tell you, and, indeed, I do not see my way clearly; but you seem so unsuspecting that I think it is my duty to talk to you."
"Pray come to the point, dear Janet. Your exordium is very tantalizing.
Tell me frankly what disturbs you."
"It pains me to call your attention to a fact that I know cannot fail to produce annoyance."
He put his arm around her, and, drawing her head to his shoulder, answered, tenderly,--
"My precious sister, I have seen for some days that you were perplexed and anxious, but I abstained from questioning you because I felt a.s.sured whenever you deemed it best to confide in me, you would voluntarily unburden your heart. Now lay all your troubles upon me, and keep back nothing. Has Salome grieved you?"
"Oh, the child does not intend to grieve me! Ulpian, can"t you imagine what makes her unhappy, and restless, and contrary?"
"She is very wayward, pa.s.sionate, and obstinate, and any restraint upon her whims is peculiarly irksome and intolerable to her; but I believe she is really striving to correct the unfortunate defects in her character. She evidently dislikes our guests, and this proves a continual source of disquiet to her; for, while she endeavors to treat them courteously, I can see that she would be excessively rude if she dared to indulge her antipathies."
"Do you know why she dislikes Muriel so intensely?"
"No; I cannot even conjecture. Muriel is very amiable and affectionate, and seems disposed to become very fond of Salome, if she would only encourage her advances. Can you explain the mystery?"
"If you were not as blind as a mole, or the fish in Mammoth Cave, you would see that Salome is insanely jealous of your affection for your ward, and that is the cause of all the trouble."
"It is unreasonable and absurd in her to entertain such feelings; and, moreover, she has no right to cherish any jealousy towards my ward."
"Unreasonable! Yes, quite true; but did you ever know a woman to be very reasonable concerning the man she loves?"
Dr. Grey"s quiet face flushed, and he rose instantly, looking incredulous and embarra.s.sed.
"Surely, my dear sister, you do not intend to insinuate, or desire me to infer, that Salome has any--"
He paused, bit his lip, and walked to the window.
"I mean to say, in plain Anglo-Saxon, and I desire you to understand, that Salome is no longer a child; and that she loves you, my dear boy, better than she will ever love any other human being. These things are very strange, indeed, and girls" whims baffle all rules and disappoint all reasonable expectations; but, nevertheless, it does no good to shut your eyes to facts that are as clear as daylight. It is not a sudden freak that has seized the poor child; it has grown upon her, almost without her understanding herself; but I discovered it the day that you left home so unexpectedly for New York. Her distress betrayed her real feelings; and, since then, I have watched her, and can see how completely her thoughts centre in you."
"Oh, Janet, I hope you mistake her! I cannot believe it possible, for I recall nothing in her conduct that justifies your supposition; and I do not think I lack penetration. If she were really interested in me, as you imagine, she certainly would not thrust so prominently and constantly before me faults of character which she well knows I cannot tolerate. Moreover, my dear sister, consider the disparity in our years, the incompatibility of our tastes and habits, and the improbability that a handsome young girl should cherish any feeling stronger than esteem or friendship for a staid man of my age! No, no; it is too incredible to be entertained, and I am sorry you ever suggested such an annoying chimera to me. Salome is rather a singular compound, I willingly admit, but I acquit her of the folly you seem inclined to impute to her."
Dr. Grey walked up and down the library floor, and, as his sister watched him, a sad smile trembled over her thin, wrinkled face.
"Ulpian, you are considerably younger than our poor father was when he married a beautiful creature not one month older than Salome is to-day. Will you sit in judgment on your own young mother?"
"Nay, Janet; the parallelism is not as apparent as you imagine, for my manner toward Salome has been calculated to check and chill any sentiment a.n.a.logous to that which my father sought to win from my mother. Pray, do not press upon me a surmise which is indescribably painful to me."
He resumed his seat, and, thrusting his fingers through his hair, leaned his head on his open hand.
"My dear boy, if true, why should it prove indescribably painful to you?"
"Cannot your womanly intuitions spare me an explicit reply?"
"No; speak frankly to me."