"Who said she was attractive? She is handsome, and there is something peculiar and startling about her, but she is by no means a beauty. I have heard Dr. Grey say that she possessed remarkable talent, but I have been favored with no exhibition of it. Why do you not question your brother? Doubtless it would afford him much pleasure to furnish an inventory of her charms and accomplishments, and dilate upon them _ad libitum_."
"What makes you so savage?"
"Simply because there happens to be a touch of the wild beast in my nature, and I have not a doubt that if the doctrine of metempsychosis be true, I was a tawny dappled leopardess or a green-eyed cougar in the last stage of my existence. Miss Jane, sometimes I feel as if it would be a luxury--a relief--to crunch and strangle something or somebody,--which is not an approved trait of orthodox Christian character, to say nothing of meek gentility and lady-like refinement."
She laughed with a degree of indescribable scorn and bitterness that was pitiable indeed in one so young.
"There is an evil fit on Saul."
"Yes; and you are neither my harp nor my David."
"Does my little girl expect to find a "cunning player," who will charm away all the barbarous notions that occasionally lead her astray, and tempt her to wickedness?"
"Verily,--no. The son of Jesse has forsaken his own household, and made unto himself an idol elsewhere; and I--Saul--surrender to Asmodeus."
Miss Jane laid her hand on the girl"s arm, and said, in a hesitating, troubled manner,--
"Has Ulpian told you?"
"Why should he tell me? My eyes sometimes take pity on my ears,--and seeing very distinctly, save the necessity of hearing. My vision is quite as keen now as when in my anterior existence, I crouched in jungles, watching for my prey. Oh, Miss Jane! if you could look here, and know all that I have suffered during the past three weeks, you would not wonder that the tiger element within me swallows up every other feeling."
She struck her hand heavily upon her heart, and the old lady was frightened and distressed by the glitter of the eyes and the dilation of the slender nostrils.
"When I came in, I knew from your countenance that you had heard something which you desired to prepare me for,--which you intended to break gently to me. But your kindness is unavailing. The truth crashed in on my heart without premonition; and I saw, and understood, and accepted the inevitable; and since then,--ah, my G.o.d! since then--"
Her head drooped upon her bosom, and a groan concluded the sentence.
"Perhaps Ulpian only pities the poor woman"s desolation, and will lose his interest in her when she recovers her health. You know how tenderly he sympathizes with all who suffer, and I dare say it is more compa.s.sion than love."
"What hypocrites we often are, in our desire to comfort those whom we see in agony! Miss Jane, your kind heart is holding a hand over the mouth of conscience, to smother its cries and protests while you utter things in which you know there is no truth. You mean well; but you ought to know better than to expect to deceive me. I understand the difference between love and compa.s.sion, and so do you; and Dr. Grey has not kept the truth from you. He has given his heart to that gray-haired, gray-eyed woman,--and if she lives, he will marry her; and then, if there were twenty oceans, I should want them all to roll between us. I tell you now, I can not and will not stay here to see the day that makes that pale gray phantom his wife. I should go mad, and do something that might add new horrors to that doomed and abhorred "Solitude," that has become Dr. Grey"s Mecca. I could live without his love, but I can not stand tamely by and see him lavish it on another. Some women,--such, for instance, as we read of in novels, would meekly endure this trial, as one appointed by Heaven to wean them from earth; would fold their hands, and grow devout, and romantically thin and wan,--and get sweet, patient, martyr expressions about their unkissed lips; but I am in no respect a model heroine, and it will prove safer for us all if I am far away when Dr. Grey brings his bride to receive your sisterly embrace. If you are lonely, send for Muriel and Miss Dexter, and let them entertain you. Just now, I am not fit company for any but the dwellers in Padalon; so let me go away where I can be quiet."
"Stay, Salome! Where are you going?"
"To walk."
The orphan disengaged her dress from Miss Jane"s fingers, which had clutched its folds to detain her, and made her escape just as Muriel tapped at the door.
During the three weeks that had elapsed since Elsie"s death Mrs.
Gerome had not left the house, and the third day after the funeral she laid her head down on the pillow from which it seemed probable she would never again lift it.
A low steady fever seized her, and at length her brain became so seriously affected that all hope of recovery appeared futile and delusive. In the early stages of her illness, Dr. Grey requested Salome to a.s.sist him in nursing her, but the girl dared not trust herself to witness the manifestations of an affection that nearly maddened her, and had almost rudely refused compliance.
As the days wore drearily on, and Dr. Grey"s haggard, anxious countenance, told her that her rival was indeed upon the brink of dissolution, a wild hope whispered that perhaps she might be spared the fierce ordeal she so much dreaded; that if Mrs. Gerome died, the future might brighten,--life would be endurable. In her wonted impulsive manner, the girl had thrown herself on her knees, and pa.s.sionately prayed the Almighty to remove from earth the one woman who proved an obstacle to all her hopes of peace and contentment.
She did not pause to inquire whether her pet.i.tion was not an insult to Him who alone could grant it; she neither a.n.a.lyzed, nor felt self-rebuked for her sinful emotions and intense hatred of the sick woman,--but vowed repeatedly that she would lead a purer, holier life, if G.o.d would only interpose and prevent Dr. Grey from becoming the husband of any one.
She had no faith in the superior wisdom of her Maker, and would not wait patiently for the developments of His divine will toward her; but chose her own destiny, and demanded that Omnipotence should become an ally for its accomplishment. Like many who are less honest in confessing their faith, this girl professed allegiance to her Creator only so long as He appeared a coadjutor in her schemes; and, when thwarted and disappointed, fierce rebellion broke out in her heart, and annulled her oaths of fealty and obedience.
Dr. Grey was not ignorant of the emotions that swayed and controlled her conduct, and when she declared herself ready to attend the invalid, he was thoroughly cognizant of the fact that she longed to witness the death which she deemed impending; and he could not consent to see her eager eyes watching the feeble breathing of the woman whom he now loved so fervently.
While he believed that in most matters Salome would not deceive him, he realized that in one of her pa.s.sionate moods of jealous hate, irremediable mischief might result, and prudently resolved to keep her beyond the pale of temptation.
It was almost dark when he reached the secluded house where he had pa.s.sed so many days and nights of anxiety, and went into the quiet room in which only a dim light was permitted to burn. Katie was sitting near the bed, but rose at his approach, and softly withdrew.
Emaciated and ghastly, save where two scarlet spots burned on the hollow cheeks, Mrs. Gerome lay, with her wasted arms thrown over her head, and her eyes fixed on vacancy. Even when delirium was at its height she yielded to the physician"s voice and touch, like some wild creature who recognizes no control save that of its keeper; and from his hand alone would she take the medicines administered.
Whether the influence was merely magnetic, he did not inquire, but felt comforted by the a.s.surance that his presence had power to tranquillize her.
Now, as he drew her arms down from the pillow, and took her thin hot hand in his cool palms, a shadowy smile stole over her features, and she fixed her eyes intently on his.
"I knew you would protect me from him."
"Protect you from whom?"
"From Maurice. He is hiding yonder,--behind the window-curtain."
She pointed across the room, and a scowl darkened her countenance.
"You have only been dreaming."
"No, I am awake; and if you look behind the curtain you will find him.
His eyes are burning my face."
Willing to dispel this fantasy, Dr. Grey went to the window, and, drawing aside the lace drapery, showed her the vacant recess.
"Ah, he has escaped! Well, perhaps it is better so, and there will be no blood shed. Let him go back to Edith,--"golden-haired Edith Dexter,"--and live out the remnant of his days. He came hoping to find me dead, but I am not as accommodating now as formerly. Where are those violets? Tell Elsie to bring the jars in, where I can smell them."
He took a bunch of the fragrant flowers from his coat pocket, and put them in her hand, for during her illness she was never satisfied unless there was a bouquet near her; and now, having feebly smelled them, her eyes closed.
More than once she had mentioned the name of Edith Dexter, always coupling it with that of Maurice, who she evidently believed was lurking with evil purposes around her home; and Dr. Grey was sorely perplexed to follow the thread that now and then appeared, but failed to guide him to any satisfactory solution of the mystery. He knew that since she made "Solitude" her place of residence, Mrs. Gerome had never met Muriel"s governess, and he conjectured that she had either known her in earlier years or now alluded to another person bearing the same name. Miss Dexter was very fair, with a profusion of light yellow hair, and suited in all respects the incoherent description that fell from the sick woman"s lips.
While at home for a short time that afternoon, Dr. Grey had spoken of the dangerous condition of his patient, and asked the governess if she had ever seen or known Mrs. Gerome. Without hesitation, Edith Dexter quietly replied in the negative.
Formerly he had indulged little curiosity with reference to the widow"s history, but since she had become endeared to him, he was conscious of an earnest desire to possess himself of a record of all that had so darkened and chilled the life of the only woman he had ever loved.
Once she had been merely an interesting psychological puzzle, and in some degree a physiological anomaly: but from the day of Elsie"s death, his heart had yielded more and more to the strange fascination she exerted over him; and now, as he sat looking into her face, so mournfully sharpened and blanched by disease, he acknowledged to his own soul that if she should die the brightest and dearest hopes that ever gladdened his life would be buried in her grave.
Thoroughly convinced that his happiness depended on her recovery, he prayed continually that if consistent with G.o.d"s will, He would spare her to him, and save him from the anguish of a lonely life, which her love might bless and brighten.
But above the pet.i.tion,--above all the strife of human love, and hope, and fear,--rose silvery clear, "Nevertheless, Father, not my will, but Thine."
During his long vigils he had allowed imagination to paint beautiful pictures of the To-Come, wherein shone the figure of a lovely wife whose heart was divided only between G.o.d and her husband,--whose life was consecrated first to Christ, secondly to promoting the happiness of the man who loved her so truly.
The apprehension of losing her was rendered still more acute by the reflection that her soul was not prepared for its exit from the realm of probation, and the thought of a separation that would extend through endless aeons, was well-nigh intolerable.
If she survived this attack, he believed that his influence would redeem and sanctify her life; if she died, would G.o.d have mercy on her wretched soul?
His faith in Providence was no jagged, quivering reed, but a strong, staunch, firm staff that had never yet failed him, and in this hour of severe trial he leaned his aching heart confidently and calmly upon it.