CHAPTER XXV.
"Doctor Grey, sister says she wants to see you, before you go to town."
Jessie Owen came softly up to the table where Dr. Grey sat writing, and stood with her hand on his knee.
"Very well. Tell sister I will come to her as soon as I finish this letter. Where is she?"
"In the library."
"In ten minutes I shall be at leisure."
He found Salome with a piece of sewing in her hand, and her young sister leaning on her lap, chattering merrily about a nest full of eggs which she and Stanley had found that morning in a corner of the orchard; while the latter swung on the back of her chair, winding over his finger a short curl that lay on her neck. It was a pleasant, peaceful, homelike picture, worthy of Eastman Johnson"s brush, and for thirty years such a group had not been seen in that quiet old library.
Dr. Grey paused at the threshold, to admire the graceful pose of Jessie"s fairy figure,--the lazy nonchalance of Stanley"s posture,--and the finely shaped head that rose above both, like some stately lily, surrounded by cl.u.s.tering croci; but Salome was listening for his footsteps, and turned her head at his entrance.
"Stanley, take Jessie up to my room, and show her your Chinese puzzle.
When I want either or both of you, I will call you. Close the door after you, and mind that you do not get to romping, and shake the house down."
"How very pretty Jessie has grown during the last year. Her complexion has lost its muddy tinge, and is almost waxen," said the doctor, when the children had left the room and scampered up stairs.
"She is a very sweet-tempered and affectionate little thing, but I never considered her pretty. She is too much like her father."
"Salome, death veils all blemishes."
"That depends very much on the character of the survivors; but we will not discuss abstract propositions,--especially since I have resolved to follow the old oriental maxim,--
"Leave ancestry behind, despise heraldic art, Thy father be thy mind, thy mother be thy heart.
Dead names concern not thee, bid foreign t.i.tles wait; Thy deeds thy pedigree, thy hopes thy rich estate!"
Dr. Grey, the week has ended, and I took the liberty of reminding you of the fact, as I am anxious to acquaint you with my purposes for the future."
He drew a chair near hers, and seated himself.
"Well, Salome, I hope that reflection has changed your views, and taught you the wisdom of my sister"s course with reference to yourself."
"On the contrary, the season of deliberation you forced upon me has only strengthened and intensified my desire to carry into execution the project I have so long dreamed of; and to-day I am more than ever firmly resolved to follow, at all hazards, the dictates of my own judgment, no matter with whose opinions or wishes they may conflict."
She expected that he would expostulate, and plead against her decision, but he merely bowed, and remained silent.
"My object in asking this interview was to ascertain how soon it would be convenient for you to place in my hands the legacy of one thousand dollars which was bequeathed to me on condition that I went upon the stage; and also to inquire what you intend to do with the children, of whom Miss Jane"s will const.i.tutes you the guardian?"
"You wish me to understand that you are determined to defy the wishes of your best friend, and take a step which distressed her beyond expression?"
"I shall certainly go upon the stage."
"I have no alternative but to accept your decision, which you are well aware I regard as exceedingly deplorable. The money can be paid to you to-morrow, if you desire it. Hoping that you would abandon this freak, I had intended to keep the children here, under your supervision, while I removed to my house in town, and left their tuition to Miss Dexter; but since you have decided otherwise, I shall remain here for the present, keeping them with me, at least until after Muriel"s marriage. The income from this farm averages two thousand dollars a year, and will not only amply provide for their wants and education, but will enable me to lay aside annually a portion of that amount.
When Muriel marries, Miss Dexter may not be willing to remain here, and if she leaves us I shall endeavor to find as worthy and reliable a subst.i.tute. Have you any objection to this arrangement?"
"I have no right to utter any, since you are the legal guardian of the children. But contingencies might arise for which it seems you have not provided."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that I can trust Jessie and Stanley to you, but when you are married I prefer that they should find another home; or, if need be, Jessie can come to me."
An angry flush dyed Dr. Grey"s olive face, and kindled a fiery gleam in his usually mild, clear, blue eyes, but looking at the girl"s compressed and trembling lips, and noting the underlying misery which her defiant expression could not cover, his displeasure gave place to profound compa.s.sion.
"Salome, dismiss that cause of anxiety from your mind, and trust the a.s.surance I offer you now,--that when I marry, my wife will be worthy to a.s.sist me in guiding and governing my wards."
She was prepared to hear him retort that the career she had chosen would render her an unsuitable counsellor for little Jessie; and conscious that she had deeply wounded him, his calm reply was the sharpest rebuke he could possibly have administered.
"Dr. Grey, I have no extraordinary amount of tenderness for the children, because they are indissolubly a.s.sociated with that period of my life to which I never recur without pain and humiliation that you can not possibly realize or comprehend; still, I am not exactly a brute, and I do not wish them to be trained to regard me as a Pariah, or to be told that I have forfeited their respect and affection. When I am gone, let them think kindly of me."
"Your request is a reflection upon my friendship, and is so exceedingly unjust that I am surprised and pained; but let that pa.s.s.
I am sure I need not tell you that your wishes shall be complied with.
I have often thought that after Stanley completed his studies, I would take him into my office, and teach him my own profession. Have you any objection to this scheme?"
"No, sir. I am willing to trust him implicitly to you. He has one terrible fault which I have been trying to correct, and which I hope you will not lose sight of. The boy seems const.i.tutionally addicted to telling stories, and prefers falsehood to truth. I have punished him repeatedly for this habit, and you must, if possible, save him from the pauper vice of lying, which is peculiarly detestable to me. I know less of the little one"s character, but believe that she is not afflicted with this evil tendency."
"Stanley"s fault has not escaped me, and two days ago I was obliged to punish him for a gross violation of the truth; but as he grows older, I trust he will correct this defect, and I shall faithfully endeavor to show him its enormity. Is there anything else you wish to say to me about the children? I will very gladly hear any suggestions you can offer."
"No, sir. I have governed myself so badly, that it ill becomes me to dictate to you how they should be trained. G.o.d knows, I am heartily glad they were mercifully thrown into your hands; and if you can only make Stanley Owen such a man as you are, the old blot on the name may be effaced. From Mark and Joel I have not heard for several months, and presume they will be st.u.r.dy but unlettered mechanics. If I succeed, I shall interfere and send them to school; otherwise, they must take the chances for letters and a livelihood."
"Salome, you are bartering life-long peace and happiness for the momentary gratification of a whim, prompted solely by vanity. How worthless are the brief hollow plaudits of the world (which will regard you merely as the toy of an hour), in comparison with the affection and society of your own family? Here, in your home, how useful, how contented you might be!"
Her only reply was a hasty, imperious wave of the hand, and a long silence followed.
In the bright morning light that streamed in through the tendrils of honeysuckle clambering around the window, Dr. Grey looked searchingly at the orphan, and could scarcely realize that this pale, proud, pain-stricken face, was the same rosy round one, fair and fearless, that had first met his gaze under the pearly apple-blossoms.
Then, pink flesh, hazel eyes, vermillioned lips, and glossy hair had preferred incontestable claims to beauty; now, an artist would have curiously traced the fine lines and curves daintily drawn about eyes, brow and mouth, by the stylus of care, of hopelessness, of wild bursts of pa.s.sion. Her figure retained its rounded symmetry, but the countenance traitorously revealed the struggles, the bitter disappointments, the vindictive jealousy, and rudely-smitten and blasted hopes, that had robbed her days of peace and her nights of sleep.
Until this moment, Dr. Grey had not fully appreciated the change that had been wrought by two tedious years, and as he scrutinized the sadly sharpened and shadowed features, a painful feeling of humiliation and almost of self-reproach sprang from the consciousness that his inability to reciprocate her devoted love had brought down this premature blight upon a young and whilom happy, careless girl,--transforming her into a reckless, hardened, hopeless woman.
While his inexorable conscience fully exonerated him from censure, his generous heart ached in sympathy for hers, and his chivalric tenderness for all things weaker than himself, bled at the reflection that he had been unintentionally instrumental in darkening a woman"s life.
But hope,--beautiful, blue-eyed, sunny-browed hope,--whispered that this was a fleeting youthful fancy; and that absence and time would dispel the temporary gloom that now lay on her heart, like some dense cold vapor which would grow silvery, and melt in morning sunshine.
Under his steady gaze the blood rose slowly to its old signal-station on her cheeks, and she put up one hand to shield its scarlet banners.
"Salome, will you tell me when and where you intend to go? Since you have resolved to leave us, I desire to know in what way I can aid you, or contribute to the comfort of the journey you contemplate."
"From the last letter of Professor V----, declining your proposal that he should come here and instruct me, I learn that within the ensuing ten days he will sail for Havre, _en route_ to Italy, where he intends spending the winter. If possible, I wish to reach New York before his departure, and to accompany him. The thousand dollars will defray my expenses until I have completed my musical training, which will fit me for the stage, and insure an early engagement in some operatic company. Knowing your high estimate of Professor V----, both as a gentleman and as a musician, I am exceedingly anxious to place myself under his protection; especially since his wife and children will meet him at Paris, and go on to Naples. Are you willing to give me a letter of introduction, commending me to his favorable consideration?"
The hesitating timidity with which this request was uttered, touched him more painfully than aught that had ever pa.s.sed between them.