Lucy fought and fought against it, but always at the back of her mind was the thought, not looked at, slunk away from, but nevertheless fixed, that there at The Willows, waiting for her, was Vera.
XVI
Those who go to Strorley, and cross the bridge to the other side of the river, have only to follow the towpath for a little to come to The Willows. It can also be reached by road, through a white gate down a lane that grows more and more willowy as it gets nearer the river and the house, but is quite pa.s.sable for carts and even for cars, except when there are floods. When there are floods this lane disappears, and when the floods have subsided it is black and oozing for a long time afterwards, with clouds of tiny flies dancing about in it if the weather is at all warm, and the shoes of those who walk stick in it and come off, and those who drive, especially if they drive a car, have trouble.
But all is well once a second white gate is reached, on the other side of which is a gravel sweep, a variety of handsome shrubs, nicely kept lawns, and The Willows. There are no big trees in the garden of The Willows, because it was built in the middle of meadows where there weren"t any, but all round the iron railings of the square garden--the house being the centre of the square--and concealing the wire netting which keeps the pasturing cows from thrusting their heads through and eating the shrubs, is a fringe of willows. Hence its name.
"A house," said Wemyss, explaining its name to Lucy on the morning of their arrival, "should always be named after whatever most insistently catches the eye."
"Then oughtn"t it to have been called The Cows?" asked Lucy; for the meadows round were strewn thickly as far as she could see with rec.u.mbent cows, and they caught her eye much more than the tossing bare willow branches.
"No," said Wemyss, annoyed. "It ought not have been called The Cows."
"No--of course I didn"t mean that," she said hastily.
Lucy was nervous, and said what first came into her head, and had been saying things of this nature the whole journey down. She didn"t want to, she knew he didn"t like it, but she couldn"t stop.
They had just arrived, and were standing on the front steps while the servants unloaded the fly that had brought them from the station, and Wemyss was pointing out what he wished her to look at and admire from that raised-up place before taking her indoors. Lucy was glad of any excuse that delayed going indoors, that kept her on the west side of the house, furthest away from the terrace and the library window. Indoors would be the rooms, the unaltered rooms, the library past whose window..., the sitting-room at the top of the house out of whose window..., the bedroom she was going to sleep in with the very bed....
It was too miserably absurd, too unbalanced of her for anything but shame and self-contempt, how she couldn"t get away from the feeling that indoors waiting for her would be Vera.
It was a grey, windy morning, with low clouds scurrying across the meadows. The house was raised well above flood level, and standing on the top step she could see how far the meadows stretched beyond the swaying willow hedge. Grey sky, grey water, green fields,--it was all grey and green except the house, which was red brick with handsome stone facings, and made, in its exposed position unhidden by any trees, a great splotch of vivid red in the landscape.
"Like blood," said Lucy to herself; and was immediately ashamed.
"Oh, how bracing!" she cried, spreading out her arms and letting the wind blow her serge wrap out behind her like a flag. It whipped her skirt round her body, showing its slender pretty lines, and the parlourmaid, going in and out with the luggage, looked curiously at this small juvenile new mistress. "Oh, I love this wind--don"t take me indoors yet----"
Wemyss was pleased that she should like the wind, for was it not by the time it reached his house part, too, of his property? His face, which had clouded a little because of The Cows, cleared again.
But she didn"t really like the wind at all, she never had liked anything that bl.u.s.tered and was cold, and if she hadn"t been nervous the last thing she would have done was to stand there letting it blow her to pieces.
"And what a lot of laurels!" she exclaimed, holding on her hat with one hand and with the other pointing to a corner filled with these shrubs.
"Yes. I"ll take you round the garden after lunch," said Wemyss. "We"ll go in now."
"And--and laurustinus. I love laurustinus----"
"Yes. Vera planted that. It has done very well. Come in now----"
"And--look, what are those bare things without any leaves yet?"
"I"ll show you everything after lunch, Lucy. Come in----" And he put his arm about her shoulders, and urged her through the door the maid was holding open with difficulty because of the wind.
There she was, then, actually inside The Willows. The door was shut behind her. She looked about her shrinkingly.
They were in a roomy place with a staircase in it.
"The hall," said Wemyss, standing still, his arm round her.
"Yes," said Lucy.
"Oak," said Wemyss.
"Yes," said Lucy.
He gazed round him with a sigh of satisfaction at having got back to it.
"All oak," he said. "You"ll find nothing gimcrack about _my_ house, little Love. Where are those flowers?" he added, turning sharply to the parlourmaid. "I don"t see my yellow flowers."
"They"re in the dining-room, sir," said the parlourmaid.
"Why aren"t they where I could see them the first thing?"
"I understood the orders were they were always to be on the breakfast-table, sir."
"Breakfast-table! When there isn"t any breakfast?"
"I understood----"
"I"m not interested in what you understood."
Lucy here nervously interrupted, for Everard sounded suddenly very angry, by exclaiming, "Antlers!" and waving her unpinned-down arm in the direction of the----
"Yes," said Wemyss, his attention called off the parlourmaid, gazing up at his walls with pride.
"What a lot," said Lucy.
"Aren"t there. I always said I"d have a hall with antlers in it, and I"ve got it." He hugged her close to his side. "And I"ve got you too,"
he said. "I always get what I"m determined to get."
"Did you shoot them all yourself?" asked Lucy, thinking the parlourmaid would take the opportunity to disappear, and a little surprised that she continued to stand there.
"What? The beasts they belonged to? Not I. If you want antlers the simple way is to go and buy them. Then you get them all at once, and not gradually. The hall was ready for them all at once, not gradually. I got these at Whiteley"s. Kiss me."
This sudden end to his remarks startled Lucy, and she repeated in her surprise--for there still stood the parlourmaid "Kiss you?"
"I haven"t had my birthday kiss yet."
"Why, the very first thing when you woke up----"
"Not my real birthday kiss in my own home."
She looked at the parlourmaid, who was quite frankly looking at her.
Well, if the parlourmaid didn"t mind, and Everard didn"t mind, why should she mind?
She lifted her face and kissed him; but she didn"t like kissing him or being kissed in public. What was the point of it? Kissing Everard was a great delight to her. A mixture of all sorts of wonderful sensations, and she loved to do it in different ways, tenderly, pa.s.sionately, lingeringly, dreamily, amusingly, solemnly; each kind in turn, or in varied combinations. But among her varied combinations there was nothing that included a parlourmaid. Consequently her kiss was of the sort that was to be expected, perfunctory and brief, whereupon Wemyss said, "Lucy----" in his hurt voice.