Chawner"s small glittering eyes were fixed on Paul menacingly as he managed to stammer that he did want to say something in private.
"Very well, I am going out to see a friend for an hour or so--when I come back I will hear you," and he left the room abruptly.
Chawner would very probably have pet.i.tioned to stay in that evening as well, had he had time and presence of mind to do so; as it was, he was obliged to go away and get ready for church, but when his preparations were made he came back to Paul, and leaning over him said with an unpleasant scowl, "If I get back in time, Bult.i.tude, we"ll see whether you baulk me quite so easily. If I come back and find you"ve done it--I shall take in that letter!"
"You may do what you please then," said Paul, in a high state of irritation, "I shall be well out of your reach by that time. Now have the goodness to take yourself off."
As he went, Mr. Bult.i.tude thought, "I never in all my life saw such a fellow as that, never! It would give me real pleasure to hire someone to kick him."
The evening pa.s.sed quietly; the boys left at home sat in their places, reading or pretending to read. Mr. Blinkhorn, left in charge of them, was at his table in the corner noting up his diary. Paul was free for a time to think over his position.
At first he was calm and triumphant; his dearest hopes, his long-wished-for opportunity of a fair and unprejudiced hearing, were at last to be fulfilled--Chawner was well out of the way for the best part of two hours--the Doctor was very unlikely to be detained nearly so long over one call; his one anxiety was lest he might not be able, after all, to explain himself in a thoroughly effective manner--he planned out a little scheme for doing this.
He must begin gradually of course, so as not to alarm the schoolmaster or raise doubts of his sincerity or, worse still, his sanity. Perhaps a slight glance at instances of extraordinary interventions of the supernatural from the earliest times, tending to show the extreme probability of their survival on rare occasions even to the present day, might be a prudent and cautious introduction to the subject--only he could not think of any, and, after all, it might weary the Doctor.
He would start somewhat in this manner: "You cannot, my dear sir, have failed to observe since our meeting this year, a certain difference in my manner and bearing"--one"s projected speeches are somehow generally couched in finer language than, when it comes to the point, the tongue can be prevailed upon to utter. Mr. Bult.i.tude learned this opening sentence by heart, he thought it taking and neat, the sort of thing to fix his hearer"s attention from the first.
After that he found it difficult to get any further; he knew himself that all he was about to describe was plain, unvarnished fact--but how would it strike a stranger"s ear? He found himself seeking ways in which to tone down the glaring improbability of the thing as much as possible, but in vain; "I don"t know how I shall ever get it all out," he told himself at last; "if I think about it much longer I shall begin to disbelieve in it myself."
Here Biddlecomb came up in a confidential manner and sat down by Paul; "d.i.c.k," he began, in rather a trembling voice, "did I hear the Doctor say something about your having something to tell him?"
"Oh Lord, here"s another of them now!" thought Paul. "You are right, young sir," he said: "have you any objection? mention it, you know, if you have, pray mention it. It"s a matter of life and death to me, but if you at all disapprove, of course that ought to be final!"
"No, but," protested Biddlecomb, "I, I daresay I"ve not treated you very well lately, I----"
"You were kind enough to suggest several very uncommonly unpleasant ways of annoying me, sir," said Paul resentfully, "if you mean that. You"ve kicked me more than once, and your handkerchief, unless I am very much mistaken, had the biggest and the hardest knot in it yesterday. If that gives you the right to interfere and dictate to me now, like your amiable friend, Master Chawner, I suppose you have it."
"Now you"re angry," said Biddlecomb humbly; "I don"t wonder at it. I"ve behaved like a cad, I know, but, and this is what I wanted to say, I was sorry for you all the time."
"That"s very comforting," said Paul drily; "thank you. I"m vastly obliged to you."
"I was, though," said Biddlecomb. "I, I was led away by the other fellows--I always liked you, you know, Bult.i.tude."
"You"ve a very odd way of showing your affection," remarked Mr.
Bult.i.tude; "but go on, let me hear all you have to say."
"It isn"t much," said Biddlecomb, quite broken down; "only don"t sneak of me this time, d.i.c.k, let me off, there"s a good fellow. I"ll stick up for you after this, I will really. You used not to be a fellow for sneaking once. It"s caddish to sneak!"
"Don"t be alarmed, my good friend," said Paul; "I won"t poach on that excellent young man Chawner"s preserves. What I am going to tell the Doctor has nothing to do with you."
"On your honour?" said Biddlecomb eagerly.
"Yes," said Paul testily, "on my honour. Now, perhaps, you"ll let me alone. No, I won"t shake hands, sir. I"ve had to accept your kicks, but I don"t want your friendship."
Biddlecomb went off, looking slightly ashamed of himself but visibly relieved from a haunting fear. "Thank goodness!" thought Paul, "he wasn"t as obstinate as the other fellow. What a set they are! I knew it, there"s another boy coming up now!"
And indeed one boy after another came up in the same way as Biddlecomb had done, some cringing more than others, but all vowing that they had never intended to do any harm, and entreating him to change his mind about complaining of his ill-treatment. They brought little offerings to propitiate him and prove the depth of their unaltered regard--pencil-cases and pocket-knives, and so forth, until they drove Paul nearly to desperation. However, he succeeded in dispelling their fears after some hot arguments, and had just sent away the last suppliant, when he saw Jolland too rise and come towards him.
Jolland leaned across Paul"s desk with folded arms and looked him full in the face with his shallow light green eyes. "I don"t know what you"ve said to all those chaps," he began; "they"ve come back looking precious glum, but they won"t tell me what you said," (Mr. Bult.i.tude had in satisfying their alarm taken care to let them know his private opinion of them, which was not flattering), "but I"ve got something to say to you, and it"s this. I never thought you would quite come down to this sort of thing!"
"What sort of thing?" said Paul, who was beginning to have enough of it.
"Why, going up and letting on against all of us--it"s mean, you know. If you have got bashed about pretty well since you came back, it"s been all your own fault, and you know it. Last term you got on well enough--this time you began to be queer and nasty the very first day you came. I thought it was one of your larks at first, but I don"t know what it is now, and I don"t care. I stood up for you as long as I could, till you acted like a funk yesterday. Then I took my share in lamming you, and I"d do it again. But if you are cad enough to pay us all out in this way, I"ll have no more to do with you--mind that. That"s all I came to say."
This was an unpalatable way of putting things, but Paul could not help seeing that there was some truth in it. Jolland had been kind to him, too, in a careless sort of way, and at some cost to himself; so it was with more mildness than temper that he answered him.
"You"re on the wrong tack, my boy, the wrong tack. I"ve no wish to tell tales of anyone, as I"ve been trying to explain to your friends. There"s something the matter with me which you wouldn"t understand if I told you."
"Oh, I didn"t know," said Jolland, mollified; "if it"s only physic you want."
"Whatever it is," said Paul, not caring to undeceive him, "it won"t affect you or anyone here, but myself. You"re not a bad young fellow, I believe. I don"t want to get you into trouble, sir; you don"t want much a.s.sistance, I"m afraid, in that department. So be off, like a good fellow, and leave me in peace."
All these interviews had taken time. He was alarmed on looking at the clock to see that it was nearly eight; the Doctor was a long time over that call--for the first time he began to feel uneasy--he made hurried mental calculations as to the probability of the Doctor or Chawner being the first to return.
The walk to church took about twenty minutes; say the service took an hour, allowing for the return, he might expect Chawner by about half-past eight; it was striking the hour now--half an hour only in which he could hope for any favourable result from the interview!
For he saw this plainly, that if Chawner were once permitted to get the Doctor"s ear first and show him that infamous love-note, no explanation of his (even if he had nerve to make it then, which he doubted) could possibly seem anything more than a desperate and far-fetched excuse; if he could antic.i.p.ate Chawner, on the other hand, and once convince the Doctor of the truth of his story, the informer"s malice would fall flat.
And still the long hand went rapidly on, as Mr. Bult.i.tude sat staring stupidly at it with a faint sick feeling--it had pa.s.sed the quarter now--why did the Doctor delay in this unwarrantable manner? What a farce social civilities were--if he had allowed himself to be prevailed on to stay to supper! Twenty minutes past; Chawner and the others might return at any moment--a ring at the bell; they were there! all was over now--no, he was saved, that was Dr. Grimstone"s voice in the hall--what an unconscionable time he was taking off his greatcoat and gloves.
But all comes to the man who waits. In another moment the Doctor looked in, singled out Mr. Bult.i.tude with a sharp glance, and a, "Now, Bult.i.tude, I will hear you!" and led the way to his study.
Paul staggered rather than walked after him: as usual at the critical moment his carefully prepared opening had deserted him--his head felt heavy and crowded--he wanted to run away, but forced himself to overcome such a suicidal proceeding and follow to the study.
There was a lighted reading-lamp with a green gla.s.s shade upon the table. The Doctor sat down by it in an armchair by the fire, crossed his legs, and joined the tops of his fingers together. "Now, Bult.i.tude," he said again.
"Might I--might I sit down?" said poor Mr. Bult.i.tude in a thick voice; it was all that occurred to him to say.
"Sit by all means," said the Doctor blandly.
So Paul drew a chair opposite the Doctor and sat down. He tried desperately to clear his head and throat and begin; but the only distinct thought in his mind just then was that the green lamp-shade lent a particularly ghastly hue to the Doctor"s face.
"Take your time, Bult.i.tude," said the latter, after a long minute, in which a little skeleton clock on the mantelpiece ticked loudly--"there"s no hurry, my boy."
But this only reminded Paul that there was every need for hurry--Chawner might come in, and follow him here, unless he made haste.
Still, he could only say, "You see me in a very agitated state, Dr.
Grimstone--a very agitated state, sir."
The Doctor gave a short, dry cough. "Well, Bult.i.tude," he said.
"The fact is, sir, I"m in a most unfortunate position, and--and the worst of it is, I don"t know how to begin." Here he made another dead stop, while the Doctor raised his heavy eyebrows, and looked at the clock.
"Do you see any prospect of your finding yourself able to begin soon?"
he inquired at last, with rather suspicious suavity. "Perhaps if you came to me later on----"
"Not for the world!" said Paul, in a highly nervous condition. "I shall begin very soon, Doctor, I shall begin directly. Mine is such a very singular case; it"s difficult, as you see, to, to open it!"