"Of course, I am not beaten on the main issue; but I am, don"t you see, on all the rest of it--on the question of my reputation, of my relations with your father, of my relations with my own children, if we should have any."
"We shall have enough for our children--we shall have enough for everything. Don"t you expect to succeed in business?"
"Brilliantly, and we shall certainly be very comfortable. But it isn"t of the mere material comfort I speak; it is of the moral comfort," said Morris--"of the intellectual satisfaction!"
"I have great moral comfort now," Catherine declared, very simply.
"Of course you have. But with me it is different. I have staked my pride on proving to your father that he is wrong; and now that I am at the head of a flourishing business, I can deal with him as an equal. I have a capital plan--do let me go at him!"
He stood before her with his bright face, his jaunty air, his hands in his pockets; and she got up, with her eyes resting on his own.
"Please don"t, Morris; please don"t," she said; and there was a certain mild, sad firmness in her tone which he heard for the first time. "We must ask no favours of him--we must ask nothing more. He won"t relent, and nothing good will come of it. I know it now--I have a very good reason."
"And pray; what is your reason?"
She hesitated to bring it out, but at last it came. "He is not very fond of me!"
"Oh, bother!" cried Morris angrily.
"I wouldn"t say such a thing without being sure. I saw it, I felt it, in England, just before he came away. He talked to me one night- -the last night; and then it came over me. You can tell when a person feels that way. I wouldn"t accuse him if he hadn"t made me feel that way. I don"t accuse him; I just tell you that that"s how it is. He can"t help it; we can"t govern our affections. Do I govern mine? mightn"t he say that to me? It"s because he is so fond of my mother, whom we lost so long ago. She was beautiful, and very, very brilliant; he is always thinking of her. I am not at all like her; Aunt Penniman has told me that. Of course, it isn"t my fault; but neither is it his fault. All I mean is, it"s true; and it"s a stronger reason for his never being reconciled than simply his dislike for you."
""Simply?"" cried Morris, with a laugh, "I am much obliged for that!"
"I don"t mind about his disliking you now; I mind everything less. I feel differently; I feel separated from my father."
"Upon my word," said Morris, "you are a queer family!"
"Don"t say that--don"t say anything unkind," the girl entreated.
"You must be very kind to me now, because, Morris--because," and she hesitated a moment--"because I have done a great deal for you."
"Oh, I know that, my dear!"
She had spoken up to this moment without vehemence or outward sign of emotion, gently, reasoningly, only trying to explain. But her emotion had been ineffectually smothered, and it betrayed itself at last in the trembling of her voice. "It is a great thing to be separated like that from your father, when you have worshipped him before. It has made me very unhappy; or it would have made me so if I didn"t love you. You can tell when a person speaks to you as if-- as if--"
"As if what?"
"As if they despised you!" said Catherine pa.s.sionately. "He spoke that way the night before we sailed. It wasn"t much, but it was enough, and I thought of it on the voyage, all the time. Then I made up my mind. I will never ask him for anything again, or expect anything from him. It would not be natural now. We must be very happy together, and we must not seem to depend upon his forgiveness.
And Morris, Morris, you must never despise me!"
This was an easy promise to make, and Morris made it with fine effect. But for the moment he undertook nothing more onerous.
CHAPTER XXVII
The Doctor, of course, on his return, had a good deal of talk with his sisters. He was at no great pains to narrate his travels or to communicate his impressions of distant lands to Mrs. Penniman, upon whom he contented himself with bestowing a memento of his enviable experience, in the shape of a velvet gown. But he conversed with her at some length about matters nearer home, and lost no time in a.s.suring her that he was still an inflexible father.
"I have no doubt you have seen a great deal of Mr. Townsend, and done your best to console him for Catherine"s absence," he said. "I don"t ask you, and you needn"t deny it. I wouldn"t put the question to you for the world, and expose you to the inconvenience of having to--a-- excogitate an answer. No one has betrayed you, and there has been no spy upon your proceedings. Elizabeth has told no tales, and has never mentioned you except to praise your good looks and good spirits. The thing is simply an inference of my own--an induction, as the philosophers say. It seems to me likely that you would have offered an asylum to an interesting sufferer. Mr. Townsend has been a good deal in the house; there is something in the house that tells me so. We doctors, you know, end by acquiring fine perceptions, and it is impressed upon my sensorium that he has sat in these chairs, in a very easy att.i.tude, and warmed himself at that fire. I don"t grudge him the comfort of it; it is the only one he will ever enjoy at my expense. It seems likely, indeed, that I shall be able to economise at his own. I don"t know what you may have said to him, or what you may say hereafter; but I should like you to know that if you have encouraged him to believe that he will gain anything by hanging on, or that I have budged a hair"s-breadth from the position I took up a year ago, you have played him a trick for which he may exact reparation. I"m not sure that he may not bring a suit against you.
Of course you have done it conscientiously; you have made yourself believe that I can be tired out. This is the most baseless hallucination that ever visited the brain of a genial optimist. I am not in the least tired; I am as fresh as when I started; I am good for fifty years yet. Catherine appears not to have budged an inch either; she is equally fresh; so we are about where we were before.
This, however, you know as well as I. What I wish is simply to give you notice of my own state of mind! Take it to heart, dear Lavinia.
Beware of the just resentment of a deluded fortune-hunter!"
"I can"t say I expected it," said Mrs. Penniman. "And I had a sort of foolish hope that you would come home without that odious ironical tone with which you treat the most sacred subjects."
"Don"t undervalue irony, it is often of great use. It is not, however, always necessary, and I will show you how gracefully I can lay it aside. I should like to know whether you think Morris Townsend will hang on."
"I will answer you with your own weapons," said Mrs. Penniman. "You had better wait and see!"
"Do you call such a speech as that one of my own weapons? I never said anything so rough."
"He will hang on long enough to make you very uncomfortable, then."
"My dear Lavinia," exclaimed the Doctor, "do you call that irony? I call it pugilism."
Mrs. Penniman, however, in spite of her pugilism, was a good deal frightened, and she took counsel of her fears. Her brother meanwhile took counsel, with many reservations, of Mrs. Almond, to whom he was no less generous than to Lavinia, and a good deal more communicative.
"I suppose she has had him there all the while," he said. "I must look into the state of my wine! You needn"t mind telling me now; I have already said all I mean to say to her on the subject."
"I believe he was in the house a good deal," Mrs. Almond answered.
"But you must admit that your leaving Lavinia quite alone was a great change for her, and that it was natural she should want some society."
"I do admit that, and that is why I shall make no row about the wine; I shall set it down as compensation to Lavinia. She is capable of telling me that she drank it all herself. Think of the inconceivable bad taste, in the circ.u.mstances, of that fellow making free with the house--or coming there at all! If that doesn"t describe him, he is indescribable."
"His plan is to get what he can. Lavinia will have supported him for a year," said Mrs. Almond. "It"s so much gained."
"She will have to support him for the rest of his life, then!" cried the Doctor. "But without wine, as they say at the tables d"hote."
"Catherine tells me he has set up a business, and is making a great deal of money."
The Doctor stared. "She has not told me that--and Lavinia didn"t deign. Ah!" he cried, "Catherine has given me up. Not that it matters, for all that the business amounts to."
"She has not given up Mr. Townsend," said Mrs. Almond. "I saw that in the first half minute. She has come home exactly the same."
"Exactly the same; not a grain more intelligent. She didn"t notice a stick or a stone all the while we were away--not a picture nor a view, not a statue nor a cathedral."
"How could she notice? She had other things to think of; they are never for an instant out of her mind. She touches me very much."
"She would touch me if she didn"t irritate me. That"s the effect she has upon me now. I have tried everything upon her; I really have been quite merciless. But it is of no use whatever; she is absolutely GLUED. I have pa.s.sed, in consequence, into the exasperated stage. At first I had a good deal of a certain genial curiosity about it; I wanted to see if she really would stick. But, good Lord, one"s curiosity is satisfied! I see she is capable of it, and now she can let go."
"She will never let go," said Mrs. Almond.
"Take care, or you will exasperate me too. If she doesn"t let go, she will be shaken off--sent tumbling into the dust! That"s a nice position for my daughter. She can"t see that if you are going to be pushed you had better jump. And then she will complain of her bruises."
"She will never complain," said Mrs. Almond.
"That I shall object to even more. But the deuce will be that I can"t prevent anything."
"If she is to have a fall," said Mrs. Almond, with a gentle laugh, "we must spread as many carpets as we can." And she carried out this idea by showing a great deal of motherly kindness to the girl.