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Leslie would not have asked her to be Jennie Wren, because she really has a lame foot; but when they told her about it, she said right off, "O, how I wish I could be that!" She has not only the lame foot, but the wonderful "golden bower" of sunshiny hair too; and she knows the doll"s dressmaker by heart; she says she expects to find her some time, if ever she goes to England--or to heaven. Truly she was up to the "tricks and the manners" of the occasion; n.o.body entered into it with more self-abandonment than she; she was so completely Jennie Wren that no one--at the moment--thought of her in any other character, or remembered their rules of behaving according to the square of the distance. She "took patterns" of Mrs. Lewis Marchbanks"s tr.i.m.m.i.n.gs to her very face; she readied up behind Mrs. Linceford, and measured the festoon of her panier. There was no reason why she should be afraid or abashed; Maddy Freeman is a little lady, only she is poor, and a genius. She stepped right _out_ of d.i.c.kens"s story, not _into_ it, as the rest of us did; neither did she even seem to step consciously into the grand Pennington house; all she did as to that was to go "up here," or "over there," and "be dead," as fresh, new-world delights attracted her. Lizzie Hexam went too; they belonged together; and T"other Governor would insist on following after them, and being comfortably dead also, though Society was behind him, and the Veneerings and the Podsnaps looking on. Mrs. Ingleside did not provide any Podsnaps or Veneerings; she said they would be there.
Now Eugene Wrayburn was Doctor John Hautayne; for this was only our fourth evening. n.o.body had anything to say about parts, except the person whose "next" it was; people had simply to take what they were helped to.
We began to be a little suspicious of Doctor Hautayne; to wonder about his "what next." Leslie behaved as if she had always known him; I believe it seemed to her as if she always had; some lives meet in a way like that.
It did not end with parties, Miss Pennington"s exogenous experiment.
She did not mean it should. A great deal that was glad and comfortable came of it to many persons. Miss Elizabeth asked Maddy Freeman to "come up and be dead" whenever she felt like it; she goes there every week now, to copy pictures, and get rare little bits for her designs out of the Penningtons" great portfolios of engravings and drawings of ancient ornamentations; and half the time they keep her to luncheon or to tea. Lucilla Waters knows them now as well as we do; and she is taking German lessons with Pen Pennington.
It really seems as if the "nexts" would grow on so that at last it would only be our old "set" that would be in any danger of getting left out. "Society is like a coral island after all," says Leslie Goldthwaite. "It isn"t a rock of the Old Silurian."
It was a memorable winter to us in many ways,--that last winter of the nineteenth century"s seventh decade.
One day--everything has to be one day, and all in a minute, when it does come, however many days lead up to it--Doctor Ingleside came in and told us the news. He had been up to see Grandfather Holabird; grandfather was not quite well.
They told him at home, the doctor said, not to stop anywhere; he knew what they meant by that, but he didn"t care; it was as much his news as anybody"s, and why should he be kept down to pills and plasters?
Leslie was going to marry Doctor John Hautayne.
Well! It was splendid news, and we had somehow expected it. And yet--"only think!" That was all we could say; that is a true thing people do say to each other, in the face of a great, beautiful fact.
Take it in; shut your door upon it; and--think! It is something that belongs to heart and soul.
We counted up; it was only seven weeks.
"As if that were the whole of it!" said Doctor Ingleside. "As if the Lord didn"t know! As if they hadn"t been living on, to just this meeting-place! She knows his life, and the sort of it, though she has never been in it with him before; that is, we"ll concede that, for the sake of argument, though I"m not so sure about it; and he has come right here into hers. They are fair, open, pleasant ways, both of them; and here, from the joining, they can both look back and take in, each the other"s; and beyond they just run into one, you see, as foreordained, and there"s no other way for them to go."
n.o.body knew it but ourselves that next night,--Thursday. Doctor Hautayne read beautiful things from the Brownings at Miss Pennington"s that evening; it was his turn to provide; but for us,--we looked into new depths in Leslie"s serene, clear, woman eyes, and we felt the intenser something in his face and voice, and the wonder was that everybody could not see how quite another thing than any merely written poetry was really "next" that night for Leslie and for John Hautayne.
That was in December; it was the first of March when Grandfather Holabird died.
At about Christmas-time mother had taken a bad cold. We could not let her get up in the mornings to help before breakfast; the winter work was growing hard; there were two or three fires to manage besides the furnace, which father attended to; and although our "ch.o.r.e-man" came and split up kindlings and filled the wood-boxes, yet we were all pretty well tired out, sometimes, just with keeping warm. We began to begin to say things to each other which n.o.body actually finished. "If mother doesn"t get better," and "If this cold weather keeps on," and "_Are_ we going to co-operate ourselves to death, do you think?" from Barbara, at last.
n.o.body said, "We shall have to get a girl again." n.o.body wanted to do that; and everybody had a secret feeling of Aunt Roderick, and her prophecy that we "shouldn"t hold out long." But we were crippled and reduced; Ruth had as much as ever she could do, with the short days and her music.
"I begin to believe it was easy enough for Grant to say "all _summer_,"" said Barbara; "but _this_ is Valley Forge." The kitchen fire wouldn"t burn, and the thermometer was down to 3 above. Mother was worrying up stairs, we knew, because we would not let her come down until it was warm and her coffee was ready.
That very afternoon Stephen came in from school with a word for the hour.
"The Stilkings are going to move right off to New Jersey," said he.
"Jim Stilking told me so. The doctor says his father can"t stay here."
"Arctura Fish won"t go," said Rosamond, instantly.
"Arctura Fish is as neat as a pin, and as smart as a steel trap," said Barbara, regardless of elegance; "and--since n.o.body else will ever dare to give in--I believe Arctura Fish is the very next thing, now, for us!"
"It isn"t giving in; it is going on," said Mrs. Holabird.
It certainly was not going back.
"We have got through ploughing-time, and now comes seed-time, and then harvest," said Barbara. "We shall raise, upon a bit of renovated earth, the first millennial specimen,--see if we don"t!--of what was supposed to be an extinct flora,--the _Domestica antediluviana_."
Arctura Fish came to us.
If you once get a new dress, or a new dictionary, or a new convenience of any kind, did you never notice that you immediately have occasions which prove that you couldn"t have lived another minute without it? We could not have spared Arctura a single day, after that, all winter.
Mother gave up, and was ill for a fortnight. Stephen twisted his foot skating, and was laid up with a sprained ankle.
And then, in February, grandfather was taken with that last fatal attack, and some of us had to be with Aunt Roderick nearly all the time during the three weeks that he lived.
When they came to look through the papers there was no will found, of any kind; neither was that deed of gift.
Aunt Trixie was the only one out of the family who knew anything about it. She had been the "family bosom," Barbara said, ever since she cuddled us up in our baby blankets, and told us "this little pig, and that little pig," while she warmed our toes.
"Don"t tell me!" said Aunt Trixie. Aunt Trixie never liked the Roderick Holabirds.
We tried not to think about it, but it was not comfortable. It was, indeed, a very serious anxiety and trouble that began, in consequence, to force itself upon us.
After the bright, gay nights had come weary, vexing days. And the worst was a vague shadow of family distrust and annoyance. n.o.body thought any real harm, n.o.body disbelieved or suspected; but there it was. We could not think how such a declared determination and act of Grandfather Holabird should have come to nothing. Uncle and Aunt Roderick "could not see what we could expect about it; there was nothing to show; and there were John and John"s children; it was not for any one or two to settle."
Only Ruth said "we were all good people, and meant right; it must all come right, somehow."
But father made up his mind that we could not afford to keep the place. He should pay his debts, now, the first thing. What was left must do for us; the house must go into the estate.
It was fixed, though, that we should stay there for the summer,--until affairs were settled.
"It"s a dumb shame!" said Aunt Trixie.
CHAPTER X.
RUTH"S RESPONSIBILITY.
The June days did not make it any better. And the June nights,--well, we had to sit in the "front box at the sunset," and think how there would be June after June here for somebody, and we should only have had just two of them out of our whole lives.
Why did not grandfather give us that paper, when he began to? And what could have become of it since? And what if it were found some time, after the dear old place was sold and gone? For it was the "dear old place" already to us, though we had only lived there a year, and though Aunt Roderick did say, in her cold fashion, just as if we could choose about it, that "it was not as if it were really an old homestead; it wouldn"t be so much of a change for us, if we made up our minds not to take it in, as if we had always lived there."
Why, we _had_ always lived there! That was just the way we had always been trying to spell "home," though we had never got the right letters to do it with before. When exactly the right thing comes to you, it is a thing that has always been. You don"t get the very sticks and stones to begin with, maybe; but what they stand for grows up in you, and when you come to it you know it is yours. The best things--the most glorious and wonderful of all--will be what we shall see to have been "laid up for us from the foundation." Aunt Roderick did not see one bit of how that was with us.
"There isn"t a word in the tenth commandment about not coveting your _own_ house," Barbara would say, boldly. And we did covet, and we did grieve. And although we did not mean to have "hard thoughts," we felt that Aunt Roderick was hard; and that Uncle Roderick and Uncle John were hatefully matter-of-fact and of-course about the "business."
And that paper might be somewhere, yet. We did not believe that Grandfather Holabird had "changed his mind and burned it up." He had not had much mind to change, within those last six months. When he _was_ well, and had a mind, we knew what he had meant to do.
If Uncle Roderick and Uncle John had not believed a word of what father told them, they could not have behaved very differently. We half thought, sometimes, that they did not believe it. And very likely they half thought that we were making it appear that they had done something that was not right. And it is the half thoughts that are the hard thoughts. "It is very disagreeable," Aunt Roderick used to say.
Miss Trixie Spring came over and spent days with us, as of old; and when the house looked sweet and pleasant with the shaded summer light, and was full of the gracious summer freshness, she would look round and shake her head, and say, "It"s just as beautiful as it can be. And it"s a dumb shame. Don"t tell _me_!"
Uncle Roderick was going to "take in" the old homestead with his share, and that was as much as he cared about; Uncle John was used to nothing but stocks and railway shares, and did not want "enc.u.mbrances"; and as to keeping it as estate property and paying rent to the heirs, ourselves included,--n.o.body wanted that; they would rather have things settled up. There would always be questions of estimates and repairs; it was not best to have things so in a family.