Persis hesitated, breathing hard with enormous excitement over so small a matter. While she hesitated an Italian duke who had been a little too gracious in London approached her like an erect cobra. Her skin crawled at his manner. Yet he had no worse motive than she was dallying with.
Before she could exquisitely make it clear to him that with all due deference she despised him, she saw Senator Tait hurrying toward Forbes, greeting hastily those who stopped him and thredding the increasingly mucilaginous crowd till he reached Forbes" side. Then the two men made their way out beyond the intervening ma.s.s.
Persis went back into the house and danced with the Italian duke what he called "_il trotto alla turca_." She was so distraite that she never knew how well he made love and how badly he danced.
Later she happened upon the surrept.i.tious Stowe Webb, and learned that Senator Tait and Forbes were leaving Paris in the morning to take the waters somewhere--Vichy, Carlsbad, Marienbad, or Matlock; he was not sure where.
Now Persis regretted her hesitation. She had wasted a precious opportunity to warm her chilled soul with a word from the beloved lips and a look from the eyes and a pressure of the hand that were dearer than any other in the world to her.
She was amazed at her own ability to suffer so much from the loss of so little. She felt an impulse to be alone with her anguish, to huddle over the hearth where the ashes could at least remind her of how warm and cozy she once had been.
She sent for Willie, and he came with a slight elevation of manner which showed that he had found some one to arrange him at least one Scotch-and-soda.
He was demonstrative in the car and very affectionate in the elevator at the Hotel Meurice, where they were stopping. This did not endear him to Persis.
His man exchanged a glance with her maid as they peeled off their wraps.
When man and maid had been sent to bed Willie came shuffling into Persis" dressing-room where she sat staring at her doleful beauty in the mirror. He saw how listless she was, and was awkwardly eager to cheer her up. He could not have depressed her more than by trying to cheer her up. Even he realized his failure eventually and yawned sonorously:
"We"re married, and I suppose we"ve got to stay married--for a while, at least. But I hate to see you unhappy. It"s an awful slam on me to have you so blue before the honeymoon is really begun."
"Don"t worry any more, Willie," she said, gently. "I suppose I"m just like a child on Christmas afternoon. I always used to get blue after I"d looked over all the presents and broken most of my toys--and grown tired of the others--and eaten too much candy. And I thought, "So this is the Christmas I"ve waited for the whole year long! It doesn"t amount to much. I"ve had all that money can buy--and--and I"m too tired to sleep.""
"I used to feel like that, too," he said. "And I remember that I usually turned back to some cheap old toy; usually it was a little lead soldier--my first love."
"First love!" she murmured.
He tried to shake off gloom as a wet spaniel shakes off water.
"Oh, I say, Persis, buck up! Don"t feel like this. You"re so beautiful; you"re simply ripping to-night." He laid his hand on her bare arm. She started at his touch and before she realized it gasped, "Please don"t paw me."
He stared at her, aghast: "Do you hate me as much as that?"
"Oh, I don"t hate you, Willie! It"s myself I hate," Persis cried. "You mustn"t mind me; I"m just a little blue and lonely."
He laughed gruesomely. "Bride and groom together on honeymoon, and both terribly lonely! Gad! I wonder if other married couples come to feel this way when the honeymoon turns to green cheese. And do they just bluff it through? It reminds me of that chap in Hogarth"s _Mariage a la Mode_, where the wife is yawning and the husband is sunk back in his chair in a dismal stupor. Only he was drunk--I think I"ll get drunk."
He stumbled out to find his usual nepenthe. When he came back her door was locked.
CHAPTER LVI
Persis sat in grim communion with her image for hours. She faintly heard her husband"s tapping on her door, and calling through it at intervals in thicker and thicker speech. But it was like a far-off rumor from a street. She was in session with herself.
She took her boudoir cap from her hair, and sat in the cascade of it peering through as from a cavern, and smoking always. She was smoking much too much, but she felt a companionship in tobacco. As she held the cap in her hand she thought of Forbes; and the remembrance was so joyous that she vowed to brave the world to get back to him.
But she pondered what the world would say of her, how it had dealt with the others that had openly defied it, and she was afraid. Then she vowed that she would take her love secretly and cleverly. She would hunt for Forbes till she met him and regained him.
Then she pictured how he would look at her when he understood. She imagined him starting back from her as from something abhorrent. She threw a cigarette-stub at her face in the mirror and gasped: "Pagh!" She could endure anything better than such cheapening of herself in Forbes"
eyes. And after a while she began to think of her self-respect. She had only herself. She must keep that self precious.
Worn out at last with her silent war, she bent her head on her crossed hands and fell asleep among the fripperies of her dressing-table. These temptations in the wilderness come to people in various places. This tired b.u.t.terfly fought with evil and won the duel in a boudoir in a fashionable hotel in Paris.
Hours later she woke in broad daylight and crept to bed with tingling arms and aching forehead. She did not wake again till noon. Nichette had tiptoed about her like a sentinel and had kept Willie at a distance. He discharged her a dozen times, but she simply shrugged and sniffed and answered him in French too rapid for him to follow or reply to.
When at last Persis sat up with her coffee and crescents on her knees, Nichette read to her the news in the French columns of the Paris _Herald_. She learned that Amba.s.sador-elect Tait and his entourage had gone to Evian-les-Bains.
Willie came in with new plans for Persis" diversion. He suggested a visit to Switzerland and Lake Geneva. She would have liked to go to the mountains. There was something heroic in them. But Evian was closely adjacent to Switzerland. She n.o.bly suggested Norway and Sweden. The thought of fjords and midnight suns and things was also heroic.
In the meanwhile she must make haste to dress for the _Prix des Drags_, and she took some interest in the choice of a gown sufficiently striking to insure success in the fierce rivalry of that great costume race.
Everybody said that the world had not seen such undressing in public since the Grecian revival at the time of the Directoire. Persis was not the least astounding figure there. She felt that, after a deed of such sacrifice as she had achieved in forswearing love, she had earned an extra license in her draperies. Willie raised a tempest about her gown, but she felt that she had done enough for him. She was suffering that morning-after sullenness which follows unusual indulgences in virtue as well as other excesses.
Life once more was a tango. She shifted from costume to costume like a dressmaker"s model. She went the rounds of _thes dansants_, and musicales, and emba.s.sies, town houses, hotels, and chateaux, watering-places, and mountains, lakes, and seas. But she kept away from Switzerland till she read that Amba.s.sador Tait was at his desk in Paris; and then she avoided Paris and went to Trouville.
And so the days totaled into weeks, and the weeks became a month, two, three, six. She fled from boredom to boredom. She skimmed the cream of life and whipped it, and it turned sour. Though her abiding-places were all oases and her tents were of silk, she led only a Bedouin existence.
After all, she and Willie were but tramps--velvet-clad hoboes. Variety became monotony, luxury an oppression, contentment a will-o"-the-wisp.
She went to America and found that loveless contentment was not among the Yankee inventions. She went back to Europe, and it was not among the Parisian devices. There was everything for sale on the Rue de la Paix except peace. She had not come to Paris purposely to find Harvey Forbes, but she had sickened of being good, and she had grown nauseated with denying her heart. If fate willed that their communion should be renewed she would no longer tamper with destiny.
She wondered if time had cured Forbes" love. She wondered if he cared for some one else--Mildred Tait, for instance, or some Parisian witch.
At the mere thought her heart beat like the wings of a wounded bird, and she knew that she loved him and always would love him.
Half a year of Willie"s tempers and whinings, his indigestions and colds, and his diminishing patience with her whims, his growing habit of complaining of her extravagances, his quarrels with their servants, with every waiter, every messenger-boy, and hotel-keeper, had worn out even her courtesy. They quarreled shamelessly in private, and with less and less caution in public.
And now she was beginning to feel that she earned all she got, and was paying usury on her money, and being badly treated in the bargain. She was arriving at that sick frame of mind that makes cashiers and statesmen and married people unfaithful to their trusts.
This was her humor when she met Forbes again. She had tried in various ways to gain invitations to affairs of the Emba.s.sy. But Tait wasted no diplomacy on cutting out the Enslees. He was the more brutal about this since he felt that he was guarding his daughter"s welfare.
Mildred had made herself dear to the more earnest elements of Paris. She had grown somewhat less of a joke to the more frivolous. The entertainments at the Emba.s.sy were not quite so Puritanical now, and her costumes had amazingly improved since her father had put her under the direct control of a tyrannical dressmaker of world-wide fame.
Whether she were growing to be merely a habit with Forbes or not, they were more and more together. They fought bitterly on the question of war, which she considered an unmitigated horror and he believed to be the loftiest form of tragedy. But the whetting of mind on mind was producing sparks, and Tait hoped that some day one of them would set their two hearts on fire.
He was preparing for that day by making Forbes less poor. His post kept him from taking advantage of the financial secrets he stumbled on. But when he put Mildred in the hands of a dressmaker he gave the financial destinies of Forbes to a retired capitalist, who juggled Forbes" five hundred dollars into a thousand in a pair of weeks; and that thousand into three. Then he encouraged Forbes to borrow, indorsed his notes and speculated with the proceeds pyramidally. He was enjoying it as a form of chess. At the end of half a year Forbes was talking as much of the Bourse and Argentines as he was of projectiles and trajectories.
Having a.s.sured Forbes of enough money in bank to give him a salubrious self-confidence, Tait dropped hints of a certain clause in his will and sat back to watch the result. He was counting on receiving as his Christmas gift the news that Forbes and Mildred were to be married, and he was polishing up a joke about giving them inside rates on the consular fees for that complicated ceremony.
And then the Enslees came to Paris in an unusual snow-storm, and winter set in about the old man"s overworked, undermined heart. He did his best to keep Persis and Forbes apart; but when were the old ever vigilant enough to thwart the young?
CHAPTER LVII
One day Mrs. Mather Edgec.u.mbe found the Enslees shivering like a pair of waifs in a restaurant famous for its cuisine and infamous for its heating arrangements. She asked them if they were coming to the _the dansant_ she was giving at her home that afternoon. They had forgotten all about it, and Persis pleaded an engagement with her doctor. Mrs.