"Why do you want to see him? You"re married."
"But they don"t keep women in harems nowadays. Paris is very dull this winter. Don"t take Captain Forbes away again."
"As I remember, you gave him marching orders once yourself. You mustn"t mind if he goes of his own accord now."
"But he won"t go of his own accord if you don"t make him. Why do you?
You"re not afraid of me?"
"Oh, but I am."
Persis laughed with a kind of pride. "Really! You flatter me! But why?"
Tait twisted his big, soft hands together and stared at her a long while before he could speak. "This is very embarra.s.sing, Mrs. Enslee; but since you are so frank, let me ask you one question. Will you answer it frankly?"
"That depends upon the question." Persis chuckled, never dreaming of its nature. When it came it was:
"Are you in love with Captain Forbes?"
She laughed evasively now. "What a remarkable question!"
The old lawyer repeated the demand:
"Are you in love with Captain Forbes?"
"I think he is very nice," she dodged. "But what has that to do with our friendship?"
"Everything," Tait answered, with tightened lips. "Mrs. Enslee, your father and I rowed together in the same college crew, and Harvey"s father was my best friend. May I speak freely to you?"
She responded immediately to the almost affection of his tone. "I wish you would."
"What little success in life I have had," Tait began, with the somewhat formal speech of an orator, "has been due to my habit of foreseeing dangerous combinations and preventing them, or running away from them.
The most dangerous combination on earth is a woman, a man, and another man. No married woman has a right to the--I believe you said "friendship," of a man who cares for her as Harvey cares for you."
She extracted from his warning only the hidden sweet. "And he does care for me still!"
"But you"ve married another man."
"Of course," she answered. "But do you think that I can find Mr. Enslee so fascinating that I must give up all my friends?"
"Friends!" Tait exclaimed, with bitterness. "In my day, Mrs. Enslee, I have seen some of the proudest families in New York dragged into the mire of public shame by tragedies that began as innocent experiments in friendship. Don"t risk it, Mrs. Enslee. You are on dangerous ground."
She mused aloud. "And you think he loves me still?"
Tait tossed his mane in despair. "Good Lord! That"s all my words have meant to you? Well, since we are talking so bluntly, you"ll perhaps permit me to say that I know you are not happily married. Everybody knew you never would be happy with Willie Enslee."
"I thought I"d be as happy with him as with anybody-else," she answered, meekly; "but since you a.s.sume that I am not happy, why deny me the friendship of a man whose society I am fond of? Don"t you think that everybody has the right to be happy?"
"Indeed I don"t!"
"Doesn"t the Const.i.tution, or the Declaration of Independence, or something guarantee everybody the right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of--"
"Yes, the pursuit!" Tait cried. "But the Const.i.tution doesn"t guarantee that anybody will get happiness, and there are laws that take away life, take away liberty, take away even the right to the pursuit of happiness."
She was on unfamiliar ground among const.i.tutions. She was more at home in emotion. "Let"s not get into a legal debate. All I know is that Harvey used to love me, and I loved him too much to marry him, because he was poor, and because I was bred to reckless extravagance. Besides, I had ambitions. I didn"t know then what a vanity they were. But now--well, I don"t pretend to be a saint, but I have a heart--a kind of heart. I love only one man on earth. You know that he still loves me.
Don"t rob us of the happiness we can find in each other"s society--the innocent happiness."
A gesture of unbelief escaped the Amba.s.sador. "How long could such love remain innocent--when it begins by being unlawful?"
"But I love him," she insisted, "and he loves me with all his heart.
Some day, I presume"--the coming sorrow cast its shadow over her already--"some day, no doubt, he"ll find somebody he loves more, and he"ll marry her. He can have anybody now; but when he came to me he was poor; he needed money. But I also needed money! Things have changed; money has come to him, as it always comes, too late. But that"s no reason for robbing me of my chance for a little while of happiness. And you mustn"t--oh, you mustn"t rob him of the happiness I could give him!"
Tait was always afraid of himself when his tenderness was appealed to, for he knew from experience that such an appeal if harkened a moment too long, would smother all judgment, all resistance. He felt his heart yearning toward Persis" world-old cry, "Happiness! happiness! a little happiness!" He tried to be harsh.
"But, my good woman--my dear girl--you had your chance; you made your choice. You must pay the price. We can"t all have the love we want. I can"t. You can"t."
Persis laid her hand on his arm. "But why? Why?"
And Tait, after a weak temptation, girded himself for the eternal battle with unholy happiness, and answered with Mosaic simplicity:
"Because it is against the law."
"But you know," Persis returned, unabashed, "you were once a lawyer--you know that the laws in the books are only made for those who haven"t the skill to bend them without breaking them."
"Such a love as yours is against the great unwritten laws of society."
Persis would not be crushed with precepts. She sneered: "Society! Is anybody on the square? Why shouldn"t we be happy in our own way?"
Tait hesitated, then answered coldly: "There are ten thousand reasons, Mrs. Enslee. I"ll give you the one that will appeal to you most strongly: "You"re bound to get found out.""
"Don"t you think I have any discretion? Do you think I am a fool?"
"The first sign of being a fool is trying to play double with the world.
Some day--let me warn you--some day you will find yourself so tangled up in your own cleverness that you will be delivered, bound hand and foot, to the shame--yes, the shame of a horrible exposure."
She blenched at this facer. "Don"t speak to me as though I were a criminal!"
He struck out again. "Then don"t become one. You have no right to love Captain Forbes, nor he to love you. It is a simple question of duty."
"Duty?" she raged. "I want happiness. I"m like a hungry woman standing before a window filled with bread. Your duty says, Stay there and starve. But it isn"t duty that lets people starve. It"s being afraid."
Tait put off all restraint of courtesy. "Oh, I understand your creed.
It"s the creed of your set. You"re not afraid of any risk. You fear nothing but self-sacrifice. Your greatest horror is being bored. But you"ll find that there is a worse boredom than you suffer now--the ennui of exile, of ostracism. The very set that practises your theory is the most merciless to those that get found out. It"s like a pack of wolves on the chase. The one that falls or is wounded is torn to pieces by the rest, and then they rush on again. I mean to save Harvey from that pack at any cost."
She had no refuge but a prayer. "I implore you not to break my heart."
Tait donned in manner the black cap of a judge. "Such hearts as yours ought to be broken, Mrs. Enslee, for the health of the world. I understand you. I don"t blame you. I don"t blame your mother in her grave. It was her breeding, as it is yours and that of your pack. You are the people who bring wealth into disrepute. The noise of your revels drowns the quiet charities of the rich who are also good and busy with n.o.ble works. I"m afraid of you all. But I don"t blame you. I don"t blame the criminals, the thieves, madmen; but I fear them. And in all mercy I would mercilessly put them out of the way of doing harm to the peace of the world."
Persis saw that for once appeal could not melt. She said, with resignation: "Then you are my sworn enemy?"