He cried out against her self-portrait as a libel. "Oh, Persis, don"t tell me that you are mercenary--a woman with a big heart like yours."
"I"m not mercenary exactly; I loathe money as money, but I like nice things. I have to have them. I"m trying to be honest with myself and with you--in time--before it"s too late. It"s hard; but I didn"t arrange the world, did I? I didn"t choose my own soul, did I? But I"ve got to get along with what was given me, haven"t I? I tell you I"d ruin your life, Harvey. You"d divorce me in a year."
"Don"t talk like that, or you will ruin your own life! There"s a big tragedy in store for you, Persis, unless you--"
She was so tortured with disillusion and with the death of her first romance that she grew very hard.
"Well, so long as it isn"t the tragedy of being unable to pay my bills and of eating my own cooking I can stand it. I"d rather be unhappy than shabby. But it"s growing late; we must get back."
He aided her to her feet, untied the horses, and offered her his hand for a mounting-block. But she said:
"We can walk quicker here than we can ride." Taking her bridle in her arm, she set out swiftly. She seemed once more to be running away from something--a shadow of poverty, no doubt. He felt unspeakably sorry for her. Again he was about to offer her back her heart when an abrupt light broke over her face. She paused, laughed, turned to him.
"What a fool I am! My father set my sister up in business as a British peeress and bought her her husband and settled a whacking dower on her.
He can do the same for me and keep the money in this country--and get me a real husband. He could give me enough for us both to live on comfortably."
"I reckon I could hardly accept that arrangement," Forbes said, as gently as he might.
"You see!" she cried out. "You expect me to murder my pride and accept poverty, but you won"t accept wealth because you must keep your pride.
You couldn"t object to my having the money to spend on myself, could you?"
"No, I could hardly object to that," he said.
"Well, then, if everything goes right with my father"s plans we"ll have love and money and all. It will be wonderful--heaven on earth! Kiss me!"
She put up her lips, and he kissed them and found them bitter-sweet.
Then she strode on with a lilting joy, humming a song and putting her horse to his paces to keep up with her. Forbes remembered what Senator Tait had said of her father"s impending doom, and her rapture was a heartbreak to him--a final irony.
As they issued from the green cave of the forest and walked down to the State Road to take the saddle, a motor came along. Two men were in it.
The driver stopped the car in front of Persis, and the other man lifted his hat. It disclosed a shock of brindle hair and half of one eyebrow gone.
"Can you tell me if this road leads to Briarcliff?" he asked.
"Yes, I think so," Persis answered.
"Thank you, Miss Cabot," he called out, as the car whirred away.
Persis stared after him in amazement. "Now who was that? How did he know my name?"
"By your pictures in the papers," Forbes suggested.
"No," said Persis; "I"ve met him somewhere. Oh, I know. He"s a reporter on the--some paper. Lord, I hope he didn"t misconstrue our being here. I didn"t like the grin on his face."
CHAPTER x.x.xVIII
The reporter"s fleering smile and his acidulous "Thank you, Miss Cabot,"
convinced Persis that the man had, with the sophistication reporters learn too well, put the worst possible interpretation on her forest promenade with Forbes. This was all that it needed to turn her disappointment into dismay, her bewilderment into panic. She had lost rhythm with her life and the world.
She thrust one boot into its stirrup, swung the other across the saddle, and jerked her horse"s head impatiently. Her temper threw his motor machinery out of gear, and he found himself with at least two too many feet. He bolted and sidled in a ragged syncopated gait, snorting and flinging his head angrily. She could not get him into meter with himself or her, or with the horse that Forbes brought clattering alongside.
At first she had felt infinitely sorry for Forbes and indignant only at the fate that made him poor. As she rode her fretful horse she began to feel infinitely sorry for herself and indignant at Forbes. He had permitted her to think that he had ample means. He had encouraged her to love him seriously. Her resentment was the fierce resentment people feel when those they love and idealize do not live up to the standards set for them.
Forbes had come into her life like a bull sauntering into a china shop.
A moment before his entrance everything was arranged, orderly, exquisite, and formal--a little cold, perhaps, but charmingly definite.
Now everything was crashing about her. She must walk warily among the fragments or she would suffer.
Persis was an orderly soul, and had not suspected that she was also a pa.s.sionate one. She was more like Forbes than either of them understood.
For all the deep intensity of his nature, training had made him first the soldier. In battle he was the fiery warrior; but battles were infrequent, and almost all his days had been spent in acquiring and instilling precision, exactness in the manual of arms, rect.i.tude in the lines of drill formations, perfection in uniform and equipment, in the company books and reports--everywhere.
So Persis had acquired from infancy the rituals of household service, the proprieties and their observance, the arrangement of ceremonies, social book-keeping. And now she was discovering what a disorganizer love is, what an anarch among plans, what a smasher of china.
Before the advent of Forbes she had almost given up the expectation of love. Then out of nothing the fates evoked this man. If he had confessed even a pittance of twenty-five thousand a year, that would have meant at worst "love in a cottage"--cottage being an elastic word. Friends of hers owned cottages of palatial dimensions. But two thousand a year--with a prospect of twenty-four hundred a year! She simply could not imagine it.
She tried to mask her anger under an unusually cheerful manner. She spoke with approval of the landscape, chattered vivaciously about everything, and all the while was burning with resentment. It was small wonder that Forbes felt the blight of her wrath when the very horses knew of it. The most determined politeness can never imitate the fine flower and bouquet of genuine enthusiasm. But what could Forbes say to set things right? The one effective speech would have been a declaration of independent means, a smiling disclaimer of poverty: "I was only joking; I am really very rich."
That would have re-established the _entente_. But that was the one thing Forbes could not say. He rode on at Persis" side, a silent and dejected prisoner of circ.u.mstances, a spy captured in the enemy"s camp in the enemy"s uniform.
Eventually they reached the Enslee place--the mountain that was Enslee"s, with the stately pleasure dome he had decreed there. The majesty of it belittled Forbes still more. The beauty of it shamed him.
They trotted across the granite bridge and urged the horses to the ascent.
The horses plodded doggedly up and up, and the beauty of every spot as they reached it wore away Persis" anger. It was difficult to feel a bitterness against anybody, even against the fates, when they permitted some aromatic shrub to throw an almost visible veil of perfume about her, and another to dandle before her eyes a smiling throng of blossoms almost audibly singing like cl.u.s.tered cherubim. The mere dapple of shadow and sun-splash was felicity, and the white road that curved among its lawns was voluptuously sinuous, like a tawny Cleopatra on a green divan or one of t.i.tian"s high-hipped Venuses.
The gardening was formal, the swards were shaved, the trees seemed to have been whisk-broomed, the shrubs had been curled and scented; but they were beautiful, and only wealth could have collected them or kept them at their best. And above them all loomed the house, a chateau of stately charm enthroned in beauty.
Forbes saw how good it was, and coveted it. But it was as if Naboth, the soldier, had envied David, the King, his garden. Persis also saw how good it was, and she could possess it all, become the chatelaine of this place.
She spoke her thought aloud:
"It"s this sort of thing, Harvey, that I love and need--beautiful things and plenty of them."
"I understand," Forbes groaned.
"If only you could get them for us!"
"If only I could!"
A little farther she checked her horse, whose trunk was heaving like a bellows. It was in a little colonnade of trees with an arched roof of green leaves in more than Gothic confusion. Birds were everywhere, fluting, fighting, and building.
"Listen to them, Harvey," Persis murmured, with a kind of sad joy, as he reined in alongside. "It"s their courtship-time, too. And the male bird is the better dressed of the two."
Forbes noted how sweet her throat was as it arched back; and the under surface of her chin, how beautiful. They were no longer his to admire, and bitterness came into his heart. His smile was close to a sneer as he said:
"The males put on their Sunday best and pour out their finest songs, and the lady bird chooses, they say, the one that wears the best clothes."