My father looked quizzically grave when the two sisters recommended a Miss Bradnor of Springfield, Ma.s.sachusetts, as a person who was sure to please our parents and to bring us on finely in our studies.
"Is she pretty and marriageable?" he asked. "My business, nowadays, seems to be providing the eligible bachelors of Powhatan with wives. It is pleasant enough from one standpoint, and that is the young men"s. But my children must be educated."
Both young matrons a.s.sured him, earnestly, that Miss Bradnor was "a predestined old maid--a man-hater, in fact--and was likely to remain a fixture in our school-room as long as we needed her." When she arrived I was surprised to see a prim, quiet little personage who looked too gentle to hate any one. She fitted easily into her place in our family and soon proved herself the prize we had been promised, being a born instructor, and loving her profession. She awoke my mind as n.o.body else had done. I fancied that I could feel it stretch, and grow, and get hungry while she taught me. The more it was fed, the hungrier it grew, and the more eagerly it stretched itself. I studied Comstock"s _Natural Philosophy_ with Miss Bradnor, and Vose"s _Astronomy_, and Lyell"s _Elements of Geology_, Bancroft"s _History of the United States_, and _Watts on the Mind_, and began French and Latin. It was such a busy, happy year that I was actually sorry when vacation began.
I was sorrier yet when a letter was received from Miss Bradnor, saying that she "had been betrothed for ten years to an exemplary gentleman who now claimed the fulfilment of her pledge. Before the letter could reach us she would (D. V.) have become Mrs. Calvin Chapin. She hoped the unforeseen reversal of her plans for the ensuing year would not occasion serious inconvenience to her dear and respected friends, Mr. and Mrs.
Burwell."
"It takes the prim sort to give us such surprises!" exclaimed my mother.
"It takes all sorts and conditions of women, _I_ think!" rejoined my father, dryly. "I foresee that the Richmond plan will have to be carried out, after all. Governesses are kittle cattle, at the best. And we have had three of the very best."
As may be supposed, I was consumed by curiosity to know what "the Richmond plan" could be. The city I had never yet seen had been made tenfold more interesting to me within a year by the removal of the Frank Mortons to that place. Cousin Frank had gone into the Commission business there with an uncle who had no son to succeed him in the firm.
But, although I p.r.i.c.ked up my ears smartly at my father"s unguarded remark, I had to smother my excitement as best I could, and study patience--surely the hardest lesson ever set for the young. When older people were talking with one another, it was esteemed an impertinence in children to interrupt them by questions.
"If it were best for you to understand what we were saying, we would take pains to explain it to you," my mother would say when we broke this one of her rules. And, still oftener, "Little girls should trust their fathers and mothers to tell them at the right time all that they ought to know."
The right time in this instance was one moonlight September night, soon after Mary "Liza and I had gone to bed. My mother had a habit of coming up to our room, and sitting down by the bed in the dark, or without other light than the moon, to have a little talk with us. "To give us a good appet.i.te for our dreams," she would say in her merry way. We dearly enjoyed these visits, especially on Sunday nights, when we told her what we had been reading and thinking that day, and repeated the hymns we loved best.
This was on Monday night, and she began by telling us that Miss Judy Curran was coming the next day, to make our fall and winter frocks, and that there would be a pretty busy time with us all for the rest of the month, as we were going to school in Richmond, the fifth day of October.
"Your father and I do not believe in boarding-schools," she continued.
"We think that G.o.d gives our children to us to be brought up and educated, as far as possible, by us, their parents, and not to be made over to hirelings at the very time when they are most easily led right or wrong. There are, however, excellent reasons why you should begin now to know more of the world than you can learn in a quiet country neighborhood such as this. We are thankful to be able to give you the advantages of a city school, without depriving you of good home-training. You are to live with your Cousin Molly Belle, and be day-scholars in Mrs. Nunham"s seminary."
Even Mary "Liza gave a little jump under the sheet at the astounding news, while I leaped clean out of bed, and danced around the room in my night-gown, clapping my hands and uttering small shrieks of ecstasy.
"Hurrah! hurrah! goody! goody! mother! it is like a fairy tale!"
I was somewhat abashed, and decidedly ashamed of my transport when the blessed mother said gently, after a little sigh:--
"Of course I shall miss my daughters sadly, but I hope what we are doing is for their good. If I were less sure of this, I could not part with them."
From the hour in which her first-born baby was laid in her arms, until she closed her eyes in the sleep from which our wild weeping could not awaken her, her ever-present thought was the children"s best good.
Nothing that could secure that was self-denial on her part.
I have come to Richmond to write this chapter. From my window I look down upon the pavement trodden by my feet twice a day for ten months out of twelve, during four school years. The house in which I sojourn belongs to a younger brother of him who figures in my story as "Bud." It occupies the site of the large, yellow frame building in which Mrs.
Nunham taught her "young ladies," more than forty years ago.
[Ill.u.s.tration: HOW I CAME TO TOWN.
"My father walked between Mary "Liza and myself, each of us holding to one of his arms, as gentlemen and ladies walked."]
I smile, as fancy reconstructs the group that turned the corner into this street, a block away, on the fifth of October of that memorable year in the forties. My father walked between Mary "Liza and myself, each of us holding to one of his arms, as gentlemen and ladies in the country walked together then. He was a well-built, clear-eyed, clean-lived, upright gentleman, whom G.o.d had made and whom the world had not spoiled. My cousin and I were dressed exactly alike. Into every detail of daily life my mother carried her principle of treating the orphan as her own child. Our country-made frocks were of dark-green merino, becoming to my blond companion, and anything but becoming to my sun-browned skin. Over the frocks were neat black silk ap.r.o.ns with pockets. White linen-cambric frills, hemst.i.tched by hand, and carefully crimped, were at our throats and wrists, and sunbonnets upon our heads, or rather, "slatted" hoods that could be folded at pleasure. These were of dark-green silk, to match the merinos, and ribbon of the same color was quilled around the capes, crowns, and brims. Our silk gloves were also dark green, and my mother had knit them herself.
Every item of our school costume was prescribed by her before we left home. I comprehend now, why the water stood in Cousin Molly Belle"s eyes, while dancing lights played under the water, when we presented ourselves at breakfast-time, dressed for the important first day in the Seminary. I appreciate, furthermore, as it was not possible I should then, the tact and delicacy with which she gradually modified our everyday and Sunday attire into something more in accordance with that of our school-fellows.
As we found out for ourselves, before the day was over, we were little girls in the midst of young ladies, so far as dress and carriage went.
We were imbued with the idea--gathered from the talk of friends and acquaintances, and our much reading of English story-books--that we were to be "polished" by our city a.s.sociations. It was a shock and a down-topple of our expectations to be thrown, without preparation, into the society of girls whose manners were very little, if at all, more refined than those of the quartette who with us const.i.tuted Miss Davidson"s home school. We were even more confounded at the discovery that our home-education had so rooted and grounded us in the rudiments of learning that we were cla.s.sed, after the preliminary examination, with girls older than we by four and five years. The circ.u.mstance did not make us popular with our comrades.
As if my cheeks had tingled under the a.s.sault but to-day, I recall the exclamation of a girl of fifteen who sat next to me while the examination in history was held. Her father was a distinguished citizen of Richmond, and her mother a leader in fashionable society.
"Lord, child! how smart you think yourself, to be sure!" she said aloud, turning squarely about to look into my face.
I had answered as quietly and briefly as I could, the questions put to me, and tried politely not to look scandalized at her flippant failures.
"I"m sure I don"t know!" "Never heard of him!" "If I ever knew, I"ve forgotten all about it!"--were, to my notion, a disgrace, and her cool effrontery would have been severely rebuked by our governess, and have met with still sterner judgment from my mother.
At recess this offensive young person headed a coterie that surrounded us, criticised our clothes, and catechised us as to our home, our family, and our mode of home living. Among other choice _bon mots_ from the Honorable Member"s daughter was the inquiry--"if we got the pattern of our wagon-cover hoods from Mrs. Noah?"
I told Cousin Molly Belle that night, that "the whole pack were ill-bred, rude, and unbearable."
She agreed heartily with two of my epithets, and took me up on the third:--
"Nothing is "unbearable," Namesake, except the thought of our own folly or sin. Still, this is a part of the discipline of life I would spare you, if I could. Endure hardness as a good soldier, and shame their want of breeding by the perfection of yours. An unmannerly schoolgirl is the cruellest of tormentors, and"--with a ring of her voice and a snap of her eyes that were refreshing and characteristic--"I should like to have the handling of that crew for an hour or two!"
I snuggled up close to her, already measurably consoled, and ready as usual, with one of the speeches that stamped me as "old-fashioned."
"We are like two wild pigeons, tied by the foot, in a yard full of peac.o.c.ks. I would rather be a pigeon than a peac.o.c.k. But pecks and struts and screamings are not agreeable, for all that."
Nor was it agreeable to be the only girls in our cla.s.s-room who were not invited to a party given the middle of November, by one of the nicest of our new acquaintances. She had been quite friendly with us, and the very day the invitations were sent out, laid a sprig of citronaloes silently on my lap, during a French lesson. The smile that went with the scented leaves was sweeter still, and made my heart and face glow. When we were getting our wraps and bonnets in the cloak-room, at the close of the afternoon session, I edged nearer and nearer to her, pretending to hunt for my overshoes, meaning to say a word of thanks as soon as the group about her thinned. I got so near to her that I caught what she was saying in a low voice to her intimates:--
"I just _hated_ not to invite the Burwells, but they do look so countryfied! like little old women cut short after they were made. And I don"t believe either of them has a party dress to her name. They would be a pair of sights in a roomful of well-dressed people."
I slipped away with a barbed arrow in my self-love, and a hard, resentful pain at my heart, on my mother"s account. Fierce tears scalded the inside of my eyelids as I recalled her weeks of loving preparation for our school life, the thousand of st.i.tches set by her dear hands, the gentle smile of satisfaction with which she had surveyed our finished wardrobe. When I was in my own room at Cousin Molly"s, I hugged and kissed and cried over the slatted hood, vowing vengefully to study so hard, and to rise so fast in my cla.s.ses, and to acquit myself so n.o.bly in the sight of my teachers, as to compel the admiration of the proud who rose up against me, and who compa.s.sed me about like bees.
David"s "cussing psalms" came readily and forcibly to my help in the hour of bitter humiliation.
If my wrath was unhallowed, it wrought the peaceable fruits of righteousness. The barb had gone too deep to be uncovered even to Cousin Molly Belle, but the hurt made a student of me. Giving up all thought of popularity and polish, I devoted myself to my school work with a.s.siduity that threatened injury to my health before the half-term was over. But for my best and most clear-sighted of cousins I might have become a misanthropic invalid.
On the very day of the now hateful party, she took us for a long drive,--the whole length of Main Street, the sidewalks of which were thronged with promenaders and shoppers. She stopped the carriage--a handsome equipage, with a smart coachman and two spanking grays--at Samanni"s and bought us a whole pound, apiece, of delicious candy, and treated us to Albemarle pippins to take home with us, and ice-cream eaten on the spot. Next, we went to Drinker and Morris"s, the fashionable bookstore, and she told us to pick out, each for herself, the books we would like best to have. Mary "Liza chose _The School-girl in France_, and I, _The Scottish Chiefs_. (I have it to this day.) We finished our excursion by a visit to St. John"s Church and burying-ground. Cousin Molly Belle"s grandfather had heard Patrick Henry"s "Liberty or Death" speech, and she made the scene very plain to us as we strolled along the dim aisles, streaked with flaming bars of sunset, striking through the western window upon the very spot where the great orator had stood.
By the time I had finished my supper, and was settled before the fire with my book, the memories of my jaunt making glad my whole being, I had clean forgotten party and slight, and did not care a fig--for that one night--if I _was_ countryfied and had not a party dress to my name. The real things were mine,--home-loves and the world of books and imagination,--possessions which the scorning of those who were at ease, and the contempt of the proud could not molest or take away.
I was reading _The Scottish Chiefs_ for the second time,--out of school, of course,--and studying with might and main, when something came to pa.s.s that altered the tone of my mates, converted oppressors into champions, and made a moderate heroine of me.
There were sixteen of us in the senior Geography Cla.s.s, I being the youngest. The practice of "turning down" for incorrect answers to questions was common at that date, even in Young Ladies" Seminaries.
When the cla.s.s was formed, we were seated according to age, but thanks to my governesses" drill, I had mounted steadily until I was now but one from the top--or, as we put it, was "next to head." The topmost place had been held for over a month by Mary Morgan, a slovenly and indolent girl of sixteen, who wrote poetry and had a great deal of old blue blood in her veins, as she was fond of informing all who had the patience to listen to her. Her recitations in most of her cla.s.ses were so imperfect that everybody was surprised at her keeping an honorable place in any until the whisper went around that she smuggled "help-papers" into the cla.s.s with her.
I am told that the use of "ponies," and much less reputable aids to perfect recitation in school and in college, is not considered dishonorable among the youth of the present age. Unmannerly and cruel as the girls in our seminary appeared to me, they had a certain sense of honor, a respect for truth and fair-dealing that bespoke better things than their surface-conduct indicated. When it was certainly known that Mary Morgan carried into the recitation-room notes of the lesson, written upon bits of paper, and tucked up her sleeve, or hidden in the folds of her dress, popular indignation arose to a bubbling boil. A tale-bearer would have been drummed out of school, and not a lisp of the shameful truth was carried to the teacher, the second Miss Nunham, who was near-sighted and unsuspicious. The geography lesson was the most exciting event of the day,--a prize-ring, in which the two at the head of the cla.s.s were chief actors. When a question reached Mary Morgan, the cla.s.s held its breath for a time. When she answered with glib accuracy, the breath exhaled in chagrin audible to all but the teacher. Out of cla.s.s I was noticed, cheered, and commended, and exhorted to hold on in the course of truth and uprightness--encouragement corresponding to the rubbing down and bracing bestowed by his guardians upon the pugilist.
And still the geography questions went around, and Mary Morgan was head and I next to head.
At last, on the fifteenth of December, came the tug of war in the shape of a review of the exercises of the last month, and Mary Morgan was armed for the fray by half a dozen long slips of paper covered with characters in very black ink. Presuming upon the teacher"s short-sighted eyes, and nerved by a sense of the gravity of the situation, she boldly laid the papers upon the bench between her and myself, and consulted them from time to time, with coolness that would have been heroic had it not been impudent. The recitation was half over, when the girl who sat next below me "made a long arm" behind my back, and abstracted one of the abhorrent slips without the knowledge of the owner. She perceived the loss as the questions were again nearing her, gave one frightened glance at the floor on all sides of her, colored violently; made a desperate rally of memory and courage when the question reached her, answered so wildly that the teacher gave her a second trial, and, in pity for her distress, still a third.
Such a simple question as it was! I can never forget it. "What large island lies south of Hindostan?"
Nor can I forget the pale dismay of the face turned to me as the teacher said, reluctantly,--"Next."