Where Have All The Bullets Gone?
by Spike Milligan.
1985.
Preface.
In my previous war books, alas, to my sorrow, some of those mentioned took offehce at some of the references, which of course were intended to be humorous. But then you can"t please everybody, as the late Adolf Hitler said, so in this book I have used fict.i.tious names. I would still like to add that the book is intended to be humorous.
Spike Milligan
Foreword.
The t.i.tle of this book is a phrase remembered down the years. As I was lying on a makeshift bed in a rain-ridden tent alongside a Scots Guardsman, Jock Rogers, in a camp for the bomb-happy miles behind the firing line, I realized that for the first time in a year and a half, I was not worrying about mortar bombs, sh.e.l.ls or Spandaus, and I said to him "Where have all the bullets gone?" I had totally forgotten this utterance until one night, during a visit to South Africa, I was arriving at the theatre and there outside the stage door was the tall lean Scots Guardsman, now grey but still as positive as ever. "Where have all the bullets gone?" he said. A quick drink and we were back to those haunting days in Italy in 1944, at the foot of Mount Vesuvius, with lava running in great red rivulets down the slope towards us us, and Jock taking a drag on his cigarette and saying, "I think we"ve got grounds for a rent rebate." He was one of many who entered and left my life in the years 1944 and "45, and in this book I have begun the story with my leaving the front line Regiment (19 Battery 56 Heavy Field RA) and frigging around in a sort of khaki limbo until someone found a job for me to do. It was all to lead to my making the world of entertainment my profession, but when you think that you have to have a world war to find the right job, it makes you think. Here it is then.
Spike Milligan Foxcombe House, South Harting, Hampshire.
January 1985
AFRAGOLA.
Afragola What is is an Afragola? An Afragola is a small grotty suburb of Bella Napoli. Named after a Centurion who performed a heroic deed against Spartacus and Co: he hit one of them and in return was killed. A grateful Emperor named this spot in his honour. It was a spot I wouldn"t give to a leopard. A field adjacent to this "spot" is now a transit camp for "bomb-happy" soldiers and an Afragola? An Afragola is a small grotty suburb of Bella Napoli. Named after a Centurion who performed a heroic deed against Spartacus and Co: he hit one of them and in return was killed. A grateful Emperor named this spot in his honour. It was a spot I wouldn"t give to a leopard. A field adjacent to this "spot" is now a transit camp for "bomb-happy" soldiers and I I was now "bomb-happy", having been dumped here, along with some untreated sewage, following treatment at No. 2 General Hospital, Caserta. After several medical boards, I was down-graded to B2, considered loony and "unfit to be killed in combat" by either side. My parents were so disappointed. was now "bomb-happy", having been dumped here, along with some untreated sewage, following treatment at No. 2 General Hospital, Caserta. After several medical boards, I was down-graded to B2, considered loony and "unfit to be killed in combat" by either side. My parents were so disappointed.
It"s a bleak misty day with new added drizzle for extra torment. Mud! How did it climb up your body, over your hat, and back down into your boots? The camp"s official t.i.tle is REHABILITATION.
Oxford Dictionary: Oxford Dictionary: Rehabilitation Rehabilitation: Dealing with the restoration of the maimed and unfit to a place in society.
So! Now Now I was maimed, unfit, and about to be restored to a place in society! The camp was a mixture of "loonies" and "normals". One couldn"t tell the difference, save during air-raids when the loonies dropped everything and ran screaming in the direction of away, crying "Mummy". Today mud and men were standing around in huddled groups or sitting in the tents with the flaps up; our camp emblem should have been a dead hippopotamus. A Sergeant Arnolds appears to be "running the camp"...into the ground. He was to organization what Arthur Scargill was to landscape gardening. Would I like to be a unit clerk? Why? He had spotted a pencil in my pocket. The job has advantages - excused parades for one, and I sleep in a large marquee, which is the office. Having a tilly lamp put me in the "that rotten b.a.s.t.a.r.d can read in bed" category. I was maimed, unfit, and about to be restored to a place in society! The camp was a mixture of "loonies" and "normals". One couldn"t tell the difference, save during air-raids when the loonies dropped everything and ran screaming in the direction of away, crying "Mummy". Today mud and men were standing around in huddled groups or sitting in the tents with the flaps up; our camp emblem should have been a dead hippopotamus. A Sergeant Arnolds appears to be "running the camp"...into the ground. He was to organization what Arthur Scargill was to landscape gardening. Would I like to be a unit clerk? Why? He had spotted a pencil in my pocket. The job has advantages - excused parades for one, and I sleep in a large marquee, which is the office. Having a tilly lamp put me in the "that rotten b.a.s.t.a.r.d can read in bed" category.
At ten of a morning, a lorry would arrive bearing the latest intake of "loonies". I would doc.u.ment them on large foolscap forms that were never asked for, nor ever seen again. The weather is foul, or more, duck. The damp!
Matches, like Tories, wouldn"t strike, f.a.gs went out and never came back, paper wouldn"t crackle, blankets had the sickly sweet smell of death. Men took their battledresses to bed to keep them dry and, sometimes, for companionship.
February 14 ST VALENTINE"S DAY AND BRONCHITIS From the pelting rain a lone guardsman reports to the tent, wrung out - he could become a tributary of the Thames. He"s got fish in his pockets and is going mouldy. Tall, thin, a dark Celtic image, a Scots Guard, though covered in so much muck he could well be a Mud Guard. He dumps his kit in the marquee. It goes Squeegeee! Sergeant Arnolds cautions him: "Yew, kinnot sleep hin "ere." The guardsman"s face screws up: "I"m f.u.c.kin" stayin" in here Jamie, and no c.u.n.t is gonna ha me oot." Arnolds exits muttering threats. Guardsman "Jock" Rogers becomes resident and, to save face, Sergeant Arnolds appoints him "Runner", even though he only walks.
Helping lose the war is the army food. Cordon Brown. Bully beef! The meat in these tins was from beasts, proud descendants of cattle introduced by the Conquistadores of Cortez to graze and grow fat on the lush sunlit pastures of the Aztecs. Now lukewarm bits of them were floating around my mess tin, in watery gravy. "I"ve seen cows hurt worse than this and live," says Guardsman Rogers. I had never seen transparent custard before. Rogers is convinced that the cooks will be tried as war criminals. A camel couldn"t pa.s.s through the eye of a needle, he says, but his breakfast could.
"h.e.l.lo, Milligan."
I look up from my forms. It"s my old D Battery Skipper, Captain Martin.
"What are you doing here?"
I say I"m doing my best. He shoots a glance at my sleeve. "My stripes are at the cleaners, sir, getting the blood off."
I tell him I"m here because I"m a "loony". He departs for the UK I never saw him again. I wonder if he survived. He never attended Battery reunions. Perhaps he was killed, which is one way of avoiding Battery reunions.
News Fighting on the Ca.s.sino front is savage, like World War I.
My G.o.d! They"ve bombed the Monastery into rubble. I can"t believe it. It"s true. We must be b.l.o.o.d.y mad...I know the head Abbot was, oh the bill for repairs...
New intakes are arriving. All ask that haunting question.
"What"s going to happen to me?" I try and rea.s.sure them.
"You"ll be OK here, chum." I wished I could have said: "I see a dark millionairess who will soothe the swelling and lay hands on you."
Hope is coming! An ENSA Concert Party! Strong men broke down and cried, others knelt and prayed, the rest faced England and sang "Jerusalem". Would it be sing-you-to-death Gracie Fields? Michael Wilding and his wig? In antic.i.p.ation we all waited in a muddy field for its arrival. It appeared in the form of a large American lorry which backed towards us. On the tailboard a sign: ENSA PRESENTS THE TAILBOARD FOLLIES ENSA PRESENTS THE TAILBOARD FOLLIES. The tailboard is lowered by a dwarf-like driver (cheers). The back flaps still hanging, the bottom half of a piano and a pianist are revealed, also the bottom half of a man in evening dress who throws up the flaps (cheers). He is a middle-aged man who has been dead ten years. He wrestles a microphone down to his height. "Last man was taller than me," he says in the embarra.s.sed tones of a comic who will never make it. "Well," he chortled, "here we are." b.l.o.o.d.y fool, we all knew where we were. "First, to cheer you up, is our pianist Doris Terrible!" (Cheers). This is the old dear whose top half now reveals that she"s about sixty- five, and also dead. Heavily rouged and mascaraed, a masterpiece of the embalmer"s art, she plunged into the piano as if it were a wash tub. "Ma, he"s making eyes at me", "Blue Birds over the White Cliffs of Dover". On she thundered, the lorry shaking under the a.s.sault. We give her an ovation. "Now boys," she yodelled, "what would you like to hear next?" A c.o.c.kney voice: "We"d like to hear some b.l.o.o.d.y music!" She pretends to laugh, but we notice her hands are clenching and unclenching like the Boston Strangler"s, whom she later became. Again the mike-wrestling compere. He tells a few c.r.a.ppy gags. I suppose he meant well, but then so did Hitler. Ah, this is better! The Rumpo Twins! Two blondes, dressed as sailors with short skirts, tap dance and sing through "The Fleet"s in Port Again". Big cheers, whistles, and "Get "em down."
"Here to sing melodies divine is Gravard Lax." A time-ravaged middle-aged very fat tenor comes forward. "Lend us yer ration book," comes a cry.
"Good evening," he says in a high catarrhal voice, like snails had crawled up his nose. "Itt-isser, a greattt pleasurer-errr, to beee-er here-er to-nightttt-er."
"You"re lucky to be anywhere tonight." A voice.
"Ha ha ha-er" says the singer, meaning "You b.a.s.t.a.r.d-er." "I would like to sing the Bowmen of England-er."
"Then why don"t you?"
Mrs Terrible thunders the intro. Now, it so happens, at that very moment, a squadron of Heinkel bombers, with the engines cut, were gliding in to bomb Naples and/or Mrs Terrible and her piano. The engines roar into life, followed by the ascending banshee wail of the sirens, which synchronize with the opening of the tenor"s mouth. "My G.o.d," said Guardsman Rogers, "he"s singing the air-raid warning." Bombs start to drop, the entire audience vanishes and the driver slips the lorry into gear and drives away. I watched transfixed with laughter as the tenor, still singing "The Bowmen" was transported to safety, staggering and holding the sides of the lorry as they turned left and drove up the road to Afragola. He was still in full song as he disappeared into the darkness and I could only wonder when he stopped - did he reach Ca.s.sino? They don"t write songs like that any more.
[image] Hitlergram No Eins. .h.i.tlergram No Eins. .h.i.tLER: HITLER: h.e.l.lo Goering? How did zer air-raid go? h.e.l.lo Goering? How did zer air-raid go? GOERING: GOERING: Ve are breaking up zer Tailboard Follies, for zem zer war is over. Next time, Tommy Trinder, Ann Shelton and Micheal Wilding and his wig! Ve are breaking up zer Tailboard Follies, for zem zer war is over. Next time, Tommy Trinder, Ann Shelton and Micheal Wilding and his wig! HITLER: HITLER: Gut. Soon Vera Lynn and zer White Cliffs of Dover Sole will sue for peace. Gut. Soon Vera Lynn and zer White Cliffs of Dover Sole will sue for peace.
February 30 The day after, a notice appears on Part Two orders: "The ENSA Concert is cancelled until further notice." The war seems to have stopped, the weather and casualties have ground our advance to a halt. If no news is good news, we must all be delirious with happiness. Guardsman Rogers has been posting little pieces of mud home. "Dear Mother, This is a piece of mud. When you have enough, stand on it, and have a holiday in sunny Italy." The days pa.s.s, life is like a clock with no hands. - Wait! Excitement beckons. An Inspection? INSPECTION???? HERE??? Everybody"s covered in mud! We"re ankle deep in it! We are all s.h.i.t order! Yet, somewhere the British Army have found a Colonel suffering from I-must-have-an-inspection withdrawal symptoms. A BBC doc.u.mentary of what followed, would go thus: COMM: COMM: Well here we are on the great field of mud inspection parade (sound of rain, thunder and groans). Some ten thousand tons of mud have been flown in especially to simulate the Somme. The troops are wearing their best battledress with their best mud on it. It"s a proud sight as the Colonel walks along the ranks of slowly sinking men. He"s stopped to talk to a soldier in a hole. But it"s too late, he"s drowned. Well here we are on the great field of mud inspection parade (sound of rain, thunder and groans). Some ten thousand tons of mud have been flown in especially to simulate the Somme. The troops are wearing their best battledress with their best mud on it. It"s a proud sight as the Colonel walks along the ranks of slowly sinking men. He"s stopped to talk to a soldier in a hole. But it"s too late, he"s drowned.
It was a proud day for the British Army and a hysterical one for me. If only Hitler had known.
[image] Hitlergram No. Zwei Hitlergram No. Zwei HITLER: HITLER: If only I had known. If only I had known. GOEBBELS: GOEBBELS: If only you had known vat? If only you had known vat? HITLER: HITLER: That"s That"s vat I don"t know. vat I don"t know.
92 General Hospital Naples Mud and trench foot have triumphed! We move to 92 General Naples! Here we are in warm dry billets and for a time the administration was taken over by the hospital, so Jock and I were "spare w.a.n.ks" but were told to "Stand by". We did. We "stood by". What we were standing by for we knew not, but whenever we were asked. "What are you men doing?" we replied "Standing by, sir" and it sufficed.
Naples, land of Wine, Women and Syph. The Borsa Nera!
My parents sent me all my post office savings - no good leaving it mouldering in England when here I could become rich, rich, rich! In time it arrived, smuggled in a box cunningly marked Pile Suppositories. My parents were no fools.
Six pounds! Wait till this money hits the black market! Next evening, on the Via Roma, I made contact.
"Hey, Joe," (he"d got my name wrong!) "you wanna change money or a f.u.c.k?"
"Sterling," I said out of the corner of my mouth.
"How mucha you gotta?"
I smiled secretively. I handed him the Pile Suppository box.
He shook out the money. "Six pounds?" he said. "Is datta all?" He was joking, he was just trying to play it cool. I nodded like James Cagney and I made with the shoulders. "What"s the rate?" I said, this time as George Raft. Two thousand lire. Great. The hit man looked up and down the street. "You waita here, wid my two a friends." He indicated two young urchins and made off.
"He go makea da deal," said the eldest.
I waited. We all waited. "He takea longa time," said one urchin. "I go see whata happen" and left. Three down, one to go. We wait.
"Something ees a wrong, I go and see, you waita herea."
And none to go. I waited "herea", the evening dew settled on me, midnight, I waited "herea" for three hours. Technically I"m still waiting. James Cagney, George Raft and Bombardier Milligan have been conned. I walked back down the Via Roma as Charlie Chaplin.
"Wanna buy cigarette Americano?" A young urchin hove to.
Yes! I"ll get my own back! I"ll buy cigarettes cheap! Twenty Philip Morris. It was strange - the ship bearing my six pounds in a Pile Suppository box had risked U-boats, dive bombers, all that bravery for nothing.
Back at the 92 General, Rogers is waiting expectantly. "Well, ha" you got spondulicks?" he said, rubbing his hands. I tell my woeful story, he laughs at each revelation. Never mind, have a real American cigarette. I open a packet like John Wayne, give the base a flick, sawdust spurts out. Rogers laughs out loud. Sawdust! "Why not start a circus?" he says, ducking a boot at his head.
TORRE DEL GRECO.
Torre Del Greco Torre Del Greco was a dust and rags village astride the Salerno-Naples Road on the south side of Vesuvius. It was adjacent to this that a new tented camp had been erected for our "loonies". A short journey by lorry saw us settling in. It was life as per Afragola. The warm weather had come and we watched as the sun dried out our mud-caked men, making them look like fossilized corpses of Turkish Janissaries. The office tent is in among olive groves, yes. Olive Groves, the diva that sang with Ivor Novello. Who could christen a child Olive Groves? Why not Walnut Trees?
A letter from my mother gives dire warning of the coming shortage of underwear in England. "You would be wise to stock up now, son," she urges. "It"s already started. Neighbours have stopped hanging their laundry out and your father sleeps with his underwear on for safety." Obeying my mother"s warning, I bought, stole, cajoled a ma.s.s of underwear, from a series of holes on a waist band to heavily patched beer-stained transparent long-johns.
From the medical board I had received my "U are now officially down-graded" papers. I was still glad to see on the certificate that I had Hernia...Nil, Varicose Veins...Nil, a draw! I also noted that I had No Gynaecological disorders. I wrote and told my mother I was B2. She wrote back: "Your father and I are so proud, none of our family have ever had the B2 before."
March 1944 It was spring, the sun shone and the mud disappeared. Banging his boot on the ground, Guardsman Rogers exclaims: "My G.o.d! I think I"ve found land!"
The New Broom Cweeps Slean The camp is to be run by a loony officer; he"s been blown up on the Volturno and blown down again at Ca.s.sino. Captain Peters of the Queens. Tall and thin, large horse-like face, pale blue eyes with a rapid blink and a twitch of the head; all done with a strange noise at the back of the nose that goes "phnut". He is balding and has a fine head of hairs. Speaks very rapidly due to an overdraft at Lloyds.
To date one had the feeling that the Rehabilitation Camp was totally unknown and unrecorded in the Army lists. With the coming of Captain Peters all that changed. The camp went on being unknown and unrecorded, but now we had an officer in charge. The camp had a turnover of about a thousand men, all in a state of coming and going, unlike me who couldn"t tell if I was coming or going. Under Peters the food improved. He indented for twice the amount, and sent scrounging parties to buy eggs, chicken and fish, all of which the cooks dutifully boiled to shreds. "I think they put it in with the laundry," said Peters. He also allowed men out of an evening, but the effect of alcohol on some of the loonies who were on tranquillizers was alarming. It was something to see the guard commander and his men holding down a half naked s.h.i.t-covered, wine-stained loony alternately being sick, screaming and singing. Some loonies tried to climb Vesuvius. G.o.d knows how many fell in. A resident psychiatrist arrived. He immediately dished out drugs that zombified most of the inmates, who walked around the camp staring-eyed, grinning and saying "h.e.l.lo" to trees.
March 5 DIARY: DIARY: HIGH TEMPERATURE REPORTED SICK HIGH TEMPERATURE REPORTED SICK.
"You"ve got Gingivitis," said the M.O.
"Gingivitis?"
"It"s inflamed gums." I see. A sort of Trench Foot of the mouth.
"It was very common in World War One."
"Is it a better cla.s.s now?"
"Do you clean your teeth regularly?"
"Yes, once a week."
"You"ve got it quite badly, you can pick it up anywhere."
"Not in the legs surely?"
He smiled. "I"m putting you in the 70th General." General."
The 70th! I"d done the 92nd, now the 70th! BINGO! "Gunner Milligan, you have just won the golden thermometer!"
70th General Hospital Pompeii General Hospital Pompeii A long cool ward full of military illnesses. Through the window I see a wall with faded Fascist slogans: long cool ward full of military illnesses. Through the window I see a wall with faded Fascist slogans: OBBIDIRE, CREDERE, LAVORARE, MUSSOLINI HA SEMPRE RAGGIONE. OBBIDIRE, CREDERE, LAVORARE, MUSSOLINI HA SEMPRE RAGGIONE.
Obey, believe, work. Three words that would send a British Leyland worker into a swoon.
A gay nurse leads me to my bed. "Put those on." He points to some blue pyjamas. Each side of me are two soldiers with bronchitis. They are asleep. When they wake up they still have it. One is from Lewisham, the other isn"t. The gay nurse returns and takes my temperature.
"What is it?"
"It"s a thermometer," he says and minces off.