They pa.s.sed the photographs round in silence. I didn"t particularly look to see what they were thinking, I was just hoping they wouldn"t ask what I knew they would: and Sir Thomas said it baldly. "Was this done to you as well?"
I reluctantly nodded.
"Will you take your shirt off, then, Sid?"
"Look," I said. "What does it matter? I"m not laying any charges of a.s.sault or grievous bodily harm, or anything like that. There"s going to be no police, no court case, nothing. I"ve been through all that once, as you know, and I"m not, absolutely not, doing it again. This time there"s to be no noise. All that"s necessary is to tell Lucas I know what"s been happening, and if you think it right, to get him to resign. There"s nothing to be gained by anything else. You don"t want any public scandal. It would be harmful to racing as a whole."
"Yes, but..." "There"s Peter Rammileese," I said. "Perhaps Eddy Keith might really sort out those syndicates, now. It would only get Rammileese deeper in if he boasted that he"d bribed Lucas, so I shouldn"t think he would. I doubt if he"d talk about Chico and me, either."
Except perhaps, I thought sardonically, to complain that I"d hit him very hard. "What about the two men from Glasgow?" Sir Thomas said. "Are they just to get away with it?"
"I"d rather that than go to court again as a victim," I said. I half smiled. "You might say that the business over my hand successfully deterred me from that sort of thing for the rest of my life."
A certain amount of urbane relief crept into both the faces and the general proceedings.
"However," Sir Thomas said. "The resignation of the Director of Security cannot be undertaken lightly. We must judge for ourselves whether or not what you have said is justified. The photographs of Mr Barnes aren"t enough. So please... take off your shirt."
b.u.g.g.e.r it, I thought. I didn"t want to. And from the distaste in their faces, they didn"t want to see. I hated the whole d.a.m.n thing. Hated what had happened to us. Detested it. I wished I hadn"t come to Portman Square.
"Sid," Sir Thomas said seriously. "You must."
I undid the b.u.t.tons and stood up and slid the shirt off. The only pink bit of me was the plastic arm, the rest being mottled black with dark red criss-crossed streaks. It looked, by that time, with all the bruising coming out, a lot worse than it felt. It looked, as I knew, appalling. It also looked, on that day, the worst it would. It was because of that that I"d insisted on going to Portman Square on that day. I hadn"t wanted to show them the damage, yet I"d known they would insist, and I would have to: and if I had to, that day was the most convincing. The human mind was deviously ambivalent, when it wanted to defeat its enemies.
In a week or so, most of the marks would have gone, and I doubted whether there would be a single permanent external scar. It had all been quite precisely a matter of outraging the sensitive nerves of the skin, transient, leaving no trace. With such a complete lack of lasting visible damage, the Scots would know that even if they were brought to trial, they would get off lightly. For a hand, all too visible, the sentence had been four years. The going rate for a few days" surface discomfort was probably three months. In long robbery-with-violence sentences it was always the robbery that stretched the time, not the violence.
"Turn round," Sir Thomas said. I turned round, and after a while I turned back. No one said anything. Charles looked at his most unruffled. Sir Thomas stood up and walked over to me, and inspected the scenery more closely. Then he picked up my shirt from the chair, and held it for me to put on again.
I said "Thank you," and did up the b.u.t.tons. Pushed the tails untidily into the top of my trousers. Sat down.
It seemed quite a long time before Sir Thomas lifted the inter-office telephone and said to his secretary, "Would you ask Commander Wainwright to come here, please?"
If the administrators still had any doubts, Lucas himself dispelled them. He walked briskly and unsuspectingly into a roomful of silence, and when he saw me sitting there he stopped moving suddenly, as if his brain had given up transmitting to his muscles.
The blood drained from his face, leaving the grey-brown eyes staring from a barren landscape. I had an idea that I must have looked like that to Trevor Deansgate, in the Stewards" box at Chester. I thought that quite likely, at that moment, Lucas couldn"t feel his feet on to the carpet.
"Lucas," Sir Thomas said, pointing to a chair, "sit down."
Lucas fumbled his way into the chair with his gaze still fixedly on me, as if he couldn"t believe I was there, as if by staring hard enough he could make me vanish.
Sir Thomas cleared his throat". "Lucas, Sid Halley, here, has been telling us certain things which require explanation."
Lucas was hardly listening. Lucas said to me, "You can"t be here."
"Why not?" I said. They waited for Lucas to answer, but he didn"t.
Sir Thomas said eventually, "Sid has made serious charges. I"ll put them before you, Lucas, and you can answer as you will." He repeated more or less everything I"d told them, without emphasis and without mistake. The judicial mind, I thought, taking the heat out of things, reducing pa.s.sion to probabilities. Lucas appeared to be listening, but he looked at me all the time.
"So you see," Sir Thomas said finally, "we are waiting for you to deny - or admit - that Sid"s theories are true."
Lucas turned his head away from me and looked vaguely round the room. "It"s all rubbish, of course," he said.
"Carry on," said Sir Thomas. "He"s making it all up." He was thinking again, fast. The briskness in some measure returned to his manner. "I certainly didn"t tell him to investigate any syndicates. I certainly didn"t tell him I had doubts about Eddy. I never talked to him about this imaginary Mason. He"s invented it all." "With what purpose?" I said. "How should I know?" "I didn"t invent coming here twice to copy down notes of the syndicates," I said. "I didn"t invent Eddy complaining because I"d seen those files. I didn"t invent you telephoning Chico at my flat four times. I didn"t invent you dropping us at the car park. I didn"t invent Peter Rammileese, who might be persuaded to... er... talk. I could also find those two Scots, if I tried."
"How?" he said.
I"d ask young Mark, I thought. He would have learnt a lot about the friends in all that time: little Mark and his accurate ears.
I said, "Don"t you mean, I invented the Scots?"
He glared at me.
"I could also," I said slowly, "start looking for the real reasons behind all this. Trace the rumours of corruption to their source. Find out who, besides Peter Rammileese, is keeping you in Mercedes."
Lucas Wainwright was silent. I didn"t know that I could do all I"d said, but he wouldn"t want to bet I couldn"t. If he hadn"t thought me capable he"d have seen no need to get rid of me in the first place. It was his own judgement I was invoking, not mine.
"Would you be prepared for that, Lucas?" Sir Thomas said.
Lucas stared my way some more, and didn"t answer.
"On the other hand," I said, "I think if you resigned, it would be the end of it."
He turned his head away from me and stared at the Senior Steward instead.
Sir Thomas nodded. "That"s all, Lucas. Just your resignation, now, in writing. If we had that, I would see no reason to proceed any further."
It was the easiest let-off anyone could have had, but to Lucas, at that moment, it must have seemed bad enough. His face looked strained and pale, and there were tremors round his mouth.
Sir Thomas produced from his desk a sheet of paper, and from his pocket a gold ball-point pen.
"Sit here, Lucas."
He rose and gestured to Lucas to sit by the desk. Commander Wainwright walked over with stiff legs and shakily sat where he"d been told. He wrote a few words, which I read later. / resign from the post of Director of Security to the Jockey Club. Lucas Wainwright.
He looked around at the sober faces, at the people who had known him well, and trusted him, and had worked with him every day. He hadn"t said a word, since he"d come into the office, of defence or appeal. I thought: how odd it must be for them all, facing such a shattering readjustment.
He stood up, the pepper and salt man, and walked towards the door.
As he came to where I sat he paused, and looked at me blankly, as if not understanding.
"What does it take," he said, "to stop you?"
I didn"t answer.
What it took rested casually on my knee. Four strong fingers, and a thumb, and independence.
CHAPTER TWENTY.
Charles drove us back to Aynsford.