Gradually, as she remembered this, she ceased crying altogether, and began to move about the room to prepare the tea, a business to which she was well used, for she had always considered it an honour to get Uncle Joshua"s tea and make toast for him. The kettle already hung on its chain over the fire, and gave out a gentle simmering sound; by the time the toast was ready the water would boil. Lilac got the bread from the corner cupboard and cut some stout slices. Uncle liked his toast thick.
Then she knelt on the hearth, and shielding her face with one hand chose out the fiercest red hollows of the fire. It was an anxious process, needing the greatest attention; for Lilac prided herself on her toast, and it was a matter of deep importance that it should be a fine even brown all over--neither burnt, nor smoked, nor the least blackened.
While she was making it she was happy again, and quite unconscious of the fringe, for the first time since she had felt Agnetta"s cold scissors on her brow.
It was soon quite ready on a plate on the hearth, so that it might keep hot. Uncle Joshua was ready also, for he came in just then from his shed, carrying his completed job in his hand: a pair of huge hobnailed boots, which he placed gently on the ground as though they were brittle and must be handled with care.
"Them"s Peter Greenways" boots," he said, looking at them with some triumph, "and a good piece of work they be!"
It was a great relief to Lilac that neither then nor during the meal did Uncle Joshua look at her with surprise, or appear to notice that there was anything different about her. Everything went on just as usual, just as it had so often done before. She sat on one side of the table and poured out the tea, and Uncle Joshua in his high-backed elbow chair on the other, with his red-and-white handkerchief over his knees, his spectacles pushed up on his forehead, and a well-b.u.t.tered slice of toast in his hand. He never talked much during his meals; partly because he was used to having them alone, and partly because he liked to enjoy one thing at a time thoroughly. He was fond of talking and he was fond of eating, and he would not spoil both by trying to do them together. So to-night, as usual, he drank endless cups of tea in almost perfect silence, and at last Lilac began to wish he would stop, for although she feared she yet longed for his opinion. She felt more able to face it now that she had eaten something, for without knowing it she had been hungry as well as miserable, and had quite forgotten that she had had no dinner. She watched Uncle Joshua nervously. Would he ask for more tea.
No. He wiped his mouth with the red handkerchief, looked straight at Lilac, and suddenly spoke:
"And how"s the picture going forrard then?"
After this question it was easy to tell the whole story, from its beginning to its unlucky end. During its progress the cobbler listened with the deepest attention, gave now a nod, and now a shake of the head or a muttered "Humph!" and when it was finished he fingered his cheek thoughtfully, and said:
"And so he wouldn"t paint you--eh? and Mother was angry?"
"She"s dreadful angry," sighed Lilac.
"Did you think it "ud please her, now?" asked Uncle Joshua.
"N-no," answered Lilac hesitatingly; "but I never thought as how she"d make so much fuss. And after all no one don"t like it. Do you think as how it looks _very_ bad, Uncle?"
The cobbler put his spectacles carefully straight and studied Lilac"s face with earnest attention. "What I consider is this here," he said as he finished his examination and leant back in his chair. "It makes you look like lots of other little gells, that"s what it does. Not so much like White Lilac as you used to. I liked it best as it wur afore."
"Peter, he said that too," said Lilac. "No one likes it except Agnetta."
"Ah! And what made Agnetta and all of "em cut their hair that way?"
asked Uncle Joshua.
"Because Gusta Greenways told Bella as how all the ladies in London did it," answered Lilac simply.
"That"s where it is," said Uncle Joshua. "My little maid, there"s things as is fitting and there"s things as isn"t fitting. Perhaps it"s fitting for London ladies to wear their hair so. Very well, then let them do it. But why should you and Agnetta and the rest copy "em?
You"re not ladies. You"re country girls with honest work to do, and proud you ought to be of it. As proud every bit as the grandest lady as ever was, who never put her hand to a useful thing in her life. I"m not saying you"re better than her. She"s got her own place, an" her own lessons to learn, an" she"s got to do the best she can with her life.
But you"re different, because your life"s different, an" you"ll never look like her whatever you put on your outside. If a thing isn"t fit for what it"s intended, it"ll never look well. Now, here"s Peter"s boots--I call "em handsome."
He lifted one of them as he spoke and put it on the table, where it seemed to take up a great deal of room. Lilac looked at it with a puzzled air; she saw nothing handsome in it. It was enormously thick and deeply wrinkled across the toes, which were turned upwards as though with many and many a weary tramp.
"I call "em handsome," pursued Joshua. "Because for why? Because they"re fit for ploughin" in the stiffest soil. Because they"ll keep out wet and never give in the seams. They"re fit for what they"re meant to do. But now you just fancy," he went on, raising one finger, "as how I"d made "em of shiny leather, and put paper soles to "em, and pointed tips to the toes. How"d they look in a ploughed field or a muddy lane?
Or s"pose Peter he went and capered about in these "ere on a velvet carpet an" tried to dance. How"d he look?"
The idea of the loutish Peter capering anywhere, least of all on a velvet carpet, made Lilac smile in spite of Uncle Joshua"s great gravity.
"Why, he"d look silly," he continued; "as silly as a country girl, who"s got to scrub an" wash an" make the b.u.t.ter, dressed out in silks an"
fandangoes. She ought to be too proud of being what she is, to try and look like what she isn"t. Give me down that big brown book yonder an"
I"ll read you something fine about that."
Lilac reached the book from the shelf with the greatest reverence; it was the only one amongst Joshua"s collection that she often begged to look at, because it was full of curious pictures. It was Lavater"s Physiognomy; having found the pa.s.sage he wanted, Joshua read it very slowly aloud:
"In the mansion of G.o.d there are to his glory vessels of wood, of silver, and of gold. All are serviceable, all profitable, all capable of divine uses, all the instruments of G.o.d: but the wood continues wood, the silver silver, the gold gold. Though the golden should remain unused, still they are gold. The wooden may be made more serviceable than the golden, but they continue wood. Let each be what he is, so will he be sufficiently good, for man himself, and G.o.d. The violin cannot have the sound of the flute, nor the trumpet of the drum."
He had just finished the last line, and still held one knotty brown finger raised to mark the important words, when there was a low knock at the door, and immediately afterwards it opened a little way and a head appeared, covered by a rusty-black wideawake. It was the second time that day that Lilac had seen it, for it was Peter Greenways" head. In a moment all the events of the unlucky morning came back to her, and his gruffly unfavourable opinion. Why had he come? This awkward Peter was always turning up when he was not wanted, and thrusting that large uncouth head in at unexpected places. She turned her back towards the door in much vexation, and Peter himself remained stationary, with his eyes fixed where he had first directed them--on his own boot, which still stood on the table by Joshua"s elbow. His first intention had evidently been to come in, but suddenly seized with shyness he was now unable to move.
"Why, Peter, lad," said the cobbler, "come in then; the boots is ready for you."
Thus invited Peter slowly opened the door a very little wider and squeezed himself into the room. He was indeed a very awkward-looking youth, and though he was broad-shouldered and strongly made, he was so badly put together that he did not seem to join properly anywhere, and moved with effort as though he were walking in a heavy clay soil.
Everything about Peter, and even the colour of his clothes, made you think of a ploughed field, and he generally kept his eyes fastened on the ground as though following the course of a furrow. This was a pity, for his eyes were the only good features in his broad red face, and had the kindly faithful expression seen in those of some dogs.
As he stood there, ill at ease, with his enormous hands opening and shutting nervously, Lilac thought of Agnetta"s speech: "Peter"s so common." If to be common was to look like Peter, it was a thing to be avoided, and she was dismayed to hear Uncle Joshua say:
"Well, now, if you"re not just in time to go home with Lilac here, seein" as how we"ve done our tea, and her mother"ll be looking for her."
"Oh, Uncle, I"d rather not," said Lilac hastily. Then she added, "I want you to play me a tune before I go."
Joshua was always open to a compliment about his playing.
"Ah!" he said, "you want a tune, do you? Well, and p"r"aps Peter he"d like to hear it too."
As he spoke he gave the boots to Peter, who was now engaged in dragging up a leather purse from some great depth beneath his gaberdine. This effort, and the necessity of replying, flushed his face to a deeper red than ever, but he managed to say huskily as he counted some coin into Joshua"s hand:
"No, thank you, Mr Snell. Can"t stop tonight."
Nevertheless it was some moments before he could go away: he stood clasping his boots and staring at Joshua.
"The money"s all right, my lad," said the latter.
"Well," said Peter, "I must be goin"." But he did not move.
"Well, good night, Peter," said Joshua, encouragingly.
"Good night, Mr Snell."
"Good night, Peter," said Lilac at length, nodding to him, and this seemed to rouse him, for with sudden energy he hurled himself towards the door and disappeared.
"Yon"s an honest lad and a fine worker," remarked the cobbler, "but he do seem a bit tongue-tied now and then."
And now, after the tune was played, there was no longer any excuse to put off going home. For the first time in her life Lilac dreaded it, for instead of a smile of welcome she had only a frown of displeasure to expect from her mother. It was such a new thing that she shrank from it with fear, and found it almost as difficult to say goodbye as Peter had done. If only Uncle Joshua would go with her! Her face looked so wistful that he guessed her unspoken desire.
"Now I shouldn"t wonder," he said, carefully thrusting the clarionet into its green baize bag, "as how you"d like me to go up yonder with you. And it do so happen as how I"ve got a job to take back to Dan"l Wishing, so I shall pa.s.s yours without goin" out of my way."
Accordingly, the door of the cottage being locked, the pair set out together a few moments later, Lilac walking very soberly by the cobbler"s side, with one hand in his. Joshua"s hand was rough with work, so that it felt like holding the bough of a gnarled elm tree, but it was so full of kindness that there was great comfort and support in it.
How would Mother receive them? Lilac hardly dared to look up when they got near the gate and saw her standing there, and hardly dared to believe her own ears when she heard her speak. For what she said was:
"Run in, child, and get yer tea. I"ve put it by."
She stayed a long time at the gate talking to Uncle Joshua, and Lilac, watching them through the window, felt little doubt that they were talking of her. When her mother came in, and was quite kind and gentle, and behaved just as usual, she felt still more sure that it was Uncle Joshua"s wonderful wisdom that had done it all. But if she could have heard the conversation she would have been surprised, for they dwelt entirely on the cobbler"s rheumatics and the chances of rain, and said no word of either Lilac or her fringe. Mrs White had had time to repent of her harsh words, and when the hours went by, and Lilac did not come back, she had pictured her receiving comfort and encouragement from the Greenways--the very people she wished her to avoid. Now she had driven her to them. "I could bite my tongue out for talking so foolish," she said to herself as she ran out to the gate, over and over again. When at last she saw the two well-known figures approaching, she could only just restrain herself from rushing out to meet Lilac and covering her with kisses. The relief was almost too great to bear.
In her own home, therefore, Lilac heard nothing further on the unlucky subject. But this was not by any means the case in the village, where nothing was too small to be important. The fact of the Widow White"s Lilac wearing a fringe was quite enough to talk of, and more than enough to stare at, for it was something new. Unfortunately everyone knew Lilac, and Lilac knew everyone, so there was no escape. Her acquaintances would draw up in front of her and gaze steadily for an instant, after which the same remarks always came: