Chapter 189 Want to Make Her Life Carefree
The night was as cold as water. The refreshing wind, which had been soft earlier, now became a little cold.
What Nalan Youhong had said was like a warning that hovered around his ears and lingered in his heart.
Jun Yeyan shook his head slightly. He glanced at Nalan Youhong and said, “Even if I become a bleached skeleton, I will accompany her. But I will also conquer the whole country!”
After saying this, Jun Yeyan strode off without waiting for Nalan Youhong to react to his words.
His unyielding back was so strong that it could not be neglected, nor could it be approached.
Nalan Youhong looked at Jun Yeyan’s disappearing back blankly. He didn’t know the meaning of Jun Yeyan’s words. He wondered why Jun Yeyan knew he must make a decision between the two, yet he was still too stubborn to let her go.
He knew exactly that he would live a happy life if he chose the latter, but why was he so obsessed with this bulls.h.i.t country? He knew undoubtedly that he didn’t care about these superficial things, but why did he react in this way?
Nalan Youhong knocked at his own head confusedly, thinking of finding a good time to talk to Jun Yeyan thoroughly.
After Jun Yeyan left, he didn’t go far. At a corner, he could not insist anymore. He leaned against the wall, with the back of his hand covering his s.e.xy mouth, breathing slightly.
If somebody saw him at this moment, he would discover that Jun Yeyan’s complexion was very abnormal now. It was pale as well as morbid.
His breath fluctuated. It was so weak as if it would stop at any time.
After a long period of time, Jun Yeyan removed his hand. There was blood all over the back of his hand and the corner of his mouth.
He fiercely wiped away the bloodstains at the corner of his mouth. Jun Yeyan slightly bent his waist, with his wild and blood-thirsting eyes looking into the distance, breathing heavily.
His amber-colored eye pupils had become gold-colored. In the darkness where the dark moonlight could not shine, his eye pupils gave off some abnormal lights.
The wet tactile feeling on the back of his hand reminded him at any time that the poison which he had in his body had eroded his heart and his lungs, causing a severe injury to him.
Although he had been drinking the medicine that Bai Aoxue made for him all the time, it could not stop the poison from spreading completely. The poison could be controlled very well by him before, but when the poison broke out last time, he had used too much of his internal force, so now the poison had been out of control already.
Perhaps, there wasn’t any power to retrieve this desperate situation at this time.
How could he not want to accompany her? To accompany her to go to the Mobei Dynasty, and to accompany her until they both became old slowly?
However, did he still have so much time?
In these days, he had already been thinking a lot. The reason why he didn’t tell Bai Aoxue was that he did not want her to worry about him and condemn herself. Maybe there wasn’t much time left for him, but he still wanted her to accompany him in his last days.
In his lonely, proud, and gloomy life, there had been only dim dark and tragic red. He had never longed for any other kinds of colors appearing in his life one day.
But suddenly, on a day, this kind of color did appear. She changed variably, which added too many colors to his life and made him find the true meaning of living. Thus, he did not want to let her go, and he was not willing to let her go.
He had just understood the fun of living and just figured out the meaning of existence, but they were going to part with each other. He could not do this.
He had never believed in fate. Even under such a circ.u.mstance, he still didn’t believe in it. What he believed in was just himself. If he wanted something, he would grasp it tightly. Even though he was going to become dust and ashes in the next second, he would still hold her hands tightly and would not let her go!
Even though he could not accompany her until she became old, he still wanted to give her the safest shelter.
Even though in the next decades, he could not accompany her and stay by her side, he would still give her the most considerate protection.
He would conquer the world for her, to ent.i.tle her to be the empress, to realize all her wishes, and to make her carefree in her life.
Although he could not be understood by others at this moment, he still didn’t care. Although he was complained by her, he also didn’t regret.
Because he knew that there wasn’t anybody in this world, who was like him who could love her over his life and even over anything else in this world!
“Ho… Even though I will spend all my life, I still can’t reach this goal?” Jun Yeyan smiled coldly, saying to himself.
When he raised his head again, he was still showing his disdain for everything indifferently as usual, as if his desolation just now had never existed.
As for Bai Aoxue, she didn’t know anything that happened after she left and did not even know that the poison in Jun Yeyan’s body had already eroded his heart and lungs.
She didn’t know that when the Concubine Su poisoned him in those years, she had already made a heartless decision to kill him. If Jun Yeyan didn’t pay attention to it in an unguarded moment, he would be dead.
Perhaps if this poison was put in the body of someone else, he might have become a skeleton and might have been buried into the ground.
But Jun Yeyan had always been insisting with his strong power. Obviously, this had never been known by Bai Aoxue.
On the second day, in the early morning, Zhao sent the things that Jun Yeyan needed to Jun Yeyan. After generally reading the letter in his hands, he went towards Bai Aoxue’s house.
While Bai Aoxue had gotten up early.
It was not yet light. Bai Aoxue had already gotten up. She wasn’t as lazy to get up as before.
Just like the way she trained herself in the preceding world, Bai Aoxue first went on some fundamental physical exercises. Because of her laziness in the previous time, it had been a long time before she did this morning exercise again.
Although her martial arts could protect herself in this turbulent world, she wasn’t sure that she could still withdraw without any hurt when she met with supreme masters like Jun Yeyan or Zhao.
If they were a few small potatoes, she could defeat them easily. Even when she met some people who were a little bit stronger, she could still plot against them by adding some poison. But if she encountered some people like Jun Yeyan, she knew that before she could use her poison, she had already become the floating soul under their swords.
If she wanted to protect herself, she must work one hundred times or one thousand times harder than she used to train in the preceding world!
She thought a lot yesterday. She had just discovered that her life at this moment was so horrible. Living high on the hogs generated endless laziness and even made her want to become degenerate in such an environment.
If she didn’t know that what Jun Yeyan was doing was truly for her good, she would doubt whether this was the beginning of Jun Yeyan’s intention to raise her in this way to become a trash.
Thinking about this, there was a fit of fear at the bottom of her heart.
She didn’t dare to imagine how she was going to survive in this turbulent world if she really became a person who was very lazy and depended on others for everything.
If she left Jun Yeyan by accident one day, could she survive or not?
Thinking about this, Bai Aoxue hated herself for being so reckless and almost forgetting her drillmaster’s teachings.
She remembered that when she finally walked out of that underground fighting arena which was an abyss of darkness, her drillmaster told her that every day, living in this world, one must hold one’s every nerve and be prepared for fighting at any time. Because if you didn’t do so, you would never know whether you were the next one to fall down in the next second.
This was the cruelty of this society. The weak would stand as an easy prey to the strong, which was the principle of surviving. If one wanted to live, one must continuously become stronger, and one should not be knocked out or killed.
Survival of the fittest was in the natural selection. She had known this obvious truth since she was just a little child, yet she almost forgot it in this turbulent world where the fire and smoke rose from the beacon.
Bai Aoxue wiped off the sweat at the corner of her forehead gently. She wore a black and vigorous outfit, looking amazingly charming. Her eyes which bent up brought a wisp of strength and cruelty. Her white teeth bit her light-colored thin mouth slightly, with a trace of unyieldingness and pride.
Her ink-colored hair was tied so high, dancing gently in the sunlight. Her white complexion sparkled and glittered in the sun. She was like colored glaze, precious and fragile.
No matter it was at this moment or many years later, he had always remembered that the sun was warm that day, and the breeze blew over. She, in a black and vigorous outfit, stood in the sun, just like the beloved child of the blazing sun, with everything around her shining brightly.
The big pieces of white clouds seemed to be falling down, which only lingered around her. There was a trace of misty expression in her eyes, which seemed to pierce through the blurry light to look at this pathetic world sympathetically.
It was the scene that Jun Yeyan saw when he came to Bai Aoxue’s yard.
It was the scene that he was obsessed with, the scene that he never forgot, and the scene that he never let go for the rest of his life, which lasted for about one hundred years.
She was a b.u.t.terfly in the darkness, dancing trippingly. You were addicted to her. You followed her trace, but still you could not keep her from the beginning to the end, because you didn’t know when she was going to integrate with the darkness.
“Why are you here?” Bai Aoxue had already found that there was someone behind her. When she smelt the cold flavor of sandalwood that belonged to Jun Yeyan, her heart trembled slightly. She turned back and saw Jun Yeyan.
Imprinting the scene that he just saw deeply at the bottom of his heart, Jun Yeyan looked at Bai Aoxue affectionately and then said, “There is something that I want to show you. Why did you get up so early? You should rest more.”
Once Bai Aoxue heard what Jun Yeyan was saying, she said and smiled slightly, “I cannot always let you protect me. I can also protect you when necessary, can’t I?”
Once Jun Yeyan heard Bai Aoxue’s words, he was startled. He silently clenched his fists tightly. But on the surface, he covered it appropriately so that Bai Aoxue didn’t have the time to find that there was something abnormal about Jun Yeyan at all.
“Look at this. I asked Zhao to enter Liujiabao to get it last night.” Jun Yeyan seized the hand of Bai Aoxue, and they then sat down on the stone bench in the yard. Then he handed the letter that he had handled over to Bai Aoxue.
After Bai Aoxue took the letter that Jun Yeyan gave her, she opened it and roughly looked at it for a little while, with the smile at the corners of her mouth becoming deeper and deeper.
“I didn’t expect that Liu Chunjiang would keep these things. I really don’t know whether he believes too much in his ability, or he believes too much in the people around him.” Bai Aoxue opened her red mouth slightly and said these words sarcastically.
Jun Yeyan said flatly, “Zhao can get everything that he wants to get.”
Once Bai Aoxue heard that Jun Yeyan said so, she was somewhat astonished. Zhao had such a kind of skill.
“Two days later, it will be Falling Flower Festival, and we should also be prepared to give people in Ink-blood Tower a big special present!” Bai Aoxue seized the letter in her hand tightly, saying these words with fierce eyes.
“You just do it without caring about anything. In any case, I’m always behind you!” Jun Yeyan touched Bai Aoxue’s hair, saying these words lovingly.
Bai Aoxue squinted her eyes, feeling the softness of Jun Yeyan.
It was getting warmer gradually, and the summer had already approached.
Bai Aoxue looked at this exuberant sky, and there was a little soft warmth arising at the bottom of her heart.
If they were not born in this turbulent world, how good it must be for her to be natural and unrestrained with him like this!
But even though it was under such a situation now, it still didn’t matter. As long as they were together, anywhere could be the same. She would help him get what he wanted. Although there were uprisings with fire and smoke of beacons as well as flames of war everywhere in the front, she would not withdraw anymore.
Thinking in this way, Bai Aoxue slightly leaned against Jun Yeyan’s chest, but she did not speak it out and never expressed the ideas in her heart.
While Jun Yeyan was feeling this moment of tranquility, there was peace in his heart, which he never experienced before.
Just as the two people were enjoying this short-time peace, the noisy sound of footsteps sounded.
Bai Aoxue wanted to leave Jun Yeyan’s embrace quickly, but she was quickly intercepted by Jun Yeyan when she was about to leave.