Misha had thought that Sara might deny it; she didn"t. "I was wrong. I thought ... I thought he might have killed my sister. There were coincidences, yes, but I was wrong, Misha."
"Yet I can see that you"re frightened because you might have been right, because what I"m saying might be the truth. My dreams tell me-they tell me you"ve been wondering since Berlin. They tell me you"re frightened because you remember one other thing I told you in Damascus: that what he did to me, he would also do to you. Don"t you notice how your feelings for him change when he"s with you, and doesn"t that also make you wonder?"
"d.a.m.n you!" Sara shouted. She flung the tumbler aside.
It thudded against the wall as she rose to her feet. "You have no right!"
"I have proof." Misha spoke softly into Sara"s rage. She looked calmly upward into the woman"s glare.
"Dreams," Sara spat.
"More than dreams. At the mosque, during the fighting, the senator was shot. I have his jacket. I had the blood a.n.a.lyzed. The infection is thereyour wild card virus."
Sara shook her head wildly. "No. That"s what you want the tests to show."
"Or Hartmann had his own blood test falsified. That would be easy for him, wouldn"t it?" Misha persisted. The wild agony in Sara tore at Misha, yet she persisted. Sara was the key-the visions all said that she was. "And it would mean that perhaps you were right about your sister. It would explain what happened with me. It would explain what happened in Berlin. It would explain everything, all the questions you"ve had."
"Then go to the press with this proof."
"I am. Right now."
Sara"s head swayed back and forth in dogged refusal. "It"s not enough."
"Maybe not by itself. We need all that you can tell us. You must know more--other strange incidents, other deaths. . ." Sara was still shaking her head, but her shoulders slumped and the anger had drained away. She turned from Misha. "I can"t trust you," she said. "Please. Just go away."
"Look at me, Sara. We"re sisters in this. We"ve both been hurt, and I want justice for that, as you want justice for your sister. We cry and bleed and there"s no healing for us until we know. Sara, I know how we can mix love and hate. We"re related in that strange, awful way. We"ve both allowed love to blind us. I love my brother, but I also hate what he"s done. You love Hartmann, and yet here"s a darker Hartmann underneath. You can"t move against him because to do so would prove that giving yourself was a mistake, because when he"s here all you can think about is the Hartmann you love. You"d have to admit that you were wrong. You"d have to admit that you let yourself love someone who was using you.
So you wait."
There was no answer. Misha sighed and nodded. She couldn"t say any more, not when each word tore a visible wound in Sara. She moved toward the door, touching Sara gently on the back as she pa.s.sed. Misha could feel Sara"s shoulders moving with silent tears. Misha"s hand was on the k.n.o.b when Sara spoke behind her, her voice choked.
"You swear it"s his jacket? You have it?"
Misha kept her hand on the k.n.o.b, not daring to turn, not allowing herself to feel hope. "Yes."
"Do you trust Tachyon?"
"The alien? I don"t know him. Gimli doesn"t seem to like him. But I will trust him if you do."
"I have to be in New York later this week. Meet me in front of the Jokertown Clinic Thursday evening at six-thirty. Bring the jacket. We"ll have Tachyon examine it, and then we"ll see. We"ll see, that"s all. Is it enough?"
Misha almost gasped with the relief. She wanted to laugh, wanted to hug Sara and cry with her. But she only nodded. "I"ll be there. I promise you, Sara. I want the truth, that"s all."
"And if Tachyon says it proves nothing?"
"Then I"ll learn to accept the guilt for what I did myself," Misha started to turn the k.n.o.b, stopped. "If I"m not there, know that it"s because he stopped me.
You"ll have to decide what to do then."
"Which gives you a convenient out," Sara said derisively. "All you have to do is not show."
"You don"t believe that. Do you?" Silence.
Misha turned the k.n.o.b and went out.
Tuesday, 10:00 P.M.
Chrysalis swung open the door to her office. She paid very little attention to the dwarf who sat in her chair, his bare feet propped up on her desk. She shut the door-the sounds of another busy night at the Crystal Palace dropped to a distant tidal soughing. "Good evening, Gimli."
Gimli was feeling rotten. The lack of surprise in Chrysalis"s startling eyes only made him feel worse. " I should learn that you"re never caught off guard."
She gave him a tight-lipped smile that floated over a webbing of muscles and tendons. "I"ve known you were back for weeks. That"s old news. So how"s your cold?"
289.
Gimli sniffed, a long, wet inhalation. Another chill rattled down his spine like a tray of ice cubes. "s.h.i.tty. I feel like h.e.l.l. I"ve had a fever I haven t been able to kick for two days now. And I"ve evidently got somebody in my.
organization who can"t keep his or her mouth shut." He gave her a rueful grimace.
"You wouldn"t get colds if you"d wear shoes. You brought me a package, too."
"f.u.c.k," Gimli spat out. He swung his legs down and hopped from the chair with a grimace. The sudden movement made him dizzy, and he steadied himself against the desk with a hand. "I might as well have come in the front door. Why don"t we just skip the conversation entirely and you just give me an answer?"
"I really don"t know the question yet, for certain." Her laugh was short and dry. "There are some limits after all, and I"ve been concerned about more immediate things than politics recently. It"s not safe out there for any joker, not just you. But I can make an educated guess," Chrysalis continued. "I"d say that your visit concerns Senator Hartmann."
Gimli snorted. "s.h.i.t, after the f.u.c.kup in Berlin that doesn"t take much of a guess."
"You"re the one who"s impressed by what I know, not me. You"re the one who has to hole up near the East River so the feds don"t s.n.a.t.c.h him."
"I"ve got a big G.o.dd.a.m.n leak." He shook his head. Gimli lurched around the side of the desk and hauled himself into her chair again. He closed his eyes for a second. When you get back, you can go to bed again. Maybe this time when you wake up it"ll be gone. "G.o.d, I do feel like c.r.a.p."
"Nothing infectious, I hope."
"We"ve both already had the worst f.u.c.king infection we"re ever like to get."
Gimli glanced at Chrysalis with a sidelong, bloodshot stare. "And speaking of which, I suppose you already know that our Senator Hartmann"s a G.o.dd.a.m.n ace?"
"Really?"
Gimli scoffed. "There are things I know too, lady. One of them is that Downs has been asking odd questions, and that you"ve been seeing a lot of each other. My guess is that you"re thinking the same thing."
"And if I am? Even granting that you"re correct-and I"m not-why should you care about it? Maybe an ace president would be good. A lot of people feel Hartmann"s done more for the jokers than the JJS."
Gimli shot to his feet at that, his illness forgotten. Rage eroded deep canyons in his pudgy face. "The G.o.dd.a.m.n JJS was the only organization that told the f.u.c.king nats that they can"t jerk us jokers around. We didn"t stand there holding our hats in our trunks like old kiss-a.s.s Des. The JJS made "em pay attention, even if we had to do it by beating them in the face. I"m not going to listen to c.r.a.p about Hartmann being better than the jJS."
"Then I suggest you leave."
"If I do, then you don"t see the f.u.c.king package."
He could see Chrysalis considering that, and he smiled, the anger quickly forgotten. Yeah, you"re hungry for that. Old Chrysalis"s just playing it cool. I knew she"d want to see it. And f.u.c.k Misha if she doesn"t like it.
"You"ve never been one to be free with things, Gimli. What"s the payment for the package?"
"You go public with this. You spill it with the rest of what I"ve got for you, along with anything you and Downs have dug up. We take Hartmann out of the race."
"Why? Because he"s an ace? Or because it"s Gimli"s personal little vendetta?"
Gimli gritted his teeth and then destroyed the image with a sneeze. "Because he"s a power-hungry b.a.s.t.a.r.d. He"s just like the rest of the money-grubbing, self-centered bureaucrats in government, only he"s got his ace to help him. He"s dangerous."
"You get rid of Hartmann, and the next president might be Leo Barnett."
"s.h.i.t." Gimli spat; Chrysalis looked at the globule on her rug in dismay. "He might get the nomination, but that"s not the presidency. Barnett"s just a nat; he can be removed if he has to be. With Barnett we at least know what to expect.
Hartmann"s a f.u.c.king unknown. You don"t know what he"s got or what he"s going to do with it."
"Like maybe make a few things right."
"Like maybe make things worse. This ain"t for me; this is for the jokers. Look at the d.a.m.n facts you prize so much. What Hartmann touches gets destroyed. He uses people. Chews "em up and spits out the carca.s.s when the flavor"s gone. He used me, he used the Nur"s sister, he f.u.c.ked with the minds of the people around me in Berlin. He"s a G.o.dd.a.m.n bottle of nitro. G.o.d knows what else he"s done."
He paused, waiting for her to object, but she didn"t. Gimli pulled a wad of tissues from his pocket, blew his nose, and grinned at her. "And "you suspect the same thing," he continued. "I f.u.c.king know it, "cause you wouldn"t have stood there and listened to me for this long if you thought otherwise. You want my little package because it might prove it true."
"Proof is a nebulous thing. Look at Gary Hart. No one needed "proof" with him, just a lack of denial."
"There is proof with the wild card. In the blood. And I"ve got Hartmann"s blood." Gimli brought out Misha"s jacket. As he spread the bloodstained cloth on Chrysalis"s desk, he gave her the story. When he"d finished, a faint flush had appeared in Chrysalis"s transparent skin, the lacework of blood vessels spreading and widening in excitement. Gimli laughed even though his head pounded from the fever.
"It"s yours, free," he told her. A coughing fit took him, deep hacking spasms, and he waited until they"d pa.s.sed, wiping his nose on his sleeve. "You know me, Chrysalis. I might do a lot of things, but I don"t lie. When I tell you that"s Hartmann"s blood, it"s the truth. But it ain"t enough, not without more. You just have to do something with it. Interested?"
She took the cloth between her fingers, touching the bloodstains tentatively.
"Let me keep it," she said. "I want a friend to run the tests-it might take a few days. If the stains are from an ace, then yes, we might have a deal."
"I thought so," Gimli. said. "Which means you have more on Hartmann, don"t you?
Take good care of the jacket. I"ll check with you later. Right now, I"m going to go home and f.u.c.king die."
Tuesday, 11:45 P.M.
Gimli was shaking with fever by the time he left Chrysalis. He"d ridden over in the back of File"s van but had told the joker that he"d get back himself. f.u.c.k the risk, he"d said. I"m tired of playing the fugitive. I"ll be careful.
He let himself out the back door of the Crystal Palace into an alleyway that reeked of stale beer and rotting food. Quick nausea slammed him in the gut; leaning with one hand against the Dumpster, he heaved violently, emptying his stomach with the first wave and then retching uselessly. Afterward he felt no better. His stomach was still knotted, his muscles felt as if he had been beaten, and the fever was getting worse. "Oh, f.u.c.k," he gasped. He spat dry-mouthed.
He wished he"d listened to File and let him wait. He pushed off the Dumpster and holding his stomach, began to walk toward the warehouse. Six d.a.m.n blocks. It ain"t so far.
He"d made it four when his stomach rebelled again. This time it was far worse.
There was nothing in his stomach. Gimli tried to ignore it, shuffling forward.
"Christ!" he shouted, his face twisting with surprised agony. The pain drove him to his knees; he knelt behind a row of trash cans, desperately trying to breathe between the waves of helpless retching. His insides were on fire, his head pounded, sweat soaked his clothing. He pummeled the concrete with his fists until they were torn and bloodied, trying to block the inner torment with outside pain.
It got worse. Every muscle in his body seemed to go into spasm at that moment, and Gimli bellowed, a shrill inhuman screeching. He rolled on the gound, twitching, the muscles of his body in uncontrolled rebellion-legs flailing, hands clenched, spine arched in torment. His arm snapped under the pressure of wildly contracting biceps and triceps, the jagged end tearing through skin. The bone wriggled before his eyes like a live thing, tearing the wound wider. His intestines felt as if acid had been poured on them, but somehow the pain seemed to be receding, and that scared him worst of all. He was going into shock.
The spasms ended abruptly, leaving him in a curled fetal position. Gimli couldn"t move. He tried, willing himself to blink his eyes, bend a finger; he had no control of his body at all. For a moment Gimli thought that at least it was over. Someone would find him; someone would have heard his screams. The denizens of Jokertown knew what to do-they"d take him to Tachyon.
But it wasn"t over. His broken arm was sitting in front of his open, staring eyes, and as he watched, the spear of bone from his arm was melting like a candle in an oven. He could feel his body sagging, shifting inside, liquefying.
His skin bulged, spread like a huge balloon filled to bursting with scalding water. He tried to scream and could not even open his mouth. His eyes, too-the trash cans, the wall, his broken arm in front of him all dissolved in his sight, distorting as the world turned dim and then was gone. He could not draw a breath. He felt himself suffocating, unable to take in air.
At least Chrysalis has the f.u.c.king jacket. The thought had a finality that surprised him.
There was a sound like tearing paper, startling a curious rat that had crept closer to the strange mound. Gimli couldn"t see it or hear it, but the feeling was there, like a white-hot poker rammed into his spine. A small rent appeared in the middle of his back. Slowly the fissure grew, his flesh tearing open in long, jagged strips.
In his soundless, anguished void, Gimli wondered if he hadn"t already died, if this wasn"t the eternal h.e.l.l Misha had promised him waited for all jokers. He mind-screamed, cursing Misha, cursing Hartmann, cursing the wild card and the world.
And then, blessedly, he lost consciousness.
Wednesday, 12:45 A. M.
The waking dream hit her just as she pushed open the door to the warehouse. The graffiti-scrawled paint became fluid; the door sagged like a lead figurine thrown into a fire.
In the darkness beyond she could hear laughter-Hartmann"s laughter, and the strings of a puppet danced in the air before her. As Misha recoiled, the strings tightened and rose, and she could see a hunchbacked figure lolling on the ends.
The malevolence of that face staggered her-a pimply boy"s face, but one so infused with evil that its very breath seemed a poison. She remembered that face from her visions. The smile was twisted and cruel, and the bright eyes held the promise of pain. The creature stared at her, twisting in the strings, silent and unmoving as Hartmann"s laughter boomed.
And then it was gone. There was the door, and her hand ready to twist the key.
"Allah," she breathed, and shook her head. The motion did nothing to dispel the lingering feeling of dread. The images of the dream stayed with her, and she could hear her heart pounding. The lock clicked open and she pushed the door wide. "Gimli?" she called "h.e.l.lo?"
The warehouse was as dark as her dream, and empty.
Misha"s pulse roared in her head and the dream-demon threatened to reappear; in the dim reaches of the warehouse, whirling splotches of light moved with her momentary dizziness.
The door to the office swung wide, the glare from beind the lamps inside nearly blinding her. A shadow loomedMisha cried out.
"Sorry, Misha," Peanut"s voice said. " I didn"t mean to scare you."
His hand reached out as if he was going to pat her shoulder, and Misha drew back, leaving his hand extended awkwardly. She frowned as she regained her composure. "Where"s Miller?" she asked sharply.
Peanut"s hand dropped, his sad gaze regarding the stained concrete floor. Heavy, clumsy shoulders lifted. "Dunno. He should"da been here hours ago, but I ain"t heard from him. File and Video and Shroud was here, said they"d be back later.
They wouldn"t stay with me."
"What"s the matter, Peanut? You"ve been here alone before."
"Polyakov-he phoned. Said to tell Gimli that Mackie was here, in the States.
Said that the paper trail was all official stuff. government. He told me to tell Gimli that he was afraid Hartmann knew it all--everything."
"Does Gimli know?"