With the thought, their attention was brought back to the outside world. Charon was moving through the sunken graveyard. Many of the bodies still had ribbons of clothing, shreds of flesh. Fish swarmed around the cages of ribs, nibbling and biting; eels swarmed in eye sockets and wriggled from open jaws like obscene tongues.
And something, someone was pushing at them, pressing Oddity"s back against the cold, clammy wall of Charon"s interior, the flesh beginning to stretch around their back as Charon continued its slow pa.s.sage. An invisible hand was thrusting at their chest, refusing to let them go any farther even though Charon plodded on. Oddity struggled weakly, but it would not let them loose. [Bloat"s Wall Bloat"s Wall ... ] David yammered from Pa.s.sive. [It"s you Evan, it"s you. ]
With the physical pressure, Evan could also feel a mental la.s.situde. He no longer wanted to go to the Rox. This quest was useless. Even if Patty were alive, it was futile. They could do no good there. John tried to force Oddity through the unseen barrier as they felt the cold waters through Charon"s back, but Evan only watched from Sub-Dominant.
"Stop!" Oddity"s broken voice shouted. Charon paid no attention.
[Dammit, Evan. Help me!] Charon"s flesh was beginning to thin dangerously. The skeletons outside grinned mindlessly at them, waiting.
[This might be better, John. It would be over. Finished.] [No no no please Evan I"ll get you out I will.... ] [You still want us dead. That"s it, isn"t it, Evan? That"s what you"re really saying.] Oddity struggled, took a step forward, but that barely made a difference. The back of their cloak was chill and damp.
Charon"s flesh bulged dangerously around them.
[You"re just barely holding us together, John. I can"t keep David back when you fall. He"s strong and this time he"ll be expecting the pain. He"ll know that when it"s too much for him, he can just jump. ]
[If we"re on the Rox, he"ll jump back to his own body, Evan. Which puts Patty back with us.]
[I"ll have Oddity initiated make you all jumpers so you can get out.... ]
[Is that fair, John? Are you so possessive of her that you"d punish her like that when she"s free? What"s betterto let this b.a.s.t.a.r.d loose again or to make the sacrifice? We can keep Patty free and take the SOB out with us. What"s better, John?]
[I"m Dominant] And with that there was a flailing resurgence of will. Oddity managed two lurching steps back toward the center of Charon. The chill receded.
[I"ll stay Dominant until we find Patty.]
[And what then, John? What then? It"s been sixteen years, John. Long enough.]
[John I"ll help you too just don"t let him kill us.... ] David"s panic loosed adrenaline. Oddity screamed as John forced them forward once more, trying to keep pace with Charon"s slow movement. Fish swirled away from their grisly feast, disturbed by the movement inside Charon"s body.
Suddenly they were through. Oddity stumbled and fell as the resistance vanished.
Outside, the skeletons were behind them; ahead there were weedy mud flats and the beginnings of a rise. Charon moved between piles of discarded ship ballast as Oddity"s lungs heaved and the agony of change lanced through them all. David tried to rise from Pa.s.sive once more; John only barely managed to keep him down.
He said nothing to Evan. Evan said nothing to him. Charon hissed. Bubbles rose around them and the body began to rise alongside a rust-stained concrete pier.
John forced Oddity to its feet and pushed his way through the body angrily, hating the feel of the wet, cold flesh. There were corroded steel rungs set in the concrete seawall. Oddity swung out of Charon and climbed to the top.
They were waiting for him, a ring of jokers armed with a ragged a.s.sortment of weapons. Oddity howled in frustration.
"What an interesting mind," Bloat commented, but his tiny face was pained and drawn. "The pain makes it unpleasant even for me. Still, the complexity of a shared consciousness is fascinating."
"Where"s Patty?" Oddity grated out. Their voice was barely more than a whisper.
Most of John"s concentration was utilized in staying Dominant against David"s mental pushing. They looked from the guards-standing well back from Oddity-to Bloat, gauging distances as the cloak humped and folded over their madly changing body. Bloat chuckled.
"Oh, by the time you got halfway to me, they"d have shot you dead, but then you"ve already figured that out, haven"t you, John? It is John, isn"t it?" Bloat shook his head. "You should lay down the burden for now, John. It"s David I want to speak with."
"No!" Oddity tried to shout; it came out more grunt. "Not until we see Patty."
" I don"t think that"s a good idea." [It"s a stalemate, John. You see?]
[You give up too easily.] John"s ego weakened with each moment, his hold on Dominant crumbling. Desperation colored his thoughts. Oddity gave a tremulous sigh.
Underneath both of them but rising, rising, David whispered only to Evan. [Look at all the bodies here you can have any one of them no need to play G.o.dd.a.m.n hero just let me past let me take Oddity and I"ll set you free I promise don"t let us die.... ]
"We"ll see her," Oddity said, "or we"ll see how close we get to you. You kill us or you die. It really doesn"t matter. One way we get what I want, the other way what Evan wants. Either way, you lose."
Bloat sighed. "Such a waste." He sighed, then gestured with one tiny hand. " I didn"t care to show my hole card so quickly, but I suppose it can"t be helped.
Bring her in," he said, then nodded to Oddity. "You need to understand the situation. Can David hear me?"
The fencing mask nodded under the hood.
"Good. It"s important he does. David, even if you can, don"t jump back yet. Ah, here she is..." Somehow, thinking of Patty alone in one body had given them a vision of her as she once had been: dark brown hair swirling around her shoulders and wearing the denim skirt she liked so well with a blouse of unbleached cotton. But the person who stepped from the side doorway was in soiled Levi"s and a leather jacket. The body was distinctly male, a youthful, handsome face topped with blond and unruly hair.
"John? Evan?" he [she?] said, and the voice was deep. " I love you both. I miss you."
Patty said the words, and felt the truth of them with the tears they set off in her eyes. Behind her, rubber wheels squeaked against tile. She glanced back at the joker pushing the wheelchair with a young jumper"s body. The bait. The temptation.
[Yours. It can be yours.] The knowledge tore at her, and she looked back at Oddity, remembering the pain and the hurt and the feeling of being imprisoned.
"Patty?" Bloat said, and her gaze went grudgingly to the joker. "I need to know.
Now. Will you cooperate with me? Do it for yourself. Do it for all jokers. Do it for the rapture. Help me."
Patty looked again at the young woman, at the empty, wonderful body. She also saw Oddity watching and she knew that John and Evan could guess her thoughts as well. Faintly, she saw the fencing mask that was Oddity"s face nod, as if in forgiveness. [Go on,] she could almost hear John and Evan saying. [We understand.]
Patty reached out and stroked the girl"s face with a yearning wistfulness. The skin felt soft and smooth. She knew she would remember that softness forever.
She turned, trying to remember it all. Trying to pack into these few seconds all the sensations of being alone, of being one.
She shook her head.
"No," she told Bloat, not caring that David"s body was weeping openly now. "I hate Oddity, but I love Evan and John. You only want Oddity as a weapon, and I won"t be a part of that. I"d rather be with my lovers again, as we were."
"I"d rather be with my lovers again, as we were." Patty"s words startled all of them. Evan could feel the surprise loosen what little hold he had.
Oddity screamed.
All at once, everything inside the Oddity had become fluid. The mind barriers crumpled and went to dust. [John?]
[I"ve lost Oddity, Evan. You have to-]
The person in David"s body was running to them, and his [her?] arms were around them, hugging them and not caring that the body was changing underneath the embrace. Oddity stood there, the arms half up as if unsure whether or not to return the embrace....
[Evan, hold David back.... ] [I"m trying, John.]
For a moment, Evan was in control of Oddity as Patty [David?] stared up into the bowl of the fencing mask. "My G.o.d, Patty. . ." he moaned. "We love you so much...."
"Evan? It"s so lonely out here. I miss you, Evan, John. Please... I want back in." She was crying, clutching tighter to Oddity as the powerful, piebald arms went around her at last.
"But you"re free," Oddity said, and the voice was slurred, confused. "I don"t understand-"
[Hold him, Evan, hold him.... ]
[Now, Evan. Let me have Oddity] David insisted. David"s will shoved at Evan"s weak resistance. Laughing, David shoved past Evan and into the Dominant position. Immediately the Oddity groaned as the full impact of the pain hammered at the youth. Yet this time, prepared for the torture, David clung to Dominant.
Evan did nothing. Nothing.
He let David have Oddity without a struggle.
[You promised me,] he said to David. [Remember what you promised me.]
[G.o.dd.a.m.n son of a b.i.t.c.h, Evan ... ] "f.u.c.king Christ, Bloat, this hurts!"
"Davvd!" Bloat sounded pleased. "Good. Now that you control Oddity, I can say more." He looked down at Patty, who struggled in Oddity"s grasp. "I"d continue to hold on to your body. I"d hate to see Patty damage it, which is what she"s considering at the moment."
Patty cursed, glaring at Bloat.
Oddity"s grip on Patty tightened. "Say it quick, Bloat. I know it ain"t your style, but I ain"t staying here long." Bloat smiled. "In a nutsh.e.l.l, then. It"s time for us to organize. It"s time for the jumpers to help the Rox." Oddity chuckled, then groaned as another shift in the mutable body racked them. "That"s what you were telling Patty. So what? You upping the rent?"
Bloat shrugged, the tiny shoulders lifting helplessly in the immense body. "I imagine there are any number of jokers who would like to be aces, especially here in the Rox. A few judicious triple jumps ...Imagine what a dozen or so jokers-turned-aces might be able to accomplish."
"Especially with Bloat telling us what to do."
"Especially." Bloat smiled.
[Evan, you can"t allow this.... ]
Evan ignored John"s pleading. [David, you promised me. Right?]
[Hey, man. I keep promises. Don"t worry.] [Then go ahead and jump. I"ll take Dominant.] Patty struggled in their arms, biting and clawing uselessly against Oddity"s compelling strength. "We"ll talk, Bloat," Oddity said. "Maybe you"re right. Maybe it"s time to organize a little. But in a second, when I"m back in my own skin."
"What about Oddity?" Kafka interjected, looking worried.
"I agree with my counselor, David," Bloat said. "I thought Patty would help us control it. Perhaps Oddity"s simply too dangerous."
[Evan?]
[Just give me a body, David. Like you promised.] "It"ll be cool," David told them. "Don"t worry about Oddity."
Inside Oddity, there was a moment of chilling vacancy [ ... Evan! ... ] and then Patty was back, stunned and falling almost immediately to Pa.s.sive as John made a last desperate attempt to take Dominant.
Evan shoved him back contemptuously. David"s eyes had closed. Now they opened again and looked up at Oddity and the hidden face behind the mesh. "Hey, man.
You can let me go now."
[John? Patty? I love you both. I"m sorry.] [Evan-]
[We understand we do.... ]
Oddity"s hands came up. One was Patty"s now, one John"s. In a swift movement they grasped either side of David"s head.
With all of Oddity"s power they twisted savagely. The snap of the neck breaking was very loud. Oddity let the body crumple to the floor. They spread their hands wide, closing their eyes for the last time and waiting for Bloat to give the order, waiting for the bullets to shred their shared body.
[Good-bye Patty, John. I do love you.] It never happened.
Bloat was staring at David"s body. Kafka watched Bloat. The joker guards"
weapons were pointing at them, ready.
Bloat only gave a brief sigh.
"David was my key. He was willing to listen to me, to share in my dream. If you were Golden Boy or Peregrine or just another ace, I wouldn"t hesitate," he told them, still looking at David"s body. "But not the Oddity. Not people who know the pain of being a joker."
The tiny head on the mounded body closed its eyes. The body rippled and more bloatblack oozed from the body. The smell of corruption was strong in the room.
"Get out," Bloat told them savagely. "Get out before I change my mind."
Dutton finally opened the back fire door and stood blinking into the Jokertown dawn. The noseless, living skull face yawned. He tugged the cord of his silk bathrobe tightly around his waist.
" Oddity." He sounded relieved. "I was worried. I"d called some people I knew--"
"We came to work."
"Evan?" Dutton glanced at the hands-for the most part, they were chocolate brown and long-fingered. Dutton stepped away from the door and let the cloaked figure enter, then shut and locked the door behind them. The museum seemed gloomy after the sunshine. "It"s six in the morning. What happened? Where"s Patty?"
"Here. Pa.s.sive for the moment. John"s with us, too. It"s over, Charles.
We--I-was wrong. We wanted to tell you."
"Wrong?"
"About endings. Maybe things do occasionally work out. The leader of the jumper gang"s dead, Charles." Behind the mask, Oddity laughed, full and loud. The gaiety sounded very strange to Dutton. "It doesn"t solve everything," Oddity continued. "Probably not much at all."
"But it"s one little change for the good. A few less atrocities the nats will be able to blame on us, one less excuse they can use to oppress people affected by the wild card."
"And you? What about Oddity?"
"It still hurts. But one of us got out, at least for a bit. We can think of that and hope that maybe-someday-the rest will change."
Oddity sighed.
Under the heavy cloak, shapes came and went.
"You got any cake, Charles?" they said. "It"s our birthday."