He took a telegraph paper from his pocket and showed it to me. It was from "Lemuel Blount, London." It announced the news in the usual shocking laconic manner, and said, "I write to you to Dykham."
"I shall get the letter this evening when I reach Dykham, and I"ll tell you all that is in it to-morrow. The telegraph message had reached me yesterday, when I saw you, but I could not bear to tell you the dreadful news until I had confirmation, and that has come. The vicar has had a message, about which there can be no mistake. And now, darling, put on your things, and come out for a little walk--I have ever so many things to talk to you about."
Here was a new revolution in my troubled history. More or less of the horror of uncertainty again encompa.s.sed my future years. But grief, quite unselfish, predominated in my agitation. I had lost a benefactor.
His kind face was before me, and the voice, always subdued to tenderness when he spoke to me, was in my ear. I was grieved to the heart.
I got on my hat and jacket, and with a heavy heart went out with Richard.
For many reasons the most secluded path was that best suited for our walk. Richard Marston had just told the servants the substance of the message he had received that morning from Mr. Blount, so that that they could have no difficulty about answering inquiries at the hall-door.
We soon found ourselves in the path that had witnessed so many of our meetings. I wondered what Richard intended talking about. He had been silent and thoughtful. He hardly uttered a word during our walk, until we had reached what I may call our trysting-tree, the grand old beech-tree, under which a huge log of timber, roughly squared, formed a seat.
Though little disposed myself to speak, his silence alarmed me.
"Ethel, darling," he said, suddenly, "have you formed any plans for the future?"
"Plans!" I echoed. "I don"t know--what do you mean, Richard?"
"I mean," he continued, sadly, "have you considered how this misfortune may affect us? Did Sir Harry ever tell you anything about his intentions--I mean what he thought of doing by his will? Don"t look so scared, darling," he added, with a melancholy smile; "you will see just now what my reasons are. You can"t suppose that a sordid thought ever entered my mind."
I was relieved.
"No; he never said a word to me about his will, except what I told you,"
I answered.
"Because the people who knew him at Wrexham are talking. Suppose he has cut me off and provided for you, could I any longer in honour hold you to an engagement, to fulfil which I could contribute nothing?"
"Oh, Richard, darling, how can you talk so? Don"t you know, whatever I possess on earth is yours."
"Then my little woman refuses to give me up, even if there were difficulties?" he said, pressing my hands, and smiling down upon my face in a kind rapture.
"I could not give you up, Richard--you know I couldn"t," I answered.
"My darling!" he exclaimed, softly, looking down upon me still with the same smile.
"Richard, how could you ever have dreamed such a thing? You don"t know how you wound me."
"I never thought it, I never believed it, darling. I knew it was impossible; whatever difficulties might come between us, I knew that I could not live without you; and I thought you loved me as well. Nothing then shall part us--nothing. Don"t you say so? Say it, Ethel. I swear it, nothing."
I gave him the promise; it was but repeating what I had often said before. Never was vow uttered from a more willing heart. Even now I am sure he reminded me, and, after his manner, loved me with a vehement pa.s.sion.
"But there are other people, Ethel," he resumed, "who think that I shall be very well off, who think that I shall inherit all my uncle"s great fortune. But all may not go smoothly, you see; there may be great difficulties. Promise me, swear it once more, that you will suffer no obstacles to separate us; that we shall be united, be they what they may; that you will never, so help you Heaven, forsake me or marry another."
I did repeat the promise. We walked towards home; I wondering what special difficulty he could be thinking of now; but, restrained by a kind of fear, I did not ask him.
"I"m obliged to go away again, immediately," said he, after another short silence; "but my business will be over to-night, and I shall be here again in the morning, and then I shall be my own master for a time, and have a quiet day or two, and be able to open my heart to you, Ethel."
We walked on again in silence. Suddenly he stopped, laying his hand on my shoulder, and looking sharply into my face, said:
"I"ll leave you here--it is time, Ethel, that I should be off." He held my hand in his, and his eyes were fixed steadily upon mine. "Look here,"
he said, after another pause, "I must make a bitter confession, Ethel; you know me with all my faults--I have no principle of calculation in me--equity and all that sort of thing, would stand a poor chance with me against pa.s.sion--I am all pa.s.sion; it has been my undoing, and will yet I hope," and he looked on me with a wild glow in his dark eyes, "be the making of me, Ethel. No obstacle shall separate us, you have sworn; and mind, Ethel, I am a fellow that never forgives, and as Heaven is my judge, if you give me up, I"ll not forgive you. But that will never be.
G.o.d bless you, darling--you shall see me early to-morrow. Go you in that direction--let us keep our secret a day or two longer. You look as if you thought me mad--I"m not that--though I sometimes half think so myself. There has been enough in my life to make a steadier brain than mine crazy. Good-bye, Ethel, darling, till to-morrow. G.o.d bless you!"
With these words he left me. His reckless language had plainly a meaning in it. My heart sank as I thought on the misfortune that had reduced me again to uncertainty, and perhaps to a miserable dependence. It was by no means impossible that nothing had been provided for either him or me by Sir Harry Rokestone. Men, prompt and accurate in everything else, so often go on postponing a will until "the door is shut to," and the hour pa.s.sed for ever. It was horrible allowing such thoughts to intrude; but Richard"s conversation was so full of the subject, and my position was so critical and dependent, that it did recur, not with sordid hopes, but in the form of a great and reasonable fear.
When Richard was out of sight, as he quickly was among the trees, I turned back, and sitting down again on the rude bench under our own beech-tree, I had a long and bitter cry, all to myself.
CHAPTER LXIII.
AT THE THREE NUNS.
When Richard Marston left me, his chaise stood at the door, with a team of four horses, quite necessary to pull a four-wheeled carriage over the fells, through whose gorges the road to the nearest railway-station is carried.
The pleasant setting sun flashed over the distant fells, and glimmered on the pebbles of the courtyard, and cast a long shadow of Richard Marston, as he stood upon the steps, looking down upon the yellow, worn flags, in dark thought.
"Here, put this in," he said, handing his only piece of luggage, a black leather travelling-bag, to one of the post-boys. "You know the town of Golden Friars?"
"Yes, sir."
"Well, stop at Mr. Jarlcot"s house."
Away went the chaise, with its thin roll of dust, like the smoke of a hedge-fire, all along the road, till they pulled up at Mr. Jarlcot"s house.
Out jumped Mr. Marston, and knocked a sharp summons with the bra.s.s knocker on the hall-door.
The maid opened the door, and stood on the step with a mysterious look of inquiry in Mr. Marston"s face. The rumour that was already slowly spreading in Golden Friars had suddenly been made sure by a telegraphic message from Lemuel Blount to Mr. Jarlcot. His good wife had read it just five minutes before Mr. Marston"s arrival.
"When is Mr. Jarlcot to be home again?"
"Day after to-morrow, please, sir."
"Well, when he comes, don"t forget to tell him I called. No, this is better," and he wrote in pencil on his card the date and the words, "Called twice--most anxious to see Mr. Jarlcot;" and laid it on the table. "Can I see Mr. Spaight?" he inquired.
Tall, stooping Mr. Spaight, the confidential man, with his bald head, spectacles, and long nose, emerged politely, with a pen behind his ear, at this question, from the door of the front room, which was Mr.
Jarlcot"s office.
"Oh! Mr. Spaight," said Richard Marston, "have you heard from Mr.
Jarlcot to-day?"
"A short letter, Mr. Marston, containing nothing of business--only a few items of news; he"s in London till to-morrow--he saw Mr. Blount there."
"Then he has heard, of course, of our misfortune?"
"Yes, sir; and we all sympathise with you, Mr. Marston, deeply, sir, in your affliction. Will you please to step in, sir, and look at the letter?"