But, about ten years after he had gane awa, James Laidlaw came back to our neighbourhood; but he wasna the same lad he left--for he was now a dark-complexioned man, and he had wi" him a mulatto woman, and three bairns that called him _faither!_ He was no longer my James!
My mother was by this time dead, and I expected naething but that the knowledge o" his faithlessness would kill me too--for I had clung to hope till the last straw was broken.
I met him once during his stay in the country, and, strange to tell, it was within a hundred yards o" the very spot where I first foregathered wi" him, when he offered me the posie.
"Ha! Die!" said he, "my old girl, are you still alive? I"m glad to see you. Is the old woman, your mother, living yet?" I was ready to faint, my heart throbbed as though it would have burst. A" the trials I had ever had were naething to this; and he continued--"Why, if I remember right, there was once something like an old flame between you and me."
"O James! James!" said I, "do you remember the words ye wrote in the Bible, and the vows that ye made me by the side of the Blackadder?"
"Ha! ha!" said he, and he laughed, "you are there, are you? I do mind something of it. But, Die, I did not think that a girl like you would have been such a fool as to remember what a boy said to her."
I would have spoken to him again; but I remembered he was the husband of another woman--though she was a mulatto--an" I hurried away as fast as my fainting heart would permit. I had but one consolation, and that was, that, though he had married another, naebody could compare her face wi" mine.
But it was lang before I got the better o" this sair slight--ay, I may say it was ten years and mair; and I had to try to pingle and find a living upon the interest o" my five hundred pounds, wi" ony other thing that I could turn my hand to in a genteel sort o" way.
I was now getting on the wrang side o" eight and thirty; and that is an age when it isna prudent in a spinister to be throwing the pouty side o"
her lip to any decent lad that hauds out his hand, and says--"Jenny, will ye tak me?" Often and often, baith by day and by night, did I think o" the good bargains I had lost, for the sake o" my fause James Laidlaw; and often, when I saw some o" them that had come praying to me, pa.s.s me on a Sunday, having their wives wi" their hands half round their waist on the horse behint them--"O James! fause James!" I have said, "but for trusting to you, and it would hae been me that would this day been riding behint Mr. ----."
But I had still five hundred pounds, and sic fend as I could make, to help what they brought to me. And, about this time, there was one that had the character of being a very respectable sort o" a lad, one Walter Sanderson; he was a farmer, very near about my own age, and altogether a most prepossessing and intelligent young man. I first met wi" him at my youngest sister"s goodman"s kirn,[F] and I must say, a better or a more gracefu" dancer I never saw upon a floor. He had neither the jumping o"
a mountebank, nor the sliding o" a play-actor, but there was an ease in his carriage which I never saw equalled. I was particularly struck wi"
him, and especially his dancing; and it so happened that he was no less struck wi" me. I thought he looked even better than James Laidlaw used to do--but at times I had doubts about it. However, he had stopped all the night at my brother-in-law"s as weel as mysel; and when I got up to gang hame the next day, he said he would bear me company. I thanked him, and said I was obliged to him, never thinking that he would attempt such a thing. But, just as the pony was brought out for me to ride on (and the callant was to come up to Dunse for it at night), Mr. Walter Sanderson mounted his horse, and says he--
"Now, wi" your permission, Miss Darling, I will see you hame."
[F] Harvest Home.
It would hae been very rude o" me to hae said--"No, I thank you, sir,"
and especially at my time o" life, wi" twa younger sisters married that had families; so I blushed, as it were, and giein my powny a twitch, he sprang on to his saddle, and came trotting along by my side. He was very agreeable company; and, when he said, "I shall be most happy to pay you a visit, Miss Darling," I didna think o" what I had said, until after that I had answered him, "I shall be very happy to see ye, sir." And when I thought o" it my very cheek bones burned wi" shame.
But, howsoever, Mr. Sanderson was not long in calling again--and often he did call, and my sisters and their guid-men began to jeer me about him. Weel, he called and called, for I daresay as good as three quarters of a year; and he was sae backward and modest a" the time that I thought him a very remarkable man; indeed, I began to think him every way superior to James Laidlaw.
But at last he made proposals--I consented--the wedding-day was set, and we had been cried in the kirk. It was the fair day, just two days before we were to be married, and he came into the house, and, after he had been seated a while, and cracked in his usual kind way--
"Oh," says he, "what a bargain I hae missed the day! There are four lots o" cattle in the market, and I might hae cleared four hundred pounds, cent. per cent., by them."
"Losh me! Walter, then," says I, "why didna ye do it? How did ye let sic a bargain slip through your fingers?"
"Woman," said he, "I dinna ken; but a man that is to be married within eight and forty hours is excusable. I came to the Fair without any thought o" either buying or selling--but just to see you, Diana--and I kenned there wasna meikle siller necessary for that."
"Losh, Walter, man," said I, "but that is a pity--and ye say ye could mak cent. per cent. by the beasts?"
"Deed could I," quoth he--"I am sure o" that."
"Then, Walter," says I, "what is mine the day is to be yours the morn, I may say; and it would be a pity to lose sic a bargain."
Therefore I put into his hands an order on a branch bank, that had been established in Dunse, for every farthing that I was worth in the world, and Walter kissed me, and went out to get the money frae the bank and buy the cattle.
But he hadna been out an hour, when ane o" my brothers-in-law called, and I thought he looked unco dowie. So I began to tell him about the excellent bargain that Walter had made, and what I had done. But the man started frae his seat as if he were crazed, and, without asking me ony questions, he only cried--"Gracious! Diana! hae ye been sic an idiot?"
and, rushing out o" the house, ran to the bank.
He left me in a state that I canna describe; I neither kenned what to do nor what to think. But within half an hour he returned, and he cried out as he entered--"Diana, ye are ruined! He has taken in you and everybody else. The villain broke yesterday. He is off! Ye may bid fare weel to your siller!" "Wha is off?" cried I, and I was in sic a state I was hardly able to speak. "Walter Sanderson!" answered my brother-in-law.
I believe I went into hysterics; for the first thing I mind o" after his saying so, was a dozen people standing round about me--some slapping at the palms o" my hands, and others laving water on my breast and temples, until they had me as wet as if they had douked me in Pollock"s Well.
I canna tell how I stood up against this clap o" misery. It was near getting the better o" me. For a time I really hated the very name and the sight o" man, and I said, as the song says, that
"Men are a" deceivers."
But this was not the worst o" it--I had lost my all, and I was now forced into the acquaintanceship of poverty and dependence. I first went to live under the roof o" my youngest sister, who had always been my favourite; but, before six months went round, I found that she began to treat me just as though I had been a servant, ordering me to do this and do the other; and sometimes my dinner was sent ben to me into the kitchen; and the servant la.s.sies, seeing how their mistress treated me, considered that they should be justified in doing the same--and they did the same. Many a weary time have I lain down upon my bed and wished never to rise again, for my spirit was weary o" this world. But I put up wi" insult after insult, until flesh and blood could endure it no longer. Then did I go to my other sister, and she hardly opened her mouth to me as I entered her house. I saw that I might gang where I liked--I wasna welcome there. Before I had been a week under her roof, I found that the herd"s dog led a lady"s life to mine. I was forced to leave her too.
And, as a sort o" last alternative, just to keep me in existence, I began a bit shop in a neighbouring town, and took in sewing and washing; and, after I had tried them awhile, and found that they would hardly do, I commenced a bit school, at the advice of the minister"s wife, and learned bairns their letters and the catechism, and knitting and sewing.
I also taught them (for they were a" girls) how to work their samplers, and to write, and to cast accounts. But what vexed and humbled me more than all I had suffered, was, that one night, just after I had let my scholars away, an auld hedger and ditcher body, almost sixty years o"
age, came into the house, and "How"s a" wi" ye the nicht?" says he, though I had never spoken to the man before. But he took off his bonnet, and, pulling in a chair, drew a seat to the fire. I was thunderstruck!
But I was yet mair astonished and ashamed, when the auld body, sleeking down his hair and his chin, had the a.s.surance to make love to me!
"There is the door, sir!" cried I. And when he didna seem willing to understand me, I gripped him by the shouthers, and showed him what I meant.
Yet quite composedly he turned round to me and said, "I dinna see what is the use o" the like o" this--it is true I am aulder than you, but you are at a time o" life now that ye canna expect ony young man to look at ye. Therefore, ye had better think twice before ye turn me to the door.
Ye will find it just as easy a life being the wife o" a hedger as keeping a school--rather mair sae I apprehend, and mair profitable too."
I had nae patience wi" the man. I thought my sisters had insulted me; but this offer o" the hedger"s wounded me mair than a" that they had done.
"O James Laidlaw!" cried I, when I was left to mysel, "what hae ye brought me to! My sisters dinna look after me. My parting wi" them has gien them an excuse to forget that I exist. My brother is far frae me, and he is ruled by a wife; and I hae been robbed by another o" the little that I had. I am like a withered tree in a wilderness, standing its lane--I will fa" and naebody will miss me. I am sick, and there are none to haud my head. My throat is parched and my lips dry, and there are none to bring me a cup o" water. There is nae _living thing_ that I can ca" mine. And some day I shall be found a stiffened corpse in my bed, with no one near me to close my eyes in death or perform the last office of humanity! For I am alone--I am by myself--I am forgotten in the world; and my latter years, if I have a long life, will be a burden to strangers.""
But Diana Darling did not so die. Her gentleness, her kindness, caused her to be beloved by many who knew not her history; and, when the last stern messenger came to call her hence, many watched with tears around her bed of death, and many more in sorrow followed her to the grave. So ran the few leaves in the diary of a spinster--and the reader will forgive our interpolations.
GEORDIE WILLISON, AND THE HEIRESS OF CASTLE GOWER.
Antiquaries know very well that one of the oldest of the Nova Scotia knights, belonging to Scotland, was Sir Marmaduke Maitland of Castle Gower, situated in one of the southern counties of the kingdom; but they may not know so well that Sir Marmaduke held his property under a strict entail to heirs male, whom failing, to heirs female, under the condition of bearing the arms and name of the Castle Gower family; or that he was married to Catherine Maxwell, a near relative of the family of Herries, in the Stewartry of Kirkcudbright--a person of no very great beauty, but sprightly, and of good manners. This woman had been brought up in France, and was deeply tinged with French feelings. She had French cooks and French milliners about her in abundance; and a French lackey was considered by her as indispensable as meat and drink. Then she was represented as being a proud, imperious woman, with a bad temper; which was rendered worse by her continued fretting, in consequence of not having any children to her husband; whereby the property would go away to a son of her husband"s brother. Sir Marmaduke and his lady had a town-house in Edinburgh, in which they lived for the greater part of the year, situated so as to look to the North Back of the Canongate, and with an entry to it from that street, but the princ.i.p.al gate was from the north side. A garden was attached to the house; and the stables and coach-houses were situated at the foot of the garden. All these premises are now removed; but Sir Marmaduke Maitland"s house--or, as it was styled, the Duke"s house--at the period of this story, was a very showy house, and very well known to the inhabitants of Edinburgh.
Now, at the foot of Leith Wynd, there lived, about the same time, a poor widow woman, called Widow Willison, who had a son and a daughter.
She was the widow of a William Willison, who earned a livelihood by the humble means of serving the inhabitants of Edinburgh with water, which he conveyed to their doors by the means of an a.s.s; and was, in consequence, called Water Willie--a good, simple, honest creature; much liked by his customers, from whom he never wanted a good diet; and had no fault, but that of disliking the element in which he dealt. He liked he said very well to drive water to the great folks, and he wished them "meikle guid o"t; but, for his ain pairt, he preferred whisky, which, he thocht, was o" a warmer and mair congenial nature, and better suited to the inside o" a rational animal, like man."
Strange enough, it was to William Willison"s dislike to water that people attributed his death. It would have been more logical--but scandal is a bad logician--to have debited that event to the water; for, though it will not conceal that Willie was drunk when he died, it was as notorious that it was not because he was drunk that he died--but that he died because his water-cart went over him when he was drunk. However that may be, and there is no use in wasting much reasoning on the point, William left, at his death, a widow and two children, with nothing to support them.
Widow Willison was a good, religious woman, of the old school, believing in the transcendent influence of mere faith, as carrying along with it all the minor points of justification by works, election, and others, in the same way that a river takes with it the drops of rain that fall from the heavens, and carries all down to the ocean. She was an excellent example of the influence of a pure religion--kind and generous in her sentiments; and, though left with two children, and no food to satisfy their hunger, patient and hopeful--placing implicit trust and confidence in the Author of all good, and viewing murmuring as a sin against His providence.
Let us introduce, now, George Willison, her son, an extraordinary individual, apparently destined to be more notorious than his father, in so much as his character was composed of that mixture of simplicity, bordering on silliness, and shrewd sagacity in the ordinary affairs of life, which is often observed in people of Scotland. Though common, the character is nearly inexplicable to the a.n.a.lyst; for the individual seems conscious of the weaker part of his character, but he appears to love it, and often makes it subservient to the stronger elements of his mind, by using it at once as a cloak and a foil to them. George, like the other individuals of his peculiar species, followed no trade.
Sometimes he acted as a cadie, a letter-carrier, a messenger, a porter, a water-carrier--in any capacity, in short, in which he could, with no continuous labour, earn a little money. To work at any given thing for longer time than a day, was a task which he generally condemned, as being wearisome and monotonous, and more suited to the inferior animals than to man. His clothes, like his avocations, were many-coloured, and suited the silly half of his character, without altogether depriving him of the rights of a citizen, or making him the property and sport of school-boys. Like his employments, his earnings were chancy and various, ranging between a shilling to five shillings a-week, including gratuities, which his conceit prompted him to call "helps," with a view to avoid the imputation of living upon alms--a name, in the Scotch language "awmous," which did not sound agreeably in the ears of Geordie Willison.
The very reverse of George was his sister--a black-eyed beauty, of great intelligence, who earned a little money, to support the family, by means of her needle. She was a great comfort to her mother, seldom going out, and felt much annoyed by the strange character of her brother, whom she often endeavoured to improve, with a view to his following some trade.
He was twenty years of age, and if he did not "tak" himself up" now, she said, "he would be a vagrant a" his days." Geordie, on the other hand, quietly heard his sister, but he never saw--at least, he pretended not to see, which was the same thing--the force of her argument. The weak half of his const.i.tution was always presented to any attack of logic; and the adroitness with which he met his opponent by this soft buckler--which, like a feather-bed presented to a canon bullet, swallowed the force and the noise at the same time--was worthy of Aristotle, or Thomas Scotus, or any other logical warrior. Take an example:--
"Whar hae ye been the day, Geordie?" said his mother to him one day.
"I hae been convoying Sir Marmaduke Maitland a wee bit on his way to France," said Geordie. "He asked me to bear him company and carry his luggage to Leith, and I couldna refuse sic a favour to the braw knight."