""Let me look at it," says he.
"So, as honesty never needs to be feared for what it does, I handed him the bit paper. But after looking at it for a moment, he held it up between his finger and thumb, and wi" a kind o" sarcastic laugh, inquired--"Where is the stamp?"
"The sweat broke ower me from head to foot. "Sir, my wife, Nancy! Is that doc.u.ment, in the handwriting o" the man himsel", not proof positive that I have paid the money?"
"The writer shook his head; and a gentleman that was standing near me, and who was very probably in a similar predicament to myself, said--"Unstamped receipts, sir, may do very well, where ye find a world o" purely honest men--but they winna do where ye arena sure but ye may be dealing wi" a rogue."
""Gentlemen!" cried I, "have ye really the cruelty and injustice to say that I am to pay that money owre again?"
""Owre again or not owre again," said the writer, "ye must pay it, otherwise summary proceedings will be entered against ye. If ye have already paid it in the way ye say, it is only making good the proverb, that the "simple man is the beggar"s brother.""
""Oh, confound ye!" cried I, "for a parcel o" unprincipled knaves--that is exactly what my wife says; and had I followed her advice, I would ne"er hae seen ane o" yer faces."
"However, the ninety pounds I had to pay again, doun upon the nail; and that was another o" the beautiful effects o" my simplicity. I didna ken how, in the universal globe, I was to muster courage to look my wife in the face again. Yet all that she said was--"O Nicholas! Nicholas!--would ye only be less simple!"
""Heigho!" said I, "dinna talk about it, Nancy--I"m owre grieved as it is--I can stand no more!"
"The loss o" the three hundred pounds, wi" the bill business, and the ninety just mentioned, made me to stagger, and those that knew about the circ.u.mstances wondered how I stood them. But I had just begun a new concern, which was the manufacture o" table-cloths upon a new principle, and with exceedingly splendid patterns. I got an extraordinary sale for them, and orders came pouring in upon me. But I had to employ more men to fulfil them, and their wages were to pay every Sat.u.r.day, while the remittances did not come in by half so regular as the orders, and I found it was not easy to pay men without receiving money for their work. Had I been a man o" a great capital, the case might have been different. There was one day, however, that a gentleman that had dealt wi" me very extensively called upon me, and he gied me a very excellent order. But, although he had seen a great deal o" my goods, I never had seen the shadow o" his cash. I canna say that I exactly liked his manner o" doing business; yet I couldna, for the breath that was in my body, have the face to say an impertinent thing to ony one, and I was just telling him that his order should be attended to, when my wife, who was sitting in a room off the parlour, gave a tap upon the door, and, asking the gentleman to excuse me for a minute, I stepped ben, and I half whispered to her--"What is it, dear?"
""Has that man spoken about paying ye?" said she.
""No," said I.
""But I think it is time he was," quoth she, "before ye trust him ony farther. Remember that ye have men"s wages to pay, and accounts to pay, and a wife and family to support, and those things canna be done upon nothing."
""Very true, dearie," said I; "but ye wouldna have me to speak abruptly to the gentleman, or to affront him?"
""It will affront no gentleman," replied she--"at least, no honest man--to ask him for what is your own. Therefore, ask him for your money. Remember, Nicholas, that the simple man is the beggar"s brother."
""O dear, woman!" says I, "ye ken I dinna like to hear thae words. I"ll ask the gentleman to pay me--to be sure I will; and what is the use o" your keeping tease, teasing at a body, just as if I were a simpleton."
"So I slipped back to the customer, and, after a few words about his order, I said to him--"Sir, ye understand I have men"s wages to pay, and accounts to pay, and a wife and family to support, and it"s no little that does it; therefore, if ye could just oblige me wi" the settlement o" your account, it would be a favour."
""My dear Mr Middlemiss," said he, "I am extremely sorry that you did not inform me that you were in want of cash sooner, as I have just, before I saw you, parted with all I can spare. But, if you be very much in want of it, I can give you a note, that is, a bill for the money, at three or six months. You can get it cashed, you know, and it is only minus the discount, and that is not much upon your profits, eh?"
""Begging your pardon, sir," says I, "but I take I would have my name to write on the back o"t."
""Certainly, sir," said he, "you know that follows as a matter of course."
""Yes, sir," continued I, "and I have found that it sometimes follows also as a matter o" _coercion!_ I never had to do wi" what ye call a bill in my life but once, which was merely writing my name upon the back o"t, and that cost me three hundred pounds--exactly sixteen pounds, two shillings and threepence, and a fraction, for every letter in the name of Nicholas Middlemiss, as my wife has often told me. Therefore, sir, I would never wish to see the _face_ o" a bill again; or, I should say, the _back_ o"
one."
""But, my good sir," said the gentleman, "I have told you that it is not convenient for me to give you the cash just now; and, if you won"t take my bill, why, what do you wish me to do? Do you intend to affront me? Do you suppose I have nothing to attend to but your account?"
""Oh, by no means, sir," said I; "and it would be the last thing in my thoughts either to offend you or ony man. If ye have not the money at command, I suppose I must take the bill; for I know that cash down is a sort o" curiosity, as I sometimes say, and is very difficult to be met wi"."
"While we were conversing thegither, I heard my wife gie a tap, tap, tap, twice or thrice upon the parlour door, and I was convinced that she owreheard us; but I didna take the least notice o" it, for I felt conscious that it would only be to ring the auld sang in my ears, about the simple man. So I took the gentleman"s bill at six months; and immediately after he left me, Nancy came into the parlour.
""Weel," said she, "ye"ve gotten your money." But she said it wi" a scornful air, such as I had never seen her use before, and which caused me to feel excessively uncomfortable.
""Yes, I"ve got my money," says I, "but, dear me, Nancy, what business is it o" yours whether I have got my money or no?"
""If it isna my business, Nicholas," said she, "I would like to ken whase business it is? I am the wife o" your bosom--the mother o" your family--am I not? Guidman, ye may take ill what I say to ye, but it is meant for your good. Now, ye hae ta"en the bill o" the man that has just left ye, for four hundred and odd pounds! What do ye ken aboot him? Naething!--naething in the blessed world! Ye are a simple man, Nicholas!"
""Dinna say that," said I; "I am not simple. I told him to his face that I didna like his bills. But ye are like a" women--ye would do wonders if ye were men! But his bill prevents a" disputes about his account--do ye not see that--and I can cash it if I wish."
""Very true," said she, "ye can cash it, Nicholas, but upon your own credit, and at your own risk."
""Risk!" said I, "the woman"s a fool to talk in such a manner about an every-day transaction."
""Weel," answered she, "not to say that there is the slightest risk in the matter, have ye considered, that, if ye do cash this bill, there will be a heavy discount to pay, and if ye pay it, what is to become o" your profits?
Did ye tell him, that if ye took his bill ye would carry the discount to his next account?"
""O Nancy! Nancy!" cried I, "ye would skin the wind! Just take yoursel"
away, if ye please; for really ye"re tormenting me--making a perfect gowk o" me, for neither end nor purpose."
""Oh, if that be the way," said she, "I can leave ye--but I have seen the day when ye thought otherwise o" my company. Yet, the more I see o" your transactions, Nicholas, the more I am convinced in the truth o" the saying, that the simple man is the beggar"s brother."
""Sorrow take ye, wife!" cried I, "will ye really come owre thae words again. Are ye not aware that I detest and abhor them? Have I not said that to ye again and again?--and yet ye will repeat them in my hearing? Do ye wish to drive me mad?"
""I would wish to see ye act," answered she, "so that I would ne"er need to use them again." And, on saying that, she went out o" the room, which to me was a great deliverance.
"I got the bill cashed, and, to tell ye the plain truth, I also had it to pay. This was a dreadfu" loss to me; and I found there was naething left for me but so _sit down_,(if ye understand what that means,) as mony a guid man has been compelled to do. Hooever, I paid every body seventeen shillings and sixpence half-penny in the pound. Some of my creditors said it was owre meikle--that I had been simple and wronged mysel".
""I would wish to the utmost o" my power to be honest," said I; "and if I hae wronged mysel", I hae saved my conscience. If there be naething else left for me noo, as Burns says--
"Heaven be thankit! I can beg."
"My business, hooever, had been entirely at a stand for the s.p.a.ce o" sax weeks. I had neither journeyman nor apprentice left. My looms, and the hale apparatus connected wi" the concern, had been sold off, and I had naething in the world but a few articles o" furniture, which a freend bought back for me at the sale. I got the loan o" a loom, and in order to support my wife and family, I had to sit down to drive the shuttle again. I had wrought nane to speak o" for ten years before, and my hands were quite oot o" use. I made but a puir job o" it. The first week I didna mak aboon half-a-crown; and that was but a sma" sum for the support o" a wife and half-a-dozen hungry bairns. Hooever, I was still as simple as ever; and there wasna a wife in the countryside that was a bad payer, but brought her web to Nicholas Middlemiss. I wrought late and early; but though I did my utmost, I couldna keep my bairns" teeth gaun. Many a time it has wrung my heart, when I hae heard them crying to their mother, clinging round her, and pulling at her ap.r.o.n, saying--"Mother, gie"s a piece!--Oh just a wee bite, mother!"
""O my darlings," she used to say to them, "dinna ask me for bread the noo.
I haena a morsel in the house, and hae na siller to buy meal. But yer faither is aboot finished wi" the web, and ye shall hae plenty the nicht."
"Then the bits o" dear creatures would hae come runnin" ben to me, and asked--"Faither, when will the web be ready?"
""Soon, soon, hinnies!" said I, half choked wi" grief and blind wi" tears; "haud awa" oot and play yoursels!"
"For I couldna stand to see them yearning afore me, and to behold want, like a gnawing worm, eating the flesh from their lovely cheeks. Then, when I had went out wi" the web, Nancy would say to me--"Noo, Nicholas, remember the situation we"re in. There"s neither food o" ae description nor anither in the house, and ye see the last o" oor coals upon the fire. Therefore, afore ye leave the web, see that ye get the money for the working o"t."
"Yet, scores o" times, even after such admonitions, hae I come hame without a penny in my pocket. Ane put me aff with ae excuse, and anither wi"
anither. Some were to ca" and pay me on the Sat.u.r.day, and others when they killed their pig. But those Sat.u.r.days seldom came; and, in my belief, the pigs are living yet. It used to put me in terror to meet my poor starving family. The consequence generally was, that Nancy had to go to where I had come frae and request payment hersel"; and, at last, she wadna trust me wi"
the taking hame o" the webs.
"We suffered more than I"m willing to tell aboot, at the period I mention, and a" arose oot o" my simpleness. But I was confined to my bed for ten weeks, wi" a dreadfu" attack o" rheumatism--it was what was ca"ed a rheumatic fever--it reduced me to a perfect anatomy. I was as f.e.c.kless as a half-burned thread. Through fatigue, anxiety, and want o" support thegither, Nancy also took very ill; and there did we lie to a" appearance hastening to the grave. What we suffered, and what our family suffered upon this occasion, no person in a Christian country could believe. But for the kindness o" the minister, and some o" oor neebors, we must a" hae perished.
As a matter of course we fell sadly back; and when the house rent became due, we had not wherewith to pay it. The landlord distrained us for it. A second time the few things I had left were put under the hammer o" the auctioneer. "Oh!" said I, "surely misery and I were born thegither!" For we had twa dochters, the auldest only gaun six, baith lying ill o" the scarlet fever in the same bed, and I had to suffer the agony o" beholding the bed sold out from under them. It was more than human nature could endure. The poor, dear lammies cried--"Faither! mither! dinna let them touch us!" I took the auldest up in my arms, and begged that I micht be allowed a blanket to row her in. Nancy took up the youngest one, and while the sale went on, with our dying bairns in our arms, we sat down in the street before the door, as twa beggars--but we were not begging.
"Our case excited universal commiseration. A number o" respectable people began to take an interest in our weelfare; and business came so thick upon me that I had to get twa other looms, and found constant employment, not only for my auldest laddie, whom I was bringing up to the business, but also for a journeyman.
"Just as I was beginning to prosper, hooever, and to get my head aboon the water, there was ane o" my auld creditors to whom I had paid the composition of seventeen and sixpence halfpenny in the pound, wha was a hard-hearted, avaricious sort o" man, and to whom I had promised, and not only promised, but given a written pledge, to pay him the remaining two and fivepence halfpenny in the pound, together with interest, in the course of six years. The time was just expiring, when he came to me, and presenting the bit paper, which was in my own handwriting, demanded payment.