"Dammitt!" he snapped. "Dammitt!" And yet folks wondered why a chap who knocked around this city hunting news sometimes drank more than was good for him.
CHAPTER VII
AS WILLOWS BUD IN SPRING
Cecille was still up, staring out of the window, when Felicity and Perry Blair came in that night. Perry stayed but a moment, only long enough to promise that he would come again. Then he was gone. And Felicity was standing before the other girl, every line of her pulsing triumph.
"Not him!" Cecille cried. She could not have understood the triumph better had Felicity explained with a torrent of words.
"Oh, not him!" with quick, unthinking horror. "He--he"s only a boy."
"Who?" demanded Felicity blankly.
"Mr--Mr. Blair."
Felicity"s laugh was staccato.
"Him? Good Lord, no. Dunham!" She fairly sang it. "Dunham.
Pig-iron Dunham. I knew if I waited I"d cop. Now watch me. Watch my dust!"
Cecille wondered why she didn"t pack her bag and get out. But she didn"t. She stayed. And later, a little timidly, she inquired about Blair.
"Perry Blair?" Felicity with a racing tongue had been describing how Dunham led her away from the near-accident.
"Perry? Oh, he"s a prize-fighter. Light-weight champion, or he was for a minute or so. He wouldn"t play the game when he had his chance, I guess, so Dunham and the bunch broke him. Something like that. I never did hear the inside stuff. But they say he was a bust anyway--just a morning-glory--and didn"t know his luck. But do I? Did I play the game to-night? Did I pa.s.s up Pig-iron and his limousine to come home in a flat-wheeled trolley with my hero, who"s already made him sore once? Oh, didn"t I though! I guess I"m crazy!"
Cecille recoiled a little from that.
A prize-fighter. A bruiser. A plug-ugly. But--but--why, that wasn"t possible. And if your idea of such a one is what Cecille"s once was, neither will he fill your eye.
Just a kid. Hamilton had hit it off aptly at that. Level-eyed and diffident of tongue, with only a hint of his hidden bodily perfection lurking in breadth of shoulder and slenderness of waist.
A prize-fighter! Cecille fell asleep wondering how soon he would come again. As to whether he would come at all she was never for a moment in doubt. Once she had watched his eyes follow Felicity across the room she _knew_. But she hadn"t felt sorry for him as Hamilton had.
She felt sorry for herself and bitter against Perry. For the time she hated him.
Nor did she have to wonder long. Perry came the next night and escorted Felicity to the Roof. And the next. And next. Then Felicity realized that it would not be good policy to make Dunham sulk. Indeed she knew her luck. Indeed she played the game. The third evening she left Perry at home with Cecille.
[Ill.u.s.tration: Lucky interference.]
And for six whole weeks Broadway nudged and watched it. Broadway watched Perry Blair"s courtship of Felicity and Dunham"s, if you can call the latter"s unhurried pursuit that. Dunham was complacent and patient, Felicity"s tactics were not new to him and he did not mind being made conspicuous. And Perry Blair never knew they nudged; never knew they laughed. There is some satisfaction in that. But it is far finer, I think, to be sure that Broadway never guessed at all of the other courtship which went steadily forward in the same interval, elementally, naturally as willows bud in spring. Perry himself was unaware of it. Cecille too--for a while.
For Felicity left him oftener and oftener to the other girl. And almost immediately a common need for the companionship of the other was born in both of them. Upon the boy"s part it must have been the urge to carry on his courtship, even vicariously. Lonesomeness was the way Cecille explained it to herself until with the pa.s.sage of a little time she could no longer tell herself that lie and believe it. And that marked the beginning of a long bad period for her.
She ceased soon to hate him when he spoke of Felicity. Whenever he observed haltingly, as he did over and over again, that it was no place for a girl like her (Fiegenspann"s) and that she should be gotten out before it was too late, she learned to agree with him mechanically.
Instead of hating his blindness, as persistently as she dared she swung the conversation more and more to other things.
From the beginning she found it hard to make him talk about himself.
That instantly set him apart from all other men in her experience. For they had talked of little else. And yet, when finally she had it from him, she found his ambition anything but vague.
"I like animals," he told her on one such occasion, "and the--the country. I guess that"s what I am, a country boy. I sure would like to own a ranch."
He"d not pressed her so eagerly for her hopes. Scarcely. His singleness of interest at least was wholly masculine. But that didn"t deter her. She found herself giving them to him just the same, just as eagerly.
"A ranch!" she seized hungrily upon that word. "A home! A white house on a hill with light green shutters. The house, of course, not the hill." She went further.
"And a white and blue kitchen." Her haste to tell him was bubbling.
"With aluminum pots and pans. Dozens! A whole set!"
And, somehow subdued:
"They"re very expensive."
Broadway never knew anything about that courtship. But Felicity used to wake up, now and then, and hear the other girl crying softly in the night.
It was a long bad period for Cecille. At first the birth of this wholly new thing within her baffled her own power to reason. She watched its mushroom growth with fascination, just a little aghast.
But when, all in a kind of cataclysmic flash, she thought to recognize it for what it was, she shrank away as if from a malignant fungus.
From the first evening one thing had intrigued her. Her discovery that the sensation of pervading cleanliness which she always had from him was not a result of the careful clothes he wore but something more essential made her remember how the Sunday-groomed louts of other days, reeking with cheap toilet water and hair oil, had filled her with dull loathing. She had never attempted an a.n.a.lysis of that distaste. Now trying to a.n.a.lyze its opposite, in the case of Perry Blair, she arrived at a disquieting certainty. She found she could no more be near him, no more glance at him, without being conscious of him physically, than she could strike her head against a wall and not be hurt.
She realized more. She realized how keenly she liked being near him.
She realized how often, and for how long, she had been making little opportunities to stand close, so that her shoulder brushed his. How often she had contrived a fleeting contact of their hands. And yet if anybody had tried to tell her that this was the blooming of a perfect thing to be cherished all her days she would have suffered unutterably that she had been found out. As it was she suffered sufficiently. She cried too often into her pillow. But she wasn"t yet wholly debased in her own eyes. That came directly, inevitably.
One Sat.u.r.day afternoon, urged more enthusiastically by him than she had ever been urged before, she accompanied him to a gymnasium far uptown.
"I"m keeping in shape, you see," he told her without his usual diffidence. "I don"t know quite why. Everybody says I"m through, but sometimes I think something may turn up. Enough to bring me a little stake anyhow. And, anyway, it pays me a little. I"m working out with Jack English. He"s a welter; he"s getting ready for a go with Levitt.
I"ve told you a lot about this business, but you can"t judge much just from talk. I--I"d like to have you come up and watch me box."
There it was, of a sudden. There was his shyness again, so lamely come upon him that it colored his face. And the halting boyishness of the request had warmed Cecille"s face too; warmed her through and through.
She knew an impulse to hug his head to her breast, a very mature and motherly impulse.
He had told her much of this business; so much that she hardly recoiled from it at all. A welter--yes, she understood that. Between a light-weight and a middle.
But she hesitated so long that he thought he had guessed her objection and hastened to rea.s.sure her.
"There won"t be anybody there," he said. "n.o.body. Just English and his trainer and me. You needn"t be afraid--"
"I"m not," she stopped him. "It"s not--that."
So she went.
CHAPTER VIII
MY LAD