"It isn"t because of his position that I cling to d.i.c.k. I want him to keep that--yes--for his sake. I don"t want him to lose more by marrying me than he needs must"; and comprehension burst upon Henry Thresk.
"You care for him then! You really care for him?"
"So much," she answered, "that if I lost him now I should lose all the world. You and I can"t go back to where we stood nine years ago. You had your chance then, Henry, if you had wished to take it. But you didn"t wish it, and that sort of chance doesn"t often come again. Others like it--yes. But not quite the same one. I am sorry. But you must believe me.
If I lost d.i.c.k I should lose all the world."
So far she had spoken very deliberately, but now her voice faltered.
"That is my one poor excuse."
The unexpected word roused Thresk to inquiry.
"Excuse?" he asked, and with her eyes fixed in fear upon him she continued:
"Yes. I meant d.i.c.k to marry me publicly. But I saw that his father shrank from the marriage. I grew afraid. I told d.i.c.k of my fears. He banished them. I let him banish them."
"What do you mean?" Thresk asked.
"We were married privately in London five days ago."
Thresk uttered a low cry and in a moment Stella was at his side, all her composure gone.
"Oh, I know that it was wrong. But I was being hunted. They were all like a pack of wolves after me. Mr. Hazlewood had joined them. I was driven into a corner. I loved d.i.c.k. They meant to tear him from me without any pity. I clung. Yes, I clung."
But Thresk thrust her aside.
"You tricked him," he cried.
"I didn"t dare to tell him," Stella pleaded, wringing her hands. "I didn"t dare to lose him."
"You tricked him," Thresk repeated; and at the note of anger in his voice Stella found herself again.
"You accuse and condemn me?" she asked quietly.
"Yes. A thousand times, yes," he exclaimed hotly, and she answered with another question winged on a note of irony:
"Because I tricked him? Or because I--married him?"
Thresk was silenced. He recognised the truth implied in the distinction, he turned to her with a smile.
"Yes," he answered. "You are right, Stella. It"s because you married him."
He stood for a moment in thought. Then with a gesture of helplessness he picked up her cloak. She watched his action and as he came towards her she cried:
"But I"ll tell him now, Henry." In a way she owed it to this man who cared for her so much, who was so prepared for sacrifice, if sacrifice could help. That morning on the downs was swept from her memory now.
"Yes, I"ll tell him now," she said eagerly. Since Henry Thresk set such store upon that confession, why so very likely would d.i.c.k, her husband, too.
But Thresk shook his head.
"What"s the use now? You give him no chance. You can"t set him free"; and Stella was as one turned to stone. All argument seemed sooner or later to turn to that one dread alternative which had already twice that night forced itself on her acceptance.
"Yes, I can, Henry, and I will, I promise you, if he wishes to be free. I can do it quite easily, quite naturally. Any woman could. So many of us take things to make us sleep."
There was no boastfulness in her voice or manner, but rather a despairing recognition of facts.
"Good G.o.d, you mustn"t think of it!" said Thresk eagerly. "That"s too big a price to pay."
Stella shook her head wistfully.
"You hear it said, Henry," she answered with an indescribable wistfulness, "that women will do anything to keep the men they love.
They"ll do a great deal--I am an example--but not always everything.
Sometimes love runs just a little stronger. And then it craves that the loved one shall get all he wants to have. If d.i.c.k wants his freedom I too, then, shall want him to have it."
And while Thresk stood with no words to answer her there came a knocking upon the door. It was gentle, almost furtive, but it startled them both like a clap of thunder. For a moment they stood rigid. Then Thresk silently handed Stella her cloak and pointed towards the window. He began to speak aloud. A word or two revealed his plan to Stella Ballantyne. He was rehearsing a speech which he was to make in the Courts before a jury. But the handle of the door rattled and now old Mr.
Hazlewood"s voice was heard.
"Thresk! Are you there?"
Once more Thresk pointed to the window. But Stella did not move.
"Let him in," she said quietly, and with a glance at her he unlocked the door.
Mr. Hazlewood stood outside. He had not gone to bed that night. He had taken off his coat and now wore a smoking-jacket.
"I knew that I should not sleep to-night, so I sat up," he began, "and I thought that I heard voices here."
Over Thresk"s shoulder he saw Stella Ballantyne standing erect in the middle of the room, her shining gown the one bright patch of colour. "You here?" he cried to her, and Thresk made way for him to enter. He advanced to her with a look of triumph in his eyes.
"You here--at this house--with Thresk? You were persuading him to continue to hold his tongue."
Stella met his gaze steadily.
"No," she replied. "He was persuading me to the truth, and he has succeeded."
Mr. Hazlewood smiled and nodded. There was no magnanimity in his triumph.
A schoolboy would have shown more chivalry to the opponent who was down.
"You confess then? Good! Richard must be told."
"Yes," answered Stella. "I claim the right to tell him."
But Mr. Hazlewood scoffed at the proposal.
"Oh dear no!" he cried. "I refuse the claim. I shall go straight to Richard now."
He had actually taken a couple of steps towards the door before Stella"s voice rang out suddenly loud and imperative.
"Take care, Mr. Hazlewood. After you have told him he will come to me.