Wives and Daughters

Chapter 28

Molly, worse than all--I don"t know how to bring myself to tell you--as to the age and health of the Squire, his dear father"--(she began to sob almost hysterically; yet she would go on talking, in spite of Molly"s efforts to stop her)--"who held him in his arms, and blessed him, even before I had kissed him; and thought always so much of him as his heir and first-born darling. How he has loved him! How I have loved him! I sometimes have thought of late that we"ve almost done that good Roger injustice."

"No! I"m sure you"ve not: only look at the way he loves you. Why, you are his first thought: he may not speak about it, but any one may see it. And dear, dear Mrs. Hamley," said Molly, determined to say out all that was in her mind now that she had once got the word, "don"t you think that it would be better not to misjudge Mr. Osborne Hamley?

We don"t know what he has done with the money: he is so good (is he not?) that he may have wanted it to relieve some poor person--some tradesman, for instance, pressed by creditors--some--"

"You forget, dear," said Mrs. Hamley, smiling a little at the girl"s impetuous romance, but sighing the next instant, "that all the other bills come from tradesmen, who complain piteously of being kept out of their money."

Molly was nonplussed for the moment; but then she said,--

"I daresay they imposed upon him. I"m sure I"ve heard stories of young men being made regular victims of by the shopkeepers in great towns."

"You"re a great darling, child," said Mrs. Hamley, comforted by Molly"s strong partisanship, unreasonable and ignorant though it was.

"And, besides," continued Molly, "some one must be acting wrongly in Osborne"s--Mr. Osborne Hamley"s, I mean--I can"t help saying Osborne sometimes, but, indeed, I always think of him as Mr. Osborne--"

"Never mind, Molly, what you call him; only go on talking. It seems to do me good to hear the hopeful side taken. The Squire has been so hurt and displeased: strange-looking men coming into the neighbourhood, too, questioning the tenants, and grumbling about the last fall of timber, as if they were calculating on the Squire"s death."

"That"s just what I was going to speak about. Doesn"t it show that they are bad men? and would bad men scruple to impose upon him, and to tell lies in his name, and to ruin him?"

"Don"t you see, you only make him out weak, instead of wicked?"

"Yes; perhaps I do. But I don"t think he is weak. You know yourself, dear Mrs. Hamley, how very clever he really is. Besides, I would rather he was weak than wicked. Weak people may find themselves all at once strong in heaven, when they see things quite clearly; but I don"t think the wicked will turn themselves into virtuous people all at once."

"I think I"ve been very weak, Molly," said Mrs. Hamley, stroking Molly"s curls affectionately. "I"ve made such an idol of my beautiful Osborne; and he turns out to have feet of clay, not strong enough to stand firm on the ground. And that"s the best view of his conduct, too!"

What with his anger against his son, and his anxiety about his wife; the difficulty of raising the money immediately required, and his irritation at the scarce-concealed inquiries made by strangers as to the value of his property, the poor Squire was in a sad state. He was angry and impatient with every one who came near him; and then was depressed at his own violent temper and unjust words. The old servants, who, perhaps, cheated him in many small things, were beautifully patient under his upbraidings. They could understand bursts of pa.s.sion, and knew the cause of his variable moods as well as he did himself. The butler, who was accustomed to argue with his master about every fresh direction as to his work, now nudged Molly at dinner-time to make her eat of some dish which she had just been declining, and explained his conduct afterwards as follows:--

"You see, miss, me and cook had planned a dinner as would tempt master to eat; but when you say, "No, thank you," when I hand you anything, master never so much as looks at it. But if you takes a thing, and eats with a relish, why first he waits, and then he looks, and by-and-by he smells; and then he finds out as he"s hungry, and falls to eating as natural as a kitten takes to mewing. That"s the reason, miss, as I gave you a nudge and a wink, which no one knows better nor me was not manners."

Osborne"s name was never mentioned during these cheerless meals. The Squire asked Molly questions about Hollingford people, but did not seem much to attend to her answers. He used also to ask her every day how she thought that his wife was; but if Molly told the truth--that every day seemed to make her weaker and weaker--he was almost savage with the girl. He could not bear it; and he would not. Nay, once he was on the point of dismissing Mr. Gibson because he insisted on a consultation with Dr. Nicholls, the great physician of the county.

"It"s nonsense thinking her so ill as that--you know it"s only the delicacy she"s had for years; and if you can"t do her any good in such a simple case--no pain--only weakness and nervousness--it is a simple case, eh?--don"t look in that puzzled way, man!--you"d better give her up altogether, and I"ll take her to Bath or Brighton, or somewhere for change, for in my opinion it"s only moping and nervousness."

But the Squire"s bluff florid face was pinched with anxiety, and worn with the effort of being deaf to the footsteps of fate as he said these words which belied his fears.

Mr. Gibson replied very quietly,--

"I shall go on coming to see her, and I know you"ll not forbid my visits. But I shall bring Dr. Nicholls with me the next time I come.

I may be mistaken in my treatment; and I wish to G.o.d he may say I am mistaken in my apprehensions."

"Don"t tell me them! I cannot bear them!" cried the Squire. "Of course we must all die; and she must too. But the cleverest doctor in England shan"t go about coolly meting out the life of such as her.

I daresay I shall die first. I hope I shall. But I"ll knock any one down who speaks to me of death sitting within me. And, besides, I think all doctors are ignorant quacks, pretending to knowledge they haven"t got. Ay, you may smile at me. I don"t care. Unless you can tell me I shall die first, neither you nor your Dr. Nicholls shall come prophesying and croaking about this house."

Mr. Gibson went away, heavy at heart from the thought of Mrs.

Hamley"s approaching death, but thinking little enough of the Squire"s speeches. He had almost forgotten them, in fact, when about nine o"clock that evening, a groom rode in from Hamley Hall in hot haste, with a note from the Squire.

DEAR GIBSON,--

For G.o.d"s sake forgive me if I was rude to-day. She is much worse. Come and spend the night here. Write for Nicholls, and all the physicians you want. Write before you start off. They may give her ease. There were Whitworth doctors much talked of in my youth for curing people given up by the regular doctors; can"t you get one of them? I put myself in your hands. Sometimes I think it is the turning point, and she"ll rally after this bout. I trust all to you.

Yours ever,

R. HAMLEY.

P.S.--Molly is a treasure.--G.o.d help me!

Of course Mr. Gibson went; for the first time since his marriage cutting short Mrs. Gibson"s querulous lamentations over her life, as involved in that of a doctor called out at all hours of day and night.

He brought Mrs. Hamley through this attack; and for a day or two the Squire"s alarm and grat.i.tude made him docile in Mr. Gibson"s hands.

Then he returned to the idea of its being a crisis through which his wife had pa.s.sed; and that she was now on the way to recovery. But the day after the consultation with Dr. Nicholls, Mr. Gibson said to Molly,--

"Molly! I"ve written to Osborne and Roger. Do you know Osborne"s address?"

"No, papa. He"s in disgrace. I don"t know if the Squire knows; and she has been too ill to write."

"Never mind. I"ll enclose it to Roger; whatever those lads may be to others, there"s as strong brotherly love as ever I saw, between the two. Roger will know. And, Molly, they are sure to come home as soon as they hear my report of their mother"s state. I wish you"d tell the Squire what I"ve done. It"s not a pleasant piece of work; and I"ll tell madam myself in my own way. I"d have told him if he"d been at home; but you say he was obliged to go to Ashcombe on business."

"Quite obliged. He was so sorry to miss you. But, papa, he will be so angry! You don"t know how mad he is against Osborne."

Molly dreaded the Squire"s anger when she gave him her father"s message. She had seen quite enough of the domestic relations of the Hamley family to understand that, underneath his old-fashioned courtesy, and the pleasant hospitality he showed to her as a guest, there was a strong will, and a vehement pa.s.sionate temper, along with that degree of obstinacy in prejudices (or "opinions," as he would have called them) so common to those who have, neither in youth nor in manhood, mixed largely with their kind. She had listened, day after day, to Mrs. Hamley"s plaintive murmurs as to the deep disgrace in which Osborne was being held by his father--the prohibition of his coming home; and she hardly knew how to begin to tell him that the letter summoning Osborne had already been sent off.

Their dinners were tete-a-tete. The Squire tried to make them pleasant to Molly, feeling deeply grateful to her for the soothing comfort she was to his wife. He made merry speeches, which sank away into silence, and at which they each forgot to smile. He ordered up rare wines, which she did not care for, but tasted out of complaisance. He noticed that one day she had eaten some brown beurre pears as if she liked them; and as his trees had not produced many this year, he gave directions that this particular kind should be sought for through the neighbourhood. Molly felt that, in many ways, he was full of good-will towards her; but it did not diminish her dread of touching on the one sore point in the family. However, it had to be done, and that without delay.

The great log was placed on the after-dinner fire, the hearth swept up, the ponderous candles snuffed, and then the door was shut and Molly and the Squire were left to their dessert. She sat at the side of the table in her old place. That at the head was vacant; yet, as no orders had been given to the contrary, the plate and gla.s.ses and napkin were always arranged as regularly and methodically as if Mrs.

Hamley would come in as usual. Indeed, sometimes, when the door by which she used to enter was opened by any chance, Molly caught herself looking round as if she expected to see the tall, languid figure in the elegant draperies of rich silk and soft lace, which Mrs. Hamley was wont to wear of an evening.

This evening, it struck her, as a new thought of pain, that into that room she would come no more. She had fixed to give her father"s message at this very point of time; but something in her throat choked her, and she hardly knew how to govern her voice. The Squire got up and went to the broad fireplace, to strike into the middle of the great log, and split it up into blazing, sparkling pieces. His back was towards her. Molly began, "When papa was here to-day, he bade me tell you he had written to Mr. Roger Hamley to say that--that he thought he had better come home; and he enclosed a letter to Mr.

Osborne Hamley to say the same thing."

The Squire put down the poker, but he still kept his back to Molly.

"He sent for Osborne and Roger?" he asked, at length.

Molly answered, "Yes."

Then there was a dead silence, which Molly thought would never end.

The Squire had placed his two hands on the high chimney-piece, and stood leaning over the fire.

"Roger would have been down from Cambridge on the 18th," said he.

"And he has sent for Osborne, too! Did he know,"--he continued, turning round to Molly, with something of the fierceness she had antic.i.p.ated in voice and look. In another moment he had dropped his voice. "It"s right, quite right. I understand. It has come at length.

Come! come! Osborne has brought it on, though," with a fresh access of anger in his tones. "She might have" (some word Molly could not hear--she thought it sounded like "lingered") "but for that. I can"t forgive him; I cannot."

And then he suddenly left the room. While Molly sat there still, very sad in her sympathy with all, he put his head in again:--

"Go to her, my dear; I cannot--not just yet. But I will soon. Just this bit; and after that I won"t lose a moment. You"re a good girl.

G.o.d bless you!"

It is not to be supposed that Molly had remained all this time at the Hall without interruption. Once or twice her father had brought her a summons home. Molly thought she could perceive that he had brought it unwillingly; in fact, it was Mrs. Gibson that had sent for her, almost, as it were, to preserve a "right of way" through her actions.

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