There"s nothing really the matter, is there, my dear?" he continued, holding her a little away from him that he might look in her face.
She smiled at him through her tears; and he did not see the look of sadness which returned to her face after he had left her.
"Nothing, dear, dear papa--nothing now. It is such a comfort to have you all to myself--it makes me happy."
Mr. Gibson knew all implied in these words, and felt that there was no effectual help for the state of things which had arisen from his own act. It was better for them both that they should not speak out more fully. So he kissed her, and said,--
"That"s right, dear! I can leave you in comfort now, and indeed I"ve stayed too long already gossiping. Go out and have a walk--take Cynthia with you, if you like. I must be off. Good-by, little one."
His commonplace words acted like an astringent on Molly"s relaxed feelings. He intended that they should do so; it was the truest kindness to her; but he walked away from her with a sharp pang at his heart, which he stunned into numbness as soon as he could by throwing himself violently into the affairs and cares of others.
CHAPTER x.x.xVII.
A FLUKE, AND WHAT CAME OF IT.
[Ill.u.s.tration (unt.i.tled)]
The honour and glory of having a lover of her own was soon to fall to Molly"s share; though, to be sure, it was a little deduction from the honour that the man who came with the full intention of proposing to her, ended by making Cynthia an offer. It was Mr. c.o.xe, who came back to Hollingford to follow out the purpose he had announced to Mr.
Gibson nearly two years before, of inducing Molly to become his wife as soon as he should have succeeded to his uncle"s estate. He was now a rich, though still a red-haired, young man. He came to the George Inn, bringing his horses and his groom; not that he was going to ride much, but that he thought such outward signs of his riches might help on his suit; and he was so justly modest in his estimation of himself that he believed that he needed all extraneous aid. He piqued himself on his constancy; and indeed, considering that he had been so much restrained by his duty, his affection, and his expectations to his crabbed old uncle, that he had not been able to go much into society, and very rarely indeed into the company of young ladies, such fidelity to Molly was very meritorious, at least in his own eyes. Mr.
Gibson too was touched by it, and made it a point of honour to give him a fair field, all the time sincerely hoping that Molly would not be such a goose as to lend a willing ear to a youth who could never remember the difference between apophysis and epiphysis. He thought it as well not to tell his wife more of Mr. c.o.xe"s antecedents than that he had been a former pupil; who had relinquished ("all that he knew of," understood) the medical profession because an old uncle had left him enough of money to be idle. Mrs. Gibson, who felt that she had somehow lost her place in her husband"s favour, took it into her head that she could reinstate herself if she was successful in finding a good match for his daughter Molly. She knew that her husband had forbidden her to try for this end, as distinctly as words could express a meaning; but her own words so seldom expressed her meaning, or if they did, she held to her opinions so loosely, that she had no idea but that it was the same with other people.
Accordingly she gave Mr. c.o.xe a very sweet and gracious welcome.
"It is such a pleasure to me to make acquaintance with the former pupils of my husband. He has spoken to me so often of you that I quite feel as if you were one of the family, as indeed I am sure that Mr. Gibson considers you."
Mr. c.o.xe felt much flattered, and took the words as a happy omen for his love-affair. "Is Miss Gibson in?" asked he, blushing violently.
"I knew her formerly--that is to say, I lived in the same house with her, for more than two years, and it would be a great pleasure to--to--"
"Certainly, I am sure she will be so glad to see you. I sent her and Cynthia--you don"t know my daughter Cynthia, I think, Mr. c.o.xe?
she and Molly are such great friends--out for a brisk walk this frosty day, but I think they will soon come back." She went on saying agreeable nothings to the young man, who received her attentions with a certain complacency, but was all the time much more engaged in listening to the well-remembered click at the front door,--the shutting it to again with household care, and the sound of the familiar bounding footstep on the stair. At last they came. Cynthia entered first, bright and blooming, fresh colour in her cheeks and lips, fresh brilliance in her eyes. She looked startled at the sight of a stranger, and for an instant she stopped short at the door, as if taken by surprise. Then in came Molly softly behind her, smiling, happy, dimpled; but not such a glowing beauty as Cynthia.
"Oh, Mr. c.o.xe, is it you?" said she, going up to him with an outstretched hand, and greeting him with simple friendliness.
"Yes; it seems such a long time since I saw you. You are so much grown--so much--well, I suppose I mustn"t say what," he replied, speaking hurriedly, and holding her hand all the time, rather to her discomfiture. Then Mrs. Gibson introduced her daughter, and the two girls spoke of the enjoyment of their walk. Mr. c.o.xe marred his cause in that very first interview, if indeed he ever could have had any chance, by his precipitancy in showing his feelings, and Mrs. Gibson helped him to mar it by trying to a.s.sist him. Molly lost her open friendliness of manner, and began to shrink away from him in a way which he thought was a very ungrateful return for all his faithfulness to her these two years past; and after all she was not the wonderful beauty his fancy or his love had painted her. That Miss Kirkpatrick was far more beautiful and much easier of access. For Cynthia put on all her pretty airs--her look of intent interest in what any one was saying to her, let the subject be what it would, as if it was the thing she cared most about in the whole world; her unspoken deference; in short, all the unconscious ways she possessed by instinct of tickling the vanity of men. So while Molly quietly repelled him, Cynthia drew him to her by her soft attractive ways; and his constancy fell before her charms. He was thankful that he had not gone too far with Molly, and grateful to Mr. Gibson for having prohibited all declarations two years ago; for Cynthia, and Cynthia alone, could make him happy. After a fortnight"s time, during which he had entirely veered round in his allegiance, he thought it desirable to speak to Mr. Gibson. He did so with a certain sense of exultation in his own correct behaviour in the affair, but at the same time feeling rather ashamed of the confession of his own changeableness which was naturally involved. Now it had so happened that Mr. Gibson had been unusually little at home during the fortnight that Mr. c.o.xe had ostensibly lodged at the "George," but in reality had spent the greater part of his time at Mr. Gibson"s house--so that he had seen very little of his former pupil, and on the whole he had thought him improved, especially after Molly"s manner had made her father pretty sure that Mr. c.o.xe stood no chance in that quarter. But Mr. Gibson was quite ignorant of the attraction which Cynthia had had for the young man. If he had perceived it, he would have nipped it in the bud pretty quickly, for he had no notion of any girl, even though only partially engaged to one man, receiving offers from others, if a little plain speaking could prevent it. Mr.
c.o.xe had asked for a private interview; they were sitting in the old surgery, now called the consulting-room, but still retaining so much of its former self as to be the last place in which Mr. c.o.xe could feel himself at ease. He was red up to the very roots of his red hair, and kept turning his glossy new hat round and round in his fingers, unable to find out the proper way of beginning his sentence, so at length he plunged in, grammar or no grammar.
"Mr. Gibson, I daresay you"ll be surprised, I"m sure I am at--at what I want to say; but I think it"s the part of an honourable man, as you said yourself, sir, a year or two ago, to--to speak to the father first, and as you, sir, stand in the place of a father to Miss Kirkpatrick, I should like to express my feelings, my hopes, or perhaps I should say wishes, in short--"
"Miss Kirkpatrick?" said Mr. Gibson, a good deal surprised.
"Yes, sir!" continued Mr. c.o.xe, rushing on now he had got so far. "I know it may appear inconstant and changeable, but I do a.s.sure you, I came here with a heart as faithful to your daughter as ever beat in a man"s bosom. I most fully intended to offer myself and all that I had to her acceptance before I left; but really, sir, if you had seen her manner to me every time I endeavoured to press my suit a little--it was more than coy, it was absolutely repellent, there could be no mistaking it,--while Miss Kirkpatrick--" he looked modestly down, and smoothed the nap of his hat, smiling a little while he did so.
"While Miss Kirkpatrick--?" repeated Mr. Gibson, in such a stern voice, that Mr. c.o.xe, landed esquire as he was now, felt as much discomfited as he used to do when he was an apprentice, and Mr.
Gibson had spoken to him in a similar manner.
"I was only going to say, sir, that so far as one can judge from manner, and willingness to listen, and apparent pleasure in my visits--altogether, I think I may venture to hope that Miss Kirkpatrick is not quite indifferent to me,--and I would wait,--you have no objection, have you, sir, to my speaking to her, I mean?"
said Mr. c.o.xe, a little anxious at the expression on Mr. Gibson"s face. "I do a.s.sure you I haven"t a chance with Miss Gibson," he continued, not knowing what to say, and fancying that his inconstancy was rankling in Mr. Gibson"s mind.
"No! I don"t suppose you have. Don"t go and fancy it is that which is annoying me. You"re mistaken about Miss Kirkpatrick, however. I don"t believe she could ever have meant to give you encouragement!"
Mr. c.o.xe"s face grew perceptibly paler. His feelings, if evanescent, were evidently strong.
"I think, sir, if you could have seen her--I don"t consider myself vain, and manner is so difficult to describe. At any rate, you can have no objection to my taking my chance, and speaking to her."
"Of course, if you won"t be convinced otherwise, I can have no objection. But if you"ll take my advice, you will spare yourself the pain of a refusal. I may, perhaps, be trenching on confidence, but I think I ought to tell you that her affections are otherwise engaged."
"It cannot be!" said Mr. c.o.xe. "Mr. Gibson, there must be some mistake. I have gone as far as I dared in expressing my feelings, and her manner has been most gracious. I don"t think she could have misunderstood my meaning. Perhaps she has changed her mind? It is possible that, after consideration, she has learnt to prefer another, is it not?"
"By "another," you mean yourself, I suppose. I can believe in such inconstancy" (he could not help, in his own mind, giving a slight sneer at the instance before him), "but I should be very sorry to think that Miss Kirkpatrick could be guilty of it."
"But she may--it is a chance. Will you allow me to see her?"
"Certainly, my poor fellow"--for, intermingled with a little contempt, was a good deal of respect for the simplicity, the unworldliness, the strength of feeling, even though the feeling was evanescent--"I will send her to you directly."
"Thank you, sir. G.o.d bless you for a kind friend!"
Mr. Gibson went upstairs to the drawing-room, where he was pretty sure he should find Cynthia. There she was, as bright and careless as usual, making up a bonnet for her mother, and chattering to Molly as she worked.
"Cynthia, you will oblige me by going down into my consulting-room at once. Mr. c.o.xe wants to speak to you!"
"Mr. c.o.xe?" said Cynthia. "What can he want with me?"
Evidently, she answered her own question as soon as it was asked, for she coloured, and avoided meeting Mr. Gibson"s severe, uncompromising look. As soon as she had left the room, Mr. Gibson sat down, and took up a new _Edinburgh_ lying on the table, as an excuse for conversation. Was there anything in the article that made him say, after a minute or two, to Molly, who sat silent and wondering--"Molly, you must never trifle with the love of an honest man. You don"t know what pain you may give."
Presently Cynthia came back into the drawing-room, looking very much confused. Most likely she would not have returned if she had known that Mr. Gibson was still there; but it was such an unheard-of thing for him to be sitting in that room in the middle of the day, reading or making pretence to read, that she had never thought of his remaining. He looked up at her the moment she came in, so there was nothing for it but putting a bold face on it, and going back to her work.
"Is Mr. c.o.xe still downstairs?" asked Mr. Gibson.
"No. He is gone. He asked me to give you both his kind regards. I believe he is leaving this afternoon." Cynthia tried to make her manner as commonplace as possible; but she did not look up, and her voice trembled a little.
Mr. Gibson went on looking at his book for a few minutes; but Cynthia felt that more was coming, and only wished it would come quickly, for the severe silence was very hard to bear. It came at last.
"I trust this will never occur again, Cynthia!" said he, in grave displeasure. "I should not feel satisfied with the conduct of any girl, however free, who could receive marked attentions from a young man with complacency, and so lead him on to make an offer which she never meant to accept. But what must I think of a young woman in your position, engaged--yet "accepting most graciously," for that was the way c.o.xe expressed it--the overtures of another man? Do you consider what unnecessary pain you have given him by your thoughtless behaviour? I call it thoughtless, but it"s the mildest epithet I can apply to it. I beg that such a thing may not occur again, or I shall be obliged to characterize it more severely."
[Ill.u.s.tration: "I TRUST THIS WILL NEVER OCCUR AGAIN, CYNTHIA!"]
Molly could not imagine what "more severely" could be, for her father"s manner appeared to her almost cruel in its sternness.
Cynthia coloured up extremely, then went pale, and at length raised her beautiful appealing eyes full of tears to Mr. Gibson. He was touched by that look, but he resolved immediately not to be mollified by any of her physical charms of expression, but to keep to his sober judgment of her conduct.
"Please, Mr. Gibson, hear my side of the story before you speak so hardly to me. I did not mean to--to flirt. I merely meant to make myself agreeable,--I can"t help doing that,--and that goose of a Mr.
c.o.xe seems to have fancied I meant to give him encouragement."
"Do you mean that you were not aware that he was falling in love with you?" Mr. Gibson was melting into a readiness to be convinced by that sweet voice and pleading face.
"Well, I suppose I must speak truly." Cynthia blushed and smiled--ever so little--but it was a smile, and it hardened Mr.