"I daresay I ought to have asked. But somehow I"m not a good one on such occasions. I was as sorry as could be for her, and yet I couldn"t tell what to say."
"What did you say?"
"I gave her the best advice in my power."
"Advice! you ought to have comforted her. Poor little Molly!"
"I think that if advice is good it"s the best comfort."
"That depends on what you mean by advice. Hush! here she is."
To their surprise, Molly came in, trying hard to look as usual. She had bathed her eyes, and arranged her hair; and was making a great struggle to keep from crying, and to bring her voice into order.
She was unwilling to distress Mrs. Hamley by the sight of pain and suffering. She did not know that she was following Roger"s injunction to think more of others than of herself--but so she was. Mrs. Hamley was not sure if it was wise in her to begin on the piece of news she had just heard from her son; but she was too full of it herself to talk of anything else. "So I hear your father is going to be married, my dear? May I ask whom it is to?"
"Mrs. Kirkpatrick. I think she was governess a long time ago at the Countess of c.u.mnor"s. She stays with them a great deal, and they call her Clare, and I believe they are very fond of her." Molly tried to speak of her future stepmother in the most favourable manner she knew how.
"I think I"ve heard of her. Then she"s not very young? That"s as it should be. A widow too. Has she any family?"
"One girl, I believe. But I know so little about her!"
Molly was very near crying again.
"Never mind, my dear. That will all come in good time. Roger, you"ve hardly eaten anything; where are you going?"
"To fetch my dredging-net. It"s full of things I don"t want to lose.
Besides, I never eat much, as a general thing." The truth was partly told, not all. He thought he had better leave the other two alone.
His mother had such sweet power of sympathy, that she would draw the sting out of the girl"s heart when she had her alone. As soon as he was gone, Molly lifted up her poor swelled eyes, and, looking at Mrs.
Hamley, she said,--"He was so good to me. I mean to try and remember all he said."
"I"m glad to hear it, love; very glad. From what he told me, I was afraid he had been giving you a little lecture. He has a good heart, but he isn"t so tender in his manner as...o...b..rne. Roger is a little rough sometimes."
"Then I like roughness. It did me good. It made me feel how badly--oh, Mrs. Hamley, I did behave so badly to papa this morning!"
She rose up and threw herself into Mrs. Hamley"s arms, and sobbed upon her breast. Her sorrow was not now for the fact that her father was going to be married again, but for her own ill-behaviour.
If Roger was not tender in words, he was in deeds. Unreasonable and possibly exaggerated as Molly"s grief had appeared to him, it was real suffering to her; and he took some pains to lighten it, in his own way, which was characteristic enough. That evening he adjusted his microscope, and put the treasures he had collected in his morning"s ramble on a little table; and then he asked his mother to come and admire. Of course Molly came too, and this was what he had intended. He tried to interest her in his pursuit, cherished her first little morsel of curiosity, and nursed it into a very proper desire for further information. Then he brought out books on the subject, and translated the slightly pompous and technical language into homely every-day speech. Molly had come down to dinner, wondering how the long hours till bedtime would ever pa.s.s away: hours during which she must not speak on the one thing that would be occupying her mind to the exclusion of all others; for she was afraid that already she had wearied Mrs. Hamley with it during their afternoon tete-a-tete. But prayers and bedtime came long before she expected; she had been refreshed by a new current of thought, and she was very thankful to Roger. And now there was to-morrow to come, and a confession of penitence to be made to her father.
But Mr. Gibson did not want speech or words. He was not fond of expressions of feeling at any time, and perhaps, too, he felt that the less said the better on a subject about which it was evident that his daughter and he were not thoroughly and impulsively in harmony.
He read her repentance in her eyes; he saw how much she had suffered; and he had a sharp pang at his heart in consequence. And he stopped her from speaking out her regret at her behaviour the day before, by a "There, there, that will do. I know all you want to say. I know my little Molly--my silly little goosey--better than she knows herself.
I"ve brought you an invitation. Lady c.u.mnor wants you to go and spend next Thursday at the Towers!"
"Do you wish me to go?" said she, her heart sinking.
"I wish you and Hyacinth to become better acquainted--to learn to love each other."
"Hyacinth!" said Molly, entirely bewildered.
"Yes; Hyacinth! It"s the silliest name I ever heard of; but it"s hers, and I must call her by it. I can"t bear Clare, which is what my lady and all the family at the Towers call her; and "Mrs.
Kirkpatrick" is formal and nonsensical too, as she"ll change her name so soon."
"When, papa?" asked Molly, feeling as if she were living in a strange, unknown world.
"Not till after Michaelmas." And then, continuing on his own thoughts, he added, "And the worst is, she"s gone and perpetuated her own affected name by having her daughter called after her. Cynthia!
One thinks of the moon, and the man in the moon with his bundle of f.a.ggots. I"m thankful you"re plain Molly, child."
"How old is she--Cynthia, I mean?"
"Ay, get accustomed to the name. I should think Cynthia Kirkpatrick was about as old as you are. She"s at school in France, picking up airs and graces. She"s to come home for the wedding, so you"ll be able to get acquainted with her then; though, I think, she"s to go back again for another half-year or so."
CHAPTER XI.
MAKING FRIENDSHIP.
Mr. Gibson believed that Cynthia Kirkpatrick was to return to England to be present at her mother"s wedding; but Mrs. Kirkpatrick had no such intention. She was not what is commonly called a woman of determination; but somehow what she disliked she avoided, and what she liked she tried to do, or to have. So although in the conversation, which she had already led to, as to the when and the how she was to be married, she had listened quietly to Mr. Gibson"s proposal that Molly and Cynthia should be the two bridesmaids, still she had felt how disagreeable it would be to her to have her young daughter flashing out her beauty by the side of the faded bride, her mother; and as the further arrangements for the wedding became more definite, she saw further reasons in her own mind for Cynthia"s remaining quietly at her school at Boulogne.
Mrs. Kirkpatrick had gone to bed that first night of her engagement to Mr. Gibson, fully antic.i.p.ating a speedy marriage. She looked to it as a release from the thraldom of keeping school--keeping an unprofitable school, with barely pupils enough to pay for house rent and taxes, food, washing, and the requisite masters. She saw no reason for ever going back to Ashcombe, except to wind up her affairs, and to pack up her clothes. She hoped that Mr. Gibson"s ardour would be such that he would press on the marriage, and urge her never to resume her school drudgery, but to relinquish it now and for ever. She even made up a very pretty, very pa.s.sionate speech for him in her own mind; quite sufficiently strong to prevail upon her, and to overthrow the scruples which she felt she ought to have, at telling the parents of her pupils that she did not intend to resume school, and that they must find another place of education for their daughters, in the last week but one of the midsummer holidays.
It was rather like a douche of cold water on Mrs. Kirkpatrick"s plans, when the next morning at breakfast Lady c.u.mnor began to decide upon the arrangements and duties of the two middle-aged lovers.
"Of course you can"t give up your school all at once, Clare. The wedding can"t be before Christmas, but that will do very well. We shall all be down at the Towers; and it will be a nice amus.e.m.e.nt for the children to go over to Ashcombe, and see you married."
"I think--I am afraid--I don"t believe Mr. Gibson will like waiting so long; men are so impatient under these circ.u.mstances."
"Oh, nonsense! Lord c.u.mnor has recommended you to his tenants, and I"m sure he wouldn"t like them to be put to any inconvenience. Mr.
Gibson will see that in a moment. He"s a man of sense, or else he wouldn"t be our family doctor. Now, what are you going to do about your little girl? Have you fixed yet?"
"No. Yesterday there seemed so little time, and when one is agitated it is so difficult to think of anything. Cynthia is nearly eighteen, old enough to go out as a governess, if he wishes it, but I don"t think he will. He is so generous and kind."
"Well! I must give you time to settle some of your affairs to-day.
Don"t waste it in sentiment, you"re too old for that. Come to a clear understanding with each other; it will be for your happiness in the long run."
So they did come to a clear understanding about one or two things.
To Mrs. Kirkpatrick"s dismay, she found that Mr. Gibson had no more idea than Lady c.u.mnor of her breaking faith with the parents of her pupils. Though he really was at a serious loss as to what was to become of Molly till she could be under the protection of his new wife at her own home, and though his domestic worries teased him more and more every day, he was too honourable to think of persuading Mrs.
Kirkpatrick to give up school a week sooner than was right for his sake. He did not even perceive how easy the task of persuasion would be; with all her winning wiles she could scarcely lead him to feel impatience for the wedding to take place at Michaelmas.
"I can hardly tell you what a comfort and relief it will be to me, Hyacinth, when you are once my wife--the mistress of my home--poor little Molly"s mother and protector; but I wouldn"t interfere with your previous engagements for the world. It wouldn"t be right."
"Thank you, my own love. How good you are! So many men would think only of their own wishes and interests! I"m sure the parents of my dear pupils will admire you--will be quite surprised at your consideration for their interests."
"Don"t tell them, then. I hate being admired. Why shouldn"t you say it is your wish to keep on your school till they"ve had time to look out for another?"
"Because it isn"t," said she, daring all. "I long to be making you happy; I want to make your home a place of rest and comfort to you; and I do so wish to cherish your sweet Molly, as I hope to do, when I come to be her mother. I can"t take virtue to myself which doesn"t belong to me. If I have to speak for myself, I shall say, "Good people, find a school for your daughters by Michaelmas,--for after that time I must go and make the happiness of others." I can"t bear to think of your long rides in November--coming home wet at night with no one to take care of you. Oh! if you leave it to me, I shall advise the parents to take their daughters away from the care of one whose heart will be absent. Though I couldn"t consent to any time before Michaelmas--that wouldn"t be fair or right, and I"m sure you wouldn"t urge me--you are too good."
"Well, if you think that they will consider we have acted uprightly by them, let it be Michaelmas with all my heart. What does Lady c.u.mnor say?"