"You are very kind," she said. "I had no idea of enlisting Mr. Lee; his duties here are too sacred for that."
CHAPTER x.x.xIX.
LOTTIE AS A LETTER-WRITER.
I hurried on to escape the sound of Mrs. Dennison"s voice, for in any tone it filled me with loathing; but as the door closed after me, that of Lottie"s opened, and the imp thrust out her head and emitted a mellow crow, clapping her arms as if they had been wings, thus indicating that for once my conduct had met her full approval.
I could not help laughing; at which she put a finger to her lips, and darted back of the door, closing it softly in the process.
I went up to Jessie"s room, but she was not there, nor could she be found in any part of the house. When a.s.sured of this, I went into the garden and found Lawrence walking leisurely toward the grove where his horse was tied. He turned as I called him by name, and looked back with an expression of surprise.
"I have been searching for Miss Lee to inform her of your wish to see her," I said; "but she has gone out."
He drew his fine figure up proudly, and said, with a smile that had more of irony than sweetness in it,--
"I beg pardon; but my visit here was to Mrs. Dennison. I was only waiting for her to return with her parasol, as she found the sun rather warm."
I felt myself coloring, but answered the moment I could find voice,--
"Then you did not inquire for Miss Lee?--did not ask Mrs. Dennison to go in search of her?"
"Not that I am aware of," he replied, with the same smile. "I supposed it more than probable that the young lady had gone to visit her sick-lo--friend, over yonder. Heaven forbid that I should disturb an arrangement so full of delicate romance!"
I looked at him steadily. There was more of insult in his tone than these words conveyed. At first I was prompted to explain and defend: but wherefore? If he could distrust a creature like our Jessie, any attempt at exculpation appeared to me like a sacrifice of dignity, so I turned away in silence. He followed me a few paces, as if wishing to continue the conversation; but I hurried on, burning with indignation. Why had those abominable people entered our pleasant homes? Why did they remain there, making us all miserable? Oh! how I wished for authority to send them away together; for in my resentment, I, perhaps unjustly, coupled the gentleman with the lady, and forgot that he was her dupe rather than a.s.sociate.
When Lawrence was yet almost on a level with me, the widow came out from the tower, looking flurried and anxious. She saw me apparently in conversation with her friend, and turned crimson to the temples; but adroitly dropping the open parasol over her face, she came slowly on, concealing the agitation but too visible a moment before. Without heeding me in the least, she sauntered up to Lawrence, drooping her parasol almost in my face, and said with careless insolence,--
"Now, my good friend, with Miss Hyde"s permission, we will go on with the history of that little affair."
So she swept him off, somewhat bewildered, I fancy, and I went into the house, detesting her more than ever.
Before entering Mrs. Lee"s room, I opened the door of Lottie"s little apartment, intending to inquire if Mr. Lee had gone out. The young girl was seated at a small gilded table, which had been broken in the drawing-room and mended by her deft hands, after which, of course, it became her property; an open letter lay on the table, and she was busy writing. When I opened the door, she started up, s.n.a.t.c.hed at the letter and held it behind her, looking at me with a comical sort of defiance.
"Miss Hyde," said she, "if you"ll just tell me what"s wanting, I"ll come out; but this room isn"t large enough for two--no, not if its owner had a twin sister wandering about in want of a bed to sleep in."
"Excuse me, Lottie, but I only want to know if Mrs. Lee is left alone."
"No, Miss Hyde, that thing don"t happen while I am on hand. Mr. Lee"s in there, and that angel of a woman is talking to him with tears in her throat, if they haven"t got up to her eyes yet. I can hear the sound without listening, and I hope it will do him good, that"s all!"
I turned to go away, but she followed me to the door, still with one hand behind her, in which I could hear paper rustling.
"Miss Hyde, I can"t help but say, if it does puff you up, that are dodge of yours was a crowner; I heard it and all Babylon said: my! isn"t she a thing or so? For once you were too smart for her. Didn"t her face blaze up when she saw you walking with that chap? I couldn"t "a" done it better myself. Now, mind I say that to encourage you, not to lift you on a high horse; so don"t make a bad use of kindness."
"You are very kind, and I try not to be spoiled, Lottie."
"I"m your friend out and out, and the friend of this family, if ever there was one. Never fear about that; but this thing is getting beyond me and destroying my usefulness. I wish you wouldn"t give me no more lectures about listening and finding out things. True enough, I don"t pay no regard to such ridiculous notions; but then just as a creature gets nestled down under a bush, or fits her ear to a keyhole, comes the thought, "Now Miss Hyde would call this mean," and it drags your attention away from what"s going on and takes all the relish out of it.
I don"t like it, Miss Hyde; such peaked notions do well enough for an old maid; but I ain"t a going to be that, if there is a man cute enough to match me in all creation."
"Well, Lottie," I said, almost laughing, "as my preaching only annoys you, it is hardly worth while to repeat it."
"That"s a good soul!" answered Lottie, with benign condescension. "You hoe your row and I"ll hoe mine, we shall come out together at the end of the lot, never fear."
The next morning, when our man brought the letters from town, I noticed Mrs. Dennison examining one which she took from among those left on the hall-table, with the keen look of a person whose suspicion has been aroused. In tearing it open, she examined the adhesive edge a second time, and apparently found it all right, for her face cleared up, and she put the letter in her pocket without reading it. Still she could not have been quite satisfied, for after that no letters of hers were ever left with those of the family to be mailed.
CHAPTER XL.
YOUNG BOSWORTH RECEIVES A LETTER.
That day I resolved to go and see young Bosworth. I had no lover to get jealous or find fault with this; indeed, it was doubtful if any one cared enough about my movements to observe them when disconnected from the family.
I had no heart to enjoy the walk; it was a cold, raw day, with gloomy clouds floating along the sky, and gloomier shadows sweeping the earth.
The dampness of a night succeeded by no sunshine lay upon the meadows; spiders" webs were stretched across my path; and a rain of moisture fell from the hazel-bushes as my garments brushed them in walking. Still, it was not absolutely stormy, and the gray shadows harmonized with my feelings so completely, that I had no wish to change them. Nothing could be more gloomy than my own heart.
When I reached the house, old Mrs. Bosworth came to the door herself.
She seemed a good deal disturbed, and I fancied, from the heaviness of her eyes, that she had been crying.
"Come in, Miss Hyde," she said, taking my hand. "He is not so well this morning. Indeed, indeed he is much worse. A letter came here last night, and I was foolish enough to let it go to him. One of your people brought it, and I fancied, perhaps, that it might do him good, for it was a lady"s handwriting, and she was so kind that morning."
"You thought it was from our Jessie," I answered, in the first impulse of my surprise.
"Yes, it was a foolish thought, I dare say,--but that was my idea."
"And have you learned whom it did come from?"
"No," answered the n.o.ble old lady. "He fainted, and it fell from his hand; but I laid it under his pillow without even looking at it; it might have wounded him, you know."
"And is he so much worse?"
"Oh, Miss Hyde, the fever has come back; he is wild again."
"And had you no way of guessing the cause?"
"I think it was something about Mr. Lawrence, for he called for him till the house rang with his cries, after the first dumb shock went off."
"Did Mr. Lawrence know of this?"
"He was away at the time; and after that your young friend"s name was so wildly mingled up with it all, that I could not think it right to bring Mr. Lawrence to the room. It would have seemed like challenging his compa.s.sion."
My heart ached, for I saw that her penetration had discovered Jessie"s secret, and that she was protecting it with much delicacy.
"Besides, he is our guest," she said, prompted by that old-fashioned feeling of honor which rendered the shelter of a friend"s roof a sanctuary, "and he might have construed my grandson"s words into a reproach; altogether, we thought it best to keep them apart."