She broke off abruptly, turning pale and cold.
I walked on, distressed by this broken confidence, but knew well that Jessie was too proud for anything more definite.
As we came into the field bordered by the carriage sweep, a horseman dashed up to the gate, which had been left open, and was pa.s.sing at a swift gallop toward the house. It was Mr. Lee returning from town, and riding fast to escape the rain. He saw us dragging our way through the gra.s.s, and drew up, regarding our condition with a look so stern that it chilled me.
"He is angry with me for going out, I suppose," said Jessie, drearily.
"Well, I could not help it."
After regarding us for a full minute with that hard look, Mr. Lee rode on, his horse tramping heavier than before, and sending back broken flakes of mud, as if casting it purposely against us. He rode directly to the stables. Jessie and I slunk into the house by the back entrance like culprits.
CHAPTER XLII.
JESSIE GETS TIRED OF HER GUEST.
I kept my chamber that day, striving to make up my mind about what course was best for me to pursue. My life at Mr. Lee"s had become so hara.s.sing, that it was absolutely burdensome. I did not know friends from enemies in that house, for every being in it seemed changed. I sat down alone and wept in bitter grief. Should I go away and leave the ill-contested field to that woman, who was surely working out some great evil to the whole family? I was not dependent. Considerable property was vested in my favor, but it was in Mr. Lee"s hands; and so generously had he provided for every possible want, that even the income remained untouched.
I had ability, and could have earned my bread anywhere, either as a governess or a teacher, had that been necessary. Thus, personal considerations could not have bowed down my spirits to the state of depression that fell upon me. Something deeper lay at my heart. Was it love for Jessie? was it fear that the poor girl would be left without defence, to the machinations of that cruel woman? I cannot tell. If other and more selfish feelings existed in my bosom, I did not know it.
Indeed, so absorbed were all my faculties in the difficulties that thickened around us, that I had no time for self-examination. Dear, dear Jessie! how could I help her? That was the burden of my thoughts.
The thorough drenching which I had received made me hoa.r.s.e and really ill. In my anxiety, I had neglected to change my clothes; but the cold shudders that crept over me aroused my attention to the danger, and, changing my damp garments, I lay down, striving to get warm.
I have a vague recollection that the sun broke out, and came flashing through the leaves into my chamber. Then I heard voices in the garden beneath, which chilled me worse than the cold.
Mr. Lee and Mrs. Dennison were conversing together on the terrace, where camp-stools and garden-chairs were always standing. I could have heard everything; the temptation was great, but I put it away, burying my head in my pillow, and drowning their voices with my sobs.
Toward night Jessie came to my room. She was sad and disheartened; Mr.
Lee had not spoken to her since our return; and even her mother was vexed that she should have exposed herself to the storm.
I inquired if Mr. Lawrence was at the house when her father returned.
Jessie thought not, but could not say positively; only he seldom was there, except in her father"s absence.
She said this abruptly, and turned the conversation; the very name of Lawrence seemed to distress her.
"Aunt Matty," she said, after a dreary silence, "will this widow never leave our house? Shall we remain in this state till it brings ruin on us all? Mother seems fading away, and no one appears to care. You look years older; and as for me--"
"Well, Jessie?"
"No matter about me; but something must be done. So long as it was myself only, I made an effort to bear it; but we are all changed, all unhappy--dear, sweet mamma, and even Lottie. There is poison in the very atmosphere, I think."
"Let us have patience, Jessie; this cannot last much longer; but while Mrs. Dennison remains here, do not forget that she is your mother"s guest."
"But how long--how long, I say, will this last? My father is getting more distant and estranged every hour. I feel like an alien under his roof--a stranger to my very self."
She was greatly excited, and wrung her hands with pa.s.sionate vehemence.
The proud reticence of her character was all swept away; she fell upon her knees by the bed on which I lay, and sobbed aloud. I am sure this would not have happened with any one else; but I had become almost a second self to the dear girl, and she was not ashamed to give way to her grief in my presence.
While she was on her knees, Lottie opened my chamber-door and looked in. Seeing Miss Jessie, she drew back, placed a finger on her lips, and performed a series of pantomime that would have been exceedingly ludicrous but for the anxiety that beset me. As it was, I saw that she had something to communicate, but was afraid to ask her in while Jessie was so disturbed.
She saw this, and darting a finger backward over her shoulder and forward at me, as if it had been a weapon, retreated, making up faces that grew more ludicrous with every step.
Jessie had seen nothing of this. She arose, after a little, and went out, sighing heavily.
CHAPTER XLIII.
A CONSULTATION WITH LOTTIE.
Directly after she was gone, Lottie came back, and, closing the door, bolted it inside and stole up to my bed on tiptoe. She looked pale and frightened, but her eyes shone through the shadows that had suddenly settled around them, and she moved like a hound doubling on its prey.
"Miss Hyde," she said, "just listen while you have time; that red Babylon has gone and done it. I"ve had my hands full all day scooting about among the wet bushes, and holding my breath behind window-shutters. Now, would you believe it? I"ve been two hull hours squinched up in that big rosewood book-case with the green silk lining; for them new painted winders in the tower library are the most aggravating things to one as wants to keep her eyes open. Thanks be to goodness! the new books haven"t arrived, and I should have had lots of room if human beings had been built flat. As it was, I got along by holding in my breath and bowing the doors a trifle."
"But what did you go into the book-case for, Lottie?" I inquired, anxious to bring her to some point in her communication.
"What did I go into the book-case for? Why, only to hear what was going on in that room, to be sure. Wasn"t that Mr. Lawrence and Mrs. Babylon there, sitting on the sofa together two hull hours?"
"And you listened to the conversation?"
"In course I did."
She seemed waiting for me to ask more questions, but I could not force myself thus indirectly to partake in a dishonorable act.
"You won"t ask what they said, and yet are a-dying to know, any fool can see that. Well, thanks be to goodness! I ain"t a lady, and if I was, for _her_ sake I"d do worse things than that; my ears were made to hear with, and I ain"t going to fight agin nature."
"But you came to see me for something, Lottie?"
"Certainly I did. But how is one to tell things without talking right out? Well, if you won"t ask what I heard in the book-case, I must tell you promiscuous. This she-sarpent has about done up your business for you, as she means to for me and the rest of "em before long."
"Done my business for me, Lottie! What does that mean? I do not understand."
"Likely enough; but I"ll tell you; Babylon is in love with Mr.
Lawrence."
"I wish from my heart he"d marry her," I thought.
"But she won"t have him," said Lottie, as if answering my thought. "At any rate, not yet."
"Well, well, Lottie, tell me what brings you here? My head aches."
"So does mine," said Lottie, lifting a hand to her head, and pressing her forehead hard with the palm. "Well, Miss Hyde, a little while ago, Mr. Lee and Mrs. Babylon were sitting on the platform under this very window. It was just after the rain, and they happened to meet as he was coming out to enjoy the sunshine. I happened in the same way to be dusting the sofa close by the window, and it took me a good while. Don"t put up your hand, Miss Hyde, you"d "a" listened yourself. She was talking about you."
"About me?"