He reached out for me, not with a sympathetic hand or a pat on the knee or anything so obvious. Instead, he slid his leg forward, touching mine, and continued to study my face. I turned to look at him. As I met his eyes, I wanted to shout at him, say that I was not okay, that I"d never be okay, that he had made sure I would never be okay again. He"d stolen all my dreams and hopes of a family in one act of unforgivable selfishness. I yanked my leg from his and looked away.
"Elena?" he said, leaning over the table. "Are you okay?"
"No. I"m not okay."
I stopped myself. What good would it do to say more? We were here to hunt Logan"s killer, not to hash out our personal problems. It wasn"t the time. Part of me knew it would never be the time. If we talked about it, we might work it out. That was a risk I wasn"t willing to take. I never wanted to forget and I never wanted to forgive. I wouldn"t let myself.
Mending fences with Clay would mean surrender. It would mean he"d won, that biting me had been worth the trouble. He"d have his mate, the life partner of his choice, the realization of his own domestic dreams. Well, I had my own dreams, and Clay had no role in them. Werewolf or not, I couldn"t bear to give them up, especially now when I"d finally caught a glimpse of the possibilities in my life with Philip. I had a good, decent man, someone who saw and encouraged my potential for goodness and normalcy, things Clay never saw, didn"t care about, and certainly never encouraged. Maybe marriage, kids, and a house in the suburbs weren"t in our future but, as I said, any variation would do. With Philip, I could envision a satisfying variation, with a partner, a home, and an extended family. My bra.s.s ring had come into sight. All I had to do was muddle through this mess with the Pack, get back to Toronto, and wait for the chance to grab it.
"No," I repeated. "I"m not okay. Logan"s dead and his killer is out there and I"m stuck sitting in some stupid coffee shop with-" I bit back the rest. "We"re supposed to be listening for rumors, remember? Be quiet and listen."
I forced my attention back to the conversations around us. People were still b.i.t.c.hing about their lives, but I ignored that and concentrated on listening for what I wanted to hear. Adding to the general despair, customers here and there discussed the events of last night in the weary "what is the world coming to" tone that people have probably used since early man saw his neighbors starting to walk upright. While most people were just rehashing the newspaper article, a few were giving birth to rumors that would be buzzing about town by nightfall. A woman in the back corner said that she"d heard the dog wasn"t a wild dog at all, but an escaped guard dog owned by some relative of the mayor, the police force having been bribed or threatened by the mayor into circulating the wild dog story. Some people even thought the dog hadn"t been involved at all, that the drug-crazed partygoers had killed the two people themselves in some kind of ma.s.s hysteria, then the cops shot an innocent dog outside. People can be d.a.m.ned creative sometimes. One thing was for sure, no one was talking about impossibly big wolves or demanding an inquest to know why the beast had acted as it had. Everyone a.s.sumed that it was perfectly natural for a dog to go berserk and slaughter people in a crowded warehouse. As I"d been eavesdropping, Clay had been pretending to read the paper. I say pretending because he didn"t give a s.h.i.t about current affairs in BearValley or anyplace else in the world. Like me, he"d been listening for rumors, though he"d never admit it.
"Can we go now?" he asked finally.
I sipped my cold coffee. The mug was still three-quarters full. Clay hadn"t even started his. Neither of us touched our pie. For once, hunger was a distant concern.
"I suppose," I said, glancing out the window. "It"s far from dark, but we probably won"t find the trail for a while. Should we start at the parking lot?"
I couldn"t bring myself to say "the parking lot where we found Logan," but Clay knew which one I meant. He nodded, got up, and ushered me out the door without another word.
As we approached the grocery store, I stopped before rounding the corner so I wouldn"t see the spot where we"d found Logan. My heart was tripping so fast I had to concentrate to breathe.
"I can do it," Clay said, putting his hand against my back. "Stay here. I"ll pick up the trail and see which way it leads."
I moved away from his hand. "You can"t. The scent was faint last night. It"ll be worse now. You need my nose."
"I can try."
"No."
I stepped around the corner, hesitated, almost stopping, then propelled myself forward. When I saw the spot where the Explorer had been parked, I jerked my gaze away, but it was too late. My mind was already replaying the scene from the night before, me rushing forward, Clay calling my name and running after me. He"d realized what had happened before I had. That"s why he"d been trying to stop me. I understood that now-not that his motive mattered at this moment. It was just a meaningless distraction that ran through my brain, preventing me from thinking of what had happened here last night.
During the day, the parking lot looked like a different place. People bustled from car to store and back again. Like the coffee shop, the lot was filled with working people, most in jeans, a few in suits, toting single grocery bags with tonight"s dinner or extra milk or bread grabbed on the way home. No one paid attention to us as we crossed the lot to the back fence. The spot where we"d parked last night was empty, being too far from the store to get used on any but the busiest shopping days.
I stood on the right side, where the pa.s.senger door of the Explorer had been. Closing my eyes, I inhaled. The scent of Logan filled my head. My knees buckled. Clay grabbed my elbow. I steadied myself, then sniffed again, trying to block Logan"s scent. It didn"t work. His lingering odor shoved aside all less familiar scents. With my eyes closed, I could imagine him standing in front of me, close enough to touch. I opened my eyes. The bright light of day chased the fantasy back to the shadows of my brain.
"I"m-" I started. "I"m having some trouble."
"It"s here," Clay said. "Faint, but I"m picking up something. Hold on a sec and I"ll see if I can grab it."
He paced to the left, shook his head, then came back and started again in another direction. On his second round of the compa.s.s points, he turned to me.
"Got it," he said. "Entrance trail is east, but the mutt exited here."
There was nothing in a scent that could tell even the best tracker whether someone was coming or going. Clay knew the difference because the approaching trail would also carry traces of Logan"s smell, though he didn"t mention this.
"Come over here and try," he said.
Once I got away from the parking spot, I relaxed. Clay stood near a mini-van. I walked to him and sniffed the air. Yes, the scent was there. An unfamiliar werewolf. The trail led across the parking lot, away from the grocery store and toward Jack"s Hunting and Hardware. From there, it ran along the sidewalk heading west, then circled back toward the main street, where we followed it to the downtown core. If that sounds quick and easy, it wasn"t. A straight walk from point A to point B would have taken fifteen minutes. We spent over an hour, constantly missing the trail, looping back, finding where the mutt had turned a corner, and starting again. Once or twice I lost the scent completely. Trailing as humans made it even more difficult, not only because I couldn"t smell as well, but because I couldn"t exactly put my nose to the ground and sniff the mutt out. Well, I could, could, but such actions are frowned upon in polite society and often lead to a complimentary ride to the nearest psychiatric ward. Even the sight of someone on a street corner twitching her nose or pacing in a circle raised eyebrows. So I had to be discreet. Even if I could convince Clay to wait until nightfall, we couldn"t change into wolves. After everything that had happened in BearValley, that wouldn"t be a challenge, it"d be suicide. but such actions are frowned upon in polite society and often lead to a complimentary ride to the nearest psychiatric ward. Even the sight of someone on a street corner twitching her nose or pacing in a circle raised eyebrows. So I had to be discreet. Even if I could convince Clay to wait until nightfall, we couldn"t change into wolves. After everything that had happened in BearValley, that wouldn"t be a challenge, it"d be suicide.
DowntownBearValley closed at five, allowing employees to make it home for dinner and ignoring the fact that the average person worked until five and needed to shop afterward. This oversight may have explained the vacancy rate that had spread through the core like a cancer, affecting one shop, then its neighbors, and their neighbors, until the block looked like a ma.s.sive advertis.e.m.e.nt for Bear Valley Realty. By the time we got back downtown, it was past seven and even the most dedicated shelf stockers had left for the evening. The streets were bare. The town seemed to have shut down for a collective dinner hour. I was able to be less cautious with my sniffing and we covered the next half mile in twenty minutes. The trail stopped at a Burger King that had been ostracized from its fast-food buddies on the other side of town. Here the mutt had presumably stopped to refuel. After another twenty minutes of circling and retracing my steps, I picked up the trail again. Ten minutes later we were standing in the parking lot of the Big Bear Motor Lodge.
"Well, this was a no-brainer," I muttered as we looked out over the collection of pickup trucks and ten-year-old sedans. "Two hotels in town. He"s staying at one. Duh."
"Hey, you"re the one who insisted we start from the grocery store."
"I didn"t hear you suggesting anything else."
"It"s called survival, darling. I know when to keep my mouth shut."
"Since when have-" I stopped, noticing a woman standing in her hotel room doorway, making no effort to hide her eavesdropping. It"s always nice to know you can provide entertainment when the afternoon soaps are over.
I walked behind a pickup truck and squinted up at the two-story building. "How many rooms by your count?"
"Thirty-eight," Clay said without missing a beat. "Nineteen each up and down. A main-floor entry for the bottom. A lobby entrance and emergency exit for the second floor."
"If it were me, I"d take a room on the first floor," I said. "Direct room access. Easier to come and go at all hours."
"But the second floor has balconies, darling. And a h.e.l.l of a view."
I looked across the road into a vacant lot filled with overgrown weeds, crumbling concrete blocks, and enough litter to keep a Scout troop busy for an entire Earth Day.
"First floor," I said. "I"ll start. Go hide somewhere."
"Uh-uh. We"ve played this game before. I hide. You never seek. I"m a bit slow on the uptake, but I"m beginning to sense a pattern."
"Go."
Clay grinned, grabbed me around the waist and kissed me, then ducked out of the way before I could retaliate. While it was nice to see his mood had improved, it would be even nicer if it didn"t take the prospect of murder and mayhem to improve it. Over the past couple hours of tracking, the old resentment that had resurfaced in the coffee shop had faded into my subconscious, where it would wait, like a wound that never healed over, only needing a b.u.mp or prod to reignite the pain. We had work to do and I had to deal with Clay to do it. For Logan"s sake, I couldn"t afford to be distracted by my own problems. If I dwelled on my anger with Clay every second I was forced to spend in his company, I"d have turned into a bitter, waspish harpy long ago. Of course, some might argue that I"d crossed that threshold years ago, but that wasn"t the point.
While Clay went off to find a suitable waiting place, I scanned the area for props. Near a corrosion-encrusted Chevy Impala I spotted a sheet of paper. It was a receipt for a new car stereo, which I hoped hadn"t gone into the Impala, or the owner had spent more money on the sound system than on the car. I brushed a wet leaf from the corner of the sheet, flattened it, then folded it in half and headed for the sidewalk connecting the doors of the main-floor rooms. Starting by the emergency exit, I walked slowly down the sidewalk, pretending to study the sheet of paper and allowing for generous sniffing pauses in front of each door. The eavesdropping woman had gone back into her room. Two people came out of a room near the end, but they ignored the young woman having such difficulty finding the room number written on her sc.r.a.p of paper. People make special allowances for the mental capacity of blondes.
When I got to the end, I picked up the scent of the werewolf, heading not into a room, but into the lobby. The trail was thick here, indicating he"d gone this way several times. A second-floor room, accessible only through the lobby. Maybe he liked waking up to the sunrise over a vacant lot. I looped back through the parking lot. Clay came out from behind the building before I could look for him.
"Upstairs," I said.
"See, darling? No one ever claimed mutts have brains."
I tossed the stereo receipt into the bushes and we headed for the front door. As we went into the lobby, Clay put his arm around my waist and started complaining about an imaginary dinner at a local restaurant. As he prattled, I saw the stairs to the left of the check-in desk and steered us there, nodding as he b.i.t.c.hed about waiting twenty minutes for the dinner check. The show wasn"t necessary. The desk clerk didn"t even look up as we went by.
Upstairs, the trail stopped at the third door on the left. Clay grabbed the handle, twisted, and broke it with a m.u.f.fled snap. As I kept an eye out for other motel guests, Clay waited to see if anyone inside the room responded to the sound of the lock breaking. When he heard nothing, he eased the door open. The curtains were drawn and the room was dark. A door down the hall opened. I pushed Clay forward and we slipped inside.
Clay checked the bathroom to make sure the mutt was gone, then pulled a quarter from his pocket. "Heads we lie in wait, tails we give chase."
"We should stay here," I said. "Check the place out, search for clues while we wait."
Clay rolled his eyes.
"Oh fine," I said. "Just flip the d.a.m.ned thing."
When it came up heads, I stuck my tongue out at him. His hand darted out to grab it, but I pulled it back in time.
"Next time you won"t be so fast," he said, then looked around the room. "So what do you hope to find?"
"Anything to explain why we had two mutts in BearValley within a week. Aren"t you the least bit concerned about that?"
""Course I am, darling. But I"m sticking concern and curiosity on the back burner. Plenty of time to examine them both when the mutt"s dead. I"m not waiting around for this b.a.s.t.a.r.d to go after you or the others while I try to find out what he"s doing here."
"You think I"m stalling?"
"No, I think you"re trying to make efficient use of time. That"s fine. I"m just saying don"t expect me to be too eager to riffle through dresser drawers while that mutt"s roaming our streets."
"Then go watch out the balcony or something while I search."
Clay didn"t do this, of course. He helped me look, having simply made it clear that his heart wasn"t in it. Mine wasn"t either, but I know better than to pa.s.s up an opportunity. Besides, looking through this mutt"s junk kept my hands and mind busy, leaving me little time to dwell on why why we were tracking him. we were tracking him.
Clay started in the bathroom. He was gone maybe ten minutes before he called out, "Here"s the scoop. The guy uses hotel shampoo and hotel soap. He hasn"t broken the seal on the conditioner. There"s a Bic razor and no sign of a toothbrush, toothpaste, or mouthwash. So we"re looking for a guy with split ends and a serious breath problem. Any of this helping, darling?"
I gritted my teeth against a reply. The walls were too thin for arguing. Besides, my own search of the main room hadn"t turned up much more. I"d found two pairs of jeans, three shirts, and a.s.sorted socks and underwear, all of it previously worn and dumped on a chair for reuse. The Gideon Bible in the nightstand had been defaced with pentagrams and inverted crosses. Lovely. Also terribly unoriginal. I mean, if you feel compelled to scribble Satanic symbols on a Bible, the least you can do is draw stuff not found in every edition of Weekly World News. Weekly World News. A very uncreative and obviously uninformed werewolf. He"d be in for a disappointment when he discovered werewolves were more likely to know a good recipe for beef Wellington than the recipe for a Satanic rite. In ten years, the devil had never contacted me with special instructions or even to say h.e.l.lo. Then again, neither had G.o.d. Maybe that meant they didn"t exist. More likely, it meant neither was willing to take responsibility for me. A very uncreative and obviously uninformed werewolf. He"d be in for a disappointment when he discovered werewolves were more likely to know a good recipe for beef Wellington than the recipe for a Satanic rite. In ten years, the devil had never contacted me with special instructions or even to say h.e.l.lo. Then again, neither had G.o.d. Maybe that meant they didn"t exist. More likely, it meant neither was willing to take responsibility for me.
"Christ, you should see the stuff in there, darling," Clay said as he walked from the bathroom. "Aftershave, cologne, and musk deodorant. If we couldn"t tell the mutt was new by the way he smells, we"d know it by the way way he smells." he smells."
No experienced werewolf would be caught dead wearing cologne, at least not if he had a functioning olfactory system. The very smell of himself would drown out all other scents, making his nose useless. I don"t even use scented hand soap. Finding unscented women"s toiletry products wasn"t easy. The cosmetics industry seemed obsessed with making women smell like anything but themselves. And we piled the stuff on with no regard for achieving a uniform masking smell, layering herbal shampoo on baby powder deodorant on lilac soap on the latest fragrance from Calvin Klein. When I had the misfortune to get stuck in a full elevator early in the morning, the overpowering clash of scents could leave me with a headache until noon.
After checking out the window, Clay walked to where I was sifting through the bedside trash can.
"I"d offer to help," he said. "But you seem to have things under control."
"Thanks."
"Have you checked under the bed?"
"Can"t. The frame"s solid to the floor." I used the hotel pen to push aside a used Kleenex. I won"t say what it had been used for, but werewolves don"t contract cold and flu viruses.
"I"ll check under the mattress," Clay said.
I"d forgotten that. Werewolves often carry fake ID and stash the real stuff someplace like under their mattress.
"No ID," Clay said. "Just this sc.r.a.pbook. I don"t suppose you want that."
I jumped up so fast I conked my head on the giraffe-neck lamp. Clay grinned and held a blue book out of my reach.
"Mine," he said, grin broadening. Holding it out of my range, he leafed through a few pages, then curled his lip and tossed the book on the bed. "On second thought, it"s all yours. Happy reading, darling. I"ll stand guard by the window. Give me a synopsis later."
I took the book and sat on the edge of the bed. It was a photo alb.u.m, the type with plastic film you can pull back from the pages and stick pictures underneath. Instead of photos, the mutt had filled this alb.u.m with newspaper clippings. Not random clippings, but ones following a specific theme: serial killers. I flipped past page after page of articles, seeing some faces that were familiar-Berkowitz, Dahmer, Bundy-and others I didn"t know. Not only were all the clippings about serial killers, but they all contained one key element, something the mutt had highlighted-a number: the number of people murdered. He"d even color-coded the stats, yellow highlighter for the number of people the killer claimed to have killed, blue for the number of bodies found, and pink for the number the authorities believed he was responsible for. In the margins, the mutt had written notes, tallying and comparing numbers like a fan compiling stats for some macabre sporting event.
About halfway through the book, the articles stopped. I was about to close it when I realized there were more clippings near the back. I flipped through the blank pages and came to another article. Unlike the others, this one didn"t deal with statistics. In fact, it didn"t even name the killer. The article, dated November 18, 1995, from the Chicago Tribune, Chicago Tribune, simply stated that the body of a young woman had been found. The next article gave more details, telling how she"d been missing for over a week and appeared to have been held captive during the intervening time, before being strangled and dumped behind an elementary school. I flipped through the next few pages. Three more women found, all following the same pattern. Then one escaped, telling a horrifying story of a weeklong ordeal of rape and torture, held captive in the bas.e.m.e.nt of an abandoned house. The police had traced the house to Thomas LeBlanc, a thirty-three-year-old medical lab technician. However, when it came time for the woman to identify LeBlanc, she couldn"t. Her attacker had only come to her in the dark and had never spoken. Furthermore, LeBlanc had been out of town on business the week the third woman went missing. In a newspaper photo, LeBlanc could have pa.s.sed for Scott Brandon"s older brother, not in any real physical resemblance but in the complete ba.n.a.lity of his face, well-groomed, blandly handsome and completely unprepossessing, your quintessential Wall Street WASP, features stripped of any ethnicity or interest. The face of the serial killer next door. simply stated that the body of a young woman had been found. The next article gave more details, telling how she"d been missing for over a week and appeared to have been held captive during the intervening time, before being strangled and dumped behind an elementary school. I flipped through the next few pages. Three more women found, all following the same pattern. Then one escaped, telling a horrifying story of a weeklong ordeal of rape and torture, held captive in the bas.e.m.e.nt of an abandoned house. The police had traced the house to Thomas LeBlanc, a thirty-three-year-old medical lab technician. However, when it came time for the woman to identify LeBlanc, she couldn"t. Her attacker had only come to her in the dark and had never spoken. Furthermore, LeBlanc had been out of town on business the week the third woman went missing. In a newspaper photo, LeBlanc could have pa.s.sed for Scott Brandon"s older brother, not in any real physical resemblance but in the complete ba.n.a.lity of his face, well-groomed, blandly handsome and completely unprepossessing, your quintessential Wall Street WASP, features stripped of any ethnicity or interest. The face of the serial killer next door.
Despite an extensive investigation, the police were unable to come up with enough evidence to charge LeBlanc. In the last Tribune Tribune article, LeBlanc had packed his bags and left Chicago. Even if the justice system hadn"t been able to convict LeBlanc, the people of Illinois had. Although that was the last article from Chicago, the sc.r.a.pbook didn"t end there. I counted six more clippings from the past few years, tracing a path of missing women through the Midwest to California and looping back up the East Coast. Thomas LeBlanc had been on the move. The last clipping was dated eight months ago, from Boston. article, LeBlanc had packed his bags and left Chicago. Even if the justice system hadn"t been able to convict LeBlanc, the people of Illinois had. Although that was the last article from Chicago, the sc.r.a.pbook didn"t end there. I counted six more clippings from the past few years, tracing a path of missing women through the Midwest to California and looping back up the East Coast. Thomas LeBlanc had been on the move. The last clipping was dated eight months ago, from Boston.
"s.h.i.t," Clay said, making me jump. "No way. No f.u.c.king way. Drop the book, darling. You"ve got to see this."
I hurried to the window. Clay held the heavy curtain back just enough for me to look out. An Acura had pulled into a spot near the lobby doors. Three men were walking away from it. When I saw the man heading from the driver"s side, I wasn"t shocked to see the face that had stared out from the Tribune Tribune article-Thomas LeBlanc, looking not nearly as well-groomed as he had in his photo. Of course, Clay didn"t recognize him or even know from this distance that he was a werewolf. It was the other men who"d caught his attention. Karl Marsten and Zachary Cain, two mutts we both knew very well. article-Thomas LeBlanc, looking not nearly as well-groomed as he had in his photo. Of course, Clay didn"t recognize him or even know from this distance that he was a werewolf. It was the other men who"d caught his attention. Karl Marsten and Zachary Cain, two mutts we both knew very well.
"Marsten and Cain? What the h.e.l.l are they doing together?" Clay said. "And who"s the other guy? He must be the one."
"Logan"s killer," I said. "Thomas LeBlanc. We have to get out of here."
"Whoa," Clay said, holding his ground as I tugged him toward the door. "We"re not going anywhere. This is what we came for, darling."
"We came to kill one mutt. One inexperienced mutt. Three against two is bad enough but-"
"We can handle it."
"With no sleep or food in twenty-four hours?"
"We could-"
"I can"t."
Clay stopped there. He was quiet for a moment.
"If you stay," I continued, "then I stay. But I"m in no shape for a fight. I"m exhausted and hungry and my arm is screwed up from the dog bite and Brandon."
I was. .h.i.tting beneath the belt, but I didn"t care. I"d say whatever it took to get us out of that room. Clay"s expression changed, first uncertain, then resolute.
"Okay," he said. "We bolt. Is there still time . . . ?"
"The balcony. We"ll have to lower ourselves down. No jumping."
"Your arm?" He looked down at the scabbed-over wound. We heal fast and it felt fine, but I wasn"t about to admit that. Not now.
"I"ll live," I said.
Clay strode to the balcony, shoved the drapes aside, and slid the door open. "I"ll go first and catch you if your arm gives out."
He was over the railing before I got out the door. I swung one leg over the ledge, then looked back into the room and saw the photo alb.u.m on the bed. I should have grabbed it. There would be more clues there, more to help me get to know Thomas LeBlanc. Rule one of hunting: know your prey.
"Be right back," I called to Clay over the railing.
"No!"
I grabbed the book from the bed just as a card key slid into the door lock.
"It"s not working," an unfamiliar voice said through the door. "The green light should come on."