"He bit you."
"I know the d.a.m.ned dog bit me." I jerked back as Jeremy put his hand on my forehead. "Answer my question. Where"s Clay?"
"He bit you. Clay bit you."
I stopped struggling and blinked. I thought I"d heard wrong.
"Clay bit me?" I said slowly.
Jeremy didn"t correct me. He stood there, looking down at me, waiting.
"The dog bit me," I said.
"It wasn"t a dog. It was Clay. He . . . he changed form."
"Changed form," I repeated.
I stared at Jeremy, then twisted from side to side, trying to get up. Jeremy grabbed my shoulders and held me down. Panic ignited in me. I fought with more strength than I thought I had, flailing and kicking. He pinned me to the bed with as much effort as he might use to restrain a two-year-old.
"Stop it, Elena." My name came off his tongue awkwardly, like a foreign word.
"Where"s Clay?" I shouted, ignoring the pain searing down my throat. "Where"s Clay?"
"He"s gone. I made him leave after he . . . bit you."
Jeremy seized both my arms and held them fast, pinning me so securely I couldn"t move. He inhaled and started again.
"He"s a . . ." He faltered, then shook his head. "I don"t need to tell you what he is, Elena. You saw him change forms. You saw him become a wolf."
"No!" I kicked up, my legs striking only air. "You"re crazy. f.u.c.king crazy. I saw a dog. Let me go! Clay!"
"He bit you, Elena. That means . . . it means you"re the same thing. You"re becoming the same thing. That"s why you"re sick. You need to let me help you." I closed my eyes and screamed, drowning his words. Where was Clay? Why had he left me with this madman? Why had he abandoned me? He loved me. I knew he loved me.
"I know you don"t believe it, Elena. But watch me. Just watch." I wrenched my head sideways, so I wasn"t looking at him. I could see only his arm holding mine to the bed. After a moment, his forearm seemed to shimmer and contract. I shook my head sharply, feeling the pain inside it bounce around like a red-hot coal. My vision blurred, then cleared. Jeremy"s arm convulsed, the wrist narrowing, the hand twisting and contorting into a knot. I wanted to close my eyes, but I couldn"t. I was transfixed by the sight before me. The black hairs on his arm thickened. More hairs sprouted, shooting out from his skin and growing longer and longer. The pressure of his fingers relaxed. I looked down. There were no fingers there. A black paw rested on my arm. I shut my eyes then and screamed until the world went dark.
It took over a year for me to truly comprehend what I"d become, that it wasn"t a nightmare or a delusion, and that it would never end, that there was no cure. Jeremy allowed Clay back eighteen months later, but it would never be the same between us again. It couldn"t be. There are some things you cannot forgive.
I awoke several hours later, feeling Clay"s arms around me, my back pressed against him. A slow wave of peace started lulling me back to sleep. Then I jerked awake. Clay"s arms around me. My back pressed against him. Lying together in the gra.s.s. Naked. Oh, s.h.i.t.
I extricated myself from his grasp without waking him, then slipped from the clearing and hurried to the house. Jeremy was on the back porch, reading The New York Times The New York Times in the first blush of sunrise. When I saw him I stopped, but it was too late. He"d seen me. Yes, I was naked, but that wasn"t why I would have rather avoided Jeremy. Years of Pack life had stripped me of my modesty-no pun intended. Whenever we ran, we finished naked and often far from our clothing. Disconcerting at first, waking from a post-run sleep to find yourself lying in a grotto with three or four naked guys. Disconcerting, though not an altogether unpleasant experience, given that these guys were all werewolves, hence in excellent physical condition and didn"t look too shabby au natural. But I digress. The point is that Jeremy had been seeing my naked body for years. When I stepped from the trees sans clothing, he didn"t even notice the lack. in the first blush of sunrise. When I saw him I stopped, but it was too late. He"d seen me. Yes, I was naked, but that wasn"t why I would have rather avoided Jeremy. Years of Pack life had stripped me of my modesty-no pun intended. Whenever we ran, we finished naked and often far from our clothing. Disconcerting at first, waking from a post-run sleep to find yourself lying in a grotto with three or four naked guys. Disconcerting, though not an altogether unpleasant experience, given that these guys were all werewolves, hence in excellent physical condition and didn"t look too shabby au natural. But I digress. The point is that Jeremy had been seeing my naked body for years. When I stepped from the trees sans clothing, he didn"t even notice the lack.
He folded the paper, got up from his lounge chair, and waited. Lifting my chin, I made the journey to the porch. He would smell Clay on me. There was no way I could escape that.
"I"m tired," I said, trying to brush past him. "It"s been a long night. I"m going back to bed."
"I"d like to hear what you found last night."
His voice was soft. A request, not a command. It would"ve been easier to ignore a direct order. As I stood there, the thought of going to bed, being alone with my thoughts, was suddenly too much. Jeremy was offering a distraction. I decided to take it. Sinking onto a chair, I told him the whole story. Okay, it wasn"t the whole story, but I told him about finding the mutt"s apartment, leaving out the aftermath with the boys in the alley and definitely excluding anything that happened after we got back. Jeremy listened and said little. As I finished, I caught a flicker of movement in the backyard. Clay strode from out of the forest, shoulders rigid, mouth set in a hard line.
"Go inside," Jeremy said. "Get some sleep. I"ll look after him."
I escaped into the house.
Up in my room, I took my cell phone from my bag and called Toronto. I didn"t call Philip, but it wasn"t because I felt guilty. I didn"t call him because I knew I should feel guilty and, since I couldn"t, it didn"t seem right to call. Does that make sense? Probably not.
If I"d had s.e.x with anyone other than Clay, I would have felt guilty. On the other hand, the chances of me cheating on Philip with anyone other than Clay were so infinitesimal that the point was moot. I was loyal by nature, whether I wanted to be or not. Yet what I had with Clay was so old, so complex, that sleeping with him couldn"t be compared to normal s.e.x. It was giving in to something I felt so deeply that all the anger and hurt and hate in the world couldn"t stop me from going back to him. Being a werewolf, being at Stonehaven, and being with Clay were so tightly interwoven that I couldn"t separate the strands. Surrender to one meant surrender to all. Giving myself to Clay wasn"t betraying Philip, it was betraying myself. That terrified me. Even as I sat on my bed, clutching the phone in one hand, I felt myself slipping. The barrier between my worlds was solidifying and I was trapped on the wrong side.
I sat there, staring at the phone, trying to decide who to call, what contact in my human life had the power to pull me back. For a second, I thought of calling Anne or Diane. I rejected the idea immediately then wondered why I"d thought of it at all. If talking to Philip wouldn"t help me, why would I ever consider calling his mother or sister? I chased the thought a moment, but something in it scared me off. After a brief pause, my fingers. .h.i.t b.u.t.tons of their own accord. As the phone rang, I numbly wondered who I"d called. Then the voice mail clicked on. "Hi, you"ve reached Elena Michaels at Focus Toronto. Focus Toronto. I"m not in the office right now, but if you"ll leave your name and number at the sound of the tone, I"ll return your call as soon as possible." I hung up, pulled back the covers, crawled into bed, then reached for the phone and hit redial. I"m not in the office right now, but if you"ll leave your name and number at the sound of the tone, I"ll return your call as soon as possible." I hung up, pulled back the covers, crawled into bed, then reached for the phone and hit redial.
By the fifth call, I was asleep.
It was nearly noon by the time I awoke. As I dressed, footsteps in the hallway stopped me cold.
"Elena?"
Clay rattled the door handle. It was locked. The only lock in the house Clay didn"t dare break.
"I heard you get up," he said. "Let me in. I want to talk to you."
I finished tugging on my jeans.
"Elena? Come on."The door rattled harder. "Let me in. We need to talk."
Pulling my hair back, I clipped it at the nape of my neck. Then I walked across the room, opened the window, and swung out, hitting the ground below with a thud. p.r.i.c.ks of shock raced up my calves, but I wasn"t hurt. A two-story jump wasn"t dangerous for a werewolf.
Above me, Clay pounded at my door. I headed around the house and went in the front. Jeremy and Antonio were walking down the hall when I stepped in. Jeremy stopped and raised one eyebrow.
"The stairs aren"t challenging enough anymore?" he asked.
Antonio laughed. "Challenge has nothing to do with it, Jer. I"d say it"s the big bad wolf huffing and puffing at her door up there." He leaned around the corner and shouted up the stairs. "You can stop shaking the house apart now, Clayton. You"ve been outmaneuvered. She"s down here."
Jeremy shook his head and steered me toward the kitchen. By the time Clay came down, I was halfway through breakfast. Jeremy directed him to a seat at the opposite end of the table. He grumbled, but obeyed. Nick and Peter arrived shortly after and, in the ensuing chaos of breakfast, I relaxed and was able to ignore Clay. When we were done eating, I told the others what we"d found the night before. As I talked, Jeremy scanned the newspapers. I was wrapping up when Jeremy put down the paper and looked at me.
"Is that everything?" he asked.
Something in his voice dared me to say it was. I hesitated, then nodded.
"Are you quite certain?" he asked.
"Uh-yes. I think so."
He folded the paper with maximum bustle and delay, then laid it in front of me. Front page of the BearValley Post. BearValley Post. Top headline: WILD DOGS SPOTTED IN CITY. Top headline: WILD DOGS SPOTTED IN CITY.
"Oh," I said. "Whoops."
Jeremy made a noise in his throat that could have been interpreted as a growl. I read the article. The two boys we"d seen in the alley had woken their parents with the story, who"d in turn woken the newspaper editor. The boys claimed to have seen the killers. Two, maybe three, huge shepherdlike dogs lurking within the very heart of town.
"Three," Jeremy said, his voice low. "All three of you. Together."
Peter and Antonio slipped from the table. Clay looked at Nick and jerked his chin, telling Nick he was free to leave, too. No one would blame Nick for this. Jeremy knew the instigators from the followers. Nick shook his head and stayed put. He"d take his share.
"We were returning from the mutt"s apartment," I said. "The kids walked into the alley. They saw me."
"Elena didn"t have enough room to hide," Clay interjected. "One of them grabbed a broken bottle. I lost it. I leapt at them. Elena stopped me and we took off. No one got hurt."
"We all got hurt," Jeremy said. "I told you to split up."
"We did," I said. "Like I said, this was after we found the apartment."
"I told you to Change to human after you found him."
"And do what? Walk to the car b.u.t.t-naked?"
Jeremy"s mouth twitched. A full minute of silence followed. Then Jeremy got to his feet, motioned for me to follow, and walked from the room. Clay and Nick looked at me, but I shook my head. This was a private invitation, as much as I"d love to share it. I followed Jeremy out of the house.
Jeremy led me into the woods, taking the walking paths. We"d gone nearly a half-mile before he said anything. Even then, he didn"t turn around, just kept walking in front of me.
"You know we"re in danger," he said.
"We all know-"
"I"m not sure you do. Maybe you"ve been away from the Pack too long, Elena. Or maybe you think because you"ve moved to Toronto this doesn"t affect you."
"Are you suggesting I"d purposely sabotage-"
"Of course not. I"m saying that maybe you need to be reminded how important this is to all of us, no matter where we live. People in BearValley are looking for a killer, Elena. That killer is a werewolf. We are werewolves. If he"s caught, how long do you think it"ll be before the town comes knocking at our door? If they find this mutt alive and figure out what he is, he"ll talk. He"s not in BearValley by accident, Elena. Any mutt with a father knows we live around here. If this one is discovered, he"ll lead the authorities here, to Clayton and me and, through us, to the rest of the Pack, and eventually, to every werewolf, including any who are trying to deny any connection with the Pack."
"Do you think I don"t realize that?"
"I trusted you to set the tone last night, Elena."
Ouch. That hurt. More than I liked to admit, so I hid it in my usual way.
"Then that was your mistake," I snapped. "I didn"t ask for your trust. Look what happened with Carter. You trusted me with that, didn"t you? Once burned . . ."
"As far as I"m concerned, your only mistake with Carter was not contacting me before you acted. I know it has more meaning for you, but that"s exactly why you"re supposed to contact me, so I give the order. I take the responsibility for the decision. For the death. I know you-"
"I don"t want to talk about it."
"Of course not."
We walked in silence. I felt the words jammed up in my throat, desperate for release, for the chance to talk about what I"d done and what I"d felt. As I walked, a smell hit me and, with it, the words dissolved.
"Do you smell that?" I asked.
Jeremy sighed. "Elena. I wish you would-"
"There. Sorry. I didn"t mean to interrupt, but"-my nose twitched, picking up the smell in the breeze-"that scent. Do you smell it?"
Jeremy"s nostrils flared. He sniffed the breeze impatiently as if he didn"t expect to find anything. Then he blinked. That smallest, most benign reaction was enough. He"d smelled it, too. Blood. Human blood.
Trespa.s.s
I tracked the scent of blood to the east fence line. As we got closer, something else overpowered the smell of blood. Something worse. Decomposing flesh.
We came to a low wooden bridge that crossed a stream. Once on the other side, I stopped. The smell was gone. I sniffed the east wind again. There were traces of rot in the air, but the overwhelming stench had vanished. I turned and looked down at the stream. Something pale protruded from under the bridge. It was a bare foot, bloated, gray toes pointing at the sky. I jogged down the incline and waded into the stream. Jeremy leaned over the bridge, saw the foot, then pulled back and waited for me to investigate.
Grabbing the side of the bridge, I knelt in the icy water of the stream, drenching my jeans from ankle to knee. The bare foot was attached to a slender calf. The stench was overwhelming. As I switched to breathing through my mouth, my stomach lurched. Now I could taste the rot as well as smell it. I went back to breathing through my nose. The calf led to a knee, then fell away into shredded skin and muscle with bone shining through, leaving the femur looking like a big ham bone gnawed by a dog with more appet.i.te for destruction than dinner. The other thigh was a maggot-infested stump, the bone snapped by powerful jaws. When I peered under the bridge, I saw the rest of the second leg, or pieces of it, strewn around, like someone shaking the last bits of garbage from the bag. Above the thighs, the torso was an indistinguishable ma.s.s of mangled flesh. If the arms were still attached, I didn"t see them. Likely they were some of the bits scattered farther back. The head was twisted backward, the neck almost bitten through. I didn"t want to look at the face. It"s easier if you don"t see the face, if you can dismiss a rotting corpse as a prop from a B horror movie. Still, easier isn"t always better. This wasn"t a movie prop and she didn"t deserve to be dismissed as one. I a.s.sumed it was a she because of the size and slenderness but, as I shifted the head, I realized my mistake. It was a young man, little more than a boy. His eyes were wide, crusted with dirt, as dull as scuffed marbles. Otherwise, his face was unmarred: smooth-skinned, well fed, and very, very young.
It was another werewolf kill. Even if I couldn"t smell the mutt through the rot and the blood, I knew it by the rough tearing of the throat, the gaping chew marks on the torso. The mutt had brought the body here. To Stonehaven. He hadn"t killed the boy here. There was no sign of blood, but the caked dirt indicated he"d been buried and dug up. Last night, while we were ransacking the mutt"s apartment, he"d been taking the body to Stonehaven, where we would find it. The insult sent tremors of fury through me.
"We"ll have to dispose of it," Jeremy said. "Leave it for now. We"ll go back to the house-"
A crash in the bushes stopped him short. I yanked my head from under the bridge. Someone was trampling through the undergrowth like a bull rhino. Humans. I quickly bent, rinsed my hands in the stream and scrambled up the bank. I was barely at the top when two men in bright orange hunting vests burst from the forest.
"This is private property," Jeremy said, his quiet voice cutting through the silence of the clearing.
The two men jumped and spun around. Jeremy stayed on the bridge and reached one hand behind his back, pulling me to him.
"I said, this is private property," he repeated.
One man, a stout kid in his late teens, stepped forward. "Yeah, then what are you doing here, buddy?"
The older man grabbed the kid"s elbow and pulled him back. "Excuse my son"s manners, sir. I"m a.s.suming you"re . . ." He trailed off, searching for a name and coming up blank.
"I own the property, yes," Jeremy said, voice still soft.
A man and a woman came up behind the two, nearly bowling them over. They stopped short and looked at us as if seeing apparitions. The older man whispered something to them, then turned back to Jeremy and cleared his throat.
"Yes, sir. I understand you own this land, but you see, we"ve got ourselves a bit of a situation. I"m sure you heard about that girl that got killed a few days ago. Well, it"s dogs, sir. Wild dogs. Big ones. Two of our boys from town saw them last night. Then we got a call this morning, saying something had been spotted on the far side of the woods out here around midnight."
"So you"re conducting a search."