"It is very sad--very sad, indeed. I wish so much, my dear Sir, I could be of use to you; but you know the fact is, we solicitors seldom have the command of our own money; always in advance--always drained to the uttermost shilling, and I am myself in the predicament you will see there."
And he threw a little note from the Dollington Bank to Jos. Larkin, Esq., The Lodge, Gylingden, announcing the fact that he had overdrawn his account certain pounds, shillings, and pence, and inviting him forthwith to restore the balance.
The vicar read it with a vague comprehension, and in his cold fingers shook the hand of his fellow sufferer. Less than fifty pounds would not do! Oh, where was he to turn? It was _quite_ hopeless, and poor Larkin pressed too!
Now, there was this consolation in "poor Larkin"s case," that although he was quite run aground, and a defaulter in the Dollington Bank to the extent of 7_l_. 12_s_. 4_d_., yet in that similar inst.i.tution, which flourished at Naunton, only nine miles away, there stood to his name the satisfactory credit of 564_l_. 11_s_. 7_d_. One advantage which the good attorney derived from his double account with the rival inst.i.tutions was, that whenever convenient he could throw one of these certificates of dest.i.tution and impotence sadly under the eyes of a client in want of money like poor Will Wylder.
The attorney had no pleasure in doing people ill turns. But he had come to hear the distresses of his clients as tranquilly as doctors do the pangs of their patients. As he stood meditating near his window, he saw the poor vicar, with slow limbs and downcast countenance, walk under his laburnums and laurustinuses towards his little gate, and suddenly stop and turn round, and make about a dozen quick steps, like a man who has found a bright idea, towards the house, and then come to a thoughtful halt, and so turn and recommence his slow march of despair homeward.
At five o"clock--it was dark now--there was a tread on the door-steps, and a double tattoo at the tiny knocker. It was the "lawyer."
Mr. Larkin entered the vicar"s study, where he was supposed to be busy about his sermon.
"My dear Sir; thinking about you--and I have just heard from an old humble friend, who wants high interest, and of course is content to take security somewhat personal in its nature. I have written already. He"s in the hands of Burlington, Smith, and Company. I have got exactly 55_l._ since I saw you, which makes me all right at Dollington; and here"s my check for 50_l._ which you can send--or perhaps _I_ had better send by this night"s post--to those Cambridge people. It settles _that_; and you give me a line on this stamp, acknowledging the 50_l._ on account of money to be raised on your reversion. So that"s off your mind, my dear Sir."
"Oh, Mr. Larkin--my--my--you don"t know, Sir, what you have done for me--the agony--oh, thank G.o.d! what a friend is raised up."
And he clasped and wrung the long hands of the attorney, and I really think there was a little moisture in that gentleman"s pink eyes for a moment or two.
When he was gone the vicar returned from the door-step, radiant--not to the study but to the parlour.
"Oh, Willie, darling, you look so happy--you were uneasy this evening,"
said his little ugly wife, with a beautiful smile, jumping up and clasping him.
"Yes, darling, I was--_very_ uneasy; but thank G.o.d, it is over."
And they cried and smiled together in that delightful embrace, while all the time little Fairy, with a paper cap on his head, was telling them half-a-dozen things together, and pulling Wapsie by the skirts.
Then he was lifted up and kissed, and smiled on by that sunshine only remembered in the sad old days--parental love. And there was high festival kept in the parlour that night. I am told six crumpets, and a new egg apiece besides at tea, to make merry with, and stories and little songs for Fairy. Willie was in his old college spirits. It was quite delightful; and little Fairy was up a great deal too late; and the vicar and his wife had quite a cheery chat over the fire, and he and she both agreed he would make a handsome sum by Eusebius.
Thus, if there are afflictions, there are also comforts: great consolations, great chastis.e.m.e.nts. There is a comforter, and there is a chastener. Every man must taste of death: every man must taste of life.
It shall not be all bitter nor all sweet for any. It shall be life. The unseen ministers of a stupendous equity have their eyes and their hands about every man"s portion; "as it is written, he that had gathered much had nothing over; and he that had gathered little had no lack."
It is the same earth for all; the same earth for the dead, great and small; dust to dust. The same earth for the living. "Thorns, also, and thistles shall it bring forth," and G.o.d provides the flowers too.
CHAPTER XLVI.
DEBATE AND INTERRUPTION.
Rachel beheld the things which were coming to pa.s.s like an awful dream.
She had begun to think, and not without evidence, that Dorcas, for some cause or caprice, had ceased to think of Stanley as she once did. And the announcement, without preparation or apparent courtship, that her brother had actually won this great and beautiful heiress, and that, just emerged from the shades of death, he, a half-ruined scapegrace, was about to take his place among the magnates of the county, and, no doubt, to enter himself for the bold and splendid game of ambition, the stakes of which were now in his hand, towered before her like an incredible and disastrous illusion of magic.
Stanley"s uneasiness lest Rachel"s conduct should compromise them increased. He grew more nervous about the relations between him and Mark Wylder, in proportion as the world grew more splendid and prosperous for him.
Where is the woman who will patiently acquiesce in the reserve of her husband who shares his confidence with another? How often had Stanley Lake sworn to her there was no secret; that he knew nothing of Mark Wylder beyond the charge of his money, and making a small payment to an old Mrs. Dutton, in London, by his direction, and that beyond this, he was as absolutely in the dark as she or Chelford.
What, then, did Rachel mean by all that escaped her, when he was in danger?
"How the -- could he tell? He really believed she was a little--_ever_ so little--crazed. He supposed she, like Dorcas, fancied he knew everything about Wylder. She was constantly hinting something of the kind; and begging of him to make a disclosure--disclosure of what? It was enough to drive one mad, and would make a capital farce. Rachel has a ridiculous way of talking like an oracle, and treating as settled fact every absurdity she fancies. She is very charming and clever, of course, so long as she speaks of the kind of thing she understands. But when she tries to talk of serious business--poor Radie! she certainly does talk such nonsense! She can"t reason; she runs away with things. It _is_ the most tiresome thing you can conceive."
"But you have not said, Stanley, that she does not suspect the truth."
"Of course, I say it; I _have_ said it. I swear it, if you like. I"ve said plainly, and I"m ready to swear it. Upon my honour and soul I know no more of his movements, plans, or motives, than you do. If you reflect you must see it. We were never good friends, Mark and I. It was no fault of mine, but I never liked him; and he, consequently, I suppose, never liked me. There was no intimacy or confidence between us. I was the last man on earth he would have consulted with. Even Larkin, his own lawyer, is in the dark. Rachel knows all this. I have told her fifty times over, and she seems to give way at the moment. Indeed the thing is too plain to be resisted. But as I said, poor Radie, she can"t reason; and by the time I see her next, her old fancy possesses her. I can"t help it; because with more reluctance than I can tell, I at length consent, at Larkin"s _entreaty_, I may say, to bank and fund his money."
But Dorcas"s mind retained its first impression. Sometimes his plausibilities, his vehemence, and his vows disturbed it for a time; but there it remained like the picture of a camera obscura, into which a momentary light has been admitted, unseen for a second, but the images return with the darkness, and group themselves in their old colours and places again. Whatever it was Rachel probably knew it. There was a painful confidence between them; and there was growing in Dorcas"s mind a feeling towards Rachel which her pride forbade her to define.
She did not like Stanley"s stealthy visits to Redman"s Farm; she did not like his moods or looks after those visits, of which he thought she knew nothing. She did not know whether to be pleased or sorry that Rachel had refused to reside at Brandon; neither did she like the stern gloom that overcast Rachel"s countenance when Stanley was in the room, nor those occasional walks together, up and down the short yew walk, in which Lake looked so cold and angry, and Rachel so earnest. What was this secret?
How dared her husband mask from her what he confided to another? How dared Rachel confer with him--influence him, perhaps, under her very eye, walking before the windows of Brandon--that Brandon which was _hers_, and to which she had taken Stanley, pa.s.sing her gate a poor and tired wayfarer of the world, and made him--_what?_ Oh, mad caprice! Oh, fit retribution!
A wild voice was talking this way, to-and-fro, and up and down, in the chambers of memory. But she would not let it speak from her proud lips.
She smiled, and to outward seeming, was the same; but Rachel felt that the fashion of her countenance towards her was changed.
Since her marriage she had not hinted to Rachel the subject of their old conversations: burning beneath her feeling about it was now a deep-rooted anger and jealousy. Still she was Stanley"s sister, and to be treated accordingly. The whole household greeted her with proper respect, and Dorcas met her graciously, and with all the externals of kindness. The change was so little, that I do not think any but she and Rachel saw it; and yet it was immense.
There was a dark room, a sort of ante-room, to the library, with only two tall and narrow windows, and hung with old Dutch tapestries, representing the battles and sieges of men in periwigs, pikemen, dragoons in buff coats, and musketeers with matchlocks--all the grim faces of soldiers, generals, drummers, and the rest, grown pale and dusky by time, like armies of ghosts.
Rachel had come one morning to see Dorcas, and, awaiting her appearance, sat down in this room. The door of the library opened, and she was a little surprised to see Stanley enter.
"Why, Stanley, they told me you were gone to Naunton."
"Oh! did they? Well, you see, I"m here, Radie."
Somehow he was not very well pleased to see her.
"I think you"ll find Dorcas in the drawing-room, or else in the conservatory," he added.
"I am glad, Stanley, I happened to meet you. Something _must_ be done in the matter I spoke of immediately. Have you considered it?"
"Most carefully," said Stanley, quietly.
"But you have done nothing."
"It is not a thing to be done in a moment."
"You can, if you please, do a great deal in a moment"
"Certainly; but I may repent it afterwards."
"Stanley, you may regret postponing it, much more."
"You have no idea, Rachel, how very tiresome you"ve grown."
"Yes, Stanley, I can quite understand it. It would have been better for you, perhaps for myself, I had died long ago."
"Well, that is another thing; but in the meantime, I a.s.sure you, Rachel, you are disposed to be very impertinent."