I was bending it open as I jumped off the chair. I jerked it so hard as I landed that it shook the little man out from behind the hedge. I shut my eyes so as not to see his face, and closed my hand around him, though my skin felt as if it was trying to crawl away from him. I"d just got hold of him to tear him up as he wriggled like an insect when my father came in and took hold of my fingers to make me let go before I could do more than crumple the little man. He closed the book and squeezed it under his arm as if he was as angry with it as he was with me. "I thought you knew better than to damage books," he said. "You know I can"t stand vandalism. I"m afraid you"re going straight to bed, and think yourself lucky I"m keeping my temper."
That wasn"t what I was afraid of. "What are you going to do with the book?"
"Put it somewhere you won"t find it. Now, not another word or you"ll be sorry. Bed."
I turned to my mother, but she frowned and put her finger to her lips. "You heard your father."
When I tried to stay until I could see where my father hid the book, she pushed me into the bathroom and stood outside the door and told me to get ready for bed. By the time I came out, my father and the book had gone. My mother tucked me into bed and frowned at me, and gave my forehead a kiss so quick it felt papery. "Just go to sleep now and we"ll have forgotten all about it in the morning,"
she said.
I lay and watched the bedroom furniture begin to go flat and thin as cardboard as it got dark. When either of my parents came to see if I was asleep I tried to make them think I was, but before it was completely dark I was shaking too much. My mother brought me some of the medicine and wouldn"t go away until I"d swallowed it, and then I lay there fighting to stay awake.
I heard my parents talking, too low for me to understand. I heard one of them go out to the dustbin, and eventually I smelled burning. I couldn"t tell if that was in our yard or a neighbor"s, and I was too afraid to get up in the dark and look.
I lay feeling as if I couldn"t move, as if the medicine had made the bedclothes heavier or me weaker, and before I could stop myself I was asleep.
When I jerked awake I didn"t know what time it was. I held myself still and tried to hear my parents so that I"d know they hadn"t gone to sleep and left me alone. Then I heard my father snoring in their room, and I knew they had, because he always went to bed last. His snores broke off, probably because my mother had nudged him in her sleep, and for a while I couldn"t hear anything except my own breathing, so loud it made me feel I was suffocating. And then I heard another sound in my room.
It was a creaking as if something was trying to straighten itself. It might have been cardboard, but I wasn"t sure, because I couldn"t tell how far away from me it was. I dug my fingers into the mattress to stop myself shaking, and held my breath until I was almost sure the sound was ahead of me, between the door and me. I listened until I couldn"t hold my breath any longer, and it came out in a gasp.
And then I dug my fingers into the mattress so hard my nails bent, and banged my head against the wall behind the pillow, because Harold Mealing had risen up in front of me.
I could only really see his face. There was less of it than last time I"d seen it, and maybe that was why it was smiling even harder, both wider and taller than a mouth ought to be able to go. His body was a dark shape he was struggling to raise, whether because it was stiff or crippled I couldn"t tell. I could still hear it creaking.
It might have been cardboard or a corpse, because I couldn"t make out how close he was, at the end of the bed and big as life or standing on the quilt in front of my face, the size he"d been in the book. All I could do was bruise my head as I shoved the back of it against the wall, the farthest I could get away from him.
He shivered upright until his face was above mine, and his hands came flapping toward me. I was almost sure he was no bigger than he"d been in the book, but that didn"t help me, because I could feel myself shrinking until I was small enough for him to carry away into the dark, all of me that mattered. He leaned toward me as if he was toppling over, and I started to scream.
I heard my parents waken, far away. I heard one of them stumble out of bed.
I was afraid they would be too late, because now I"d started screaming I couldn"t stop, and the figure that was smaller than my head was leaning down as if it meant to crawl into my mouth and hide there or drag what it wanted out of me. Somehow I managed to let go of the mattress and flail my hands at him. I hardly knew what I was doing, but I felt my fist close around something that broke and wriggled, just as the light came on.
Both my parents ran in. "It"s all right, Timmy, we"re here," my mother said, and to my father "It must be that medicine. We won"t give him any more."
I clenched my fist harder and stared around the room. "I"ve got him," I babbled. "Where"s the book?"
They knew which one I meant, because they exchanged a glance. At first I couldn"t understand why they looked almost guilty. "You"re to remember what I said, Timmy," my father said. "We should always respect books. But listen, son, that one was bothering you so much I made an exception. You can forget about it. I put it in the bin and burnt it before we came to bed."
I stared at him as if that could make him take back what he"d said. "But that means I can"t put him back," I cried.
"What"ve you got there, Timmy? Let me see," my mother said, and watched until I had to open my fist. There was nothing in it except a smear of red that she eventually convinced me was ink.
When she saw I was afraid to be left alone she stayed with me all night.
After a while I fell asleep because I couldn"t stay awake, though I knew Harold Mealing was still hiding somewhere. He"d slipped out of my fist when I wasn"t looking, and now I"d lost my chance to trap him and get rid of him.
My mother took me to the doctor in the morning and got me some new medicine that made me sleep even when I was afraid to. It couldn"t stop me being afraid of books, even when my parents sent Beware of the Smile back to the publisher and found out that the publisher had gone bankrupt from gambling too much money on Harold Mealing"s books. I thought that would only make Harold Mealing more spiteful. I had to read at school, but I never enjoyed a book again. I"d get my friends to shake them open to make sure there was nothing inside them before I would touch them, only before long I didn"t have many friends. Sometimes I thought I felt something squirming under the page I was reading, and I"d throw the book on the floor.
I thought I"d grown out of all this when I went to college. Writing what I"ve written shows I"m not afraid of things just because they"re written down. I worked so hard at college I almost forgot to be afraid of books. Maybe that"s why he kept wakening me at night with his smile half the height of his face and his hands that feel like insects on my cheeks. Yes, I set fire to the library, but I didn"t know what else to do. I thought he might be hiding in one of those books.
Now I know that was a mistake. Now you and my parents and the rest of them smile at me and say I"ll be better for writing it down, only you don"t realize how much it"s helped me see things clear. I don"t know yet which of you smilers Harold Mealing is pretending to be, but I will when I"ve stopped the rest of you smiling. And then I"ll tear him up to prove it to all of you. I"ll tear him up just as I"m going to tear up this paragraph.
Buckets.
by F. Paul Wilson.
"Buckets" marks F. Paul Wilson"s first appearance in The Year"s Best Horror Stories. Always a pleasure to extend professional courtesy to a fellow MD.
Born in New Jersey on May 17, 1946, Wilson blames his misspent youth there on E. C. horror comics, monster films, and rock and roll. He began selling short fiction while a first-year medical student and has been writing fiction and practicing medicine ever since. His best-selling horror novels include The Keep, The Tomb, The Touch, Black Wind, and the recently published Reborn -- the first of three interrelated horror novels forming an extended sequel to The Keep. He is currently at work on the second of this series.
Soft & Others, a collection of short fiction from Wilson"s first twenty years as a writer, was published by Tor in 1989. "Buckets," originally written for the aborted anthology, Halloween Horrors II, first appeared in Wilson"s well- regarded collection, "sort of buried among the reprints." Makes me wonder what the rest of the stories slated for Halloween Horrors II are like.
"My, aren"t you an early bird!"
Dr. Edward Cantrell looked down at the doe-eyed child in the five-and-dime Princess Leia costume on his front doorstep and tried to guess her age. A beautiful child of about seven or eight, with flaxen hair and scrawny little shoulders drawn up as if she were afraid of him, as if he might bite her. It occurred to him that today was Wednesday and it was not yet noon. Why wasn"t she in school? Never mind. It was Halloween and it was none of his business why she was getting a jump on the rest of the kids in the trick-or-treat routine.
"Are you looking for a treat?" he asked her.
She nodded slowly, shyly.
"Okay! You got it!" He went to the bowl behind him on the hall table and picked out a big Snickers. Then he added a dime to the package. It had become a Halloween tradition over the years that Dr. Cantrell"s place was where you got dimes when you trick-or-treated.
He thrust his hand through the open s.p.a.ce where the screen used to be. He liked to remove the storm door screen on Halloween; it saved him the inconvenience of repeatedly opening the door against the kids pressing against it for their treats; and besides, he worried about one of the little ones being pushed backward off the front steps. A lawsuit could easily follow something like that.
The little girl lifted her silver bucket.
He took a closer look. No, not silver -- shiny stainless steel, reflecting the dull gray overcast sky. It reminded him of something, but he couldn"t place it at the moment. Strange sort of thing to be collecting Halloween treats in. Probably some new fad. Whatever became of the old pillowcase or the shopping bag, or even the plastic jack-o"-lantern?
He poised his hand over the bucket, then let the candy bar and dime drop.
They landed with a soft squish.
Not exactly the sound he had expected. He leaned forward to see what else was in the bucket but the child had swung around and was making her way down the steps.
Out on the sidewalk, some hundred feet away along the maple-lined driveway, two older children waited for her. A stainless-steel bucket dangled from each of their hands.
Cantrell shivered as he closed the front door. There was a new chill in the air. Maybe he should put on a sweater. But what color? He checked himself over in the hall mirror. Not bad for a guy looking fifty-two in the eye. That was Erica"s doing. Trading in the old wife for a new model twenty years younger had had a rejuvenating effect on him. Also, it made him work at staying young looking -- like three trips a week to the Short Hills Nautilus Club and watching his diet. He decided to forgo the sweater for now.
He almost made it back to his recliner and the unfinished New York Times when the front bell rang again. Sighing resignedly, he turned and went back to the front door. He didn"t mind tending to the trick-or-treaters, but he wished Erica were here to share door duty. Why did she have to pick today for her monthly spending spree in Manhattan? He knew she loved Bloomingdale"s -- in fact, she had once told him that after she died she wanted her ashes placed in an urn in the lingerie department there -- but she could have waited until tomorrow.
It was two boys this time, both about eleven, both made up like punkers with orange and green spiked hair, ripped clothes, and crude tattoos, obviously done with a Bic instead of a real tattooer"s pen. They stood restlessly in the chill breeze, shifting from one foot to the other, looking up and down the block, stainless-steel buckets in hand. He threw up his hands. "Whoa! Tough guys, eh? I"d better not mess around with the likes of -- !"
One of the boys glanced at him briefly, and in his eyes Cantrell caught a flash of such rage and hatred -- not just for him, but also for the whole world -- that his voice dried away to a whisper. And then the look was gone as if it had never been and the boy was just another kid again. He hastily grabbed a pair of Three Musketeers and two dimes, leaned through the opening in the door, and dropped one of each into their buckets.
The one on the right went squish and the one on the left went plop.
He managed to catch just a glimpse of the bottom of the bucket on the right as the kid turned. He couldn"t tell what was in there, but it was red.
He was glad to see them go. Surly pair, he thought. Not a word out of either of them. And what was in the bottom of that bucket? Didn"t look like any candy he knew, and he considered himself an expert on candy. He patted the belly that he had been trying to flatten for months. More than an expert -- an aficionado of candy.
Further speculation was forestalled by a call from Monroe Community Hospital. One of his postpartum patients needed a laxative. He okayed a couple of ounces of milk of mag. Then the nurse double-checked his pre-op orders on the hysterectomy tomorrow.
He managed to suffer through it all with dignity. It was Wednesday and he always took Wednesdays off. Jeff Sewell was supposed to be taking his calls today, but all the floors at the hospital had the Cantrell home phone number and they habitually tried here first before they went hunting for whoever was covering him.
He was used to it. He had learned ages ago that there was no such thing as a day off in Ob-Gyn.
The bell rang again, and for half a second Cantrell found himself hesitant to answer it. He shrugged off the reluctance and pulled open the door.
Two mothers and two children. He sucked in his gut when he recognized the mothers as longtime patients.
This is more like it!
"Hi, Dr. Cantrell!" the red-haired woman said with a big smile. She put a hand atop the red-haired child"s head. "You remember Shana, don"t you? You delivered her five years ago next month."
"I remember you, Gloria," he said, noting her flash of pleasure at having her first name remembered. He never forgot a face. "But Shana here looks a little bit different from when I last saw her."
As both women laughed, he scanned his mind for the other"s name. Then it came to him: "Yours looks a little bigger, too, Diane."
"She sure does. What do you say to Dr. Cantrell, Susan?"
The child mumbled something that sounded like "Ricky Meat" and held up an orange plastic jack-o"-lantern with a black plastic strap.
"That"s what I like to see!" he said. "A real Halloween treat holder. Better than those stainless-steel buckets the other kids have been carrying!"
Gloria and Diane looked at each other. "Stainless-steel buckets?"
"Can you believe it?" he said as he got the two little girls each a Milky Way and a dime. "My first three Halloween customers this morning carried steel buckets for their treats. Never seen anything like it."
"Neither have we," Diane said.
"You haven"t? You should have pa.s.sed a couple of boys out on the street."
"No. We"re the only ones around."
Strange. But maybe they had cut back to the street through the trees as this group entered the driveway.
He dropped identical candy and coins into the identical jack-o"-lanterns and heard them strike the other treats with a rea.s.suring rustle.
He watched the retreating forms of the two young mothers and their two happy kids until they were out of sight. This is the way Halloween should be, he thought. Much better than strange hostile kids with metal buckets.
And just as he completed the thought, he saw three small white-sheeted forms of indeterminate age and s.e.x round the hedge and head up the driveway.
Each had a shiny metal bucket in hand. He wished Erica were here.
He got the candy bars and coins and waited at the door for them. He had decided that before he parted with the goodies he was going to find out who these kids were and what they had in their little buckets. Fair was fair.
The trio climbed to the top step of the stoop and stood there waiting, silently watching him through the eye holes of their sheets.
Their silence got under his skin.
Doesn"t anybody say "Trick or treat?" anymore?
"Well, what have we here?" he said with all the joviality he could muster.
"Three little ghosts! The Ghostly Trio!"
One of them -- he couldn"t tell which -- said, "Yes."
"Good! I like ghosts on Halloween! You want a treat?"
They nodded as one.
"Okay! But first you"re gonna have to earn it! Show me what you"ve got in those buckets and I"ll give you each a dime and a box of Milk Duds! How"s that for a deal?"
The kids looked at each other. Some wordless communication seemed to pa.s.s between them, and then they turned and started back down the steps.
"Hey, kids! Hey, wait!" he said quickly, forcing a laugh. "I was only kidding! You don"t have to show me anything. Here! Just take the candy."
They paused on the second step, obviously confused.
Ever so gently, he coaxed them back. "C"mon, kids. I"m just curious about those buckets, is all. I"ve been seeing them all day and I"ve been wondering where they came from. But if I frightened you, well, hey, I"ll ask somebody else later on."
He held up the candy and the coins and extended his hand through the door. "Here you go."
One little ghost stepped forward but raised an open hand -- a little girl"s hand -- instead of a bucket.
He could not bear to be denied any longer. He pushed open the storm door and stepped out, looming over the child, craning his neck to see into that d.a.m.n little bucket. The child squealed in fright and turned away, crouching over the bucket as if to protect it from him.
What are they trying to hide? What"s the matter with them? And what"s the matter with me?
Really. Who cared what was in those buckets?
He cared. It was becoming an obsession with him. He"d go crazy if he didn"t find out.
Hoping n.o.body was watching -- n.o.body who"d think he was a child molester -- he grabbed the little ghost by the shoulders and twisted her toward him. She couldn"t hide the bucket from him now. In the clear light of day he got a good look into it.
Blood.
Blood with some floating bits of tissue and membrane lay maybe an inch and a half deep in the bottom.