I took Sara"s hand and we walked back down the hall.We all checked in at Morals. It was a long night. When the statements were down, Hedron offered to drive me home. He was full of triumph and sudden camaraderie. He slapped my back. "We got the son-of-a-b.i.t.c.h. You can still see the implant scars where they read her for the holo, and there has got to be a synaptic map at C-View that will match."
"I"m glad," I said.
Home to my white light. I logged on the Net for the latest. The Broad Highway was a desert, glitched with static and noise. They didn"t identify the soundtrack, but I could, a sobbing child, blown to monstrous volume by the public hunger for innocence.
"It"s going to be all right," I had told Sara, whose fantasy lover had come looking for her off-line-and found her.
Sennie Keravnin said she didn"t know anything about that. She had no idea Trumble was a map for Captain Armageddon or that her daughter was being read for Zera. Sara was supposed to be mapped for a kid"s show. That"s how the contract read. And Trumble was just supposed to be some C-View exec.
I wanted to believe Sennie Keravnin.
Jell Baker was a genius in his way, I realized. The public was sick of illusion-sick of the virtual shimmer.
They longed for the Big R. They thirsted for innocence.
Real innocence. No imitations accepted.
Sara Keravnin would be nine next month. I wondered if Bloom had known that?
Probably not. But I thought of that line carved in silver over Fed Legal, a quote from before the Decadence, a quote from that guy who wrote Hamlet. You know, the one that goes: "Let us not to the marriage of true minds admit impediments."
I guess that says it all.
Joe Haldeman
Joe Haldeman is one of the great living science fiction writers, known worldwide for his hard SF adventure stories particularly. His most recent novel however, released in 1995, was not SF. 1968 is an ambitious attempt to represent and confront a year spent as a soldier in Vietnam. His SF novels include Mindbridge, The Forever War, Buying Time and The Hemingway Hoax. His short fiction ranges from humor to horror, but most often has a darkness deep within it. Such is "For White Hill": a romance set against the staggering background of the approaching doom of Earth. This was one of five fine novellas (by Haldeman, Greg Bear, Donald M. Kingsbury, Charles Sheffield and Paul Anderson) published this year in Far Futures, the excellent original anthology of hard SF edited by Gregory Benford this year.
For White Hill.
by Joe Haldeman
1.
I am writing this memoir in the language of England, an ancient land of Earth, whose tales and songs White Hill valued. She was fascinated by human culture in the days before machines-not just thinking machines, but working ones; when things got done by the straining muscles of humans and animals.
Neither of us was born on Earth. Not many people were, in those days. It was a desert planet then, ravaged in the twelfth year of what they would call the Last War. When we met, that war had been going for over four hundred years, and had moved out of Sol s.p.a.ce altogether, or so we thought.
Some cultures had other names for the conflict. My parent, who fought the century before I did, always called it the Extermination, and their name for the enemy was "roach," or at least that"s as close as English allows. We called the enemy an approximation of their own word for themselves, Fwndyri, which was uglier to us. I still have no love for them, but have no reason to make the effort. It would be easier to love a roach. At least we have a common ancestor. And we accompanied one another into s.p.a.ce.
One mixed blessing we got from the war was a loose form of interstellar government, the Council of Worlds. There had been individual treaties before, but an overall organization had always seemed unlikely, since no two inhabited systems are less than three light-years apart, and several of them are over fifty. You can"t defeat Einstein; that makes more than a century between "How are you?" and "Fine."
The Council of Worlds was headquartered on Earth, an unlikely and unlovely place, if centrally located.
There were fewer than ten thousand people living on the blighted planet then, an odd mix of politicians, religious extremists, and academics, mostly. Almost all of them under gla.s.s. Tourists flowed through the domed-over ruins, but not many stayed long. The planet was still very dangerous over all of its unprotected surface, since the Fwndyri had thoroughly seeded it with nanophages. Those were submicroscopic constructs that sought out concentrations of human DNA. Once under the skin, they would reproduce at a geometric rate, deconstructing the body, cell by cell, building new nanophages. A person might complain of a headache and lie down, and a few hours later there would be nothing but a dry skeleton, lying in dust. When the humans were all dead, they mutated and went after DNA in general, and sterilized the world.
White Hill and I were "bred" for immunity to the nanophages. Our DNA winds backwards, as was the case with many people born or created after that stage of the war. So we could actually go through the elaborate airlocks and step out onto the blasted surface unprotected.
I didn"t like her at first. We were compet.i.tors, and aliens to one another.
When I worked through the final airlock cycle; for my first moment on the actual surface of Earth, she was waiting outside, sitting in meditation on a large flat rock that shimmered in the heat. One had to admit she was beautiful in a startling way, clad only in a glistening pattern of blue and green body paint.
Everything else around was grey and black, including the hard-packed talc.u.m that had once been a mighty jungle, Brazil. The dome behind me was a mirror of grey and black and cobalt sky.
"Welcome home," she said. "You"re Water Man."
She inflected it properly, which surprised me. "You"re from Petros?"
"Of course not." She spread her arms and looked down at her body. Our women always cover at least one of their b.r.e.a.s.t.s, let alone their genitals. "Galan, an island on Seldene. I"ve studied your cultures, a little language.""You don"t dress like that on Seldene, either." Not anywhere I"d been on the planet.
"Only at the beach. It"s so warm here."
I had to agree. Before I came out, they"d told me it was the hottest autumn on record. I took off my robe and folded it and left it by the door, with the sealed food box they had given me. I joined her on the rock, which was tilted away from the sun and reasonably cool.
She had a slight fragrance of lavender, perhaps from the body paint. We touched hands. "My name is White Hill. Zephyr Meadow-Torrent."
"Where are the others?" I asked. Twenty-nine artists had been invited; one from each inhabited world.
The people who had met me inside said I was the nineteenth to show up.
"Most of them traveling. Going from dome to dome for inspiration."
"You"ve already been around?"
"No." She reached down with her toe and sc.r.a.ped a curved line on the hard-baked ground. "All the story"s here, anywhere. It isn"t really about history or culture."
Her open posture would have been shockingly s.e.xual at home, but this was not home. "Did you visit my world when you were studying it?"
"No, no money, at the time. I did get there a few years ago." She smiled at me. "It was almost as beautiful as I"d imagined it." She said three words in Petrosian. You couldn"t say it precisely in English, which doesn"t have a palindromic mood: Dreams feed art and art feeds dreams.
"When you came to Seldene I was young, too young to study with you. I"ve learned a lot from your sculpture, though."
"How young can you be?" To earn this honor, I did not say.
"In Earth years, about seventy awake. More than a hundred and forty-five in time-squeeze."
I struggled with the arithmetic. Petros and Seldene were twenty-two light-years apart; that"s about forty-five years" squeeze. Earth is, what, a little less than foray light-years from her planet. That leaves enough gone time for someplace about twenty-five light-years from Petros, and back.
She tapped me on the knee, and I flinched. "Don"t overheat your brain. I made a triangle; went to ThetaKent after your world."
"Really? When I was there?"
"No, I missed you by less than a year. I was disappointed. You were why I went." She made a palindrome in my language: Predator becomes prey becomes predator? "So here we are. Perhaps I can still learn from you."
I didn"t much care for her tone of voice, but I said the obvious: "I"m more likely to learn from you."
"Oh, I don"t think so." She smiled in a measured way. "You don"t have much to learn."
Or much I could, or would, learn. "Have you been down to the water?"
"Once." She slid off the rock and dusted herself, spanking. "It"s interesting. Doesn"t look real." I pickedup the food box and followed her down a sort of path that led us into low ruins. She drank some of my water, apologetic; hers was hot enough to brew tea.
"first body?" I asked.
"I"m not tired of it yet." She gave me a sideways look, amused. "You must be on your fourth or fifth."
"I go through a dozen a year." She laughed. "Actually, it"s still my second. I hung on to the first too long."
"I read about that, the accident. That must have been horrible."
"Comes with the medium. I should take up the flute." I had been making a "controlled" fracture in a large boulder and set off the charges prematurely, by dropping the detonator. Part of the huge rock rolled over onto me, crushing my body from the hips down. It was a remote area, and by the time help arrived I had been dead for several minutes, from pain as much as anything else. "It affected all of my work, of course.
I can"t even look at some of the things I did the first few years I had this body."
"They are hard to look at," she said. "Not to say they aren"t well done, and beautiful, in their way."
"As what is not? In its way." We came to the first building ruins and stopped. "Not all of this is weathering. Even in four hundred years." If you studied the rubble you could reconstruct part of the design. Primitive but st.u.r.dy, concrete reinforced with composite rods. "Somebody came in here with heavy equipment or explosives. They never actually fought on Earth, I thought."
"They say not." She picked up an irregular brick with a rod through it. "Rage, I suppose. Once people knew that no one was going to live."
"It"s hard to imagine." The records are chaotic. Evidently the first people died two or three days after the nanophages were introduced, and no one on Earth was alive a week later. "Not hard to understand, though. The need to break something." I remembered the inchoate anger I felt as I squirmed there helpless, dying from sculpture, of all things. Anger at the rock, the fates. Not at my own inattention and clumsiness.
"They had a poem about that," she said. " "Rage, rage against the dying of the light." "
"Somebody actually wrote something during the nanoplague?"
"Oh, no. A thousand years before. Twelve hundred." She squatted suddenly and brushed at a fragment that had two letters on it. "I wonder if this was some sort of official building. Or a shrine or church." She pointed along the curved row of shattered bricks that spilled into the street. "That looks like it was some kind of decoration, a gable over the entrance." She tiptoes through the rubble toward the far end of the arc, studying what was written on the face-up pieces. The posture, standing on the b.a.l.l.s of her feet, made her slim body even more attractive, as she must have known. My own body began to respond in a way inappropriate for a man more than three times her age. Foolish, even though that particular part is not so old. I willed it down before she could see.
"It"s a language I don"t know," she said: "Not Portuguese; looks like Latin. A Christian church, probably, Catholic."
"They used water in their religion," I remembered. "Is that why it"s close to the sea?"
"They were everywhere; sea, mountains, orbit. They got to Petros?"
"We still have some. I"ve never met one, but they have a church in New Haven.""As who doesn"t?" She pointed up a road. "Come on. The beach is just over the rise here."
I could smelts it before I saw it. It wasn"t an ocean smell; it was dry, slightly choking.
We turned a corner and I stood staring. "It"s a deep blue farther out," she said, "and so clear you can see hundreds of metras down." Here the water was thick and brown, the surf foaming heavily like a giant"s chocolate drink, mud piled in baked windrows along the beach. "This used to be soil?"
She nodded. "There"s a huge river that cuts this continent in half, the Amazon. When the plants died, there was nothing to hold the soil in place." She tugged me forward. "Do you swim? Come on."
"Swim in that? It"s filthy."
"No, it"s perfectly sterile. Besides, I have to pee." Well, I couldn"t argue with that. I left the box on a high fragment of fallen wall and followed her. When we got to the beach, she broke into a run. I walked slowly and watched her gracile body, instead, and waded into the slippery heavy surf. When it was deep enough to swim, I plowed my way out to where she was bobbing. The water was too hot to be pleasant, and breathing was somewhat difficult. Carbon dioxide, I supposed, with a tang of halogen.
We floated together for a while, comparing this soup to bodies of water on our planets and ThetaKent. It was tiring, more from the water"s heat and bad air than exertion, so we swam back in.
2.
We dried in the blistering sun for a few minutes and then took the food box and moved to the shade of a beachside ruin. Two walls had fallen in together, to make a sort of concrete tent.
We could have been a couple of precivilization aboriginals, painted with dirt, our hair baked into stringy mats. She looked odd but still had a kind of formal beauty, the dusty mud residue turning her into a primitive sculpture, impossibly accurate and mobile. Dark rivulets of sweat drew painterly accent lines along her face and body. If only she were a model, rather than an artist. Hold that pose while I go back for my brushes.
We shared the small bottles of cold wine and water and ate bread and cheese and fruit. I put a piece on the ground for the nanophages. We watched it in silence for some minutes, while nothing happened. "It probably takes hours or days," she finally said.
"I suppose we should hope so," I said. "Let us digest the food before the creatures get to it."
"Oh, that"s not a problem. They just attack the bonds between amino acids that make up proteins. For you and me, they"re nothing more than an aid to digestion."
How rea.s.suring. "But a source of some discomfort when we go back in, I was told."
She grimaced. "The purging. I did it once, and decided my next outing would be a long one. The treatment"s the same for a day or a year."
"So how long has it been this time?"
"Just a day and a half. I came out to be your welcoming committee."
"I"m flattered."
She laughed. "It was their idea, actually. They wanted someone out here to "temper" the experience foryou. They weren"t sure how well traveled you were, how easily affected by... strangeness." She shrugged. "Earthlings. I told them I knew of four planets you"d been to."
"They weren"t impressed?"
"They said well, you know, he"s famous and wealthy. His experiences on these planets might have been very comfortable." We could both laugh at that. "I told them how comfortable ThetaKent is."
"Well, it doesn"t have nanophages."
"Or anything else. That was a long year for me. You didn"t even stay a year."
"No. I suppose we would have met, if I had."
"Your agent said you were going to be there two years."