I poured us both some wine. "She should have told me you were coming. Maybe I could have endured it until the next ship out."
"How gallant." She looked into the wine without drinking. "You famous and wealthy people don"t have to endure ThetaKent. I had to agree to one year"s indentureship to help pay for my triangle ticket."
"You were an actual slave?"
"More like a wife, actually. The head of a township, a widower, financed me in exchange for giving his children some culture. Language, art, music. Every now and then he asked me to his chambers. For his own kind of culture."
"My word. You had to... lie with him? That was in the contract?"
"Oh, I didn"t have to, but it kept him friendly." She held up a thumb and forefinger. "It was hardly noticeable."
I covered my smile with a hand, and probably blushed under the mud.
"I"m not embarra.s.sing you?" she said. "From your work, I"d think that was impossible."
I had to laugh. "That work is in reaction to my culture"s values. I can"t take a pill and stop being a Petrosian."
White Hill smiled, tolerantly. "A Petrosian woman wouldn"t put up with an arrangement like that?"
"Our women are still women. Some actually would like it, secretly. Most would claim they"d rather die, or kill the man."
"But they wouldn"t actually do it. Trade their body for a ticket?" She sat down in a single smooth dancer"s motion, her legs open, facing me. The clay between her legs parted, sudden pink.
"I wouldn"t put it so bluntly." I swallowed, watching her watching me. "But no, they wouldn"t. Not if they were planning to return."
"Of course, no one from a civilized planet would want to stay on ThetaKent. Shocking place."
I had to move the conversation onto safer grounds. "Your arms don"t spend all day shoving big rocks around. What do you normally work in?""Various mediums." She switched to my language. "Sometimes I shove little rocks around." That was a pun for t.e.s.t.i.c.l.es. "I like painting, but my reputation is mainly from light and sound sculpture. I wanted to do something with the water here, internal illumination of the surf, but they say that"s not possible. They can"t isolate part of the ocean. I can have a pool, but no waves, no tides."
"Understandable." Earth"s scientists had found a way to rid the surface of the nanoplague. Before they reterraformed the Earth, though, they wanted to isolate an area, a "park of memory," as a reminder of the Sterlization and these centuries of waste, and brought artists from every world to interpret, inside the park, what they had seen here.
Every world except Earth. Art on Earth had been about little else for a long time.
Setting up the contest had taken decades. A contest representative went to each of the settled worlds, according to a strict timetable. Announcement of the compet.i.tion was delayed on the nearer worlds so that each artist would arrive on Earth at approximately the same time.
The Earth representatives chose which artists would be asked, and no one refused. Even the ones who didn"t win the contest were guaranteed an honorarium equal to twice what they would have earned during that time at home, in their best year of record.
The value of the prize itself was so large as to be meaningless to a normal person. I"m a wealthy man on a planet where wealth is not rare, and just the interest that the prize would earn would support me and a half-dozen more. If someone from ThetaKent or Laxor won the prize, they would probably have more real usable wealth than their governments. If they were smart, they wouldn"t return home.
The artists had to agree on an area for the park, which was limited to a hundred square kaymetras. If they couldn"t agree, which seemed almost inevitable to me, the contest committee would listen to arguments and rule.
Most of the chosen artists were people like me, accustomed to working on a monumental scale. The one from Luxor was a composer, though, and there were two conventional muralists, paint and mosaic.
White Hill"s work was by its nature evanescent. She could always set something up that would be repeated, like a fountain cycle. She might have more imagination than that, though.
"Maybe it"s just as well we didn"t meet in a master-student relationship," I said. "I don"t know the first thing about the techniques of your medium."
"It"s not technique." She looked thoughtful, remembering. "That"s not why I wanted to study with you, back then. I was willing to push rocks around, or anything, if it could give me an avenue, an insight into how you did what you did." She folded her arms over her chest, and dust fell. "Ever since my parents took me to see Gaudi Mountain, when I was ten."
That was an early work, but I was still satisfied with it. The city council of Tresling, a prosperous coastal city, hired me to "do something with" an unusable steep island that stuck up in the middle of their harbor.
I melted it judiciously, in homage to an Earthling artist.
"Now, though, if you"d forgive me... well, I find it hard to look at. It"s alien, obtrusive."
"You don"t have to apologize for having an opinion." Of course it looked alien; it was meant to evoke Spain! "What would you do with it?"
She stood up, and walked to where a window used to be, and leaned on the stone sill, looking at the ruins that hid the sea. "I don"t know. I"m even less familiar with your tools." She sc.r.a.ped at the edge ofthe sill with a piece of rubble. "It"s funny: earth, air, fire, and water. You"re earth and fire, and I"m the other two."
I have used water, of course. The Gaudi is framed by water. But it was an interesting observation. "What do you do, I mean for a living? Is it related to your water and air?"
"No. Except insofar as everything is related." There are no artists on Seldene, in the sense of doing it for a living. Everybody indulges in some sort of art or music, as part of "wholeness," but a person who only did art would be considered a parasite. I was not comfortable there.
She faced me, leaning. "I work at the Northport Mental Health Center. Cognitive science, a combination of research and... is there a word here? Jaturnary. "Empathetic therapy," I guess."
I nodded. "We say jadr-ny. You plug yourself into mental patients?"
"I share their emotional states. Sometimes I do some good, talking to them afterwards. Not often."
"It"s not done on Petrosia," I said, unnecessarily.
"Not legally, you mean."
I nodded. "If it worked, people say, it might be legal."
" "People say." What do you say?" I started to make a noncommittal gesture. "Tell me the truth?"
"All I know is what I learned in school. It was tried, but failed spectacularly. It hurt both the therapists and the patients."
"That was more than a century ago. The science is much more highly developed now."
I decided not to push her on it. The fact is that drug therapy is spectacularly successful, and it is a science, unlike jadr-ny. Seldene is backward in some surprising ways.
I joined her at the window. "Have you looked around for a site yet?"
She shrugged. "I think my presentation will work anywhere. At least that"s guided my thinking. I"ll have water, air, and light, wherever the other artists and the committee decide to put us." She sc.r.a.ped at the ground with a toenail. "And this stuff. They call it "loss." What"s left of what was living."
"I suppose it"s not everywhere, though. They might put us in a place that used to be a desert."
"They might. But there will be water and air; they were willing to guarantee that."
"I don"t suppose they have to guarantee rock," I said.
"I don"t know. What would you do if they did put us in a desert, nothing but sand?"
"Bring little rocks." I used my own language; the pun also meant courage.
She started to say something, but we were suddenly in deeper shadow. We both stepped through the tumbled wall, out into the open. A black line of cloud had moved up rapidly from inland.
She shook her head. "Let"s get to the shelter. Better hurry."
We trotted back along the path toward the Amazonia dome city. There was a low concrete structure behind the rock where I first met her. The warm breeze became a howling gale o sour steam before wegot there, driving bullets of hot rain. A metal door opened automatically on our approach, and slid shut behind us. "I got caught in one yesterday," she said, panting. "It"s no fun, even under cover. Stinks."
We were in an unadorned anteroom that had protective clothing on wall pegs. I followed her into a large room furnished with simple chairs and tables, and up a winding stair to an observation bubble.
"Wish we could see the ocean from here," she said. It was dramatic enough. Wavering sheets of water marched across the blasted landscape, strobed every few seconds by lightning flashes. The tunic I"d left outside swooped in flapping circles off to the sea.
It was gone in a couple of seconds. "You don"t get another one, you know. You"ll have to meet everyone naked as a baby."
"A dirty one at that. How undignified."
"Come on." She caught my wrist and tugged. "Water is my specialty, after all."
3.
The large hot bath was doubly comfortable for having a view of the tempest outside. I"m not at ease with communal bathing-I was married for fifty years and never bathed with my wife-but it seemed natural enough, after wandering around together naked on an alien planet, swimming in its mud-puddle sea. I hoped I could trust her not to urinate in the tub. (If I mentioned it she would probably turn scientific and tell me that a healthy person"s urine is sterile. I know that. But there is a time and a receptacle for everything.) On Seldene, I knew, an unattached man and woman in this situation would probably have had s.e.x even if they were only casual acquaintances, let alone fellow artists. She was considerate enough not to make any overtures, or perhaps (I thought at the time) not greatly stimulated by the sight of muscular men. In the shower before bathing, she offered to scrub my back, but left it at that. I helped her strip off the body paint from her back. It was a nice back to study, p.r.o.nounced lumbar dimples, small waist. Under more restrained circ.u.mstances, it might have been I who made an overture. But one does not ask a woman when refusal would be awkward.
Talking while we bathed, I learned that some of her people, when they become wealthy enough to retire, choose to work on their art full time, but they"re considered eccentric, even outcasts, egotists. White Hill expected one of them to be chosen for the contest, and wasn"t even going to apply. But the Earthling judge saw one of her installations and tracked her down.
She also talked about her practical work in dealing with personality disorders and cognitive defects.
There was some distress in her voice when she described that to me. Plugging into hurt minds, sharing their pain or blankness for hours. I didn"t feel I knew her well enough to bring up the aspect that most interested me, a kind of ontological prurience: what is it like to actually be another person; how much of her, or him, do you take away? If you do it often enough, how can you know which parts of you are the original you?
And she would be plugged into more than one person at once, at times, the theory being that people with similar disorders could help each other, swarming around in the therapy room of her brain. She would fade into the background, more or less unable to interfere, and later a.n.a.lyze how they had interacted.
She had had one particularly unsettling experience, where through a planetwide network she had interconnected more than a hundred congenitally r.e.t.a.r.ded people. She said it was like a painless death.
By the time half of them had plugged in, she had felt herself fade and wink out. Then she was reborn withthe suddenness of a slap. She had been dead for about ten hours.
But only connected for seven. It had taken technicians three hours to pry her out of a persistent catatonia.
With more people, or a longer period, she might have been lost forever. There was no lasting harm, but the experiment was never repeated.
It was worth it, she said, for the patients" inchoate happiness afterward. It was like a regular person being given supernatural powers for half a day-powers so far beyond human experience that there was no way to talk about them, but the memory of it was worth the frustration.
After we got out of the tub, she showed me to our wardrobe room: hundreds of white robes, identical except for size. We dressed and made tea and sat upstairs, watching the storm rage. It hardly looked like an inhabitable planet outside. The lightning had intensified so that it crackled incessantly, a jagged insane dance in every direction. The rain had frozen to white gravel somehow. I asked the building, and it said that the stuff was called granizo or, in English, hail. For a while it fell too fast to melt, acc.u.mulating in white piles that turned translucent.
Staring at the desolation, White Hill said something that I thought was uncharacteristically modest. "This is too big and terrible a thing. I feel like an interloper. They"ve lived through centuries of this, and now they want us to explain it to them?"
I didn"t have to remind her of what the contest committee had said, that their own arts had become stylized, stunned into a grieving conformity. "Maybe not to explain-maybe they"re a.s.suming we"ll fail, but hope to find a new direction from our failures. That"s what that oldest woman, Norita, implied."
White Hill shook her head. "Wasn"t she a ray of sunshine? I think they dragged her out of the grave as a way of keeping us all outside the dome."
"Well, she was quite effective on me. I could have spent a few days investigating Amazonia, but not with her as a native guide." Norita was about as close as anyone could get to being an actual native. She was the last survivor of the Five Families, the couple of dozen Earthlings who, among those who were offworld at the time of the nanoplague, were willing to come back after robots constructed the isolation domes.
In terms of social hierarchy, she was the most powerful person on Earth, at least on the actual planet. The cla.s.s system was complex and nearly opaque to outsiders, but being a descendant of the Five Families was a prerequisite for the highest cla.s.s. Money or political power would not get you in, although most of the other social cla.s.ses seemed a.s.sociated with wealth or the lack of it. Not that there were any actual poor people on Earth; the basic birth dole was equivalent to an upper-middle-cla.s.s income on Petros.
The nearly instantaneous destruction of ten billion people did not destroy their fortunes. Most of the Earth"s significant wealth had been off-planet, anyhow, at the time of the Sterilization. Suddenly it was concentrated into the hands of fewer than two thousand people.
Actually, I couldn"t understand why anyone would have come back. You"d have to be pretty sentimental about your roots to be willing to spend the rest of your life cooped up under a dome, surrounded by instant death. The salaries and ameneties offered were substantial, with bonuses for Earthborn workers, but it still doesn"t sound like much of a bargain. The ships that brought the Five Families and the other original workers to Earth left loaded down with sterilized artifacts, not to return for exactly one hundred years.
Norita seemed like a familiar type to me, since I come from a culture also rigidly bound by cla.s.s. "Old money, but not much of it" sums up the situation. She wanted to be admired for the accident of her birthand the dubious blessing of a torpid longevity, rather than any actual accomplishment. I didn"t have to travel thirty-three light-years to enjoy that kind of company.
"Did she keep you away from everybody?" White Hill said.
"Interposed herself. No one could act naturally when she was around, and the old dragon was never not around. You"d think a person her age would need a little sleep."
" "She lives on the blood of infants," we say."
There was a phone chime and White Hill said "Bono" as I said, "Ch." Long habits. Then we said Earth"s "Hola" simultaneously.
The old dragon herself appeared. "I"m glad you found shelter." Had she been eavesdropping? No way to tell from her tone or posture. "An administrator has asked permission to visit with you."
What if we said no? White Hill nodded, which means yes on Earth. "Granted," I said.
"Very well. He will be there shortly." She disappeared. I suppose the oldest person on a planet can justify not saying h.e.l.lo or goodbye. Only so much time left, after all.
"A physical visit?" I said to White Hill. "Through this weather?"
She shrugged. "Earthlings."
After a minute there was a ding sound in the anteroom and we walked down to see an unexpected door open. What I"d thought was a hall closet was an airlock. He"d evidently come underground.
Young and nervous and moving awkwardly in plastic. He shook our hands in an odd way. Of course we were swimming in deadly poison. "My name is Warm Dawn Zephyr-Boulder-Brook."
"Are we cousins through Zephyr?" White Hill asked.
He nodded quickly. "An honor, my lady. Both of my parents are Seldenian, my gene-mother from your Galan."
A look pa.s.sed over her that was pure disbelieving chauvinism: Why would anybody leave Seldene"s forests, farms, and meadows for this sterile death trap? Of course, she knew the answer. The major import and export, the only crop, on Earth, was money.
"I wanted to help both of you with your planning. Are you going to travel at all, before you start?"
White Hill made a noncommittal gesture. "There are some places for me to see," I said. "The Pyramids, Chicago, Rome. Maybe a dozen places, twice that many days." I looked at her. "Would you care to join me?"
She looked straight at me, wheels turning. "It sounds interesting."
The man took us to a viewscreen in the great room and we spent an hour or so going over routes and making reservations. Travel was normally by underground vehicle, from dome to dome, and if we ventured outside unprotected, we would of course have to go through the purging before we were allowed to continue. Some people need a day or more to recover from that, so we should put that into the schedule, if we didn"t want to be hobbled, like him, with plastic.
Most of the places I wanted to see were safely under gla.s.s, even some of the Pyramids, which surprisedme. Some, like Ankgor Wat, were not only unprotected but difficult of access. I had to arrange for a flyer to cover the thousand kaymetras, and schedule a purge. White Hill said she would wander through Hanoi, instead.
I didn"t sleep well that night, waking often from fantastic dreams, the nan.o.beasts grown large and aggressive. White Hill was in some of the dreams, posturing s.e.xually.