Chapter 1190: Only Remembering the Sweet Things
Feng Lingxue had always been an ice beauty, many men would be willing to spend tons of money on her just to see her smile, but she never did.
Ever since the two met, she hadn’t smiled before.
But now, she smiled.
She was really beautiful when she smiled.
Feng Lingxue leaned on his shoulder, lifting her head to smile at him. “Thank you.”
Xuan Ying lowered his eyes, looking at her and with a husky voice he asked, “Why are you thanking me?”
“Thank you for taking me here to take the cable car ride. I’m really happy.”
Stretching out a hand, Xuan Ying caressed her face with a calloused thumb. “Don’t you hate me? I used a belt to whip you, hit you, scold you and even humiliated you and tortured you…”
Feng Lingxue’s lashes fluttered, it was her fault, she hadn’t protected herself. If only the incident three years ago hadn’t taken place, they wouldn’t have ended up like that.
She knew that he hated her.
In fact, she hated herself more.
She hadn’t forgotten about that night, it was a nightmare for her. A man with a burning hot body temperature and solid build pressed her down, not letting her move a single inch. Her clothes were ripped open and she lost her chast.i.ty, her virginity should have been left for Brother Ying.
A smile hinted at the edges of Feng Lingxue’s lips. “I’ve… already forgotten about those days. I only remember… all of the sweet things you did for me before.”
Xuan Ying’s eyes were like two mini abysses, dark and complex.
“My mother actually treated me really well. She was a fisherman’s daughter and North Duke laid his eyes on her because of her beauty. My mother had already been betrothed to someone else, but the North Duke raped her without her consent.
“My mother was brought into the North Palace and she became a concubine. The North d.u.c.h.ess was jealous of her and treated her as an eyesore. In the end, the North Duke quickly forgot about my mother after he had a new favorite.
“After my mother got pregnant, she was under North d.u.c.h.ess’ mercy ever since. North d.u.c.h.ess would order my mother around, treating her just like a maid. She would humiliate her and torture her every day. When my mother eventually gave birth to me, we had to stay in a rundown house. I still remember those days. I was constantly hungry, there was nothing for me to eat and one night when I cried because I was starving, my mother went out to look for food. She came back… totally disheveled. In her hands, she had a bowl of watery porridge. I will never forget it, when I was having the porridge, my mother turned around and secretly cried…
“Then one day, North d.u.c.h.ess accused my mother of stealing something and she forcibly sent my mother into the military camp. A few brawny men came and dragged my mother away. I was so scared, I cried so much as I chased after the car. My mother looked out of the window, telling me… Lingling, don’t be afraid, Mom loves you forever…
“I-I lost my footing and tripped. The car sped away and the maid took me back. I received the news after a few days of my mom’s death. She died in the military camp…”
Xuan Ying looked in her eyes, this was her first time mentioning her mother and talking about her childhood. Her eyes were red and tears welled up inside, it seemed like she was going to cry any moment.
As he saw her so distraught, his heart wrenched in pain, caressing her face with a calloused palm. “You want to cry? Just cry.”
But Feng Lingxue shook her head, her eyes watery and she tried hard to not let the tears drop. “So many years have pa.s.sed, I can barely remember my mother’s face anymore. I’m not afraid of hards.h.i.+p, not at all. I still remember that bowl of porridge, it was my mother’s love for me, I feel really blessed.”
Xuan Ying raised the corners of his lips lightly. “Mm.”
“I remember everyone who treats me well, but… there aren’t many people who actually treat me well.”
Feng Lingxue lifted her eyes as she said, looking at him with watery eyes. “Other than my mother, Brother Ying treated me the best.”
The young Xuan Ying treated Feng Lingxue really well. He would let her gain some warmth by putting her hands on his stomach. He would try to make her happy by telling her jokes even when he was a man of few words. He didn’t dare hold her hand or even kiss her. He promised to take her with him, find a place to settle down and build a family with her.
The Brother Ying from those days, Feng Lingxue would always remember him. He was the one who stopped her when she tried to jump off the building to commit suicide. That moment when she felt his warmth, the sweet that melted in her mouth, she would never forget them forever.
Both of them had unfortunate backgrounds. They relied on each other for support during their time at Ah Jiao’s Room.
There were so many people on earth, but not everyone would be like them, depending on each other to live by every day. She was his only purpose in life while she was just like the sun to him.
Xuan Ying furrowed his brows, leaning over to plant a kiss on her forehead.
It was the greatest form of love and doting when a man kissed a woman’s forehead.
Feng Lingxue lived in the North Palace since she was young and she had learned how to observe everyone’s moods and act accordingly from a young age. She was really sensitive.
Everyone knew her as an ice beauty, but she wasn’t actually that stolid. She was more like a porcupine. That moment when her mother left her, when she was thrown into Ah Jiao’s Room, she was an activated porcupine with all her spikes out, locking herself in her own world.
All these years, she had hidden in that world, she was afraid of being hurt and she refused to let herself be hurt.
But once you took away the spiky outer layer, she was just like a newborn kitten. She was shy, timid and not aggressive at all, somewhat conscious, yet yearning for someone to appear and treat her well.
Feng Lingxue was just like a girl who hadn’t grown up, she was innocent and kind.
Xuan Ying hugged her, kissing her forehead*—-Feng Lingxue, do you use this on every man?*
Fine, he had to concede defeat. At that moment, his heart ached, it really hurt.
…
The cable car ride ended and the luxury car parked outside the Snow Mountain Residence.
The maid pulled open the door, Feng Lingxue held Feng Lingxue’s waist while walking inside when he heard a voice. “Silver Mask King, you’re back?”
Lifting her head, Feng Lingxue noticed a poised figure standing in the living room. It was s.h.i.+ Xiaoxiao.
s.h.i.+ Xiaoxiao was South Duke’s designated daughter-in-law.
Right after experiencing those sweet memories, Feng Lingxue’s world turned dark again. She was aware of her current status, she simply wasn’t compatible with him. He was of high status and he certainly was going to enter a profit-motivated marriage to expand his interests.
She wasn’t good enough for him.
Xuan Ying glanced at s.h.i.+ Xiaoxiao without much emotion on his face. He squeezed Feng Lingxue’s waist as he said, “Go upstairs first.”
Feng Lingxue nodded, heading upstairs. She wanted to return to her room, the servant’s room.
She suddenly heard Xuan Ying’s voice from downstairs, he sounded displeased as he shouted, “Where are you going? Go to my room and prepare the bath for me!”
Though he sounded like he was ordering her around, he was in fact asking her to go in his master bedroom.
After freezing for a moment, Feng Lingxue lowered her head, pus.h.i.+ng open his room door before she stepped inside. Xuan Ying watched as she disappeared into the room, the corners of his lips quirked, he seemed to be pleased.
“Silver Mask King, what’s your relations.h.i.+p with Feng Lingxue?” s.h.i.+ Xiaoxiao asked.