Chapter 1031: Starting Afresh
She was really mad with jealousy.
Upon hearing her words, Fu Qinglun finally stopped biting the insides of his cheeks and froze for a moment. Stretching out his arm, he pulled her into his embrace.
He hugged her so tight, wanting to become one with her, for her to fuse into his blood and bones.
Foolish girl.
His foolish girl.
She need not be jealous because of anyone.
Who was she? Lin s.h.i.+yu, she was so talented and charming. Back then when she was still a student, she was the dream lover of countless boys when she wore that white dress, holding a few books in her hands.
Who could compare to her?
Noone. Absolutely noone at all.
When she was 21 years old, she spent only one year to make it into the international scene. She was crowned the queen of the music industry, with her wavy long hair and flowy dress, she took the hearts of many.
He was one of them.
He was one of the many people who loved her.
But now, what kind of life was Lin s.h.i.+yu leading?
She had given up everything just for Little Lemon. She no longer played her favorite piano, she no longer sang, she was no longer that dazzling star.
She had been emptied out.
She had landed herself in such a plight.
She even had to be jealous of the owner of the ovary, jealous of the surrogate. Who were they even? How could they even compare to her?
Why?
Love would make them discover the best versions of ourselves. But why did she lead such a pathetic life after being together with him?
If he had been just a second late just now, just a second, she would have fallen from the 18th storey.
She had a demon in her heart, she was sick.
All of it was because of him.
Lin s.h.i.+yu’s eyes reddened while in his arms, huge drops of tears trickling down her cheeks. She stretched her arms out, encircling his trim waist as she sobbed. “Fu Qinglun, I don’t want you to have a child with another woman. I really don’t want you to have a child with another woman…
“If you really have a child with another woman, I… won’t want you anymore, you don’t understand… Cries…”
She couldn’t stop crying, her tears just came out without control.
Fu Qinglun’s throat was dry, he moved his lips, but nothing came out from his mouth. He didn’t know what to say. He could only hug her, hold her in his arms tightly.
Despair and helplessness grew with a crazy speed in his heart.
…
Lin s.h.i.+yu had fallen asleep and Fu Qinglun sat beside her, holding her cold hand.
He couldn’t stop planting kisses on her hand.
What should he do?
What was he going to do with her?
“Ah Sen.” Sikong suddenly appeared.
Fu Qinglun got out of his daze, covering a blanket over Lin s.h.i.+yu’s body, he stepped out of the lounge.
Along the corridor, Fu Qinglun looked at Sikong. “How’s s.h.i.+’s.h.i.+?”
“Ah Sen, s.h.i.+yu is not doing well. Little Lemon’s matter has ruined her and adding on your matters, she has severe depression. She has displayed symptoms of hallucination and even… suicide tendencies.”
Severe depression?
It seared into Fu Qinglun’s mind. There had been cases of patients with depression committing suicide almost every day in recent years.
It was a frightening illness, not easily curable with just medication.
“Ah Sen, it’s really a sticky situation now. Little Lemon is going through V2 chemotherapy every day and we’ve found the surrogate. You will also have to wait for the sperm and ovary to match, this needs to be settled as soon as possible.
“Also, s.h.i.+yu had depression and she needs treatment for that, but with all these things going on, she can’t possibly go for therapy yet. Little Lemon’s condition and the surrogate matter would only keep triggering her. Once the stress and agony she suffers from exceeds a normal level that most humans can take, she would want to escape from the situation. It is very likely that s.h.i.+yu would attempt suicide for the second time.”
Attempt suicide for the second time.
Fu Qinglun’s mind was filled with the scene of Lin s.h.i.+yu sitting by the window, almost falling over. He clenched his fists by his sides.
It has been so difficult for her and she had put up with this multiple episodes for more than three years. She had already reached her limit.
He was the cornerstone, crus.h.i.+ng her ultimately.
Her depression didn’t just come out of nowhere, it was acc.u.mulated day by day. She had to shoulder too much all these years.
He had let her struggle by herself, so helplessly.
Fu Qinglun slumped against the wall, with both hands in his pockets, he appeared so dejected and wasted. “Is there no other shortcut to treat her depression?” he asked.
Sikong nodded his head. “Yes, there is. We can use hypnosis to take away those painful memories.”
All those painful memories?
Was it him?
Fu Qinglun didn’t speak, the silence lasting for almost a minute. He nodded his head. “Okay.”
Since he made her suffer so much, he should just let her forget about him. Sometimes, the ending wasn’t really the end, but in fact, was the beginning.
He wasn’t letting her go, he, Fu Qinglun would never let go of Lin s.h.i.+yu’s hand. He was planning to start afresh with her.
“Ah Sen, do you want to take away s.h.i.+yu’s memories of Little Lemon?” Sikong asked.
Little Lemon was her daughter, she had given birth to her by risking her life. No one had the rights to take away her role as a mother.
But Fu Qinglun nodded his head. “Mm, take it away too.”
In the end, he made the decision to take those memories away.
She would forget about him and Little Lemon. He would save Little Lemon’s life. Just let him suffer all of the agony all alone.
Little Lemon was a strong girl. They would definitely be able to get through the tough times together.
He drew a circle, placing her outside of it. He wanted to watch her smile, and not let her cry.
When everything got better, after he settled everything, he would take Little Lemon with him and find her.
They would be together again.
…
Lin s.h.i.+yu woke up. Once she opened her eyes, Fu Qinglun’s handsome face appeared before her. He had been by her bedside the entire time.
“s.h.i.+’s.h.i.+, you’ve woken up? Do you need some water?”
Lin s.h.i.+yu sat up, shaking her head. “I don’t need it… Wait, why are you still here? Have you gone for the test yet? Little Lemon can’t wait any longer.”
She urged him.
Fu Qinglun looked at her. She seemed to have forgotten about the jumping down episode earlier on. Her entire mind was preoccupied with saving Little Lemon’s life.
The Lin s.h.i.+yu who hugged him while crying, who admitted that she was madly jealous, had disappeared. It was as though it was just a dream.
She had suppressed herself yet again. Her depression would only get worse as time pa.s.sed.
Knock knock. Sikong opened the door. “Ah Sen, I’m here to get a sample of your sperm.”
Lin s.h.i.+yu’s face was as pale as a sheet of paper. She lifted the blanket, quickly getting down the bed. “I’ll go check on Little Lemon, you two can carry on.”
She scurried out of the lounge, not even turning her head back to look at them at all.
Fu Qinglun got up. “Let’s go.”
…
In the research lab, Sikong placed an empty test tube on the rack. “Ah Sen, I’ll wait for you outside? Is 10 minutes enough?”
Fu Qinglun sat on the chair, slumping against the back of it. He narrowed his eyes while looking at the tube. “I don’t know, I’m not really in the mood now.”
Sikong’s gaze traveled downwards, riveting on Fu Qinglun’s pants.
Before he could even see anything, Fu Qinglun randomly picked up something and threw it in his face. “Get out!”