"Aren"t you thinking much about her? or may be you just want ...to get her closer? I can understand if you say so but if you mean something different then, no. I can never believe that such a young person could be any better than us. I have spent so much on finding out what led to your situation but I have not been lucky yet."Don"t you know anyone I lived with before? I feel like I should start with such people. this may hurt but let me tell you this grandfather, I don"t feel anything for you all, its like we don"t share anything. I like the way you all care but i don"t like to stay like this. this situation is so suffocating at tims grandfather. I really want to meet someone I can relate to, I would prefer it more if you could just tell me why I ended up with you guys. that alone would solve at least seventy percent of my problems.An Kai was really serious this time round, he kept asking, pleading and saying so many thing but what he didn"t understand was the fact that all his statements pointed at one thing," he wanted to leave. he didn"t want to stay any longer with them any more." the old man looked at him silently before giving everything up.
I have kept you to myself for the past years but I have got the same exact thing, the same thing I was trying to avoid, I have been selfish but let me tell you this, I only wanted to keep you here. I don"t want you to become your grandfather nor your own mother, I want a different life for you, a different end, too.
I left your mother to go from here at a very young age because I thought I was letting her be, I wanted her to be independent to the extent where I didn"t know where to find her. it was very good to hear that she had a baby, but I never wanted the baby. all I wanted was to look at her eyes, see her smile and talk to her every night before I go to bed but guess what? all I continued to see was you growing under that big house. she was born out of your grandfathers marriage and that"s why she left home young because of your grandmother but till this day, I can still see her beautiful face, I always see her smiling when you smile but your smile has been so rare until this girl came around. I only envy two women on this earth, Ms Xia and this Cai you have seen just recently. the Great Master spoke all his worries out. he was truly envious but after he spoke Xia"s name, An kai kept all his attention to that name and according to the old man"s explanation, he was supposedly his great grandson from probably his granddaughter. but what he didn"t understand was how he ended up with him yet it"s clearly visible that he never knew them in his past life. he left him to say all he wanted with out saying anything. seeing him finish, he asked yet another string of questions.
why can"t you tell me how I ended up here? if not, just tell how you found me. at least where and how grandfather?
if only you could tell me then, things could be different by now. I"m not growing any younger...i really have no option but to leave this place, I have tried, haven"t I? I have tried everything to make you say what I wanted you to say but see this, have you ever prayed to G.o.d for people to at least backbite you so that you find something?
I wish you could let all these things go. I understand and know better so what you need is to let me trust you.
you just said how envious you feel about Cai but let me tell you something, she never forces things on me, she doesn"t make feel helpless and useless. whether its right or wrong, she would tell me both the good and bad of her actions then later, she would sweet talk you in to what she wants. but all in all, she gives you the chance to know what you need to do for her.
but I always agree, do you know why?
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because that way she would learn to do just as I have been doing, but if you continue keeping secrets from me and you think I will get better grandfather, you"re wrong!
An Kai never intended to threaten the old man by leaving the house but what else could he do? he didn"t want to stay in the situation he was in anymore. he waited enough, for all the years, he has been waiting for the old man to say something but to no veil. after leaving the old man quite all by himself., he went to the hall just opposite the huge house.
what could the old man do? nothing, except looking at An kai from above and bear all the pain by himself.