Alix Ohlin.
Babylon and Other Stories.
to my parents.
The King of Kohlrabi.
It was a summer of disasters. I was sixteen and just starting to relax fully into my vacation when my father took my mother and me out to dinner at the New Chinatown and told us over the Kung Pao chicken that he"d fallen in love with his law partner, Margaret, and the two of them were "going away for a while" to "sort things out." While he was talking, he twisted a corner of the tablecloth into a ring in his right hand. My mother, leaning back in the corner of the booth, said, "Oh, for crying out loud." She sounded annoyed. She was drinking a Mai Tai, as usual, and had given me the umbrella, also as usual. Tonight"s was blue and I twirled it between my fingers. I was always pleasantly surprised that it really opened and closed, just like a real umbrella. I stuck it into a piece of my chicken and moved some baby carrots and water chestnuts into an arrangement around it, like small, edible patio furniture. No one said anything. I stared at the couple at the table next to us, who were sharing a Volcano, holding hands over the blue flame in the center of it. They saw me looking and loosed their hands as if they were embarra.s.sed.
"You know how much I love you both," said my dad. My mother and I didn"t say anything to this. Margaret had been at our house for Christmas that year. She was a quiet, large-boned woman with a wide, dark mouth and I"d always thought she was a lesbian.
"I thought she was a lesbian," I said.
"Well, she"s not," said my dad.
I drove home from the New Chinatown. I had just gotten my driver"s license but my parents wouldn"t let me take the car anywhere without them. My mom always sat in the front pa.s.senger seat, making a big show out of white-knuckling the armrest and covering her eyes when she thought I was being reckless. My father sat in the back seat and whistled. He was a good whistler, and that night he did an up-tempo rendition of "I Get a Kick Out of You."
I looked at him in the rearview mirror and wondered if he was so happy with Margaret the lesbian that he couldn"t stop being happy, even for just a few minutes, even for us. Then a guy came out of nowhere in a red Toyota Corolla, turning in front of me off a side street with a stop sign. I don"t know what he was thinking.
"Aggie!" yelled my mother, gripping the dashboard.
"It"s not my fault," I said quickly, and braked hard, too hard I guess, and the car skidded to the left; the right front fender of our car collided with the side of the Toyota. The driver, steam pouring from under his hood, got out and started walking around the dark street, clutching his arm and howling. Next to me my mother began to cry in a dry, sharp way, jaggedly inhaling. These two noises, my mother"s and the driver"s, were the only two sounds, the night otherwise quiet. We all sat there breathing. My father whistled the first few notes of "Be Careful, It"s My Heart."
This was the second disaster.
The next day my father packed a suitcase and left for Santa Fe, where he and Margaret had sublet an apartment for the summer. She came to pick him up in her Saab and they drove away together, leaving our crumpled Honda in the driveway. I watched from the bedroom window but didn"t say good-bye. As soon as they were out of sight, my mother walked into my room without knocking and plopped herself down on the bed.
"Things are going to be different around here now that your father"s gone, Aggie," she said severely. "You"ll be giving up your pampered life of leisure."
"What?" I said. I had planned to spend the summer learning to play the ba.s.s guitar so I could start an all-girl punk band-and it was a good plan, except I didn"t own a ba.s.s guitar and had no money to buy one-but Mom said I"d have to get a job instead. I wasn"t thrilled by this idea. My two best friends were waitressing, and they kept calling, in the middle of their shifts, asking me to remind them never to do it again.
"No, seriously," said my friend Karen, calling from the pay phone at Shoney"s. "I"m going to have a bruise the size of a quarter where this guy pinched my b.u.t.t. I mean, you should see him, Aggie. His fingers are like cigars."
Lucy, my other friend, was working as a hostess at a place where she had to dress up as a pirate, with an eye patch and everything. When people from school drove by the restaurant she ducked behind the counter, whether there was a customer there or not. If anybody got upset she"d say, "Sorry! It"s that peg leg of mine acting up again."
I put off the job search for as long as possible, but it wasn"t easy. Every night, before she fixed dinner, my mother would fling the cupboard doors wide open and sigh dramatically. "I guess I can eke something out of the meager supplies I have here."
"We aren"t going to starve, Mom."
She"d shake her head. "I don"t know, Aggie. You know what I make." She was a subst.i.tute teacher. She made next to nothing during the school year and exactly nothing in summer. "I mean, who knows if we"ll ever see your father again."
"Mom, he"s an hour away. It"s not like he absconded to Mexico."
"So far as you know."
She"d send me to the grocery store with twenty dollars and tell me to get enough food for the week. While I was gone, she hung around the living room building tall houses out of the L.A. IS FOR LOVERS cards I"d brought back from our last family vacation, three or four levels high, stretching across the whole dining room table. When I got back she"d blow on the structure and say, "See? Everything just collapsed like a house of cards." This was her favorite joke.
"Mom, I feel like you"re not handling this very well."
"Well, thank you for your honesty, Aggie."
"Why don"t you get out of the house or something? See your friends?"
"Sure I will! I"ll invite everyone out for a fancy dinner! And what I"ll do is, I can use the money you"ve made in your new job."
At this point we usually declared a truce and ordered out for pizza.
One night at Smith"s I was weighing two pounds of potatoes- "It worked for the Irish," my mom had said, "and it can work for us. Just pray there"s no famine, Aggie"-when a man came up to me and said, "Excuse me, miss, what do you think of this kohlrabi?"
"I don"t work here, sorry," I said.
He shook his head quickly. He was a short man, probably around five-three or five-four, with longish gray hair and tanned, stocky arms. "I know you don"t," he said. "I"m asking you as a consumer. I need an impartial opinion. My wife wants me to bring home some kohlrabi, and it has to be perfect. If you knew her you"d know what I mean. The way she cooks it is so succulent, it"s just wonderful. She"s the Queen of the Kohlrabi. You should come by and meet her sometime. Anyway, if I don"t get the good kohlrabi I"m a dead man. So please, what do you think?"
The vegetable he was holding up looked like some kind of alien s.p.a.ceship, with four or five long stems shooting out from a little pod in the middle. At the ends of the stems were green leaves that trembled gently in his hands.
"I"ve never eaten kohlrabi," I said. I"d never seen it before, either. "So I have no basis for comparison."
"You don"t eat kohlrabi? Why? Do you have something against it? Is there something I should know?"
"Look, I"m young, I just haven"t gotten around to it yet," I said, and started edging away from the produce section.
He followed me. "I"m sorry, I"m sorry, I didn"t mean to offend you." He seemed sincere, if slightly insane. "Look, a fresh eye is good. It doesn"t matter if you"ve never eaten any. Just look at it and tell me what you think."
I picked it out of his hand and felt it briefly, cupping the pod in my palm like a baseball. The whole thing was a little strange and I glanced over at the canned-goods aisle, mapping an escape route in case it turned ugly. "Well, I"m no expert," I finally said, "but this one seems a little ... limp."
"Limp?"
"Just a little."
"Oh my G.o.d, you"re right," he said, taking the kohlrabi back and staring at it. "You are just exactly right. Thank you so much. Really, you"ll never know what you"ve done for me tonight."
"Okay," I said.
We shook hands, and I wheeled my cart away. I didn"t even know what kohlrabi tasted like or how you cooked it-this was the kind of thing I would"ve asked my dad, if he were around to ask. But he wasn"t. I finished up the shopping and was standing in the express line when the man came up behind me. I didn"t have many items in my cart, and nothing fancy. His was full of kohlrabi and gourmet cheeses.
"This is very crisp," he whispered. "I think she"s going to be happy, my wife."
"Good," I said.
"You eat very plainly," he said.
"We live in an age of austerity," I told him.
He looked surprised. "We do?"
"Well, my mother and I do," I said. She told me this all the time. I started putting the groceries on the conveyor belt. It was what my mom called peasant food, or life"s necessities. I couldn"t help staring at the decadent foods, like Pop Tarts and Ruffles, that other people had in their carts.
He nodded. I looked over at him and saw that his gray T-shirt and jeans were neatly ironed.
"I"m Mr. Dejun," he said.
"Aggie."
We shook hands and shuffled forward in line.
He unloaded his kohlrabi behind my stuff. "So what do you do with yourself when you aren"t coming to the aid of strangers in grocery stores, Aggie?"
"Well, right now, I"m supposed to be looking for a job."
"Is that right?" said Mr. Dejun. "What kind of job? Can you type?"
I didn"t see why not. "I guess so."
"I"d like to hire you, Aggie," he said. "I could use someone with your outgoing personality and discriminating eye for produce. Come see me tomorrow." He pulled a business card out of his jeans, and I put it in my pocket, then we shook on the deal.
I was at his office by nine the next morning. His company, Dejun Enterprises, Inc., was a private environmental testing firm. They tested just about everything you could think of-water, soil, air, machinery, fabrics, textiles, even once, he confided, condoms. As soon as I got there Mr. Dejun took me on a tour of the place, through all the labs where technicians in white coats hovered over long orange counters covered with Bunsen burners and petri dishes and test tubes, just like the labs at school.
"Listen, if you can think of something that needs to be tested, we"ll test it for you. That"s our att.i.tude here at Dejun Enterprises, Inc. We test things that have never been tested before, and we test "em cheaper than anybody else. Never turn a job down. Listen, Aggie, I"ve been in business for a long time, and one thing I"ve learned is that you always have to be willing to take the cus-tomer"s money. Got it?"
"Got it," I said.
He led me down hallways and into the employee lounge. I was completely disoriented, but somehow we wound up back in the reception area. There was a frowning, wrinkled woman sitting at the desk wearing a headset, apparently to leave her hands free for smoking. Her ashtray was full of cigarette b.u.t.ts. Next to the desk was a free-standing fishtank. Its water looked alarmingly gray, and I wasn"t sure whether there were fish in it or not.
"Sophia, you"re free," said Mr. Dejun. "The cavalry is here."
"Yippee," said Sophia, not moving.
"She loves me," Mr. Dejun told me.
"She"s a young one, isn"t she," said Sophia.
"Hi, I"m Aggie," I said, and shook her hand. She didn"t really shake back.
Mr. Dejun said, "Sophia is actually not the receptionist, she"s our accounts payable czaress. She is the Diva of Debts, aren"t you, darling?"
"Sure," said Sophia.
"She loves me. The point being, Aggie, that she"s just filling in because we had to, ah, part with the receptionist. But now we have you for the summer and we don"t have to hire a new receptionist until fall. Isn"t it great, Sophia?"
"Good morning, Dejun Enterprises," said Sophia. She lit a cigarette and blew the smoke at Mr. Dejun.
"What happened to the receptionist?" I said. I caught a movement out of the corner of my eye and saw some fish emerging from behind the plastic plants of the tank. They looked okay in spite of the secondhand smoke.
"She was a terrible liar. Are you a good liar?"
"Pretty good, I guess," I said.
"Only pretty good?"
"Actually, I"m an excellent liar. The "pretty good" part was a lie."
Mr. Dejun tilted back his head and laughed. His long gray hair was stiff and bristly and maintained its shape when it moved, like a cloud formation. I could see the backs of his teeth.
"You know, I"m really starting to get a kick out of you, young Aggie. Now listen. We get a lot of calls here, a lot of calls. And we can"t always take them, right? We"re only human, and there are only so many hours in a day. So sometimes we"ll come to you and say, "If so-and-so calls, I don"t want to talk to him, tell him I"m in a meeting." Now if I were to say that to you, what would you do?"
"Tell him you"re in a meeting."
"Excellent! That is exactly the right answer. You"re brilliant, Aggie. You are really terrific."
"What did the old receptionist say?"
"It turned out that she was a very devout woman who refused to lie. She"d say, "Yes, he"s here, but he doesn"t want to talk to you right now." Nothing about meetings. You"ve got to respect her integrity, but man-oh-man did we have a lot of p.i.s.sed-off people on the phone."
Sophia gave me five minutes of training and then left me on my own, carrying her big ashtray with her down the hallway. The reception area was separated from the rest of the building by almost-walls that stopped about a foot from the ceiling. I was alone. Mr. Dejun was right-the phone rang all the time. Mainly I had to find out what it was they wanted tested and transfer them to the appropriate lab. There were labs for textiles, for chemical compounds, for river water and for drinking water. Besides transferring calls, mainly what I did was lie. I hadn"t even been up there for an hour before people started coming up front to introduce themselves, saying things like, "If that jerk from San Miguel Water calls, tell him I"m out working in the field today." Everyone who worked at Dejun seemed to be ducking somebody-clients, spouses, or accountants. Reports and results and bills were always overdue. This was how I got to know most of the people who worked at Dejun, through all the lies I told on their behalf. I did it all the time, fluently and convincingly. It was kind of exhilarating. I told Lucy and Karen it was creative work.
Within days, life settled into a routine. I rarely saw Mr. Dejun, and then only when he was striding out the front door to meet a client for lunch, wearing small, beautiful gray suits. I wondered if he had to get them custom-made, since he was so short. Or maybe they were hemmed for him by the Queen of Kohlrabi. I punched a time clock and ate my lunch in the smoky employee lounge with the lab techs and accounting clerks and got paid every second Friday. I wore hose. It was like a game of real life. At five I"d head home and collapse on the couch, refusing to speak to my mother except in nods and hand gestures.
"I talk all day," I"d whisper exhaustedly, hand to my forehead. "Please, no more."
"Oh, you poor working stiff," my mother would say. "Get changed and let"s watch the game."
Lucy and Karen were working nights during the week, so Mom and I spent the evenings slumped on the couch, watching TV and drinking beer. I"d never drunk beer in front of my mom before, but it didn"t seem like a big deal. After all the stuff that had gone wrong, who could worry about a minor issue like the legal drinking age? We didn"t hear anything from my father or Margaret. Apparently they were still sorting out whatever needed to be sorted. Mom and I didn"t talk about him much. Mostly we talked about the Dodgers.
My father tried to get me to follow baseball the whole time I was growing up, and I was never interested until the summer he went away. There was something about the games that was perfect for those nights, the lazy pace of long games, the commentators" voices hushed and reverent and excited at the same time. By the middle of July I could trade statistics with the guys in the employee lounge. They treated me like some kind of child prodigy just for knowing division standings in the National League. They"d come up front just to ask me what I thought of the game.
"The whole bullpen is pathetic! We"d have won it if that guy hadn"t blown it in the bottom of the fifth. Dejun Enterprises, good morning."
Then one morning in July I woke up in so much pain I couldn"t breathe or speak. I just lay there in bed until my mother came to tell me I was late for work. She"d taken to wearing her housecoat most of the day and night, with anything she might ever need stuffed into its pockets: nail polish, a deck of cards, rubber bands, gardening tools. She was starting to look like some kind of crazy building superintendent.
"What"s the matter with you, sailor?" she said, fishing a bottle of Tylenol out of her pocket and offering it to me. "Too much fun on the town last night?"
"Guh," I said.
"Aggie, you know what? I think your whole face is swollen."
"Guh."
"Is that the only word you can say, or just some new kind of teenage slang?"
"Guh."