As soon as he was gone, I recurr"d to my two Friends; and because I would not give an unkind Preference to either, I took half what each had offered and I wanted, of one, and half of the other; paid off the Company Debts, and went on with the Business in my own Name, advertising that the Partnership was dissolved. I think this was in or about the Year 1729 [July 14, 1730].--
About this Time there was a Cry among the People for more Paper-Money, only 15,000 being extant in the Province and that soon to be sunk. The wealthy Inhabitants oppos"d any Addition, being against all Paper Currency, from an Apprehension that it would depreciate as it had done in New England to the Prejudice of all Creditors.--We had discuss"d this Point in our Junto, where I was on the Side of an Addition, being persuaded that the first small Sum struck in 1723 had done much good, by increasing the Trade[,] Employment, and Number of Inhabitants in the Province, since I now saw all the old Houses inhabited, and many new ones building, where as I remember"d well, that when I first walk"d about the Streets of Philadelphia, eating my Roll, I saw most of the Houses in Walnut Street between Second and Front Streets with Bills on their Doors, to be let; and many likewise in Chesnut Street, and other Streets; which made me then think the Inhabitants of the City were deserting it, one after another.--Our Debates possess"d me so fully of the Subject, that I wrote and printed an anonymous Pamphlet on it, ent.i.tuled, _The Nature and Necessity of a Paper Currency_. It was well receiv"d by the common People in general; but the Rich Men dislik"d it; for it increas"d and strengthen"d the Clamour for more Money; and they happening to have no Writers among them that were able to answer it, their Opposition slacken"d, and the Point was carried by a Majority in the House. My Friends there, who conceiv"d I had been of some Service, thought fit to reward me, by employing me in printing the Money, a very profitable Jobb, and a great Help to me.--This was another Advantage gain"d by my being able to write[.] The Utility of this Currency became by Time and Experience so evident, as never afterwards to be much disputed, so that it grew soon to 55,000 and in 1739 to 80,000 since which it arose during War to upwards of 350,000. Trade, Building and Inhabitants all the while increasing. Tho" I now think there are Limits beyond which the Quant.i.ty may be hurtful.--
I soon after obtain"d, thro" my Friend Hamilton, the Printing of the New Castle Paper Money, another profitable Jobb, as I then thought it; small Things appearing great to those in small Circ.u.mstances. And these to me were really great Advantages, as they were great Encouragements. He procured me also the Printing of the Laws and Votes of that Government which continu"d in my Hands as long as I follow"d the Business.--
I now open"d a little Stationer"s Shop. I had in it Blanks of all Sorts[,] the correctest that ever appear"d among us, being a.s.sisted in that by my Friend Brientnal; I had also Paper, Parchment, Chapmen"s Books, etc. One Whitema[r]sh[,] a Compositor I had known in London, an excellent Workman now came to me and work"d with me constantly and diligently, and I took an Apprentice the Son of Aquila Rose. I began now gradually to pay off the Debt I was under for the Printing-House. In order to secure my Credit and Character as a Tradesman, I took care not only to be in _Reality_ Industrious and frugal, but to avoid all _Appearances_ of the Contrary. I drest plainly; I was seen at no Places of idle Diversion; I never went out a fishing or Shooting; a Book, indeed, sometimes debauch"d me from my Work; but that was seldom, snug, and gave no Scandal: and to show that I was not above my Business, I sometimes brought home the Paper I purchas"d at the Stores, thro" the Streets on a Wheelbarrow. Thus being esteem"d an industrious thriving young Man, and paying duly for what I bought, the Merchants who imported Stationary solicited my Custom, others propos"d supplying me with Books, I went on swimmingly.--In the mean time Keimer"s Credit and Business declining daily, he was at last forc"d to sell his Printing-house to satisfy his Creditors. He went to Barbadoes, there lived some Years, in very poor Circ.u.mstances.
His Apprentice David Harry, whom I had instructed while I work"d with him, set up in his place at Philadelphia, having bought his Materials. I was at first apprehensive of a powerful Rival in Harry, as his Friends were very able, and had a good deal of Interest. I therefore propos"d a Partnership to him; which he, fortunately for me, rejected with Scorn.
He was very proud, dress"d like a Gentleman, liv"d expensively, took much Diversion and Pleasure abroad, ran in debt, and neglected his Business, upon which all Business left him; and finding nothing to do, he follow"d Keimer to Barbadoes; taking the Printing-house with him[.]
There this Apprentice employ"d his former Master as a Journeyman. They quarrel"d often, Harry went continually behindhand, and at length was forc"d to sell his Types, and return to his Country work in Pensilvania.
The Person that bought them, employ"d Keimer to use them, but in a few years he died. There remain"d now no Compet.i.tor with me at Philadelphia, but the old one, Bradford, who was rich and easy, did a little Printing now and then by straggling Hands, but was not very anxious about it.
However, as he kept the Post Office, it was imagined he had better Opportunities of obtaining News, his Paper was thought a better Distributer of Advertis.e.m.e.nts than mine, and therefore had many more, which was a profitable thing to him and a Disadvantage to me. For tho" I did indeed receive and send Papers by Post, yet the publick Opinion was otherwise; for what I did send was by Bribing the Riders who took them privately: Bradford being unkind enough to forbid it: which occasion"d some Resentment on my Part; and I thought so meanly of him for it, that when I afterwards came into his Situation, I took care never to imitate it.
I had hitherto continu"d to board with G.o.dfrey who lived in Part of my House with his Wife and Children, and had one Side of the Shop for his Glazier"s Business, tho" he work"d little, being always absorb"d in his Mathematics.--Mrs. G.o.dfrey projected a Match for me with a Relation"s Daughter, took Opportunities of bringing us often together, till a serious Courtship on my Part ensu"d, the Girl being in herself very deserving. The old Folks encourag"d me by continual Invitations to Supper, and by leaving us together, till at length it was time to explain. Mrs. G.o.dfrey manag"d our little Treaty. I let her know that I expected as much Money with their Daughter as would pay off my Remaining Debt for the Printinghouse, which I believe was not then above a Hundred Pounds. She brought me Word they had no such Sum to spare. I said they might mortgage their House in the Loan Office.--The Answer to this after some Days was, that they did not approve the Match; that on Enquiry of Bradford they had been inform"d the Printing Business was not a profitable one, the Types would soon be worn out and more wanted, that S. Keimer and D. Harry had fail"d one after the other, and I should probably soon follow them; and therefore I was forbidden the House, and the Daughter shut up.--Whether this was a real Change of Sentiment, or only Artifice, on a Supposition of our being too far engag"d in Affection to retract, and therefore that we should steal a Marriage, which would leave them at Liberty to give or with[h]old what they pleas"d, I know not: But I suspected the latter, resented it, and went no more. Mrs. G.o.dfrey brought me afterwards some more favourable Accounts of their Disposition, and would have drawn me on again: But I declared absolutely my Resolution to have nothing more to do with that Family. This was resented by the G.o.dfreys, we differ"d, and they removed, leaving me the whole House, and I resolved to take no more Inmates. But this Affair having turn"d my Thoughts to Marriage, I look"d round me, and made Overtures of Acquaintance in other Places; but soon found that the Business of a Printer being generally thought a poor one, I was not to expect Money with a Wife unless with such a one, as I should not otherwise think agreable.--In the mean time, that hard-to-be-govern"d Pa.s.sion of Youth, had hurried me frequently into Intrigues with low Women that fell in my Way, which were attended with some Expence and great Inconvenience, besides a continual Risque to my Health by a Distemper which of all Things I dreaded, tho" by great good Luck I escaped it.--
A friendly Correspondence as Neighbours and old Acquaintances, had continued between me and Mrs. Read"s Family, who all had a Regard for me from the time of my first Lodging in their House. I was often invited there and consulted in their Affairs, wherein I sometimes was of service.--I pity"d poor Miss Read"s unfortunate Situation, who was generally dejected, seldom chearful, and avoided Company. I consider"d my Giddiness and Inconstancy when in London as in a great degree the Cause of her Unhappiness; tho" the Mother was good enough to think the Fault more her own than mine, as she had prevented our Marrying before I went thither, and persuaded the other Match in my Absence. Our mutual Affection was revived, but there were now great Objections to our Union.
That Match was indeed look"d upon as invalid, a preceding Wife being said to be livin[g] in England; but this could not easily be prov"d, because of the Distance[.] And tho" there was a Report of his Death, it was not certain. The[n] tho" it should be true, he had left many Debts which his Successor might be call"d [on] to pay. We venture["d] however, over all these Difficulties, and I [took] her to Wife Sept. 1. 1730.[10]
None of the Inconveniencies happen[ed] that we had apprehended, she prov"d a good and faithful Helpmate, a.s.sisted me much by attending the Shop, we throve together, and have ever mutually endeavour"d to make each other happy. Thus I corrected that great _Erratum_ as wel[l] as I could.
About [th]is Time our Club meeting, not at a Tavern, but in a little Room of Mr. Grace"s set apart for that Purpose; a Proposition was made by me that since our Books were often referr"d to in our Disquisitions upon the Queries, it might be convenient to us to have them all together where we met, that upon Occasion they might be consulted; and by thus clubbing our Books to a common Library, we should, while we lik"d to keep them together, have each of us the Advantage of using the Books of all the other Members, which would be nearly as beneficial as if each owned the whole. It was lik"d and agreed to, and we fill"d one End of the Room with such Books as we could best spare. The Number was not so great as we expected; and tho" they had been of great Use, yet some Inconveniencies occurring for want of due Care of them, the Collection after about a Year was separated, and each took his Books home again.
And now I sent on foot my first Project of a public Nature, [th]at for a Subscription Library. [I] drew up the Proposals, got them put into Form by our great Scrivener Brockden, and by the help of my Friends in the Junto, procur"d Fifty Subscribers of 40/ each to begin with and 10/ a Year for 50 Years, the Term our Company was to continue. We afterwards obtain"d a Charter, the Company being increas"d to 100. This was the Mother of all the N American Subscription Libraries now so numerous, is become a great thing itself, and continually increasing.--These Libraries have improv"d the general Conversation of the Americans, made the common Tradesmen and Farmers as intelligent as most Gentlemen from other Countries, and perhaps have contributed in some degree to the Stand so generally made throughout the Colonies in Defence of their Privileges.--[11]
This library afforded me the means of improvement by constant study, for which I set apart an hour or two each day, and thus repair"d in some degree the loss of the learned education my father once intended for me.
Reading was the only amus.e.m.e.nt I allow"d myself. I spent no time in taverns, games, or frolicks of any kind; and my industry in my business continu"d as indefatigable as it was necessary. I was indebted for my printing-house; I had a young family coming on to be educated, and I had to contend with for business two printers, who were established in the place before me. My circ.u.mstances, however, grew daily easier. My original habits of frugality continuing, and my father having, among his instructions to me when a boy, frequently repeated a proverb of Solomon, "Seest thou a man diligent in his calling, he shall stand before kings, he shall not stand before mean men," I from thence considered industry as a means of obtaining wealth and distinction, which encourag"d me, tho" I did not think that I should ever literally _stand before kings_, which, however, has since happened; for I have stood before _five_, and even had the honour of sitting down with one, the King of Denmark, to dinner.
We have an English proverb that says, "_He that would thrive, must ask his wife_." It was lucky for me that I had one as much dispos"d to industry and frugality as myself. She a.s.sisted me chearfully in my business, folding and st.i.tching pamphlets, tending shop, purchasing old linen rags for the paper-makers, etc., etc. We kept no idle servants, our table was plain and simple, our furniture of the cheapest. For instance, my breakfast was a long time bread and milk (no tea), and I ate it out of a twopenny earthen porringer, with a pewter spoon. But mark how luxury will enter families, and make a progress, in spite of principle: being call"d one morning to breakfast, I found it in a China bowl, with a spoon of silver! They had been bought for me without my knowledge by my wife, and had cost her the enormous sum of three-and-twenty shillings, for which she had no other excuse or apology to make, but that she thought _her_ husband deserv"d a silver spoon and China bowl as well as any of his neighbors. This was the first appearance of plate and China in our house, which afterward, in a course of years, as our wealth increas"d, augmented gradually to several hundred pounds in value.
I had been religiously educated as a Presbyterian; and tho" some of the dogmas of that persuasion, such as _the eternal decrees of G.o.d_, _election_, _reprobation, etc._, appeared to me unintelligible, others doubtful, and I early absented myself from the public a.s.semblies of the sect, Sunday being my studying day, I never was without some religious principles. I never doubted, for instance, the existence of the Deity; that he made the world, and govern"d it by his Providence; that the most acceptable service of G.o.d was the doing good to man; that our souls are immortal; and that all crime will be punished, and virtue rewarded, either here or hereafter. These I esteem"d the essentials of every religion; and, being to be found in all the religions we had in our country, I respected them all, tho" with different degrees of respect, as I found them more or less mix"d with other articles, which, without any tendency to inspire, promote, or confirm morality, serv"d princ.i.p.ally to divide us, and make us unfriendly to one another. This respect to all, with an opinion that the worst had some good effects, induc"d me to avoid all discourse that might tend to lessen the good opinion another might have of his own religion; and as our province increas"d in people, and new places of worship were continually wanted, and generally erected by voluntary contribution, my mite for such purpose, whatever might be the sect, was never refused.
Tho" I seldom attended any public worship, I had still an opinion of its propriety, and of its utility when rightly conducted, and I regularly paid my annual subscription for the support of the only Presbyterian minister or meeting we had in Philadelphia. He us"d to visit me sometimes as a friend, and admonish me to attend his administrations, and I was now and then prevail"d on to do so, once for five Sundays successively. Had he been in my opinion a good preacher, perhaps I might have continued, notwithstanding the occasion I had for the Sunday"s leisure in my course of study; but his discourses were chiefly either polemic arguments, or explications of the peculiar doctrines of our sect, and were all to me very dry, uninteresting, and unedifying, since not a single moral principle was inculcated or enforc"d, their aim seeming to be rather to make us Presbyterians than good citizens.
At length he took for his text that verse of the fourth chapter of Philippians, "_Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, honest, just, pure, lovely, or of good report, if there be any virtue, or any praise, think on these things_." And I imagin"d, in a sermon on such a text, we could not miss of having some morality. But he confin"d himself to five points only, as meant by the apostle, viz.: 1. Keeping holy the Sabbath day. 2. Being diligent in reading the holy Scriptures. 3.
Attending duly the publick worship. 4. Partaking of the Sacrament. 5.
Paying a due respect to G.o.d"s ministers. These might be all good things; but, as they were not the kind of good things that I expected from that text, I despaired of ever meeting with them from any other, was disgusted, and attended his preaching no more. I had some years before compos"d a little Liturgy, or form of prayer, for my own private use (viz., in 1728), ent.i.tled _Articles of Belief and Acts of Religion_. I return"d to the use of this, and went no more to the public a.s.semblies.
My conduct might be blameable, but I leave it, without attempting further to excuse it; my present purpose being to relate facts, and not to make apologies for them.
It was about this time I conceiv"d the bold and arduous project of arriving at moral perfection. I wish"d to live without committing any fault at any time; I would conquer all that either natural inclination, custom, or company might lead me into. As I knew, or thought I knew, what was right and wrong, I did not see why I might not always do the one and avoid the other. But I soon found I had undertaken a task of more difficulty than I had imagined. While my care was employ"d in guarding against one fault, I was often surprised by another; habit took the advantage of inattention; inclination was sometimes too strong for reason. I concluded, at length, that the mere speculative conviction that it was our interest to be completely virtuous, was not sufficient to prevent our slipping; and that the contrary habits must be broken, and good ones acquired and established, before we can have any dependence on a steady, uniform rect.i.tude of conduct. For this purpose I therefore contrived the following method.
In the various enumerations of the moral virtues I had met with in my reading, I found the catalogue more or less numerous, as different writers included more or fewer ideas under the same name. Temperance, for example, was by some confined to eating and drinking, while by others it was extended to mean the moderating every other pleasure, appet.i.te, inclination, or pa.s.sion, bodily or mental, even to our avarice and ambition. I propos"d to myself, for the sake of clearness, to use rather more names, with fewer ideas annex"d to each, than a few names with more ideas; and I included under thirteen names of virtues all that at that time occurr"d to me as necessary or desirable, and annexed to each a short precept, which fully express"d the extent I gave to its meaning.
These names of virtues, with their precepts, were:
1. TEMPERANCE
Eat not to dullness; drink not to elevation.
2. SILENCE
Speak not but what may benefit others or yourself; avoid trifling conversation.
3. ORDER
Let all your things have their places; let each part of your business have its time.
4. RESOLUTION
Resolve to perform what you ought; perform without fail what you resolve.
5. FRUGALITY
Make no expense but to do good to others or yourself; _i.e._, waste nothing.
6. INDUSTRY
Lose no time; be always employ"d in something useful; cut off all unnecessary actions.
7. SINCERITY
Use no hurtful deceit; think innocently and justly, and, if you speak, speak accordingly.
8. JUSTICE
Wrong none by doing injuries, or omitting the benefits that are your duty.
9. MODERATION
Avoid extreams; forbear resenting injuries so much as you think they deserve.
10. CLEANLINESS
Tolerate no uncleanliness in body, cloaths, or habitation.
11. TRANQUILLITY
Be not disturbed at trifles, or at accidents common or unavoidable.
12. CHASt.i.tY
Rarely use venery but for health or offspring, never to dulness, weakness, or the injury of your own or another"s peace or reputation.
13. HUMILITY
Imitate Jesus and Socrates.
My intention being to acquire the _habitude_ of all these virtues, I judg"d it would be well not to distract my attention by attempting the whole at once, but to fix it on one of them at a time; and, when I should be master of that, then to proceed to another, and so on, till I should have gone thro" the thirteen; and, as the previous acquisition of some might facilitate the acquisition of certain others, I arrang"d them with that view, as they stand above. Temperance first, as it tends to procure that coolness and clearness of head, which is so necessary where constant vigilance was to be kept up, and guard maintained against the unremitting attraction of ancient habits, and the force of perpetual temptations. This being acquir"d and establish"d, Silence would be more easy; and my desire being to gain knowledge at the same time that I improv"d in virtue, and considering that in conversation it was obtain"d rather by the use of the ears than of the tongue, and therefore wishing to break a habit I was getting into of prattling, punning, and joking, which only made me acceptable to trifling company, I gave _Silence_ the second place. This and the next, _Order_, I expected would allow me more time for attending to my project and my studies. _Resolution_, once become habitual, would keep me firm in my endeavours to obtain all the subsequent virtues; _Frugality_ and Industry freeing me from my remaining debt, and producing affluence and independence, would make more easy the practice of Sincerity and Justice, etc., etc. Conceiving then, that, agreeably to the advice of Pythagoras in his _Golden Verses_, daily examination would be necessary, I contrived the following method for conducting that examination.