Now, with the sun almost gone, the sky looked wounded--as if a gigantic razor had been drawn across it, slicing deep. It bled richly. And the wind, which came down from High Mountain, cool as rain, sounded a little like children crying: a soft, unhappy kind of sound, rising and falling. Afraid, somehow, it seemed to Julia. Terribly afraid.
She quickened her step. I"m an idiot, she thought, looking away from the sky. A complete idiot.
That"s why I"m frightened now; and if anything happens--which it won"t, and can"t--then I"ll have no one to blame but myself.
She shifted the bag of groceries to her other arm and turned, slightly. There was no one in sight, except old Mr. Hannaford, pulling in his newspaper stands, preparing to close up the drug-store, and Jake Spiker, barely moving across to the Blue Haven for a gla.s.s of beer: no one else. The rippling red brick streets were silent.
But even if she got nearly all the way home, she could scream and someone would hear her.
Who would be fool enough to try anything right out in the open? Not even a lunatic. Besides, it wasn"t dark yet, not technically, anyway.
Still, as she pa.s.sed the vacant lots, all shoulder-high in wild gra.s.s, Julia could not help thinking, He might be hiding there, right now. It was possible. Hiding there, all crouched up, waiting. And he"d only have to grab her, and--she wouldn"t scream. She knew that suddenly, and the thought terrified her.
Sometimes you _can"t_ scream . . .
If only she"d not bothered to get that spool of yellow thread over at Younger"s, it would be bright daylight now, bright clear daylight. And-- Nonsense! This was the middle of the town. She was surrounded by houses full of people. People all around. Everywhere.
(_He was a hunger; a need; a force. Dark emptiness filled him. He moved, when he moved, like a leaf caught in some dark and secret river, rushing. But mostly he slept now, an animal, always ready to wake and leap and be gone_ . . .) The shadows came to life, dancing where Julia walked. Now the sky was ugly and festered, and the wind had become stronger, colder. She clicked along the sidewalk, looking straight ahead, wondering, Why, why am I so infernally stupid? What"s the matter with me?
Then she was home, and it was all over. The trip had taken not more than half an hour. And here was Maud, running. Julia felt her sister"s arms fly around her, hugging. "G.o.d, my G.o.d."
And Louise"s voice: "We were just about to call Mick to go after you."
Julia pulled free and went into the kitchen and put down the bag of groceries.
"Where in the world have you been?" Maud demanded.
"I had to get something at Younger"s." Julia took off her coat. "They had to go look for it, and--I didn"t keep track of the time."
Maud shook her head. "Well, I don"t know," she said wearily. "You"re just lucky you"re alive, that"s all."
"Now--"
"You listen! He"s out there somewhere. Don"t you understand that? It"s a fact. They haven"t even come close to catching him yet."
"They will," Julia said, not knowing why: she wasn"t entirely convinced of it.
"Of course they will. Meantime, how many more is he going to murder? Can you answer me that?"
"I"m going to put my coat away." Julia brushed past her sister. Then she turned and said, "I"m sorry you were worried. It won"t happen again." She went to the closet, feeling strangely upset. They would talk about it tonight. All night. a.n.a.lyzing, hinting, questioning. They would talk of nothing else, as from the very first. And they would not be able to conceal their delight.
"Wasn"t it awful about poor Eva Schillings?"
No, Julia had thought: from her sister"s point of view it was not awful at all. It was wonderful. It was priceless.
It was news.
Julia"s sisters . . . Sometimes she thought of them as mice. Giant gray mice, in high white collars: groaning a little, panting a little, working about the house. Endlessly, untiringly: they would squint at pictures, knock them crooked, then straighten them again; they swept invisible dust from clean carpets and took the invisible dust outside in shining pans and dumped it carefully into spotless applebaskets; they stood by beds whose sheets shone gleaming white and tight, and clucked in soft disgust, and replaced the sheets with others. All day, every day, from six in the morning until most definite dusk. Never questioning, never doubting that the work had to be done.
They ran like arteries through the old house, keeping it alive. For it had become now a part of them, and they a part of it--like the handcrank mahogany Victrola in the hail, or the lion-pelted sofa, or the Boutelle piano (ten years silent, its keys yellowed and decayed and ferocious, like the teeth of an aged mule).
Nights, they spoke of sin. Also of other times and better days: Maud and Louise-- sitting there in the bellying heat of the obsolete but steadfast stove, hooking rugs, crocheting doilies, sewing linen, chatting, chatting.
Occasionally Julia listened, because she was there and there was nothing else to do; but mostly she didn"t. It had become a simple thing to rock and nod and think of nothing at all, while _they_ traded dreams and dead husbands, constantly relishing their mutual widowhood--relishing it!--pitching these fragile ghosts into moral combat. "Ernie, G.o.d rest him, was an honorable man." (So were they all, Julia would think, all honorable men; but we are here to praise Caesar, not to bury him ...)"Jack would be alive today if it hadn"t been for the trunk lid slamming down on his head: that"s what started it all." Poor Ernie! Poor Jack!
(_He walked along the railroad tracks, blending with the night. He could have been young, or old: an age-hiding beard dirtied his face and throat. He wore a blue sweater, ripped in a dozen places.
On the front of the sweater was sewn a large felt letter: E. Also sewn there was a small design showing a football and calipers. His gray trousers were dark with a stain where he had fouled them. He walkedalong the tracks, seeing and not seeing the pulse of light far ahead; thinking and not thinking, Perhaps I"ll find it there, Perhaps they won"t catch me, Perhaps I won"t be hungry any more_ . . .) "You forgot the margarine," Louise said, holding the large sack upside down.
"Did I? I"m sorry." Julia took her place at the table. The food immediately began to make her ill: the sight of it, the smell of it. Great bowls of beans, crisp-skinned chunks of turkey, mashed potatoes.
She put some on her plate, and watched her sisters. They ate earnestly; and now, for no reason, this, too, was upsetting.
She looked away. What was it? What was wrong?
"Mick says that fellow didn"t die," Maud announced. "Julia--"
"What fellow?"
"At the asylum, that got choked. He"s going to be all right."
"That"s good."
Louise broke a square of toast. She addressed Maud: "What else did he say, when you talked to him? Are they making any progress?"
"Some. I understand there"s a bunch of police coming down from Seattle. If they don"t get him in a few days, they"ll bring in some bloodhounds from out-of-state. Of course, you can imagine how much Mick likes _that!_"
"Well, it"s his own fault. If he was any kind of a sheriff, he"d of caught that fellow a long time before this. I mean, after all, Burlington just isn"t that big." Louise dismembered a turkey leg, ripped little shreds of the meat off, put them into her mouth.
Maud shook her head. "I don"t know. Mick claims it isn"t like catching an ordinary criminal. With this one, you never can guess what he"s going to do, or where he"ll be. n.o.body has figured out how he stays alive, for instance.
"Probably," Louise said, "he eats bugs and things."
Julia folded her napkin quickly and pressed it onto the table.
Maud said, "No. Most likely he finds stray dogs and cats."
They finished the meal in silence. Not, Julia knew, because there was any lull in thought: merely so the rest could be savored in the living room, next to the fire. A proper place for everything.
They moved out of the kitchen. Louise insisted on doing the dishes, while Maud settled at the radio and tried to find a local news broadcast. Finally she snapped the radio off, angrily. "You"d think they"d at least keep us informed! Isn"t that the least they could do?"
Louise materialized in her favorite chair. The kitchen was dark. The stove warmed noisily, its metal sides undulating.
And it was time.
"Where do you suppose he is right now?" Maud asked.
Louise shrugged. "Out there somewhere. If they"d got him, Mick would of called us. He"s out there somewhere."
"Yes. Laughing at all of us, too, I"ll wager. Trying to figure out who"ll be next."
Julia sat in the rocker and tried not to listen. Outside, there was a wind. A cold wind, biting; the kind that slips right through window putty, that you can feel on the gla.s.s. Was there ever such a cold wind? she wondered.
Then Louise"s words started to echo. "He"s out there somewhere . . ."
Julia looked away from the window, and attempted to take an interest in the lacework in her lap.
Louise was talking. Her fingers flashed long silver needles. ". - . spoke to Mrs. Schillings today."
"I don"t want to hear about it." Maud"s eyes flashed like the needles.
"G.o.d love her heart, she"s about crazy. Could barely talk."
"G.o.d, G.o.d."
"I tried to comfort her, of course, but it didn"t do any good."
Julia was glad she had been spared that conversation. It sent a shudder across her, even to think about it. Mrs. Schillings was Eva"s mother, and Eva--only seventeen The thoughts she vowed not to think, came back. She remembered Mick"s description of thebody, and his words: ". . . she"d got through with work over at the telephone office around nine. Carl Jasperson offered to see her home, but he says she said not to bother, it was only a few blocks. Our boy must have been hiding around the other side of the cannery. Just as Eva pa.s.sed, he jumped. Raped her and then strangled her. I figure he"s a pretty man-sized b.u.g.g.e.r. Thumbs like to went clean through the throat . . ."
In two weeks, three women had died. First, Charlotte Adams, the librarian. She had been taking her usual shortcut across the school playground, about 9:15 P.M. They found her by the slide, her clothes ripped from her body, her throat raw and bruised.
Julia tried very hard not to think of it, but when her mind would clear, there were her sisters"
voices, droning, pulling her back, deeper.
She remembered how the town had reacted. It was the first murder Burlington had had in fifteen years. It was the very first mystery. Who was the s.e.x-crazed killer? Who could have done this terrible thing to Charlotte Adams? One of her gentleman friends, perhaps. Or a hobo, from one of the nearby jungles. Or . . .
Mick Daniels and his tiny force of deputies had swung into action immediately. Everyone in town took up the topic, chewed it, talked it, chewed it, until it lost its shape completely. The air became electrically charged. And a grim gaiety swept Burlington, reminding Julia of a circus where everyone is forbidden to smile.
Days pa.s.sed, uneventfully. Vagrants were pulled in and released. People were questioned. A few were booked, temporarily.
Then, when the hum of it had begun to die, it happened again. Mrs. Dovie Samuelson, member of the local P.T.A., mother of two, moderately attractive and moderately young, was found in her garden, sprawled across a rhododendron bush, dead. She was naked, and it was established that she had been attacked. Of the killer, once again, there was no trace.
Then the State Hospital for the Criminally Insane released the information that one of its inmates--a Robert Oakes--had escaped. Mick, and many others, had known this all along. Oakes had originally been placed in the asylum on a charge of raping and murdering his cousin, a girl named Patsy Blair.
After he had broken into his former home and stolen some old school clothes, he had disappeared, totally.
Now he was loose.
Burlington, population 3,000, went into a state of ecstasy: delicious fear gripped the town. The men foraged out at night with torches and weapons; the women squeaked and looked under their beds and . . . chatted.
But still no progress was made. The maniac eluded hundreds of searchers. They knew he was near, perhaps at times only a few feet away, hidden; but always they returned home, defeated.
They looked in the forests and in the fields and along the river banks. They covered High Mountain--a miniature hill at the south end of town--like ants, poking at every clump of brush, investigating every abandoned tunnel and water tank. They broke into deserted houses, searched barns, silos, haystacks, treetops. They looked everywhere, everywhere. And found nothing.
When they decided for sure that their killer had gone far away, that he couldn"t conceivably be within fifty miles of Burlington, a third crime was committed. Young Eva Schillings" body had been found, less than a hundred yards from her home.
And that was three days ago .
". . . they get him." Louise was saying, "they ought to kill him by little pieces, for what he"s done."
Maud nodded. "Yes; but they won"t."
"Of course they--"
"No! You wait. They"ll shake his hand and lead him back to the bughouse and wait on him hand and foot--till he gets a notion to bust out again."
"Well, I"m of a mind the people will have something to say about that."
"Anyway," Maud continued, never lifting her eyes from her knitting, "what makes you so surethey _will_ catch him? Supposing he just drops out of sight for six months, and--"
"You stop that! They"ll get him. Even if he _is_ a maniac, he"s still human."
"I really doubt that. I doubt that a human could have done these awful things." Maud sniffed.
Suddenly, like small rivers, tears began to course down her s...o...b..und cheeks, cutting and melting the hard white-packed powder, revealing flesh underneath even paler. Her hair was shot with gray, and her dress was the color of rocks and moths; yet, she did not succeed in looking either old or frail. There was nothing whatever frail about Maud.
"He"s a man," she said. Her lips seemed to curl at the word. Louise nodded, and they were quiet.
(_His ragged tennis shoes padded softly on the gravel bed. Now his heart was trying to tear loose from his chest. The men, the men.. . They had almost stepped on him, they were that close. But he had been silent. They had gone past him, and away. He could see their flares back in the distance. And far ahead, the pulsing light. Also a square building: the depot, yes. He must be careful. He must walk in the shadows. He must be very still_. _The fury burned him, and he fought it_.
_Soon_.
_It would be all right, soon_ . . .) ". . . think about it, this here maniac is only doing what every man would _like_ to do but can"t."
"Maud!"
"I mean it. It"s a man"s natural instinct--it"s all they ever think about." Maud smiled. She looked up. "Julia, you"re feeling sick. Don"t tell me you"re not."
"I"m all right," Julia said, tightening her grip on the chairarms slightly. She thought, they"ve been married! They talk this way about men, as they always have, and yet soft words have been spoken to them, and strong arms placed around their shoulders . . .
Maud made tiny circles with her fingers. "Well, I can"t force you to take care of yourself. Except, when you land in the hospital again, I suppose you know who"ll be doing the worrying and staying up nights--as per usual."
"I"ll. . . go on to bed in a minute." But, why was she hesitating? Didn"t she want to be alone?
Why didn"t she want to be alone?
Louise was testing the door. She rattled the k.n.o.b vigorously, and returned to her chair.
"What would he want, anyway," Maud said, "with two old biddies like us?"
"We"re not so old," Louise said, saying, actually: "That"s true; we"re old." But it wasn"t true, not at all. Looking at them, studying them, it suddenly occurred to Julia that her sisters were ashamed of their essential attractiveness. Beneath the "twenties hair-dos, the ill-used cosmetics, the ancient dresses (which did not quite succeed in concealing their still voluptuous physiques), Maud and Louise were youthfully full and pretty. They were. Not even the birch-twig toothbrushes and traditional snuff could hide it.
Yet, Julia thought, they envy me.
They envy my plainness.
"What kind of man would do such heinous things? Louise said, p.r.o.nouncing the word, carefully, heen-ious.