Cleo The Magnificent.
by Louis Zangwill.
CHAPTER I.
It was past midnight, and both men were smoking leisurely by the study fireside. Morgan Druce sat just on the edge of a low chair, his long, slim body bent forward, his clean-shaven boyish face well within the glow of the fire. Though he appeared to be looking at it, he was only conscious of its warmth.
Robert Ingram, middle-aged and bearded, lolled back in sensuous comfort. "The long and the short of it is," he resumed, "you"ve a soul-crisis on just at present. Crises are bad for the digestion, and I took care to grow out of them long ago."
"Our temperaments are very different," said Morgan.
"That"s what makes your case so difficult to meet," returned Ingram.
"It"s your infernal temperament. One never knows how to take it. In fact, you"re the sort of person in whose existence I never really believed; for though, as you know, I once had ideals and a literary conscience, I was always aware they would go as soon as I had a market for everything I could manufacture. You are the genuine incorruptible artist, to whom art is sacred. I really don"t know whether to be doubtful of my cynicism or your sanity."
"That my case _is_ a pretty bad one I"ve already admitted," put in Morgan.
"Now, if you were only some poor devil who was alone in the world,"
went on Ingram without heeding his remark, "I could take you in hand and make something of you, for you"ve quite brains enough. Poor devils are generally more reasonable in their views than you, even when they"re geniuses. You simply keep on wearing out your heart day after day. Why? For fame? What is it worth? Well, I won"t answer the question--I deal quite enough in plat.i.tudes."
"You don"t understand, Ingram. What do you really know of me?"
"Well, if I don"t know you by this time, you must be an uncommonly deep person--or perhaps I am an uncommonly shallow one."
Morgan Druce did not answer. His last remark had been more of a reflection than an interrogation. What did Ingram really know of him, he asked himself again, despite the five years of the indefinable relation between them? Admitting that the man beneath the cynic was kindly and sympathetic, yet he could not but be aware that Ingram"s treason to the aspirations of his youth had destroyed the finer edge of feeling. His vision did not respond to subtler vibrations; his judgment was broad and coa.r.s.e.
Such was Morgan"s intuition about Robert Ingram. He believed the man to be sincere with him and he trusted him. And yet, as he looked up now and saw Ingram, relapsed into his luxurious arm chair, blowing rings of smoke, he seemed to detect something in his expression that filled him with a vague distrust about the genuineness of his professed interest in him. There was a sort of swagger in his whole posture, a slickness about his well-dressed, well-fed body, and a self-satisfaction in his somewhat burly face, nay, even in the manner his fat fingers held his fat cigar, that set Morgan wondering for the first time whether Ingram"s att.i.tude to literature did not in truth sum up the whole man; whether that popular novelist and dramatist could really have a place in his heart for anything that was of unimportance to his own personal existence--for a poor devil of a poetaster, for instance.
It was one of those sudden doubts that are created by a chance glimpse from an accidental new point of view; and Morgan thrust it from him as absurd and unjust. It could have no foundation, else why had Ingram responded to his appeal at the beginning? Why had he tolerated his calls all these years? Why were they talking together in that room now?
He had often been puzzled about this relation between them, though, as with his friendship with Lady Thiselton, its very strangeness and originality pleased him. His relation to that charming woman was, he felt, both indefinable and incredible; and his relation to the man beside him, though less odd, could be included neither in the category of acquaintanceship nor in that of friendship. Morgan was ignorant of Ingram"s personal life, even as Ingram was ignorant of such a large fact in his own as Lady Thiselton. Their coming together had been always on the ground of their one common interest; otherwise there was the most absolute mutual exclusiveness between their existences.
True that Morgan"s periodical appearance at this Albert Gate flat, of which Ingram had made for himself a luxurious bachelor"s home, had eventually resulted in a certain frankness of speech and familiarity of manner between them. But here their intercourse began and ended.
Perhaps Morgan had all along seen the position a little bit out of perspective; the very freedom with which Ingram had come to unmask himself before him and the intimacy with which they addressed each other had perhaps misled him. The cheery breeziness of Ingram had attracted him a good deal from the first, and he had liked the man for the ready good nature he had displayed towards him. And altogether it had been easy for him to think that he had done more than just rub up against the surface of Ingram"s life, the depth and fullness of which he had scarcely realised.
At the beginning he had looked upon his being allowed to come and see the older man now and again as a privilege. It had never struck him to look at these visits of his from the other"s point of view. It was precisely this point of view that now forced itself upon him as he struggled with the suspicion that had come to him. Had Ingram looked upon him merely as somebody who deserved to be good-humouredly tolerated? And was his openness only due to the consciousness of his (Morgan"s) being an outsider, into whose ears he had got into the habit of speaking thoughts he would have told to no other living person, pretty much as he might have written them in a diary? Such a habit was easy to acquire with regard to an outsider whom one came into contact with periodically, and with whom one had a long talk each time.
He was not pleased, however, that such a train of thought should have come to him, and, urged by something akin to remorse, his mind went travelling back over the past five years in search of arguments in favour of Ingram.
There was a long interval during which both smoked in silence.
"Do you remember," asked Morgan, at length, "the circ.u.mstances under which we first became acquainted?"
"Perfectly," responded Ingram. "You wrote me a long letter, a rather pathetic one. That was the first intimation I had of your existence."
"Did you destroy that letter?"
"I never destroy letters--compromising ones, of course, always excepted."
"Then I may a.s.sume it still exists. Would it give you very much trouble to find it now?"
"I pride myself upon my system," answered Ingram.
"Please put it to the test, then."
"Your system is excellent," admitted Morgan, as at the end of about five minutes Ingram held up the sheets in triumph. "Now I wonder if you"d read it to me. I want to hear how it sounds."
"Certainly, you amusing beggar," said Ingram. "You wrote it during your last crisis and you want to compare your feelings then with now."
"I forget what I wrote," said Morgan, with an attempt at gaiety. "It must be very dramatic, so please put the proper expression into it, just as if it were a pa.s.sage in one of your plays."
"Dear Mr. Ingram," read out that gentleman. "For nearly six years I have been trying to live by writing verse--ever since I was seventeen.
Six years of pa.s.sionate hope and longing, failure and failure, all years of wandering in the desert, of groping in the dark. I know no one--no one to criticise me--no one to encourage, to blame, or to praise; only the voice of purpose in my breast. Amid loneliness this pa.s.sion for fruitless labour has grown strong, frenzied, blind.
Perhaps one day I shall penetrate--if I live. But for life one must have food; for work one must have shelter. At twenty-three one does not want to die; not when one has lived always in the future, when one has striven and toiled for recognition that may yet come. Not mere recognition of genius or talent, of knack or gift, but recognition of Truth as opposed to Imposture, of my right to life, of my right to give free and full expression of the individuality that is mine.
"As matters are now--I am utterly friendless so far as my inner life is concerned--I can see no other end than fall. G.o.d knows what shape that fall is destined to take; into what mire my soul must plunge in the fight for life. I could bear anything if I were not so utterly alone and helpless. I would do hack-work if I but knew Grub Street. I would sell my soul to a publisher for fifty pounds a year. Anything to get my foot on the lowest rung of the ladder! Anything to help me on the way to freedom!
"If you could see me, speak to me, help me in any way! Believe me, I do not wish to force my personality on you. I do not want you to give me any material thing. I only beg of you to aid me in a.s.serting my claim on life by telling how I may win bread.
"I should be deeply grateful for a word from you. In any case, pardon this intrusion. Yours, etc., Morgan Druce."
Ingram drew a long breath and threw the sheets on to the table.
"Have I read it nicely?" he asked.
"And I wrote that--to you, Robert Ingram!" exclaimed Morgan, brokenly.
"You did," said Ingram, quietly. "And you know what the sequel was."
"You were moved by my appeal. You came to seek me out."
"Well, your letter interested me. It was not the letter of a duffer or a swindler--the sort of thing you can tell by its ornate pompousness; and it just caught me when I was somewhat bored by things, so that I rather welcomed it as an excitement. I expected to find you lodging in some miserable cottage--a Chatterton in a garret. I came to bring food to the hungry. Instead----"
"You found me living in a palace standing in a fine park, with no lack of loaves and fishes, of milk and honey."
"It was the greatest surprise of my life. When I could no longer doubt that the only people called Druce in the neighbourhood lived in the magnificent Elizabethan mansion, whose name was that of the supposed cottage from which you addressed your letter, I began to think the family kept a skeleton in one of the cupboards. In plain language----"
"You thought one of the members of the family must be a lunatic."
"Anyway, the champagne was first-cla.s.s, the cigars were worth half-a-crown apiece," said Ingram, laughing.
"And when you had gone into the matter you thought that if I wasn"t quite a lunatic, I was not far short of one for disagreeing with my father."
"Frankly, I did."
"You never really sympathised."