"Ten years!" she echoed mockingly. "Why there"ll be any number of olive-branches by then. Yours, of course, I mean."
"Diana! You are a very wicked girl."
"Well, I"m fourteen. That"s quite old enough to be wicked, isn"t it?
Good-night, Morgan." And she suddenly sped ahead, and before he could recover from his astonishment she had become a shadow amid the darkness.
He strode after her, though he had not the least anxiety for her, as they were not yet a mile distant from the cottage. From the speed with which she kept ahead of him, it was clear she was determined to elude him; seeing which he contented himself with keeping within range of her.
When, eventually, he turned towards Dover again, it was with a feeling of half-sorrow that he should have happened to take that walk.
Strong and firm as he was, he was not strong enough to endure such ordeals. He had winced most whilst Diana had been speaking to him. And then the figure of Cleo came up again. Cleo, to whom he was married!
In the depression that now came upon him, a friendship with Margaret, even years hence, seemed an impossibility to him. She might remain with him as an ideal figure, but the real living Margaret was too dazzling for him to look upon.
CHAPTER V.
Morgan did not venture again to take any walks to the east of the town, though he dwelt with pain on the possibility of the Medhursts hoping to fall in with him again. He could only trust that they would understand, though from their point of view there might perhaps seem no reason why he should avoid them so utterly. Had not the last encounter been a success, they might argue, and had he not been perfectly cheerful and, to all appearance, happy in their company?
Once or twice he thought of writing to Mrs. Medhurst, but he could not get down a word, and the pen dropped from his hand.
He felt the effects for several days, a vision of that lamp-lit room continuing to obtrude between him and his work, and the stream of music still flowing from Margaret"s fingers. His proofs were dirty and needed much correction; and he even found himself setting up his thoughts in type, instead of following his copy.
However, he toiled on, almost with desperation, and Mr. Kettering"s respect for him and his abilities advanced greatly. He and Mark had never ceased to call him "sir"; and Morgan, on his part, could never cease wondering how such sterling character could exist side by side in the same family with the general instability that characterised the women. As for Alice and Mary, he had been so long now in the house that an occasional quarrel with them signified nothing; in fact, that was part of the routine of the life.
About the end of the year he got his first chance in life. Mr.
Kettering had been very proud, indeed, of employing him, especially as he had proved so apt a learner, and the experiment had entirely been crowned with success. The old man had enlarged on Morgan"s superior culture to the traveller of a great London paper firm--himself a man of some education--who had for many years been going abroad regularly on the business of his firm, and who as regularly looked in for Kettering"s order. This Mr. Brett thus came to make Morgan"s acquaintance, discovered he knew Greek and Latin, and divined some mystery was at the back of Morgan"s present position.
The direct result of this acquaintance was that, on the first day of the next year, Morgan found himself installed as "reader" in a large firm of printers in Upper Thames street, London, in which a brother of Mr. Brett was the junior partner. He had thoroughly mastered the business of proof-reading under Kettering"s tuition, and his Greek and Latin and general culture had done the rest for him, for there was now scope for all of it in his new position. His salary at starting was two pounds fifteen shillings per week, the same as that of his predecessor, who had left the firm voluntarily.
But even before leaving Dover he had had the satisfaction of being able to send Helen a few pounds to pay some of the workmen, and she had been able to make a satisfactory report to him. While she had been in Scotland a couple of letters had pa.s.sed between them which sufficed for all they had to say to each other; and to his father as well he had reported progress from time to time. Simon and Mark Kettering both exhibited signs of emotion when the moment for parting came, and, though they were sorry to lose him, rejoiced with him at his promotion.
"And I can only hope," were Simon"s last words, "that my daughter will never turn up to worry you, and that, even if you forget her, you"ll sometimes think of us folk here at Dover. And, be sure, if you ever find yourself in the town again, there"s a hearty welcome waiting for you at my house."
In London, Morgan took a large, airy garret in Southwark, to get from which to his work he had only to cross the bridge, and fitted it with a narrow folding-bed and the few things he needed. He made his own breakfast, had his dinner sent into the works at one o"clock from a neighboring coffee-shop, had tea made for him by one of the girl folders, and supped at home on bread and cheese. In this way he managed to live and to dress neatly--patronising a very different sort of tailor from his old London one--on a pound a week. Every penny of the rest he put by rigorously.
About this time he learnt that his father could not come to town yet, as the winter was a severe one, and he had had a touch of rheumatism.
As Morgan had come to look forward to seeing him now, this was a disappointment. Moreover, he had grown to take a keener interest now in the affairs of the home. At one time it had occupied little part of his thoughts, but now a finer sensibility to his domestic ties seemed to have arisen in him. He was very much concerned about this illness of his father"s, the full extent of which, he had an idea, had been concealed from him. Helen, too, he saw but once during his first month in London, on which occasion he donned his best garments and went to take tea with her. Though their friendship had been so long pa.s.sive, it was not less intense than heretofore. By some mutual instinct they seemed to avoid discussing his personal concerns now, Helen receiving him just as an old friend and as if there had been nothing in their lives to make a special link between them. She seemed to have grown somewhat graver in expression, and he was not sure that he did not like her face better like that. She amused and cheered him, and, once they had come together again, she insisted there was no reason now why he should not come oftener. And so, on a rare Sat.u.r.day afternoon, when he was free, he would come in for an hour and listen to her pleasant chatting. Only when he brought her money would she permit herself any reference to his progress in life.
Of Cleo he heard nothing. She had not made another appearance on the boards, or, if she had, it had been in some obscure way. She intruded into his thoughts often enough, and was still a reality to him when he specially dwelt on her. But he was quite startled one day at suddenly realising the rapidity with which she was becoming a far-off shadow.
There were moments now when he could almost believe that the whole episode of his marriage had been the veriest product of his fancy.
Frequently in the evenings and on rest days he would employ his leisure wandering amid the regions in which his lot was now cast. For the first time now he felt the mammoth city as a reality; for the first time he seemed to comprehend it--what it was and what it represented. In the days when he had trodden these same pavements with Helen its aspect had been merely panoramic. Now he himself was of it, a living and breathing unit of the mult.i.tude of toilers that peopled these vast industrial quarters. His vision pierced the swarming surface, the great grimy thoroughfares with their tramlines, their miles of sordid shops, their windowed expanse of brick, dingy and far-stretching, their serried lines of narrow houses.
And then he would feel that a great sense of the spirit of human life was pa.s.sing into his blood. Leaping flashes of light came to him at times, as he sat in his garret with the fused murmur of the world surging in his ears, illumining for him abysses that had appeared to him once dark and bottomless.
CHAPTER VI.
It was early in March before Archibald Druce was well enough to come to town. Morgan"s working day ended at seven o"clock, and at that hour Archibald called at the printing establishment, and the two went off together.
Morgan was excited, and he could see his father was. Neither had any "news," since, in their exchange of letters, everything had already been told. Still, they talked a little about the home, and then there were further details of Archibald"s illness. Both perhaps felt the meeting was a trifle cold, but they knew the constraint would melt away presently.
"I haven"t yet thought how we"re going to spend the evening," said the old man. "We must dine together somewhere. After that we might perhaps look in at a theatre; it won"t matter if we are late."
Morgan, who had no alternative suggestion to offer, readily fell in with this one, remarking that the dinner for him would be a rather magnificent kind of supper.
They eventually settled on a restaurant and ordered their repast.
Then, somehow, as they sat facing each other, their tongue-strings seemed to get loosened.
It was a long time since they had last met, and Archibald, who had been full of his book then, now confessed he had put it aside for the present. For several months past his mind had not been in sufficiently fresh condition to enable him to work on it. Morgan remembered now how he had suggested a t.i.tle for it half in scorn, and even such small remembrance was painful to him. He felt he had had something very like contempt for his father"s literary scheme, forgetting, in the self-castigation of the moment, that at the time it had merely struck him humourously, and that his sin had not been quite so heinous as it now appeared to him. If the element of humour now coloured his vision of things but very slightly, that was only natural to his present stage of development.
They lingered over their coffee, not rising till about half-past eight.
"Suppose you just come and sit with me in my room, father," said Morgan. "If we have to decide on a theatre now, I am afraid we shall be quarrelling the rest of the evening. Besides, I do not want to acquire the habits of a young man about town. We can have a quiet talk for the rest of the evening."
"Yes, I should like to see your place," said his father. "It will enable me to judge of your powers of graphic description."
He was beginning to be more cheerful already and to show it. He took Morgan"s arm affectionately, and they went back to Upper Thames street and crossed Southwark Bridge.
"I hope the woman hasn"t forgotten to lay the fire," said Morgan, as he turned the key.
A moment later he had lighted the cheap lamp and the room stood revealed in all its bareness. A small table, three wooden chairs, the little bed, a trunk in the corner, and a washstand, were insufficient to make it look furnished, garret as it was.
"I recognise the place," said Archibald, depositing his things on the trunk. "It"s quite large and airy. You are lucky to have only the front walls sloping. But the window gives you a back view, so perhaps I ought to have said "back walls.""
Morgan lighted the fire, and the two sat down before it.
"What have you in that cupboard just by you?" asked Archibald. "I feel inquisitive. I must get up and poke about.... Coals and crockery," he enumerated with slow unction, "a saucepan, a coffee-pot, a tea-pot, a broom, and some exceedingly dirty dusters. My dear Morgan, what a wonderfully compact place you have here; it"s a miracle of completeness."
"I"ve given up coffee at night, but I make excellent cocoa. You shall have some before you go."
"Capital!" said the old fellow. "I"m enjoying myself immensely. This is quite a picnic."
"I am quite comfortable here," said Morgan, half to himself.
"There"s only one suggestion I have to make," said his progenitor, "and that is you ought to have just a strip of carpet under your feet, or a small rug would do just as well. Last year at home, now, I had the carpet taken out of the drawing-room, in favour of a polished floor, but, Lord bless you, I found myself doing nothing else but sneezing, in spite of the odd rugs, for in a drawing-room you don"t just happen to think where you"re standing. But here when you just sit down at your table or by your fire it would be so easy to take care you"ve got the thing underfoot. I must send you a rug to-morrow--you know I owe you a birthday present."
"Birthday present! I had forgotten there were such things in the world. Thank you for reminding me, father. Such gifts, when they are sincere, add sweetness to life. And it will be nice to have something of yours here."
The fire blazed up cheerfully. They sat a little while in silence.
"When do you calculate you will get those debts paid off?" asked Archibald at length.