"Yes," said Bob. She was making it terribly hard for him, sparing indeed neither herself nor him.
"If you come here to see me, it will cause a quarrel between you and your father. I--I cannot do that."
"There is nothing wrong in my seeing you," said Bob, stoutly; "if he cares to quarrel with me for that, I cannot help it. If the people I choose for my friends are good people, he has no right to an objection, even though he is my father."
Cynthia had never come so near real admiration for him as at that moment.
"No, Bob, you must not come," she said. "I will not have you quarrel with him on my account."
"Then I will quarrel with him on my own account," he had answered.
"Good-by. You may expect me this day week."
He went into the hall to put on his overcoat. Cynthia stood still on the spot of the carpet where he had left her. He put his head in at the door.
"This day week," he said.
"Bob, you must not come," she answered. But the street door closed after him as he spoke.
CHAPTER IX
"You must not come." Had Cynthia made the prohibition strong enough?
Ought she not to have said, "If you do come, I will not see you?" Her knowledge of the motives of the men and women in the greater world was largely confined to that which she had gathered from novels--not trashy novels, but those by standard authors of English life. And many another girl of nineteen has taken a novel for a guide when she has been suddenly confronted with the first great problem outside of her experience. Somebody has declared that there are only seven plots in the world. There are many parallels in English literature to Cynthia"s position,--so far as she was able to define that position,--the wealthy young peer, the parson"s or physician"s daughter, and the worldly, inexorable parents who had other plans.
Cynthia was, of course, foolish. She would not look ahead, yet there was the mirage in the sky when she allowed herself to dream. It can truthfully be said that she was not in love with Bob Worthington. She felt, rather than knew, that if love came to her the feeling she had for Jethro Ba.s.s--strong though that was--would be as nothing to it. The girl felt the intensity of her nature, and shrank from it when her thoughts ran that way, for it frightened her.
"Mrs. Merrill" she said, a few days later, when she found herself alone with that lady, "you once told me you would have no objection if a friend came to see me here."
"None whatever, my dear," answered Mrs. Merrill. "I have asked you to have your friends here."
Mrs. Merrill knew that a young man had called on Cynthia. The girls had discussed the event excitedly, had teased Cynthia about it; they had discovered, moreover, that the young man had not been a tiller of the soil or a clerk in a country store. Ellen, with the enthusiasm of her race, had painted him in glowing colors--but she had neglected to read the name on his card.
"Bob Worthington came to see me last week, and he wants to come again.
He lives in Brampton," Cynthia explained, "and is at Harvard College."
Mrs. Merrill was decidedly surprised. She went on with her sewing, however, and did not betray the fact. She knew of Dudley Worthington as one of the richest and most important men in his state; she had heard her husband speak of him often; but she had never meddled with politics and railroad affairs.
"By all means let him come, Cynthia," she replied.
When Mr. Merrill got home that evening she spoke of the matter to him.
"Cynthia is a strange character," she said. "Sometimes I can"t understand her--she seems so much older than our girls, Stephen. Think of her keeping this to herself for four days!"
Mr. Merrill laughed, but he went off to a little writing room he had and sat for a long time looking into the glowing coals. Then he laughed again. Mr. Merrill was a philosopher. After all, he could not forbid Dudley Worthington"s son coming to his house, nor did he wish to.
That same evening Cynthia wrote a letter and posted it. She found it a very difficult letter to write, and almost as difficult to drop into the mail-box. She reflected that the holidays were close at hand, and then he would go to Brampton and forget, even as he had forgotten before. And she determined when Wednesday afternoon came around that she would take a long walk in the direction of Brookline. Cynthia loved these walks, for she sadly missed the country air,--and they had kept the color in her cheeks and the courage in her heart that winter. She had amazed the Merrill girls by the distances she covered, and on more than one occasion she had trudged many miles to a spot from which there was a view of Blue Hills. They reminded her faintly of Coniston.
Who can speak or write with any certainty of the feminine character, or declare what unexpected twists perversity and curiosity may give to it?
Wednesday afternoon came, and Cynthia did not go to Brookline. She put on her coat, and took it off again. Would he dare to come in the face of the mandate he had received? If he did come, she wouldn"t see him. Ellen had received her orders.
At four o"clock the doorbell rang, and shortly thereafter Ellen appeared, simpering and apologetic enough, with a card. She had taken the trouble to read it this time. Cynthia was angry, or thought she was, and her cheeks were very red.
"I told you to excuse me, Ellen. Why did you let him in?"
"Miss Cynthia, darlin"," said Ellen, "if it was made of flint I was, wouldn"t he bring the tears out of me with his wheedlin" an" coaxin"?
An" him such a fine young gintleman! And whin he took to commandin"
like, sure I couldn"t say no to him at all at all. "Take the card to her, Ellen," he says--didn"t he know me name!--"an" if she says she won"t see me, thin I won"t trouble her more." Thim were his words, Miss."
There he was before the fire, his feet slightly apart and his hands in his pockets, waiting for her. She got a glimpse of him standing thus, as she came down the stairs. It was not the att.i.tude of a culprit. Nor did he bear the faintest resemblance to a culprit as he came up to her in the doorway. The chief recollection she carried away of that moment was that his teeth were very white and even when he smiled. He had the impudence to smile. He had the impudence to seize one of her hands in his, and to hold aloft a sheet of paper in the other.
"What does this mean?" said he.
"What do you thick it means?" retorted Cynthia, with dignity.
"A summons to stay away," said Bob, thereby more or less accurately describing it. "What would you have thought of me if I had not come?"
Cynthia was not prepared for any such question as this. She had meant to ask the questions herself. But she never lacked for words to protect herself.
"I"ll tell you what I think of you for coming, Bob, for insisting upon seeing me as you did," she said, remembering with shame Ellen"s account of that proceeding. "It was very unkind and very thoughtless of you."
"Unkind?" Thus she succeeded in putting him on the defensive.
"Yes, unkind, because I know it is best for you not to come to see me, and you know it, and yet you will not help me when I try to do what is right. I shall be blamed for these visits," she said. The young ladies in the novels always were. But it was a serious matter for poor Cynthia, and her voice trembled a little. Her troubles seemed very real.
"Who will blame you?" asked Bob, though he knew well enough. Then he added, seeing that she did not answer: "I don"t at all agree with you that it is best for me not to see you. I know of n.o.body in the world it does me more good to see than yourself. Let"s sit down and talk it all over," he said, for she still remained standing uncompromisingly by the door.
The suspicion of a smile came over Cynthia"s face. She remembered how Ellen had been wheedled. Her instinct told her that now was the time to make a stand or never.
"It wouldn"t do any good, Bob," she replied, shaking her head; "we talked it all over last week."
"Not at all," said he, "we only touched upon a few points last week. We ought to thrash it out. Various aspects of the matter have occurred to me which I ought to call to your attention."
He could not avoid this bantering tone, but she saw that he was very much in earnest too. He realized the necessity of winning; likewise, and he had got in and meant to stay.
"I don"t want to argue," said Cynthia. "I"ve thought it all out."
"So have I," said Bob. "I haven"t thought of anything else, to speak of. And by the way," he declared, shaking the envelope, "I never got a colder and more formal letter in my life. You must have taken it from one of Miss Sadler"s copy books."
"I"m sorry I haven"t been able to equal the warmth of your other correspondents," said Cynthia, smiling at the mention of Miss Sadler.
"You"ve got a good many degrees yet to go," he replied.
"I have no idea of doing so," said Cynthia.
If Cynthia had lured him there, and had carefully thought out a plan of fanning his admiration into a flame, she could not have done better than to stand obstinately by the door. Nothing appeals to a man like resistance--resistance for a principle appealed to Bob, although he did not care a fig about that particular principle. In his former dealings with young women--and they had not been few--the son of Dudley Worthington had encountered no resistance worth the mentioning. He looked at the girl before him, and his blood leaped at the thought of a conquest over her. She was often demure, but behind that demureness was firmness: she was mistress of herself, and yet possessed a marvellous vitality.