"He has genius, you know."
"You mean his fiddle?" Tom said, incredulously.
"I mean his music. We"ll hear of him one of these days."
"I don"t care much whether we ever hear from his music," he said, "but I wish I could hear that he was applying himself to business."
"Business!" cried Helen Hayes. "What is business compared to Art?"
Thomas looked over at Mr. Hayes in astonishment, for in those days, in Old Chester, this particular sort of talk had not been heard; the older man sneered and changed his cigar from one corner of his mouth to the other. Miss Hayes did not get much sympathy from her family. But she went on with pretty dogmatism:
"You see, in a man like your son--"
"A man! He"s only twenty, my dear young lady."
"In a _man_, sir! like your son--genius is the thing to consider; and you owe it to the world to let genius have its fullest play. Don"t bring Pegasus down to plough Old Chester cornfields. Why, it seems to me," said Helen Hayes, "that he ought to be allowed to just soar. We common folk ought to do the ploughing."
"Thunder an" guns!" said Tom Dilworth.
"I don"t care if he can"t be sure that two and two make four," cried Miss Helen (Thomas, bubbling into aggrieved confidence on this sore subject, had alleged this against his son); "he can put four notes together that open the gates of heaven. And he"ll distinguish himself in music, because his father"s son is bound to have tremendous perseverance and energy."
Old Mr. Hayes snorted and spat into the fire; but Miss Helen"s look when she said "his father"s son" made Mr. Thomas Dilworth simper.
"That girl has sense," he said to himself as he walked home at a quarter to eleven. But he only told Mrs. Dilworth that she had better hint to Ned to be a little more backward in coming forward. "That Hayes girl is nice to him on our account," said Tom, "but he needn"t bore her to death. Milly, why don"t you have one of those pink wrappers? She had one on to-night. Loose, you know, and trimmed down the front."
"A wrapper isn"t very suitable for company," Mrs. Dilworth said, briefly. "It didn"t matter with you, because you"re an old married man; but she oughtn"t to go round in wrappers when Neddy"s there."
"Why, it was a sort of party dress--all lace and stuff. I wish you had one like it. As for Ned, he"s a babe; and her wrapper thing was perfectly proper, of course. Can"t you ask her for the pattern?"
And then Thomas went to sleep and dreamed of a large order for galvanized buckets; but his Milly lay awake a long time, wondering how she could get a pink dress; pleased, in her silent way, that Tom should be thinking about her clothes; but with a slow resentment gathering in her heart that Helen Hayes"s clothes should have suggested his thought.
"And pink isn"t my color," she thought, a vision of her own mild, red face rising in her mind. Still, a fresh pink lawn--"that"s always pretty," Milly Dilworth said to herself, earnestly.
III
Tom Dilworth"s boy was a curious _sport_ from the family stock. He did, indeed, look down on the hardware business, but not much more than on any business, although galvanized utensils were perhaps a little more hideous than most things. Business in itself did not interest him. Money-making was sordid folly, he said; because, "What do you want money for? Isn"t it to buy food and clothes and shelter? Well, you can"t eat more food than enough; you can only wear one suit of clothes at a time; and an eight-foot cell is all the shelter that is necessary."
"Eight-foot--_grandmother!_" his father would retort; "you"ll inventory that lot of spades, young man, and dry up."
And Ned, with shrinking hands and ears that shuddered at the hideous screech of sc.r.a.ping shovels, would make out his inventory with loathing. His mother was not impatient or contemptuous with him--she could not have been that to any one; she simply could not understand what he meant when he spouted upon the folly of wealth (for, like most shy people, he occasionally burst into orations upon his theories), or when he set off some fireworks of scepticism borrowed from Mr. Ezra Barkley, or undertook (when Thomas was not present) to prove his father"s politics entirely wrong. On such occasions Nancy would say, "Oh, Ned, _do_ be quiet!" and Mary would yawn openly. As for his music, n.o.body cared about it, except, perhaps, his mother. "But I must say, Neddy, I like a tune," she would say, mildly, after Edwin had tucked his violin under his chin and poured out all his young soul in what was a true and simple pa.s.sion.
"A tune!" poor Ned said, and groaned. "Mother, I wish you wouldn"t call me that ridiculous name."
"I"ll try not to, Neddy, dear," she would promise, anxiously; and Ned would groan again.
With such a family circle, one can fancy what it was to the lad when quite by accident he found a friend. It was the summer that he was twenty, that once, coming back in the stage with him from Mercer, Miss Helen Hayes showed a keen interest in something he said; then she asked a question or two; and when, hesitating, waiting for the laugh which did not come, he began to talk, she listened. Oh, the joy of finding a listener! She looked at him, as they sat on the slippery leather seat of the old stage, with soft, intelligent eyes, her slightly faded prettiness giving a touch of charm to the high and flattering gravity of her manner. When she asked him to bring his violin sometime and play to her, the boy could almost have wept with joy. He made haste to work off several of his dearest and most shocking phrases, which she took with deep seriousness: A whale"s throat is not large enough to swallow a man--therefore the Biblical account is false, etc., etc. "In fact," said Ned, "if I could have a half-hour"s straight conversation with Dr. Lavendar, I could prove to him the falsity of most of the Old Testament."
Helen Hayes was shocked; she regretted Mr. Dilworth"s scepticism with almost tearful warmth; yet she realized that a powerful mind must search for truth, above all. She wished, however, that he would read such and such a book. "I can"t argue with you myself," she said--"you are far too clever for my poor little reasoning powers."
It was in April that Edwin entered into this experience of feminine sympathy; and by mid-summer, at the time when Mr. Thomas Dilworth also found Miss Helen Hayes so remarkably intelligent, the boy was absorbed in his new emotion of friendship. He never spoke of it at home, hence his father"s astonishment at finding him at the Hayeses". And when, a week later, he found him a second time, Tom Dilworth was much perplexed.
"I dropped in on my way back from the store," he told his wife, "and there was that boy. I said to Miss Helen that she really must not let him bother her. I told her he was a blatherskite, and she must just tell him to dry up if he talked too much."
"Tom, I don"t think you ought to talk that way about Neddy," Mrs.
Dilworth said. "He"s a dear boy."
"He may be a dear boy, but he is a great donkey," Ned"s father said, dryly; "and I think it is very good in Helen Hayes to put up with him.
I can see she does it on my account. Milly, why don"t you ask her to come to supper, sometime? I like to talk to her; she"s got brains, that girl. And she"s good-looking, too. Ask her to tea, and have waffles and fried chicken, and some of that fluffy pink stuff the children are so fond of, for dessert."
"She"s not much of a child," said Mrs. Dilworth, her face growing slowly red. "She"s thirty-two if she"s a day."
"My dear, she has aged rapidly; you said thirty a month ago. I like the pink stuff myself, and I"m nearly fifty. I bet the Hayeses don"t have anything better at their house."
Milly softened at that. Where is the middle-aged housekeeper who does not soften at being told that her pink stuff is better than anything the Hayeses can produce? Yet Tom"s talk of Miss Helen"s brains pierced through her vagueness and bit into her heart and mind; and she could not forget that he had called the girl good-looking. "Girl!" said Mrs.
Dilworth. She was standing before the small swinging gla.s.s on her high bureau, looking at herself critically; then she slipped back and locked her door; then took a hand-gla.s.s and stood sidewise to look again. Her hair was drawn tightly from her temples and twisted into a hard knot at the back of her head; she remembered that the Hayes girl wore high rats, which were very fashionable, and had a large curl at one side of her waterfall. "But it"s pinned on," Milly said to herself; "anyway, mine"s my own." Then she pulled her cap farther forward (in those days mothers of families began to wear caps when they were thirty) and looked in the gla.s.s again: Helen Hayes did not have a double chin.
"She"s a skinny thing," Milly said to herself. Yet she knew, bitterly, that she would rather be skinny than see those cruel lines, like gathers on a drawing-string, puckering the once round neck below the chin. And her forehead: she wondered whether if, every day, she stroked it forty-two times, she could smooth out the wrinkles?--those wrinkles that stood for the tender and anxious thought of all her married life! She had heard of getting rid of wrinkles in that way.
"It would take a good deal of time," she thought, doubtfully. Still, she might try it--with the door locked. These reflections did not, however, interfere with the invitation which Thomas had suggested.
Milly had her opinion of a middle-aged woman who wore wrappers in public; but if Tom wanted her and her wrappers, he should have them.
He should have anything in the world he desired, if she could procure it. Had he desired Miss Hayes hashed on toast, Milly would have done her best to set the dainty dish before her king. And no doubt poor Miss Helen in this form would have given Mrs. Dilworth more personal satisfaction than did her presence at Tom"s side (for the invitation was promptly accepted) in some trailing white thing, her eyes fixed on her host"s face, intent, apparently, upon any word he might utter.
Watching that absorbed and flattering gaze, Milly grew more and more silent. She heard their eager talk, and her mild eyes grew round and full of pain with the sense of being left out; for Miss Hayes, though patient with her hostess, and even kind in a condescending way, hardly spoke to her. Once when, her heart up in her throat, Mrs. Dilworth ventured a comment, it seemed only to amuse Thomas and his guest--and she did not know why.
"This morning," Tom said, "I was h"isting up a big bunch of galvanized buckets to our loft with a fall and tackle, and all of a sudden the strap slipped, and the whole caboodle just whanged down on the pavement--"
"O-o-o-o!" said Helen Hayes, putting her hands over her ears with dramatic girlishness.
"It was terrific, and just at that moment up came Dr. Lavendar. Well, of course I couldn"t express my feelings--"
"Poor Mr. Dilworth!"
"--he came up, and gave me a rap with his stick. "Thomas," he said (you know how his eyes twinkle!)--"Thomas, this is the most profane silence I ever heard.""
Everybody laughed, except Milly and Edwin, the latter remarking that he didn"t see anything funny in that. At which Miss Hayes said to him, under her breath, "Oh, you superior people are so contemptuous of our frivolity!" And Ned blushed with satisfaction, and murmured, "Why, no; I"m not superior, I"m sure."
As for Milly, with obvious effort and getting very red, she said that she didn"t see how silence could be profane. "As long as you didn"t say anything, you conquered your spirit," she added, faintly.
And then they all (except Edwin) laughed again. After that she made no attempt to be taken into the gayety about her, but her heart burned within her. The next morning at breakfast some words struggled out: "You"d think she was a young thing, she laughs so. And she"s nearly thirty-five."
"How time flies!" said Tom, chuckling. And then, to everybody"s astonishment, the mute Edwin spoke up, and said that as for age it was a matter of the soul and not of the body. "Some people are always young," said Edwin. "Dr. Lavendar is, and you are, father--"
"Thank you, grave and reverend seignior."
"--and mother," continued the candid youth, "has always been old.
Haven"t you, mother?"