*UNEDITED*Her thoughts broke off when she felt Kiryu wrap his arms around her. She felt his lips dangerously dancing around her neck. Lila laughed awkwardly, "So uh, you came out here to take advantage of me?"
"Lila, if it becomes too painful for you just tell me. I"ll take you away anytime."
Her gaze softened when she hears his words. "Of course he would suggest something silly like this." Then again, it"s not new.
"I"m really worried about you Lila. I think you know that. Your relations.h.i.+p with Haruka didn"t start well. I"m afraid your always on your guard and act cautious. A relations.h.i.+p shouldn"t be like that, it"s between two people - you have to trust each other. There should be no room for doubts whatsoever..."
Lila"s gaze softened and she turned around. "Is Kiryu a relations.h.i.+p expert now?"
"Lila.."
"I know. Honestly, if Haruka cheated on me I would have left him a long time ago. But, he didn"t. He could have. Do you know how many occasions where he was left alone with a girl in a compromising position?" Lila sighed at the memory. "How many times did people steal his lips... It was truly difficult and a mess for me. But, you know Kiryu. Somehow, mmm, this is fine. Haruka has changed a great deal, he is putting in a lot of effort for me now."
"But, you"re still..."
"Kiryu, it"s not Haruka"s fault. You understand me better than anyone, so you should know. I"m insecure and uncertain about many things. It isn"t just my relations.h.i.+p with Haruka. But my ties to my family and friends. My relations.h.i.+ps with other people... I," Lila trailed off and walked over to the large tree in the court yard. A cold gust of wind seemed to blow then. "I still can"t get over what happened with Mother and Ren-san. Both of them have returned safe and sound. However, I can"t shake of this feeling..."
Getting abandoned like that when she was younger scared her more than she thought. Lila never blamed her mother for leaving when she was younger. How could she blame her mother? For the longest time, mother was suffering, she was in so much pain.
No, it probably started long before then.
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Year XX Star Town - Teras.h.i.+ma Family Manor -
"Lila"s hair looks a lot like your fathers hair. It feels so nice when I touch it. "
Oh ! It"s been awhile since Mother last spoke about him, about the person that"s supposed to be her father. The person that"s supposed to be with them.
"Father Yuhi? " A man that she has not met, and yet she saw all over TV. Rather whenever the international news comes up. Mother always stops what she"s doing and tells her to come over.
"That"s right."
Lila felt her mother burry her head on her black locks, "Lila, you look a lot like him."
She"s often told that by other people, that she resembles her father more than her mother. Since she"s never met her father before. To be told she resembled somebody she doesn"t know, makes her feel incredibly uncomfortable. But whenever mother says it, it"s filled with such fondness and light.
"As expected, the scent is different. Boo," Mother pouted.
"Don"t smell me like that! "
"So shy, really. ... Your. ..mine and his daughter huh?" Her tone suddenly turned quiet and Lila immediately realized that something was wrong.
" Mother? "
"Say Lila, can I entrust something with you?"
Lila watched her mother take her necklace of. The one she always wore, half of a angels wing. " I want you take care of this for me, until its all over. " Until what"s over? Lila didn"t know why, but she felt afraid. Afraid that her mother would go somewhere.
When she got a closer look at Lila recalls something Ren-san had told her. She gratefully accepts it and hugs her Mother tightly. This necklace belongs to a matching set that father Yuhi gave you. So why did mother give it to her? Mother....
"Aha, what"s wrong?"
"Mothers stupid," Lila murmurs.
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Present
It started back then didn"t it? Back then, it was so painful for her. She already noticed the signs of Mother"s suffering, it lead to the growing heavy feeling in her heart.
"You really are stupid aren"t you Lila?"
"Wait, why are you insulting me?"
Kiryu sighed and flicked her forehead. "So stupid. I told you already, the same goes for me and I understand how you feel."
"I know Kiryu but.."
He shook his head, "No buts, I told you even before we were dating. You can rely on me Lila."
"Kiryu, we aren"t together anymore and our relations.h.i.+p has changed. Is it really fine for me to rely on you like before?"
"Of course it is stupid."
"Then Kiryu, can you rely on me too?"
"Rely?"
Lila nodded, "I"m very worried about you."
"Why?"
She suddenly felt the atmosphere turn cold. What"s wrong with him?
"It"s nothing, let"s go back."
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9:00PM
Lila wrapped her arms around her and shuddered. Perhaps she ought to have put on note layers, however -- she wanted to hurry. Lila knew that falling asleep without Haruka was impossible. So she tried to occupy her time with something else. Quite some time has pa.s.sed since she last drew anything, so Lila opened the window and started to draw the scenery. It was then where she saw Kiryu.
It seems like she wasn"t imagining it, so when he slips out by himself. Lila found herself leaving the building and searching for him. Where did he go? It"s really dark now so it"s difficult to see. She"s really bad at this. As a hanyou, her night vision should be better than most. However, because
Just as she was pondering on her next action, she catches a faint sparkle in the sky. "Kiryu?" Lila muttered.
As she ran through the forest, she eventually reached the end. To reach the outer balcony area, surrounded in beautiful flowers. The arcs lights..
"Wrapped in warmth, my songs freeze.
And ring throughout the empty s.p.a.ce," Kiryu sang.
Lila made her way over to the balcony decking and bent down to spot Kiryu below singing. What a beautiful aura. But there is something wrong with them, they are so sad. She watched him for a few minutes. Rather, Lila wanted to go down there immediately but something prevented her. Kiryu"s expression... So much sadness and pain behind that gaze. Why didn"t she realize it sooner? How come she didn"t notice?
"Like sinking into a bottomless lake
I"ve forgotten how to breathe."
She extended her hand out, touching the sparkles. It"s cold, Kiryu.. Why is the light from his sparkles like this now? Why... Why is he singing such a painful sounding song? Kiryu, is he suffering that much since their break up? Almost a year has pa.s.sed since they broke up. In the next five months, that day will approach.
"The more I struggle. The harder it is to breathe.
Why can"t I escape?
When I moved forward, I become even more lost.
I"m sucked further in to a deep dark forest.
How much farther do I have to follow this endless path.
Before I meet the light known as you?
No matter where I am, or what I"m thinking
I simply have to face tomorrow."