*UNEDITED*Kiryu. . he"s in so much pain. She can feel it, her own heart is crying out after hearing it. "Yu-kun! "Lila exclaimed. The roses of light vanished then and his gaze met hers. By this point the girl made her way down the steps and was soon facing him.
Lila faced him with a stream of tears flowing from her eyes.
"Why are you crying?" Kiryu questioned. He reached over and brushed his fingers across her eyelids. "Lila..." he said softly.
"He"s so kind, even though he is the one in pain here."
"Your song..." Lila swallowed her words. She didn"t know what to say. How could she phrase this without sounding like a hypocrite? Why is his song so sad? What"s with those lyrics, why does it sound like that?
"I don"t know what"s wrong Lila. But please don"t cry, it pains me to see you cry."
Why would it pain him? Because she"s that important? Lila no longer understood the situation. Why is Kiryu like this towards her? He"s the one who..the one who broke up with her. The one who left despite promising to be with her forever.
"Practice? " she repeated.
"I practice far more than anyone else. Everyone expects me to be a prodigy. That"s why I don"t let anyone see me working hard."
At that comment Lila finally looked at Kiryu"s face properly. He lost so much weight, his cheeks... Lila could see it clearly, "It even shows on his face." Why didn"t she realize all this before? A quick scan shows this. Is she that focused on Haruka? Kiryu is in so much pain.
"Are you okay? Are you not pus.h.i.+ng yourself too hard? I"m worried about you. " She"s been worried about him for a long time now. The burden of being on top, she knows it all too well after all.
"You don"t need to worry about me anymore Lila. It"s enough that you"re living life happily," Kiryu said turning away.
His words stung more than she thought it would. She doesn"t have to worry anymore? But, how can she not worry? It"s not possible for her.
"Then, why are your sparkles so sad?"
"I will meet the expectations of those elders. I will become the "King" so I can stand by your side. That"s why I sing. I don"t have a single shred of doubt. I couldn"t possibly be in pain. " He turned on his heel to leave. Her eyes widened at his words because of her? "So you don"t have to worry. For me this is normal."
After she had expressed her thoughts on the matter. That person had merely told her those words. Whether or not it was out of spite was something she was well aware of. He said it due to experience, those of n.o.ble blood will forever live such a life. However she didn"t want that life style at all. She didn"t want that at all. Although it went against what her father wanted, although it went against her very peoples notions of a princess. Although it went against that persons will, she fought.
She fought and turned to the violent side of the world. She wanted that power to fight, to be stronger then anyone. If she could do that much then perhaps she would be able to find it. Find something that will truly be able to feel the emptiness in her heart. Even though she had barely lived her life then, back then she had noticed it. Noticed many things that a young girl of her age should not have noticed.
Darkness. The world is swallowed up in darkness, the smiles and people"s faces of the elders and clergy members in the cancel were fake. Their words of affection and display of adoration and compliments were merely fake. For show. When Lila noticed that, she realised that there was something she wanted to do for the people. Even if it means going against their very belief.
Senpai and Haruka the two of them both showed her the true meaning of light and darkness. The true meaning of opposites. But the one who showed her the world was without a doubt that person, "Because your the most important person to me Lila." Just like he showed her the world then, she will do the same for him.
"Lila, you keep crying..."
Why is he such an idiot? She no longer knows what to do with such a foolish person.
"I, I love it. . your songs. . " Lila called out. That"s not it, that"s not the only thing she has to say, " I love you. I love everything about you and I always have. From the very start I"ve always loved you.:" Just like that time, she should say it again. " I love you. I really really love you. From the very start even if I liked and cared about other people in between. The one I found myself longing for was only. I love you so much that it"s painful and hard to breathe and yet... Yet, these feelings are a burden. For me to still love you after such a long time.."
By this point the tears were naturally spilling down from her eyes. What use is there confessing like this now? Even if she still has feelings for him, the one she loves more is Haruka. To her surprise Kiryu appeared right in front of her. He brushed her tears gently away with his fingers.
"Lila, thank you for telling me that."
No explanations or requests, just thank you. Why doesn"t he question her? Instead of wiping her tears, Lila felt his tongue above her eyelid. Her cheeks coloured and Kiryu chuckled. "Embarra.s.sed?"
"Quit it, do you have any idea how confused I am. I can"t ignore you if your in pain Kiryu..."
"Yeah, that"s why I didn"t want you to know. It would be better if you completely forgot that you loved me. Haruka and you are very happy now. Haruka is making a lot of preparations for your wedding."
"Stupid, stupid. Don"t you dare help him."
"Too late, I helped him pick a location."
"Kiryu, your stupid. Why don"t you fight harder for me?"
Why does he give up so easily?
"It"s not like it was impossible for me to s.n.a.t.c.h you away Lila, at least in the beginning. You didn"t like Haruka that much."
"Then why did you make me wait for so long? Kiryu, I waited for you.. I couldn"t give Haruka my heart completely for so long. .."
Why did the two of them end up this way? Her heart is filled with so much pain right now.