Finding Snow.
Alexa Riley.
Koda"s found his sister, Winnie, and now he"s made a life for himself in Gray Ridge, Colorado. As a bear shifter, he"s naturally a loner, and with so few females around, he"s resigned to never finding his mate. But when he stumbles upon a woman in the woods, his whole world changes.
Snow"s been on the run and has made a makeshift family with a band of seven wanderers. While resting in the woods and waiting for them to come back, something big finds her.
When Koda and Snow collide, they realize their stories are woven together more tightly than they could have imagined. Will the truth break their mates bond? Or will it bind them closer together?
Warning: This fairy-tale shifter story is full of alpha sweetness with a side of growly bear. What"s not to love?! If you love a cla.s.sic story with a dirty twist, then get your click on!
To the hubs; my life, my love, my mate.
Chapter 1.
Snow.
Smack!.
Finn drops the bacon and pulls his hand back, a grunt coming out of his mouth like my little slap actually hurt him. I raise my eyebrow at him, knowing better. The man is six foot and probably has a hundred pounds on me. Not to mention he"s a shifter.
"Forest hasn"t gotten his yet," I scowl. Finn just grunts again and goes back to eating his steak and eggs and everything else he has left on his own plate. I lift the coffee pot and top off his coffee. Living with three male shifters can be a fight when it comes to food. You"d think they"ve never eaten before, like I was starving them and not making sure they got three full meals a day, but since I"ve been cooking for them for the past seven years, I know that"s a load of bull. I keep them well fed.
Three is a whole lot easier to handle then the seven it used to be, but over the years, one by one, the brothers have started to find their mates. Our little family gets smaller and smaller each year. That"s all the band of brothers seems to be about-looking for their one true mate.
Each time one found his mate, it was bittersweet-knowing he found what he were looking for but would be leaving us. We were always on to the next town. Never staying in one place too long. I liked being on the move at first. It felt like my past couldn"t catch up to me. If I kept moving, I"d never be found.
For the last year it has just been Finn, Forest, Flint, and me. Down to three brothers and not one has gotten lucky with finding his mate yet. Tired of being on the road and hopping from town to town, we all decided it was time to settle in somewhere. We"ve been in Gray Ridge, Colorado for over a month now, and I"ve been stuck inside this cabin.
We"d chosen Gray Ridge because we"d heard they were a more laidback pack. Not so sticky with the rules. Some packs only accept certain shifters and have a list a mile long of dos and don"ts. But it isn"t like that here. Or so my brothers have told me. Everyone just has to be a part of the community. They all work together here. I like the sound of that. It sounds friendly and even homey.
"Do you think I can just go out for a little? I"ll be real careful." I bite my lip and give Finn my best sad face, opening my blue eyes real big. It"s something I"ve been doing for years when I"m trying to get something. When I was little it was just candy or ice cream. As I got older, it tended to lean on the side of family movie night or them taking me fishing.
"Ahh, Snow, don"t do that." Finn puts his fork down, and I can see he feels guilty, and that makes me feel guilty. I know they"re just trying to keep me safe. It"s all they have ever done since the day they became my family. All I want is to take care of them and make them happy. It"s all I know.
But it"s like I"m going to be a secret my whole life. No one is allowed to even know I exist. Ironically, it was something I"d begged them for when they"d found me out in the snow all alone seven years ago. Begged them not to take me back. Begged them to hide me from my father.
They did. Now I"m like their little sister. At first they were reluctant about taking me in and hiding me like I asked. Not that I blamed them. I was eleven, and they found me running through the woods in the middle of the night all alone. But soon their protectiveness ascended to a whole new level. I was one of them. I belonged with them. They were my world. All I had. A better family than I"d ever had. It was a miracle that brought them into my life. They saved me, and I would forever be indebted to them for that.
"I"m sorry. I"m just going a little stir crazy, is all." I make Forest a plate as he stumbles into the room and sits down at the breakfast bar next to Finn. His blond hair is sticking in five different directions. It took me a good six months to be able to tell them apart-they"re identical twins-but now I can just tell with a glance. "I was hoping since we were staying here that maybe I could come out of hiding. I, ahh..." I pause, feeling a little guilty at my next confession. "I turned eighteen last week."
"What?!" Flint growls from the kitchen entryway, making me jump. Even after all these years I still haven"t gotten used to how these big men can move around so quietly.
"It"s not a big deal." I try to rea.s.sure them, seeing the annoyed, angry looks on their faces. "I didn"t want to make a fuss. You guys have been working like crazy, and I didn"t want to be a bother, is all. It"s fine, really."
"It"s not fine, Snow. We should have celebrated. You just came of age," Forest says, looking at me with sad eyes. He"s always the softy.
"I"m not a shifter, so I don"t think it really counts."
"It matters." Flint walks the rest of the way into the kitchen and wraps me in a hug, kissing the top of the head.
"I mean, just think about it. My father can"t, like, come and take me or anything. I"m eighteen and all."
"I"d snap his f.u.c.king neck," Flint growls, making me smile at his protectiveness.
"But you said your dad took all kinds of people," Flints adds, squeezing me tighter like someone might bust in and take me now. He"s right. My father liked to take shifters. Cage them and then do G.o.d knows what. It still eats at me that I"d run and left them all behind. By the time the Denali brothers found out where I"d been, the building I"d run from was empty. They"d said the place was completely bare. Maybe if I hadn"t been so scared. Maybe if I"d told them sooner, they could have saved some of them. I push the painful thought away.
"I know, but it"s been seven years, and I can"t hide forever. If I do that, I might as well have stayed in the cage he put me in."
Flint releases a deep breath then lets me go. He walks over to the counter and picks up a piece of bacon, popping it into his mouth. "Thing is, I still got to tell the alpha about you. It"s kind of against the rules to let humans who aren"t mated to shifters know about us."
"It"s not like you spilled the beans," I remind him. I"ve known about shifters most of my life.
Flint runs his hands through his hair, something he always does when he"s thinking.
"Just think on it is all I"m asking. Nothing has to be done today. Besides, you"re going to be late. Can"t be doing that your first month here." I turn to the fridge and pull out the three lunches I packed, then I grab the thermoses I filled with coffee, handing them over to each of them.
"Make a cake. I"ll grab some candles. We"re celebrating," Forest says, pulling me into a hug.
"Okay."
"Chocolate," Forest adds. I smile.
"It"s my cake. Shouldn"t I get to pick?"
"Fine." He winks.
I"ll still be making chocolate. I know it"s their favorite, and I can"t seem to help myself. It"s hard not to dote on them. Even more so considering they"re pretty much my whole world. They each say their goodbyes before filing out the door. Flint pauses in the doorway.
"Stay inside, Snow." He gives me a hard look. He"s the eldest, so he uses the same one on all his brothers.
I just smile and nod.
I step over to the kitchen window to watch them pile into the truck as snow starts to fall. If the storm gets too bad, maybe they"ll be home early. I"m not used to this new schedule or being alone so much. Since we got to Gray Ridge, they"ve been working, building houses with some guy named X. That"s about all I know.
Sometimes they work twelve-hour days. I get lonely. I"ve become so used to taking care of people. It makes me long for what some of my other brothers have found. Mates. But I guess for me it would be a husband. A family of my very own to take care of.
I turn away from the window and clean up the kitchen. It only takes five minutes. Then I stand there, looking around the cabin that"s now our home. When we first got it, I was thrilled. We"d always moved around so much that I was excited to have a place that would be ours. I didn"t realize that meant I"d be left alone so much.
There really isn"t anything for me to do. I can only clean a house so many times, even with it being a four-bedroom and three-bathroom. I turn to the window again and look out. The snow is falling harder. I"d once heard Flint say the snow can often hide your scent, make it harder to track or catch someone.
I know most of the town of Gray Ridge is shifter, but I also know we have a cabin with a good amount of land. I"m not sure where ours ends and begins. Maybe I could just go out a little. No one would know.
I need to do it now. The snow will cover my tracks back up, so no one will know I went out. Just twenty minutes, I tell myself.
Excitement has me dashing to my room. I find my dark blue hooded cape and slip it on over my clothes. I pull the hood over my long black hair, then slip on my boots. Grabbing some gloves from the front-door closet I slip out onto the porch, breathing in the winter air. Normally we stay a little farther south, away from the cold.
I haven"t seen snow since...I ran. The urge hits me again. This time, I"m not running from something, but I just want to run. I jump off the porch and sprint towards the woods, running as fast as I can, as I"ve seen by brothers do many nights. Only I don"t shift. Dodging the rocks and ducking below low tree branches, I run until my legs start to burn and the cold air fills my lungs. I finally break free of the trees and come to a sliding stop at a little iced-over pond.
Dropping to my knees, I look up at the sky, trying to catch my breath as the snowflakes fall around me. I close my eyes and relax into the snow, breathing in the winter air and thinking about how different running was this time. So different from before.
Chapter 2.
Koda.
It"s still dark when I wake up with a jolt, the cold sweat covering my naked body. It takes me a moment, like it always does, to remember where I am and that I"m safe. The seconds tick by, and my breathing evens out. Rubbing my hands against my eyes, I remind myself that I"m not in a cage.
I give up on sleep and get up from the bed. I make my way to the bathroom, turn on the shower, and get in before the water has a chance to warm up. I"m used to cold showers after being denied the luxury of hot water for so long and then having to bathe in rivers when I escaped.
I soap up and try not to think about my past, but it always comes flooding back after a nightmare. I can"t seem to stop it, so I just have to ride it out until all the feelings pa.s.s. This dream was like so many before, most of it exactly the same, but sometimes my mind likes to add in details that weren"t there, just to f.u.c.k with me.
This time when I was dreaming, I was in the cage again. The one they kept me locked in unless they were running tests. They had a theory that if shifters were kept in small places, they would be less likely, or unable, to shift.
In this dream, I was in the cage, and I could hear Winnie crying. I know this didn"t happen because Winnie was never captured with me. She got away. I always have to remind myself of that. We were young when we were caught, but she fought and was able to get free. I was too drugged up to know what happened, and all I could remember was waking up in a cell without her.
I"d learned over the years that we were taken by a company that was doing research on shifters. They kept us as if we were animals in a lab. It was a horrible time in my life, and ever since I broke free, my only goal was finding my sister. When I found her, it was only to see that she had amnesia and was being cared for here in Gray Ridge. Winnie had gotten lucky, and Alpha Stone had taken her into the pack and kept her safe. When I found her, and when her memories came back, I felt like my journey had finally come to an end.
Only it didn"t.
I"m a bear shifter, and there aren"t as many of us as there are of other species. Even fewer bear shifter females exist. When Winnie mated with Alpha Stone, I could have left, but I didn"t want to. Bears aren"t normally pack animals, but they are close to their families. I couldn"t move away from Winnie after finally finding her, even though she was mated.
Thankfully, Alpha Stone welcomed me into the pack and gave me some land. Xavier, one of the wolf shifters, and I built my cabin out here to give me some s.p.a.ce away from the pack and also to have a way to stay close to Winnie.
I"d been in captivity for so long that I was worried I wouldn"t be able to adjust to pack life. But Xavier had gone through some trauma before he met his mate, and he was able to give me some advice to help me cope.
When we built the house, he helped me put in extra security measures so that I could feel safe again. My nightmares used to be a lot worse, and I think he knew it. So to help, we installed bolted locks both inside and outside the entry points of the house. The locks are in place in a way that no one is going in or out of my home without my permission. The extra security helps me sleep. As long as the nightmares don"t creep in.
When I"ve finished showering, I make myself breakfast and have coffee. My life is very quiet, and I don"t have many friends-just the Gray Ridge pack people who Winnie makes me hang out with. I look over at the counter and see an invitation to a kid"s birthday party at Xavier and Gwen"s home. I know I should want to go and be around everyone, but I feel myself getting tired and wanting to hibernate.
I let out a long sigh and try to shake off the dark mood. Internally, I know that I"m safe and everything is okay. I"m just getting used to the world again. Also being around a lot of happy mated couples can start to wear on any single shifter after a while. There"s a longing that comes with wanting to find your mate, and knowing I probably never will sends another wave of sadness over me.
Closing my eyes, I see dark hair and blue eyes. I try to grab on to the image, but it"s gone like smoke through my fingers. I think of the image every time I think about finding my mate. I don"t even know where the image is from or how I remember it, but something about it is familiar.
I push away from the table and clean up the kitchen. When I finish, I look outside. The sun has come up and it"s starting to snow a bit. I love this time of year. The cool air and the clean smells of the forest calm my bear. I feel him stir inside me, and I decide he could use a walk in the woods.
Bears aren"t much for running or spending energy when they don"t have to. Our shifters are usually really big and solidly built. I lost a lot of weight when I was being held captive, but in the time since, I"ve put on a lot of weight. It feels good to have the extra layers of thick muscle and even a little extra around my mid-section. We"re pretty hairy, too, and I definitely meet that type. My long beard and chest hair help keep me warm when it"s cold out. So even though it"s snowing, I don"t need much coverage.
I"ve got on a long-sleeved, cream-colored thermal shirt and jeans. I go over to the door, pull on my boots, and then go about unlocking the door. I walk outside and turn, locking the cabin back up.
The woods are quiet, and my bear is enjoying the peace. He likes being outside, but a lot of times my fear overrides his need and we stay indoors. This is good for both of us, at least for a little while.
I walk for a few miles and come through the clearing next to the lake. I don"t usually venture to this side of the protected lands, but I just need a change today. New scenery. Something inside me is telling me this will be best for me and my bear. That we need a new direction and something different to see today.
Looking off in the distance, I see a dark figure on the ground. My bear is instantly alert, and I widen my stance, preparing for danger. I raise my nose, trying to catch a scent, but the wind is at my back. Slowly and silently, I walk around the edge of the lake, looking for danger from every direction.
My bear is pacing, trying to get out, but I want to be able to hold my skin. I"m always terrified that someone will try to take me again after getting captured the last time, so I"m being extra cautious.
I don"t know what possesses me to even want to investigate the dark figure. Normally, I would just turn and run. But something"s pulling me in that direction, and I need to see what it is.
As I step closer, I see the dark figure take shape. The scent still hasn"t come my way, but I can make out that it"s a person lying in the snow. My steps are tentative and slow, and I move closer and closer.
When I realize it"s a woman, my heart starts to beat faster and my steps quicken. What if she"s a shifter in trouble? I don"t know everyone in the pack yet, so this could be a member in distress.
Moving close, I see that her eyes are closed and she"s lying on her back with her arms outstretched. She must not have been here long because not much snow has fallen on her. It"s starting to come down heavier now, and she"s getting a small dusting on her face and body.
She"s got thick black hair and skin the color of cream. Her lips are blood red, and something inside of me is pulling me towards her. I can"t explain the force that makes me go to her, but something inside me knows that I must help her.
Something inside me needs to kiss her. Taste her... Brand her.
I kneel down beside her, and the sound wakes her. Her big eyes pop open, and the blue there strikes me right in the chest. Her eyes are the most beautiful things I"ve ever seen. I want to get lost in them and let them carry me away. There"s something about them that"s familiar and safe, but also terrifying and confusing.
A heartbeat pa.s.ses between us, and for a second I"m pulled back in time to a place I thought I"d left. Fear grips me, but then the woman smiles up at me, and all of that melts away.
"Hi," she whispers, and I light up at the word. I start to say something back, but at that moment her scent hits me, and I my throat nearly closes up.
She"s human.
Rage pulses through me, and I start to stand. I want to get away from this human as fast as I can, but suddenly I"m dizzy with need. I inhale again, and I feel my bear trying to take over. He"s clawing inside me to get out to roar, but I hold him tight, trying to catch my brain up to my body.
Mate, my bear growls over and over, and I realize that this human is my mate. A human. The one thing in this world that I not only fear but never want to be near again is my mate.
I growl long and low, but the human doesn"t look surprised. She sits up and pushes back from me, but I reach out, s.n.a.t.c.hing her ankle before she can get away.
"Mine," I say through gritted teeth. I didn"t want this, not like this. But my body has no choice.
"Let me go." I look into her eyes to see panic there. "Don"t, please. My brothers will worry. I know what you are, please don"t do this."
The plea for her family pulls at my heart. How many times had I begged to be let free to find my family? How many times had I begged for news of my sister? I feel sadness for her, but then it"s followed by anger. Her kind are the ones that kept me from Winnie. This human is my mate. I have every right to take her from her human people.