She looked at me doubtfully. "There"s something you"re not telling me."
"The last straw," I said, "has just broken Thomas. If someone doesn"t treat him kindly, he"ll end up in the nut house or the suicide statistics and I am not, repeat not, joking."
"Well..."
"That"s my girl."
"I"m not your girl," she said tartly. "Perhaps I"m Thomas"s." Her face softened slightly. "All right, he can stay."
She ate another handful of raisins and went back to the sitting-room, and I again followed. Edwin had taken the second armchair. Lucy lowered her bulk onto a leather stool beside Thomas, which left me on my feet looking around. There were no other seats. Resignedly I sat on the floor and rested my back against a wall. Neither Lucy nor Edwin commented. Neither had invited me to sit.
"As I"m here," I said, "I may as well ask the questions I was going to come and ask tomorrow."
"We don"t want to answer," Edwin said. "And if you get blood on the wallpaper you can pay for redecorating."
"The police will come," I said, twisting slightly out of harm"s way. "Why not practise on me? They"ll ask about the timing device that set off the bomb at Quantum."
Thomas stirred. "I made it, you know. The Mickey Mouse dock."
It was the first time he"d spoken since we"d left his house. Lucy looked as if she thought him delirious, then raised her eyebrows and started to concentrate.
"Not that," she said, troubled.
"Do you remember those docks?" I asked.
"Of course I do. We"ve got one upstairs, that Thomas made for our son."
"What sort of face has it got?"
"A sailing ship. Did the Mickey Mouse clock explode ...?"
"No," I said. "The one actually used had a grey plastic dial with white numbers. The Mickey Mouse clock was intact, in the playroom."
Thomas said dully, "I haven"t made one for years."
"When did you make the Mickey Mouse for Robin and Peter?" I asked.
"I didn"t make it for them. I made it a long time ago for Serena. She must have given it to them. It made her laugh, when I made it."
"You were a nice boy, Thomas," Lucy said. "Funny and kind."
Edwin said restlessly, "I would have thought any timing device would have been blown to unrecognisable fragments by such a big bomb."
"It seems they often find pieces," I said.
"Do you mean," he demanded, "that they"ve actually sifted through all those tons of rubbish?"
"More or less. They know it was a battery clock. They found part of the motor."
"It serves Malcolm right the house was blown up," Edwin said with barely suppressed violence. "Flinging money about on ridiculous scholarships. Keeping us poor. I suppose you"re you"re all right, aren"t you?" There was a sneer there for me, openly. "He"s never been fair to Lucy. You"ve always been in the way, smarming him up, taking the lion"s share. He gives you whatever you ask for while we have to struggle along on a pittance." all right, aren"t you?" There was a sneer there for me, openly. "He"s never been fair to Lucy. You"ve always been in the way, smarming him up, taking the lion"s share. He gives you whatever you ask for while we have to struggle along on a pittance."
"Is that the authentic voice of Vivien?" I asked.
It"s the truth!"
"No," I said, If"s what you have been told over and over again, but it"s not the truth. Most people believe a lie if they"re told it often enough. It"s easy enough after all to believe a lie if you"ve heard it only once. Especially if you want to believe it."
Lucy looked at me intently. "You care about this, don"t you?"
"About being cast perpetually as the family villain? Yes, I dare say I do. But I was thinking also of Thomas. He"s been told ad infinitum that he"s useless, and now he believes it. I"m going now, Lucy." I stood up without haste. "You tell Thomas over and over that he"s a worthwhile person, and maybe he"ll begin to believe that instead. You have to believe in yourself to get anywhere."
"Oh yes," she said quietly. "You do."
"What you"ve written," I said, "is for ever."
Her eyes widened. "How do you know... that I"ve lost..."
I guessed." I bent and kissed her cheek, to her surprise. "Are you seriously in need?"
"Financially?" She was startled. "No worse than usual."
"Of course we are," Edwin said to her waspishly. "You"re earning almost nothing now and you still spend a fortune on books."
Lucy looked only mildly embarra.s.sed, as if she"d heard that often before.
"If I held the purse-strings," Edwin complained, "you"d use the public library, as I do."
"Why don"t you work, Edwin?" I asked.
"Lucy doesn"t like bustle." He seemed to think it explanation enough. "We"d be perfectly happy if Malcolm trebled Lucy"s trust fund, as he ought to. He has millions, we live in a hovel. It"s not fair."
"Doesn"t Lucy despise money?" I asked. "And people who have it? Do you want her to become what she despises?"
Edwin glared.
Lucy looked at me blandly. "There"s no such state as perfection," she said.
I drove back to Reading, to the hospital that had an emergency room open all evening, and there got my shoulder and upper arm cleaned and st.i.tched. There were three cuts, it seemed, variously deep but nothing frightful, and they had long stopped bleeding: with the st.i.tches, they would heal almost instantly. The staff advised painkillers pro tern. I thanked them and eventually drove to Cookham feeling more than slightly tired but chiefly hungry, and having remedied both conditions satisfactorily, set off again next morning to ride. There was no problem there with the st.i.tches: they were tender to the touch and stiff when I lifted my arm, but that was all.
Restored yet again in spirit by the dose of fresh air, I took a lazy day off from the emotional battering of the family and went to London to get my American and Australian visas. It was only a week since I"d ridden Park Railings at Cheltenham and it felt like eternity. I bought a new sweater and had my hair cut and thought about Ursula "wandering about" through days of escape. One could wander for hours in London, thinking one"s thoughts.
On an impulse, I telephoned Joyce, not expecting her to be in.
"Darling," she yelled. "I"m going out. Bridge. Where are you?"
"In a phone box."
"Where"s your father?"
"I don"t know."
"Darling, you"re infuriating infuriating. What did you ring for?"
"I suppose... just to hear your voice."
It seemed to stump her entirely. "Are you out of your head? You tell that old b.u.g.g.e.r... tell him..." She choked on it.
"That you"re glad he"s alive?" I suggested.
"Don"t let the old sod get blown up."
"No," I said.
"Must rush, darling. Don"t break your neck. "Bye..."
" "Bye now," I said.
I wondered if she ever talked on the telephone except at the top of her voice. The decibels were comforting, somehow. At least she never sounded bored. I would rather infuriate her than bore her, I thought.
I went unhurriedly back to Cookham and in the evening bent again to Norman West"s notes., Of Edwin, he had said: Mr Edwin Pembroke (53) ne Bugg, lives with his wife Lucy in No 3 Wrothsay Farm Cottages, near Marlow. One son (15), attends state school, bicycles to school, has latchkey, gets his own tea, goes upstairs, does homework, working for exams, conscientious, doesn"t know if his parents were around on the Friday or Tuesday at specified hours, doesn"t expect so. He comes downstairs about 8 or 9 pm, they all eat vegetarian meal then. (No TV!) Mrs L. cooks in a wok. Mr E. washes up.Mr E. does the housework (not much) and shopping, mostly vegetables. He spends hours reading in public library (librarians agree). Goes to pub, spends more hours over one beer (barman indignant). Takes laundry to laundromat. Listens to radio. Spends hours doing crossword puzzles. (The garden"s untidy. Mr E. doesn"t like gardening. They grow only runner beans, they"re easy.)Mr E. and Mrs L. share an old Hillman, which Mr E. mostly drives. (Mrs L. has licence.) Car dusty and rusty, no dents.Mr E. good-looking man, complete drone (my opinion). Idle life suits him. Mr E"s idle life seems to suit Mrs L. also-no accounting for people. She does less than he does, come to think. Mr E. has sharp sarcastic manner on occasions. Detests Mr Ian, curses Mr Pembroke but at same time wants money from him (!). Definitely thinks of Mr Pembroke"s money too much, broods on it, talked about it all the time.End of enquiry.
Of Lucy, among other things, he had written: Mrs L. spends large parts of the day unaware of what"s going on around her (my opinion). I had to repeat several questions. It seemed she didn"t hear me, but nothing wrong with her ears. She listens to things going on in her own head (can"t put it very well). Has no alibis for Friday or Tuesday. Can"t remember where she was. (I believe it.) Goes for rambling walks. Mrs L. very troubled over something, but wouldn"t say what. She ate a tinful of peanuts while I was there, looked surprised when they"d gone.
So much for Lucy and Edwin, I thought. What about Donald and Helen?
Donald Pembroke (44) eldest of Mr Pembroke"s offspring, lives at Marblehill House, detached chalet-style house which goes with his job, Secretary, Marblehill Golf Club (rich club, high fees) near Henley-on-Thomas. Long waiting list for membership, rich members.Mr D. has staff (green keeper, club steward, etc). He himself oversees and runs the whole place, is said to be good at it, members like him, say he gets things done, runs tight ship, decent bar, club rooms, tournaments etc, always listens to and deals with complaints, seen as friend, authority figure, social equal. Mr D. likes his work. His social standing extremely important to him (my opinion). Keeps up high appearances.As to alibis for the Friday and Tuesday in question: no alibis ascertainable. Is always "round the place", never at any place at set hours except first thing in the mornings (9 am) to see to post with office staff. Has Mondays off, works Sat.u.r.days and Sundays.Walks to work (barely 100 yds). Usually returns home at 7 pm (much earlier in winter), sometimes stays until bar closes. Often walks round later to see all is well everywhere. Dedicated.Mr D. has daughter in art school, high fees. Also twin sons who have started this term at Eton, previously at good prep, school. (How does he afford it?)Mr D. drives silver Mercedes, 2 years old. Clean. No marks of collision with Mr Ian.Mr D. thinks it"s very bad news Mr Ian is back in Mr Pembroke"s favour. Certain to mean less inheritance for him (Mr D.). He"s angry about that. But he also thinks Mr Ian the only one who can persuade Mr Pembroke to distribute some wealth now. Sees no inconsistency in these beliefs. (He"ll use Mr Ian, doesn"t have to trust him, he said.) Thinks Mr Pembroke"s recent expenditure unreasonable, "insane" (!). Says he"s senile.Mr D. gave me rapid answers; busy. Says his financial affairs were none of my business, edgy on subject. Is he in debt? (My opinion, considering his expenses, probably.) Champagne lifestyle.End of enquiry.
And Helen?
Mrs Helen Pembroke (43) wife of Mr D. Very good looking lady. Very worried, wouldn"t say what about.I interviewed her in Marblehill House - big name for fairly ordinary-sized three-bedroom, nice sitting-room, though, overlooking golf course. Good furniture, appearance of wealth.Mrs H. works at home (on dustsheet in dining-room) painting views of Henley by hand onto plates, jugs, boxes; all china. Very quick, very good (to my eyes), nice pictures. They go off to be glazed, she said, then sell in local shops. Reasonably paid, she says. (What"s reasonable? She says her work was to be seen as a hobby. Mr D. refers to it in that way.)Mrs H. works alone nearly every day, no alibis for Friday or Tuesday. Sometimes drives into Henley to shop, no regular pattern. Mrs H. has white Cavalier, clean, no dents.No children at home. Daughter shares flat with friends near art school (more expense).Mrs H. ultra-loyal to Mr D. Says my enquiries unnecessary. Says it"s ridiculous to suppose Mr D. would attack his father. Out of the question. (My opinion, she wasn"t too sure.) They need more cash badly (my opinion).Mrs H. mostly shares Mr D"s opinion of Mr Ian, but doesn"t seem to dislike him personally.End of enquiry.
On Friday morning, I called in on a public library and looked up "explosives" in encyclopaedias. Ammonium nitrate was there, also the proportion of fertiliser to diesel oil needed, also the formula for relating volume to kilos. The knowledge was available to anyone who sought it.
On Friday after lunch I went to the Marblehill Golf Club and found Donald in the clubroom placating a foursome who had arrived late and missed their game.
"Go over to the house," he said when he saw me. "I can"t talk here." He turned decisively back to the problem in hand and I did what I was told, like a good little brother.
Helen was resigned more than annoyed to see me. "Ferdinand said you would come, and we had the police here yesterday. Not that we could tell them anything, or you either."
She was wearing a painter"s smock over jeans and looked dressed by Dior. She took me into the sitting-room and pointed to a chair, and with unconscious grace sat herself half-on, half-off a polished table, raising her wrists to keep her paint-smudged hands away from the furniture.
Donald came bustling in, telling me he could give me ten minutes. "Don"t see what you can do," he said. "Leave it to the police."
"What did they ask you?"
"About Fred blowing up the tree stump. I said yes, of course we"d been there. Helen and I weren"t then married. It was the first time she"d met Malcolm, she was staying the weekend."
"Sat.u.r.day morning," she said, nodding. "The gardener came in specially to blow up the tree trunks. Not something one would forget, seeing him knocked flat. I took a photograph of the tree roots afterwards. It"s still in one of our alb.u.ms."
"And the time-switch clocks, do you remember those?" I asked.
"Naturally," Donald said.
Helen added, "Dear Thomas made two for our boys for their birthday once, when they could just tell the time." She had said Dear Thomas, I noticed, as if she had meant it, not as Berenice said it. "They got lost in one of our moves."
"Where"s Malcolm?" Donald asked brusquely.
"I don"t know."
"You"re lying," he said, but for once I wasn"t. Malcolm and Ramsey Osborn had left the Osborn residence, according to the female voice on the line the evening before, and had given her no number at which they could be reached. I could try again tomorrow, she said. Mr Osborn should have let her know by then; he usually did.
"Did either of you," I asked, "trace Malcolm to Cambridge the weekend he was put in the car?"
I hadn"t expected any answer but negative, but the question came at them unexpectedly and Helen practically jumped.
"Did you?" I said to her.
"No, of course not," Donald said quickly. "We had no way of knowing he would go to Newmarket Sales, if that"s what you"re inferring."
"The hotel at Cambridge said three people - two men and a woman - had asked if Malcolm was staying there," I said. "One was Norman West, who were the others? I"m not saying you went to Newmarket Sales, just did one of you trace Malcolm?"
They looked at me glumly. Then Helen said, "I suppose so."
"Why?" I asked.
Donald cleared his throat, I needed his signature on a guarantee."
"Go on, what guarantee?"
"For a temporary bank loan." He swallowed. "I thought he might..."
"We had to have the money in a hurry," Helen said. "The bank manager told Donald we could borrow it if Malcolm would guarantee it. Then we couldn"t get hold of Malcolm. We had to think where he might be, and he"s always going to Cambridge. Donald and I just talked about it, guessing, wondering... And then, well, Donald went over to the club house and I just picked up the AA book and found those hotels in Cambridge, and without really believing in it I tried two... only two... and he was there, at the second. When Donald came home I told him and the extraordinary thing was, he"d had the same idea and got the same result." She paused. "We were pretty desperate, you see."
"Don"t say that," Donald said." "Desperate" gives the wrong picture."
"What did you need the money for?" I asked.
They looked at each other, foreheads wrinkled in worry. Finally, reluctantly, but as if coming to a decision, Donald said, "We had some interest to pay unexpectedly. I had negotiated three months" deferment of interest on a loan, or at least I thought I had, and then I got a threatening demand. I had to pay at once or they"d start proceedings." The desperation he said wasn"t there, definitely had been; it still echoed in his voice, i couldn"t have it getting around the golf club, could I?" he demanded. "No one in the family could lend me a large sum in a hurry. Our ordinary bank overdraft is always at maximum. The finance company was inflexible. I knew Malcolm wouldn"t give me the money, he has those stupid warped views, but I did think he might guarantee... just for a short while..."
To save the whole pack of cards collapsing, perhaps he might. Malcolm wasn"t cruel. He"d lent Edwin money sometimes in the past. Donald, I thought, had stood a good chance.
"But when you"d found where he was, you didn"t get in touch with him, did you?"
"No," Donald said, i didn"t relish telling Malcolm our troubles. I didn"t want to look a fool, and Helen thought of a different way out."
I looked at her enquiringly.
"Popped my baubles," she said with a brave attempt at lightness. "Took them to London. All my lovely rocks." She held her head high, refusing to cry.