Chapter 141 - So This is Love
Time pa.s.sed and Sei was still sitting beside her, looking at her peaceful sleeping face. He also stopped fanning her the moment he noticed that she"s not sweating anymore.
And after staring at her for a long time, Sei began to heave a long and deep sigh. He moved his hand to his chest, clenching his s.h.i.+rt tightly as he raised his face to look at the ceiling.
Afterwards, he tighten his jaw and closed his eyes for another long deep thought.
Sei was sorting out the whirling emotions inside his chest. Pain, the feeling he thought he would never feel again, once buried along with his mother"s death a long time ago resurfaced once again just by seeing Davi cry.
The sight of her crying as she asked him why, was like a broken video clip that kept appearing in his head over and over again. It was a sight he didn"t want to happen ever again. He doesn"t want to see her cry like that again. He doesn"t want to see her feel like that again.
For the first time in his life, Sei started to understand what is the so called "romantic love". He finally understood that the cause of all the emotions that kept storming within him ever since he met her were because he loves her.
He was overwhelmed and he didn"t know how to explain what he felt that moment he realized he"s in love with her. However, all he knew was that he will never be able to bear losing her. All he wanted was to keep her in his arms and to make her happy.
As his thoughts drifted to her, Sei then opened his eyes and clenched his s.h.i.+rt even tighter. He opened his mouth and softly uttered few words.
"So, this is love, huh."
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Zaki was already waiting outside leaning on the wall in front of Sei and Davi"s room when the door finally opened. Sei stepped out, but he just glanced at him without a word before he walked hastily towards the courtyard.
Zaki on the other hand just followed him quietly. And as soon as they reached the courtyard, Sei finally spoke.
"Zaki, let"s fight." He said and Zaki could only sigh and reach up to loosen his tie as though he expected him to say that.
Thus, in the end, they just fought ferociously like usual under the dark sky. Until time pa.s.sed and the fight ended. Sei was panting heavily as he leaned on the wall when Zaki reached out a bottle of water and a towel towards him.
Sei then just took the towel and wiped his drenched face and neck before he took the water.
After some moments, both of them were now seating on the ground with their backs against the wall.
"So? Have you thought about it?" Zaki broke the silence but for a long while, no words came out of Sei"s mouth. He just raised his head and stared at the dark sky quietly before he finally opened his mouth.
"Zaki… I"m feeling pain again." He just said causing Zaki to be dumbstruck.
Zaki was reminded of that time when Sei suddenly told him that he couldn"t feel a thing, not even pain. He complained that he felt like his heart was numb and completely empty. Sei was just twelve back then and so he is. Thus, in the end, they both ignored it saying that the numbness will soon disappear. Not knowing that it would last for years to the point that he even forgot how to smile.
Reminiscing the past, Zaki couldn"t help but smile as he spoke.
"Well, it"s good to hear that."