"I mean to say nothing. You are very much older; and she is a romantic girl, very extravagant. You have tried to make her like you."
"I certainly have. I have tried to make Effie Bowen like me too."
Mrs. Bowen pa.s.sed this over in serenity that he felt was not far from contempt.
He gave a laugh that did not express enjoyment.
"You have no right to laugh!" she cried, losing herself a little, and so making her first gain upon him.
"It appears not. Perhaps you will tell me what I am to do about this letter?"
"That is for you to decide." She recovered herself, and lost ground with him in proportion.
"I thought perhaps that since you were able to judge my motives so clearly, you might be able to advise me."
"I don"t judge your motives," Mrs. Bowen began. She added suddenly, as if by an after-thought, "I don"t think you had any."
"I"m obliged to you."
"But you are as much to blame as if you had."
"And perhaps I"m as much to blame as if I had really wronged somebody?"
"Yes."
"It"s rather paradoxical. You don"t wish me to see her any more?"
"I haven"t any wish about it; you must not _say_ that I have," said Mrs.
Bowen, with dignity.
Colville smiled. "May I _ask_ if you have?"
"Not for myself."
"You put me on very short allowance of conjecture."
"I will not let you trifle with the matter!" she cried. "You have made me speak, when a word, a look, ought to have been enough. Oh, I didn"t think you had the miserable vanity to wish it!"
Colville stood thinking a long time and she waiting. "I see that everything is at an end. I am going away from Florence. Good-bye, Mrs.
Bowen." He approached her, holding out his hand. But if he expected to be rewarded for this, nothing of the kind happened. She shrank swiftly back.
"No, no. You shall not touch me."
He paused a moment, gazing keenly at her face, in which, whatever other feeling showed, there was certainly no fear of him. Then with a slight bow he left the room.
Mrs. Bowen ran from it by another door, and shut herself into her own room. When she returned to the salotto, Imogene and Effie were just coming in. The child went to lay aside her hat and sacque; the girl, after a glance at Mrs. Bowen"s face, lingered inquiringly.
"Mr. Colville came here with your letter, Imogene."
"Yes," said Imogene faintly. "Do you think I oughtn"t to have written it?"
"Oh, it makes no difference now. He is going away from Florence."
"Yes?" breathed the girl.
"I spoke openly with him."
"Yes?"
"I didn"t spare him. I made him think I hated and despised him."
Imogene was silent. Then she said, "I know that whatever you have done, you have acted for the best."
"Yes, I have a right that you should say that--I have a right that you should always say it. I think he has behaved very foolishly, but I don"t blame him----"
"No! I was to blame."
"I don"t _know_ that he was to blame, and I won"t let you think he was."
"Oh, he is the best man in the world!"
"He gave up at once; he didn"t try to defend himself. It"s nothing for you to lose a friend at your age; but at mine----"
"I _know_ it, Mrs. Bowen."
"And I wouldn"t even shake hands with him when he was going; I----"
"Oh, I don"t see how you could be so hard!" cried Imogene. She put up her hands to her face, and broke into tears. Mrs. Bowen watched her, dry eyed, with her lips parted, and an intensity of question in her face.
"Imogene," she said at last, "I wish you to promise me one thing."
"Yes."
"Not to write to Mr. Colville again."
"No, no; indeed I won"t, Mrs. Bowen!" The girl came up to kiss her; Mrs.
Bowen turned her cheek.
Imogene was going from the room, when Mrs. Bowen spoke again. "But I wish you to promise me this only because you don"t feel sure of yourself about him. If you care for him--if you think you care for him--then I leave you perfectly free."
The girl looked up, scared. "No, no; I"d rather you wouldn"t leave me free--you mustn"t; I shouldn"t know what to do."
"Very well, then," said Mrs. Bowen.
They both waited a moment, as if each were staying for the other to speak. Then Imogene asked, "Is he--going soon?"
"I don"t know," said Mrs. Bowen. "Why should he want to delay? He had better go at once. And I hope he will go home--as far from Florence as he can. I should think he would _hate_ the place."