Still my head was turned quite round, looking at the carriage after it had pa.s.sed, till it was out of sight; but I knew who the party was, and for the time I was satisfied, as I determined to find out his address, and call upon him. I narrated to Timothy what had occurred, and referring to the Red Book, I looked out the bishop"s town address; and the next day, after breakfast, having arranged my toilet with the utmost precision, I made an excuse to the major, and set off to Portland Place.
PART TWO, CHAPTER THREE.
A CHAPTER OF MISTAKES--NO BENEFIT OF CLERGY--I ATTACK A BISHOP, AND AM BEATEN OFF--THE MAJOR HEDGES UPON THE FILLY STAKES.
My hand trembled as I knocked at the door. It was opened. I sent in my card, requesting the honour of an audience with his lordship. After waiting a few minutes in an ante-room, I was ushered in. "My lord,"
said I, in a flurried manner, "will you allow me to have a few minutes"
conversation with you alone."
"This gentleman is my secretary, sir, but if you wish it, certainly; for although he is my confidant, I have no right to insist that he shall be yours. Mr Temple, will you oblige me by going up stairs for a little while."
The secretary quitted the room, the bishop pointed to a chair, and I sat down. I looked him earnestly in the face--the nose was exact, and I imagined that even in the other features I could distinguish a resemblance. I was satisfied that I had at last gained the object of my search. "I believe, sir," observed I, "that you will acknowledge, that in the heat and impetuosity of youth, we often rush into hasty and improvident connections."
I paused, with my eyes fixed upon his. "Very true, my young sir; and when we do we are ashamed, and repent of them afterwards," replied the bishop, rather astonished.
"I grant that, sir," replied I; "but at the same time, we must feel that we must abide by the results, however unpleasant."
"When we do wrong, Mr Newland," replied the bishop, first looking at my card, and then upon me, "we find that we are not only to be punished in the next world, but suffer for it also in this. I trust you have no reason for such suffering?"
"Unfortunately, the sins of the fathers are visited upon the children, and, in that view, I may say that I have suffered."
"My dear sir," replied the bishop, "I trust you will excuse me, when I say, that my time is rather valuable; if you have anything of importance to communicate--anything upon which you would ask my advice--for a.s.sistance you do not appear to require, do me the favour to proceed at once to the point."
"I will, sir, be as concise as the matter will admit of. Allow me, then, to ask you a few questions, and I trust to your honour, and the dignity of your profession, for a candid answer. Did you not marry a young woman early in life? and were you not very much pressed in your circ.u.mstances?"
The bishop stared. "Really, Mr Newland, it is a strange question, and I cannot imagine to what it may lead, but still I will answer it. I did marry early in life, and I was, at that time, not in very affluent circ.u.mstances."
"You had a child by that marriage--your eldest born--a boy!"
"That is also true, Mr Newland," replied the bishop, gravely.
"How long is it since you have seen him?"
"It is many years," replied the bishop, putting his handkerchief up to his eyes.
"Answer me, now, sir;--did you not desert him?"
"No, no!" replied the bishop. "It is strange that you should appear to know so much about the matter, Mr Newland, as you could have hardly been born. I was poor then--very poor; but although I could ill afford it, he had fifty pounds from me."
"But, sir," replied I, much agitated; "why have you not reclaimed him?"
"I would have reclaimed him, Mr Newland--but what could I do--he was not to be reclaimed; and now--he is lost for ever."
"Surely, sir, in your present affluence, you must wish to see him again?"
"He died, and I trust he has gone to heaven," replied the bishop, covering up his face.
"No, sir," replied I, throwing myself on my knees before him, "he did not die, here he is at your feet, to ask your blessing."
The bishop sprang from his chair. "What does this mean, sir?" said he, with astonishment. "You my son?"
"Yes, reverend father--your son; who, with fifty pounds you left--"
"On the top of the Portsmouth coach!"
"No, sir, in the _basket_."
"My son! sir,--impossible; he died in the hospital."
"No, sir, he has come out of the _hospital_," replied I; "and, as you perceive, safe and well."
"Either, sir, this must be some strange mistake, or you must be trifling with me," replied his lordship; "for, sir, I was at his death-bed, and followed him to his grave."
"Are you sure of that, sir?" replied I, starting up with amazement.
"I wish that I was not, sir--for I am now childless; but pray, sir, who, and what are you, who know so much of my former life, and who would have thus imposed upon me?"
"Imposed upon you, sir!" replied I, perceiving that I was in error.
"Alas! I would do no such thing. _Who_ am I? I am a young man who is in search of his father. Your face, and especially your nose, so resembled mine, that I made sure that I had succeeded. Pity me, sir-- pity me," continued I, covering up my face with my hands.
The bishop, perceiving that there was little of the impostor in my appearance, and that I was much affected, allowed a short time for me to recover myself, and then entered into an explanation. When a curate, he had had an only son, very wild, who would go to sea in spite of his remonstrances. He saw him depart by the Portsmouth coach, and gave him the sum mentioned. His son received a mortal wound in action, and was sent to the Plymouth hospital, where he died. I then entered into my explanation in a few concise sentences, and with a heart beating with disappointment, took my leave. The bishop shook hands with me as I quitted the room, and wished me better success at my next application.
I went home almost in despair. Timothy consoled me as well as he could, and advised me to go as much as possible into society, as the most likely chance of obtaining my wish, not that he considered there was any chance, but he thought that amus.e.m.e.nt would restore me to my usual spirits. "I will go and visit little Fleta," replied I, "for a few days; the sight of her will do me more good than anything else." And the next day I set off for the town of --, where I found the dear little girl, much grown, and much improved. I remained with her for a week, walking with her in the country, amusing her, and amused myself with our conversation. At the close of the week I bade her farewell, and returned to the major"s lodgings.
I was astonished to find him in deep mourning. "My dear Carbonnell,"
said I, inquiringly, "I hope no severe loss?"
"Nay, my dear Newland, I should be a hypocrite if I said so; for there never was a more merry mourner, and that"s the truth of it. Mr M--, who, you know, stood between me and the peerage, has been drowned in the Rhone; I now have a squeak for it. His wife has one daughter, and is _enceinte_. Should the child prove a boy, I am done for, but if a girl, I must then come into the barony, and fifteen thousand pounds per annum.
However, I"ve hedged pretty handsomely."
"How do you mean?"
"Why they say that when a woman commences with girls, she generally goes on, and the odds are two to one that Mrs M-- has a girl. I have taken the odds at the clubs to the amount of fifteen thousand pounds; so if it be a girl I shall have to pay that out of my fifteen thousand pounds per annum, as soon as I fall into it; if it be a boy, and I am floored, I shall pocket thirty thousand pounds by way of consolation for the disappointment. They are all good men."
"Yes, but they know you never pay."
"They know I never do now, because I have no money; but they know I will pay if I come into the estate; and so I will, most honourably, besides a few more thousands that I have in my book."
"I congratulate you, with all my heart, major. How old is the present Lord B--?"
"I have just been examining the peerage--he is sixty-two; but he is very fresh and hearty, and may live a long while yet. By-the-by, Newland, I committed a great error last night at the club. I played pretty high, and lost a great deal of money."
"That is unfortunate."
"That was not the error; I actually paid all my losings, Newland, and it has reduced the stock amazingly, I lost seven hundred and fifty pounds.
I know I ought not to have paid away your money; but the fact was, as I was hedging, it would not do not to have paid, as I could not have made up my book as I wished. It is, however, only waiting a few weeks, till Mrs M-- decides my fate, and then, either one way or the other, I shall have money enough. If your people won"t give you any more till you are of age, why we must send to a little friend of mine, that"s all, and you shall borrow for both of us."